Who I Am

hello guys it has been forever forever since I have gone live since I have posted in some of these different places I'm testing out a new platform where I'm actually posting to three different places at once so you can kind of listen in for wherever it works for you I'm on YouTube right now I am on my Facebook page home school on and I'm in my group keep calm and homeschool on so we're gonna see how that works um you guys can all comment engage I would love for you to comment see where you're listening in from if you are watching the replay please do not hesitate to post replay and I'm gonna be chiming in on comments and stuff after the fact as well so feel free to do that um today I do have all sorts of giveaways and stuff that I have plans to do but today I don't today I wanted to come on with no incentive with no real reason other than sharing my heart and what I feel like I want to do for direction obviously I have just been completely m.i.a in the past few months and there's been really good reason for that and so I just wanted to kind of explain why I've been so quiet I want to explain some of my frustrations I'm feeling right now with my platforms and I want to explain on kind of the direction I'm wanting to go and get your feedback on the direction that would be most valuable to you so that is the purpose of today um and if it's interesting to you listen in and if not that's okay to know what pressure okay so if you do not know who I am I can't believe how big my page and groups and everything have gotten on and I'm kind of everywhere so I've got lots of people in Instagram I got lots of people on Facebook I've got lots of people in the group and YouTube and it's just kind of all divided up and it's blown me away really what God has done in in home school on and in my life and in kind of the ministry I feel like he's called me to you and so I feel like it's important every once in a while to come on and be like my name is Rebecca I am the face behind home school on if you have been following me for a while or if you're brand new to my pages and you have no idea who I am or who owns this group keep common homeschool on it's me my name is Rebecca I'm a homeschool mom of five young kids and I was home-schooled myself so I first started off with home-school on as just a blog that's what I did when people ask you know what do you do I'm I was a blogger I'm a blogger and then it advanced and I was asked to write a book I wrote journal me organized which is all about planning and folded journaling and creative planning and then I kind of advanced from that into speaking and I began traveling and speaking internationally about homeschooling and then it kind of progressed from there and I ended up writing two books for a different publisher called master books and that's more than words Bible curriculum and then I was still kind of just as in last year not even it's like six months ago I was still intending on just being a youtuber viewer that was my plan and intention I wanted to review a homeschool curriculum that was the direction I was going and I just all of a sudden had I feel like God really led me to create my own curriculum which I have done that's why I've been so silent for the past however long since before Christmas since the fall um because I have been creating gather around homeschool which is there's a count even put it into a homeschool style because it's its own thing it's this brand new thing there is literally nothing on the homeschool market like this it's like a unit study with a topic but it's not just for these grades it has individual books for every grade level so that you can work together with all of your students and tie in all of their subjects around one theme with you as the teacher sitting and reading from one book with one teachers guide and all of your kids working based off of that but in their independent levels and beginning to learn how to independently follow their interests and do some of that work and so it's kind of the whole idea of not being the human ping-pong ball all from Christian worldview so that is what God really laid on my heart in July and it launched in August it launched without us even being done yet which is just blows me away and since then we have been launching a brand new unit every month just to put this into perspective this is 800 to a thousand pages that we are writing and we are designing and you're creating and we are putting up on our site and packaging up for you guys and then printing I now have a printing press in my home all every single month so there's no break from it it's not like we've created it and now I can like relax and get back on to what I was doing before this is a whole lifestyle change for us and it's been something our whole family has been kind of launched into you um and its really changed the entire face of my family and it's changed the entire face of this and so I've been wrestling with what do I do now with home school on what do I do with my blog what do I do with this platform that I know that God gave me um with YouTube where I was before doing reviews but that doesn't really fit anymore and I don't just want to be advertising my own stuff all the time and with this group that I haven't been super active in and I don't even know if they know me and so that's been kind of what I've wrestled with and because of that I just have pulled back from everything I haven't been posting anywhere I haven't been engaging anywhere because I feel like I'm uncertain what to do and I I don't know if that's necessarily my heart passion desire Drive direction anymore or calling to continue with what I was doing before and so I've just been kind of wrestling with I don't know my next steps and and what God has for me so what I want to talk to you about today and what I feel like after spending like months about this in prayer and and talking and figuring out and processing what I want to do I want to share first and foremost Who I am and what I believe because I've done this before and I have been eaten alive I've had many experiences as a blogger actually getting eaten alive it's super fun case you've never tried it um nothing to be afraid of just a little bit but you know it's all okay um so I done it before and I know that because of the flack that I have gotten I know already that because I've been so quiet for so long and my page is just silently growing that there's a lot of people here who probably would completely disagree with Who I am and what I down four and I want to give you the opportunity to leave if you feel like I do not represent who you want to follow and I think that's important I think that all of us should test we should know the people that were following to know the people were getting advice from know the people were listening to you I'm not just accepting what they say and just looking at something and it looks good but not knowing the context of where that's coming from or the world view so I think it's fair to you guys to do this I think it is fair to me to do this because I want to begin to post things that more line up with my beliefs and my values in my heart and I don't want to get eaten alive every time I do that no of course I will that's just that's just our social media that's just our world that we're in however I I want my tribe that I cultivate my groups and my communities to generally be attracting people that agree with my my stand on things so that is why I am doing this and then I want to talk about direction for where we're going and I would love to hear your guys's insight on that and what you want to see um so let's start off with Who I am and what I believe so you already know that I homeschool my five kids and by homeschool let's be real I work a lot and right now they're upstairs watching television okay so um that's what's homeschooling them in this moment well I wait wait my son made me coffee so because of that there you go hashtag homeschooling he's learning life skills he did learn life skills and now he's onto television win-win I wish you guys should all take a sip of your coffee right now um anyways okay so that's kind of what I do and I think the premise of of home-school on and everything that I kind of have talked about and built and all that stuff on who I am aside from that there's so much more to me than just a homeschool mom there's so much more to you than just being a mom than just being a parent than just being a provider and then just being a husband or a wife there's so much more to us than just that but we love to put people in these little boxes and say this is who you are and so a lot of people have just decided that I'm in the homeschool box that's who I am but there's just there's so much more right so let's let's get to know Rebecca I feel free to ask your questions and I will answer them live here as well um so I grew up in a family of six kids six kids yeah I mean I say that really actually it was four of us and then when I was 11 my brother was born and then when I was 16 and already graduated and going to Bible College my little sister was born so I didn't actually really grow up with six kid there was more of like four of us and then some breaks and staggered other children mixed in their other siblings I have um but yeah I've got five brothers and sisters I was home-schooled myself I grew up in this entire world I grew up in a Christian home and God has always been a part of my life always always always always he's always been real to me I actually used to be jealous of other people's testimonies because they would share these amazing conversions of when God became real to them and I had nothing I was like I don't know there's literally no moment that that happened because it just was always there God was always real to me I always had a relationship with God I can't even look at a point where I feel like my face was my parents and when it became my own or when it was just you know something I did but then a moment that I believed it that I kind of took ownership of it I don't even have that I don't even have that there is no moment of that it's just it's just as I matured so did my faith and I've always had a real relationship with God of course I've journeyed in my depth of that and my maturity of that and my relationship with God but that is just who I am that's the biggest part of who I am is a child of God that's like the number one base of Rebecca is that and so I'm leading up from that of course from a Christian worldview there are things that I stand for that I know on especially like in in my groups or on my youtube or on my Facebook page there are people that probably would very much so disagree with um what I stand for but really you guys I stand for Christian values and I think that that means actually we need to go right into what some of those things are because I think that that doesn't actually mean a whole lot anymore because like even within the Christian community there's many different on ideas and beliefs and levels and I I think that I would be safe to say that from a very on a very foundational biblical standpoint I believe what the Bible says I believe what the Bible says so I believe in God I believe in the Trinity I believe that Jesus was a son of God that walked on earth and was God and that he paid for my sins I don't have to work for my salvation that it isn't about what I do it isn't about being a good person it's about relationship with God I believe that that relationship with God is living and active today I believe that God still speaks I believe in the Holy Spirit I think one of the things that I'm most passionate about is I I kind of grew up in a very conservative background and I felt like some time it was maybe when was it guys like five years ago or something like that I really began to get to know Holy Spirit more and I'm having more understanding and feel like looking back on my life and some of the churches I've gone to and some of the people that had mentored me or or what just kind of beliefs I have been very afraid of of that kind of side of God and that person of God and so on I so strongly now believe I teach my kids about all three I teach my kids about God the Father Jesus the Son and the Holy Spirit and that that we are actually in a living relationship active relationship if this was just about the Bible God never speaks again it was just you know what happened back then miracles only happened back then that's it it's closed it's done it's it's finished then then I guess we just live a good life and do our best and follow the scriptures and and what's the point of this relationship that we talk about with God because it's finished but the thing is I don't believe that it's finished I believe that we still walk an active relationship with God I believe that miracles still happen I believe that God still speaks and because of that I can have an active relationship with him that dictates and leads me in my every day God can lead and guide and direct in my everyday life so I can wake up in the morning and I can pray for wisdom and he's gonna help me with my kids I can pray for direction with gather around homeschool and he's gonna guide and direct me in my business I believe that when I'm stuck with you know how to deal with the situation I can pray for wisdom I can seek scripture and that he can speak to me through Scripture he can speak to me on when I'm praying and when I'm seeking Him because he is alive and because I'm in a living relationship with a very alive and living God and it's active today right now it's happening and I think that's so important to talk about because again and I understand the more conservative on standpoint cuz I grew up in that but there's just a lot of fear about Holy Spirit a lot of fear about hearing him and walking in relationship with him and I think that that who are we to say we believe in the Trinity if we are rejecting it's that first you know they have a form of godliness that they reject the power and I think sometimes but that is represented by the Holy Spirit in our churches or in our communities or even in our own personal face we are scared of that and so we kind of reject that and we say god I'm comfortable with Jesus who walked on the earth and you know who did miracles and then went up to heaven and I'm comfortable with God the Father but I'm not really comfortable with Holy Spirit it just it just scares me and so therefore you're not really welcomed well if he's not really welcomed then where is that active relationship that that is so exciting such an incredible adventure something that I want for my kids not just this religious faith of going through the motions but an active living relationship with a Living God who speaks and moves and anything is possible because he is so much bigger than our expectations he's so much bigger than our boxes so I think that's really important to articulate both if you're looking at you know any of the things that created and wanting to know my standpoint and my worldview on that but also if you are just you know don't agree with any of that stuff and obviously I've hit some of the speed bumps along the way and some of the controversy that I have faced have been about some of the things I have stood up and said that is not what I believe Christianity is I don't believe that um anyways I probably shouldn't get into that you know we should just we should just pace ourselves on on how much controversy we're gonna face um because yeah that's that's that's probably good okay moving on um I believe in the sanctity of life I believe abortion is wrong I believe it's wrong and that's for sure one of the things I have faced on on anywhere that I have ever posted it and I think it's really important instead of us just having this like I'll post this little thing and everyone's gonna bash everybody else and we're gonna get into this like horrible argument about it let's just do this listen if you are um you are totally against pro-life if you think that I am off left field and just you want nothing to do with me then I seriously invite you to I want I want to do this not as I believe this and if you don't get out of here no anyone is welcome I want to do this as a I believe this and I don't want you to feel uncomfortable I don't want you to feel pressured I don't want you to think I'm something I'm not so let's just be clear I believe that abortion is wrong I honestly if I think about it it just absolutely wrecks me and I can hardly fathom on what we're doing and I live in Canada where the progressiveness of our country you guys is is I I can't even I can't even the direction that we're going on and as a culture it's really just indicative of our culture and I think it's so important that you guys know where I stand and what I believe on that because that goes out to everything that that I do and that I believe I believe in the sanctity of life I believe um that a person's wrong let's just say that okay we're just gonna state it I believe I wrote something down just to help me because I know I'll go off on a tangent and I'll get lost um I believe in one truth this whole thing that's pervaded our culture of truth is relative live your own truth you know what what it means to you might be different from what it means to me it's this whole idea of tolerance really which is such a misinterpretation of the word tolerance listen I can disagree I believe it's possible to disagree with someone and not you know kick them to the ground or hate them or or be abusive to them with my words or my actions I believe it's possible to say okay you believe that I believe this you are allowed to have different beliefs and values and ideas than me of course you are it's a free country you are your own person you are totally have the right to believe that I have the right to believe what I believe about God about abortion about whatever I have the right to speak what I believe and we can have disagreements and I can still love the person and yet I can still believe that for me this is a value and I believe in right and wrong and I believe there is one right and one wrong I don't believe that even in the Christian world this is a huge thing even in the Christian community that it's just so much gray and it's all interpretational and you know it's there are things there are some things I look at sometimes and I think you know where maybe it won't really know the answer to some of these things until we get to heaven we're talking about doctrinal theology those kind of things but when we're talking about right and wrong and when the Bible says this is wrong I believe that this is wrong I believe I believe these things so I don't believe that truth is relative and I think that if that makes you uncomfortable then again I want to give you the opportunity to UM I mean yeah you can voice what you think or you could just just quietly say this is not the page for me and I'm okay with that I'm totally okay with that I invite you guys to do that um yeah I think it's possible to have values and morals and to not condemn people who don't have the same values and morals Jesus does not condemn people he did not condemn people and I believe that I can stand here and say there is a line I can stand here and I can say this is right and this is wrong I'm sorry but it is that being said I'm not gonna condemn you for disagreeing with me I'm not going to pressure you or judge you or hate on you because of that in this whole like hate or terminology of if you don't believe this if you don't celebrate this you're hating on it where does that come from where is free speech where is the right it's like it's like in in one sense we because we've gone so far over here in freedom of speech and freedom of belief in all of these things now all of a sudden we're actually attacking anybody that disagrees with us and we're saying that they're intolerant no actually tolerance is the definition of disagreeing and still being able to have a conversation or a coffee with somebody even if you disagree with and that's tolerance I tolerate the fact that we disagree we're allowed to disagree on things within the Christian community and between Christian biblical values and secular or non believers we're going to disagree and so it is the ability to say yeah I don't agree with you I believe this and yet I'm not gonna I'm not gonna you know I don't know chase you and and say mean things that is tolerance that is tolerance and I'm just so sick and tired of this argument of being intolerant or being a hater if I say that I have values and I just think it's so one-sided and so incredibly hypocritical see tangent II okay what else what else what else I stand that's nastiest and I disagree with a lot of the direction of our culture of our political climate of where our culture is going what they believe I'm I do because of course as a Christian and and saying all the things that I just said I I think that a lot of the direction we're going as a culture is very opposite of my values and beliefs based on Scripture based on the Word of God so that plays into a huge portion of why I homeschool if you guys are here following my page and you want to hear my ideas and my advice in my is coming from that worldview it's coming from that stance of yeah I'm pulling my kids out of this because I disagree with that and I don't believe in protecting my kids in this bubble and never exposing them to anything I actually have talked to my older kids about abortion they know about these things they know about things like evolution they know about some of the different that are out there we talk about that from our perspective because again it's free country we have the right to do that but I think that that this is paramount for understanding where I'm coming from the kind of things that I want to post in the direction I want to go is knowing that I I'm coming from a standpoint of yeah I don't agree with a lot of that stuff and that is why I am homeschooling my kids that's a that's one of the reasons there's so many reasons I feel very called to home-school my kids on I definitely feel like it's the right decision for our family I love the connection I love I actually think it's a better way of learning I think otherwise I would I would put them all in but I think this one-on-one targeted the way that we can do it especially with some of the learning challenges we face I think that obviously it's right for us that's why I'm doing it but there's more than that there's more than that I want to raise my kids and I want to be able to say to my kids I believe this I don't know if we're losing that right as parents we're losing that right to say I believe this and teach our kids these things and if we're not the ones teaching them somebody else is and they're teaching it from their worldview so why I say all of this is not to convince anybody I say this so that you know as somebody who is on my page somebody was in my group somebody who's on my youtube-channel you know where I'm coming from what my worldview what my approach of what my beliefs in my value system is so that you can decide for yourself if this is a tribe a community and a home for you that you still want to participate in or whether you feel like this is not a good fit because I have pulled back a big portion of why I've pulled back is because when I post something like that I'm so attacked that I feel like I don't know what happened but somewhere along the way I think that um I just kind of lost it it's like I lost it I lost it's like the Wild West in my group or on my page where nobody I don't think even people who hardly know who I am or that I'm the one who even started it and so it's just become kind of what what it is and that is partly my fault because I've been less involved but I've been less involved because I'm not sure that that's really my tribe or that these are the people they're gonna appreciate what I have to say I have a lot to say I have so much to say but more and more especially now and we'll get into where the direction we're going but on more and more what I have to say is about being a homeschool parent from a biblical perspective and um yeah so anyways I think that's enough about what I believe and where is down from on okay so where I want to go from here is actual direction I would love to hear your guys's viewpoints on on what you would like to see in the group or on the page I know this is being posed to different places so feel free to um to post and say what you what you think um I will chime in and look at some of the comments and then I'll stop because I just don't enjoy being beaten it's not fun you guys and it's not it's not actually beneficial I've learned that much at least that it's not actually beneficial to sit and read or get irritated or be hurt by the judgment that will be passed and so I will read some but if you want to comment this is the best time well we're live because I'm actually going to read them so with the Facebook group specifically let's start with that one this keep calm and homeschool on on Facebook I definitely with any of them I am NOT gonna be doing any more curriculum reviews other than showing off like hey I've done a new unit let's look inside of it I'm not doing curriculum reviews anymore because I'm making my own curriculum and I think that that's fair and I think that you guys need to know that um it's it's not fair to other businesses to do curriculum reviews anymore because it's no longer unbiased I do my best to stay unbiased but it wouldn't matter because my actual beliefs is obviously that I am creating a curriculum because I believe that it is amazing and so I I don't want to be on I don't want to be disingenuous you know what I mean like I want to be genuine I want to be real I want to be authentic and because of that because I'm creating my own curriculum that covers everything I no longer will be doing on curriculum reviews so if that's what you are here for if you've been looking for that on YouTube if you've been looking for that on Facebook looking for another comparison thing I'm not doing those anymore I'm done I'm moving on so the other thing is I noticed that in the group specifically I'm it's it's becoming more and more of just a place for either curriculum suggestions really I feel like that's probably primarily 90% what my blog is what my group is what my pages it's hey I'm looking for you to help me wave through the sieve curriculum which I totally get there is so much out there and help me decide what is gonna be best for my family because you've used so much of it um and we're not doing any more and I don't even want to be a place for curriculum suggestions within the group or whatever else because there is so many groups that do that I don't want to be just another voice in the sea of voices that's half of our problem as home schoolers is that we don't know what to do because every year there's 80 million new things added to the pile and we have all these different kids with all these different learning styles and needs and we're trying to figure out what's gonna be best and just so we kind of think something new comes out and we're like well maybe that will be the best and we just don't even know what to do anymore it's almost like too much is bad and I never thought I would say that and yet it can get to a point where too much is overwhelming and you're unable to make a decision it's like my husband when we went out on the date night the other night it was unable to make a decision on what he wanted to eat which is the story of him on and you know I've got to kind of help him and say this is what I just feel he did make his own decision on my dad he did eventually get there on but it's the same way it's like we don't even know where to start because there's so much out there so I understand it that being said seriously you guys there's eight million other groups eight million other Facebook pages there's a million other blogs a million other and I'm probably exaggerating but that's okay right on YouTube channels are so much amazing content out there I don't want to be the same as everybody else don't I don't and I'm not going to anymore so if that is what you're looking for it's a valid thing go and find it you're gonna find it somewhere and it's gonna be awesome um what I want to make it more so is obviously on YouTube specifically I still will post some look insides um but I want to actually just do this I want to share my heart's like my podcast or if anyone is seen on YouTube I've done some Instagram TV things where I've just done these like 10 minute little rants um I want to do more of that I want to do rants I want to share how we can walk out being a Christian homeschool family and what that looks like in our marriages what that looks like in parenting what that looks like and you know and cleaning our house the simple practical difficult things of life of balancing all of these balls that are in the air of going to bed not feeling like a failure at night that's what I'm passionate about talking about I'm not passionate about talking about organization systems hardly because I'm a mess okay so it's just it's not it's just not it's not my thing I'm not passionate about anymore talking about curriculum recommendations actually I never really was passionate about talking about curriculum recommendations I did it because I knew there was a need and I wanted to I so desperately want to fill the need and I want to offer value to you guys that's one of my biggest things that I am looking for is to offer value but to do it in a way that also meets with what I feel God's called me to and my passions and my interest and so that's gonna be more of my heart on things what he's laying on my heart for things and real life help from a biblical standpoint of okay let's talk about today I have no motivation to do school that's a real problem like well someone else can go talk to you about your curriculum ideas I'll be the person that talks to you about I have no motivation to do school because hey that's something I can talk about I haven't got school in a long time with my kids because I have no motivation to just school and so I'll never ever ever be the person that comes to you from the standpoint of Ivan Holmes well maybe maybe one day but still I won't because I won't ever say I did it all perfectly or I'm doing it all perfectly I'll be the person that says hey I suck at this you suck at it too let's brainstorm some ideas or let me share what God is laying on my heart or some of the things that he's leading me into to encourage and to inspire and to refresh both of us at the same time because I need it just as much as you do and so I'm in the trenches with you that's what I want to offer so I don't know exactly what it's going to look like but if you have specific ideas of what you want to see um for sure in the group much more targeted posting and just getting away from it just being a sea of curriculum recommendations or I don't know options or outer I just I just I want it to be more about encouragement more about practical stuff it's like it's like where sometimes you go when you listen to a sermon and it's it's all stuff it's a it's a really good study on something really deep about the Greek words and the meaning behind but at the end of it you're like that was that was deep mm-hmm but I've no idea how to apply that to my life right now I want to be the person that's saying here is what God is laying on my heart here's what I read today in my devotions or here's what I mean I really would love to do a read through the Bible in a year with you guys on here's what we read together collectively and now here's how that applies let's talk about how this applies to homeschooling let's talk about how this applies to parenting let's talk about how this applies to our marriage let's talk about the difficulties of being married and whole schooling at the same time okay it's not always easy it's not a wait roses and sunshine in your marriage when you're disagreeing about how much money you're spending on curriculum or when you're disagreeing about the fact that the house is always a mess because the kids are always there um there are real things that we face I want to be the person that's talking about the real stuff how it applies to us the nitty-gritty stuff and just just what's on my hearts that's what I want to be so I'm gonna be diverging from some of those things and if you guys have specifics I'm gonna go and see comments um here as well and you guys feel free to ask me questions this is your opportunity to ask me questions because like I said I will look a little bit um on the comments but then I'm gonna stop so if you have questions about what I believe um you need clarification on anything if you have questions about my history my background um any of that stuff this is your time I'm gonna give you a few seconds I'm gonna I didn't even brush my hair this morning hopped in the shower though see see hashtag goals it's just been I was supposed to do this on Monday and so I decided I'm just gonna do it even though I look like this alright um alright so Elina says I want to hear the heart um yeah to be encouraged in the Lord and the role as a wife and in our home school that's so good it's so it's I I mean and that's that's it that's what's on my heart on I mean even you guys I want to get into the tough stuff I was talking to my husband the other day about um I was talking to him about the role of women in marriage about submission and I do believe I do believe in that but I also am very very strong person as is my husband and I think it looks sometimes different for us than it does for other people and I I mean how I just think it's I think it's fascinating actually to be honest but Here I am like a business owner running in a direction even sometimes traveling without my husband really like God is going like this and and yet we're married and yet I have to submit to my husband and yet he you know what that what does that look like does it look like this and I just don't do anything and I don't say or voice my opinion absolutely not I'm voice my opinion I have one by the way because anyone didn't know I've voice my opinion I am strong I'm strong willed I'm strong minded on but ultimately at the end of the day even with traveling or going places ultimately I have said to God you know I I will always be the person's like yes that's me I'm just that's me I'm super impulsive I love doing stuff I love traveling I love speaking on that I said to him you know ultimately I trust that you are going to show like lay it on Jonathan's heart if I'm supposed to go change his heart cuz that is the ultimate way of testing whether something's supposed to happen or not is if he's okay with me leaving cuz let me be clear he's never okay with me leaving never never never um then I'm supposed to go like I'm really supposed to go if he's like I think you should do this without me I just really feel like you're supposed to go then Wow something amazing is gonna happen so even that kind of stuff right talking about those things I mean I I speak I'm obviously I leave I lead worship and and so yeah specifically talking about the role of women is something I'm super super passionate about because I think there's a way that we can follow biblical women have womanhood and submitting to our husbands and you know and keeping our eyes on what God has for us and our families and investing in our ministry being our kids and our families and yet at the same time I don't think it's impossible and there's a lot of people that would disagree with me on this to also work or do something or follow a go into ministry or do some these there's a lot of people that believe that women should not do any of that so their kids are grown or they shouldn't ever lead in any capacity worship or speaking or any of those things so walking out what I feel God has laid on my heart and called me to you and again it's something I'm constantly wrestling with like right now if you want to talk about my house if you want to talk about the fact that how am i successfully homeschooling my kids I'm always going like this because this gather round thing is in sync but a hundred percent God is in this and a hundred percent God brought this to me and laid it on my heart there is no denying that not from me not for my husband and not from anyone else this has been him and I'm supposed to do it so then how do I do that and still homeschool my kids and clean my house and be mom and you know have friendships and and invest in my church and my community and and be a good wife and you know let me tell you if there's a lot of times it's like this okay it's unbalanced and sometimes it has to be it just has to be because this has to happen because it's a deadline because you know coming out um but then I'm constantly re-evaluating and praying about it in God like sometimes I it sometimes I've even been really wrestling and just saying God like why how can you call me to both of these things because by the way just in case you didn't know they're clashing and I feel like I'm not doing either one well so it's it's the wrestling and it is that's something I'm super passionate about talking about so that's the kind of stuff that you are going to see I'm scrolling down um any advice or encouragement this is Jacqueline um on encouraging a husband to allow you to homeschool you wanted to he isn't on board um this is super hard that's super super super hard because we went through that we did go through that my husband was in public school he totally thought that I went to public school and I was fine um it wasn't until he he's a police officer he's a federal police officer up here in Canada and it was until he started working in the schools that he actually became the greatest advocate there have been times that I've been like I want to put my kids in school like I can't balance this all and clearly the answer is for a homeschool blogger to put her kids in school so she can work on home school career for everyone else and my husband is like I knew no I will get any help we need but my kids are not going to school that's not happening so it's completely switched to where he is my greatest advocate and supporter and he's the one that's like this is what we're doing for our family on but we did that back when our kids were babies because we're crazy hypothetical people that are way talking about the future and so it wasn't something that was in the midst of I feel like we're called to do this now he had time to kind of wrap his head around that I think that's the biggest thing is time they need time to wrap their head around it and praying about it and giving it to God it's just like with me with speaking so many times I feel like I'm supposed to go and do something and there have been there is actually actually not very many maybe two times that I really felt like I'm supposed to do something and my husband has been like no not on board and in one of those instances he changed his mind and I just prayed and I gave it to God I said God I'm trusting you that if there's a reason that he's saying no that you're gonna lay it on his heart and that's what we're supposed to be doing but so there was one time you change to find there was another time he did not change his mind and I turned out that I was definitely not supposed to be there and it was just a crazy season for me and he was protecting me and it was absolutely what God had for me so I think we can trust God with that I really do I think that it's something that we can pray about something we can give to him and we can say and pray about it often don't just be like well you know what happens happens because prayer works if there's power in prayer so I think praying about it often but um but giving it to him and if he has laid that on your heart then you're gonna begin to see that happen in your husband and see those changes and then if he's open to it say hey would you read this article would you look at this video would you check this out would you read this book because those are the kind of things that help and she needs probably time to wrap his head around that and to see from other people because how many of us know that our husbands just don't hear things as well from us as they do from someone else can tell you how many times I've told my husband something and then it turns out that he's like you know wow somebody told me this thing and it just like I never thought of that before and I'm like I told you that like a year ago I've been telling you that every day for a year and yet somehow you have not heard it so so I think sometimes it has to come from other people so be be um I think trust God and and turn to him on that but then also pray about it and see and have the conversation be open between you guys would be my biggest recommendations um you know what that is a good point okay so I'm gonna post this comment so you guys can see it so you know what I'm talking about cuz I'm really bad at this I love listening to your husband would he be willing to speak I'm sometime on something like this I think that he would he's super one of the one of the ways that we're kind of figuring out this balance of this is Rebecca's business and uh and she's the speaker and she's the you know creator of this curriculum is she's you know the blogger and doing all of the stuff one of the ways that we're were finding a balance between this for us is that I'm getting him involved as involved as he can possibly be so this isn't just my thing this is ours and um and going to him even with decisions and just making this be something that is gonna solidify and strengthen our marriage instead of being something that's gonna divide us because I think anything has the opportunity and potential to divide you if you're going opposite directions so that's been one of the ways that we've been working on that feel free to come in tell me I mean you'll just be in the background we'll just see your back yeah I can move my head Thailand is here and gonna be putz and away on orders your guys's orders are getting completed right now anyways so so yeah I think he's absolutely he's always willing to every time I'm like I should podcast it's like let's do it right now and I'm like hmm I don't know if I want to podcast with you all the time because because you know sometimes the time get long and sometimes you say things and I'm like how do I edit this but he would love to be more involved and I know he'd love to speak to that so um I am thinking of having him speak at our gather around homeschool convention that we're planning in Edmonton which I know will work for you know 80% of you but that is something that as we kind of go into doing these gather round conventions where we're going to be leading worship together and making it everything we've always wanted it to be then we have the freedom to do that and I think I would really like to have him speak he's also coming with me to some of the conventions I'm going to so um he's gonna be and teach them diligently Nashville in a couple weeks and he's gonna be with me in North Carolina at the Thrive Convention so those are opportunities for for people to come bring your husband's and let them hear from his side um because he will be around and we'll have a table and we'll be able to sit there and visit and have coffee okay I'm looking through comments to see if there is anything else okay so if you guys have you might have to post it again please do post it again if you have something specific that you have a question about or direction of where you want us to go as far as in group YouTube on the page please post it if you feel totally laid on your heart that you want to help in any capacity with this um we I feel like we could use like intercessor team for for gathering on home school for home school on for everything that God is doing because this is just it's growing so fast and it is so important to us we don't base any of our decisions both on what I'm gonna post what I'm gonna do um what I'm gonna talk about in a podcast episode where we're gonna speak we don't base any of our decisions just on what's a good business decision or what's gonna get the most likes or the most follows or any of those things we base our decision on God and we try to pray about all of those things and to really trust him with that so the more prayer we can have the better so if you want to just pray into this ministry where God is taking it I would love to have you do that if you want to participate um you know in in getting involved in even helping to post or or moderate or help posts in the groups and just keep things going more the direction we want to go I think it's gonna take time in the group here for things to begin to kind of change over um because it's kind of been just left to its own devices and so I think now saying I don't want it to be curriculum recommendations um I don't want it to be about just random stuff I want to be targeted and pointed and all of us doing something that's drawing us together and a sense of community and a sense of direction and all of that being from a place of Biblical encouragement so that's what I want and I don't know exactly step by step how we're gonna get there so if you have ideas if you want to help if you're in the group and you want to participate in that then please please message me I personally message me here on Facebook and I would love to talk with you about that and how I can get you involved because there is no shortage of positions and need within all of this stuff so I would love to hear from you okay I'm scrolling through one last time for questions um okay regarding gather around here just going to show this I know it's geared towards families to have multiple children's there are options for parents yes there is lots and lots of people use it with just one child you can actually purchase digitally I'm just the teachers died and one student notebook and you can also do that of course with our print options so you absolutely can use it with one kid it's just obviously super easy and and affordable when you've got lots and lots of kids and you're used to buying five different language arts programs and five different science curriculum and all of that so on but it doesn't mean that it doesn't work for parents with one kid there's lots of people that use it okay Susie how are you dealing with keeping your head above water tell me and how am i dealing with keeping my head about my goodness um I don't always cope with this I'm all guys and sometimes I've fully around I think I've been like underwater sputtering like I'm going under and we don't know when I'm gonna resurface it was I think it was two or three weeks ago that I was I went to bed and we've had some major kind of things hit us and deadlines and stress and different things and and we've been doing renovations we've had contractors in our house for five or six weeks now every day Monday to Friday starting at 8 o'clock and so as an introvert it's been super super challenging to feel like I don't really ever have my space or time to just be in my pajamas um but it's been it's been really difficult and with some of the things that we faced even recently it was a couple of weeks ago that I just I went to bed and I just I cried I cried so hard I tried to just do that like silent crying thing but no I like I broke down woke up my husband like just I just was done I was done and I think those points are important I think that hitting the bottom is exactly where you need to be when you get there because that's the point where you say okay this isn't working what do we need to do to change this what am I supposed to be doing it forced me to reevaluate everything that I was doing and should come up with more healthy boundaries and again like I said I'm always unhealthy and that and I'm always really waiting and working on it sometimes hourly sometimes like it's it's day to date that's not something I'm like oh I have this system no I have no system because no system works with my life my life is absolute insanity with kids stuff with church stuff with husband with friends with gather around is the biggest thing right now that is pulling on me and trying to manage all of those things like I don't ever do it well ever sometimes it's like I focus on the house well now I've got major deadlines and things I'm missing and stress because I haven't been working and so it's it's constant and so I'm never I'm never doing it perfectly ever I don't think I'm ever doing it perfectly so as far as keeping my head above water you guys it's not about that it isn't it is about floundering a little bit and as you flounder figuring out through prayer and through God what you're supposed to be doing and what you're not because especially the more that we look all around us at everybody else and whatever one else is doing well they're homeschooling this is my line of what I'm supposed to be doing based on my friend who is homeschooling every single day and she chucked off her phone and she does it from this hours at this hour I just need that kind of structure in my life and then you look over here and this friend is involved in ministry and doing things and they've got you know or maybe they're doing work and and they just they're following their passions their interests and they're more than just a mom and you wish you have that and you think that is what I need to have in order to be happy or in order to be content and then you look over here and you see somebody whose marriage is super super healthy and they're going on dates all the time and they just love each other and they never seem to fight and everything looks great in their marriage you think that's what I mean in order to be happy and so you schedule your life and you do it all on your own strength and you try your hardest and at the end of the day every single time you try on your own strength it's gonna come back to bite you and you are going to fail and it's that much more devastating because now you've failed even though you were trying your absolute hardest and I come to this place over and over and over again because although I submit and I really do I actually signed a contract everything in my business in my life to God it without failed gets to a point where I forget I start going on my own strength I get too busy to do devotions or to spend time with him or to pray about things and I start doing it on my own and once I get into this place of doing it on my own without fail I get to the place where I hit the wall because I've been doing this on my own strength and then it's just this huge thing because I feel like an utter failure because the enemy comes in and says you tried your best and still you failed and the lie comes and enters in so this is this is why it's not about that it's not about that it's not about what everyone else is doing it's not about doing it on our own strength and it's not about balancing everything perfectly you will never balance everything perfectly in your life you won't so instead it's about keeping your eyes on Jesus it's about praying it's about going to him and saying oh my goodness my day today is impossible and so I'm asking you to come and regardless of whether I get it all done regardless of whether I win or succeed I want you with me and I want you to help me prioritize and I want to focus on first what I'm supposed to focus on first I want to have Kingdom minded perspective on my day-to-day not based on what is the most pressing so help me God to focus my priorities based on you not based on what I see because sometimes the enemy comes in lies to me based on what I see sometimes I'm so focused on the mountain in front of me that I miss what he's trying to show me in that season so that's my biggest recommendation I don't I don't deal well with drowning I don't think anybody does it's not a super fun feeling to drown um but when I'm in those seasons then God uses that and it's not even such a bad thing he uses that in my life just show me to help me reprioritize to help me fix my gaze on him and it's a health thing and it's gonna happen over and over so just get used to it that's all I have to say all right I think I'm gonna wrap it up I've been doing this for almost an hour um and I should maybe eat it's almost 2 o'clock and yeah get on with stuff but if you have like I said please don't hesitate send me an email Rebecca homeschool uncom um don't hesitate to send me a personal message here on Facebook and if you have things you want to see things you want to hear post otherwise I'm just gonna start doing ramps and that's gonna be what happens so yay for new direction and what God is doing and I can't wait to see where it leads all of us in a sense of community and direction and just in what he has for us so it's exciting new season we'll talk to you guys later

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Published: Thu Feb 13 2020