Who Am I? What Is My Real Nature? Billy Doyle

[Music] our essential nature is pure consciousness you can't see it you can't hear it you can't even think it just is we may call it presence we may call it awareness but of course these are just words it's at our very essence we aren't but this essence is clouded over when we take ourselves to be somebody the eye image who I take myself to be a particular person a particular man woman born here belonging to which nationality these cloud over our real nature the vastness that we are instead we enclose ourselves in a psychological me bound by the past and always looking to the future that psychological me is rarely simply here now present it is always looking for a hold something to grasp onto something to give it security that I image lives through objects through experiences it cannot just be whole happy in this moment for no reason whatsoever we find it very difficult not to objectify ourselves the mind because it's orientated towards objects the senses in the same way objectifies who I think I am so when we take our selves to be somebody a psychological me we also live in psychological time bound by our past bound by patterns we collect bags of luggage and we carry that luggage with us and so when we come to act we're not really acting from the moment were acting out of the patterns of our past or we could say we're reacting so we don't know ourselves in silence in other words we know ourselves through images through objects we forget we are before the image comes up before the object manifests itself so we identify with the periphery a thing and at the same time we make what we call other human beings also into objects objects of perception in silence in awareness in presence we are there's no notion of being somebody it's very beautiful to be nobody not for the ego of course the ego needs constantly to look for something to be to become because it's insecure and even the silent moments that occur in our lives our identity always wants to fill these moments because the ego the eye image always needs something to hold on to without it Who am I so one needs to see in daily life how we project an image of ourselves we need to see it in the moment so it's not just some theory we need to see how we're always enclosing ourselves in the image something from the past always looking for a hold and when you really see it really see it and feel it you're actually outside the part you see it but you're not anymore enclosed in it there's been a standing back there's been a sense of space between awareness and this image that in awareness this psychological me at that moment is a glimpse of peace a spaciousness when you're no longer locked in this image that you have of yourself because that's all it is that image in your silence doesn't exist but we constantly created this IMH is always looking as I was saying for something to hold on to to give it happiness because it doesn't realize happiness is inside it that happiness is causeless and so it thinks that it can obtain happiness by looking for things for experiences and of course these things and experiences do make us happy for a little while but tomorrow I need something else and tomorrow I need something else again it's an endless process filling up a very deep hole that is the ego but when we realize finally that actually nothing it makes us happy ultimately that outer search that accumulation of things that wanting things that whole extraversion dies by itself when you realize nothing in this planet is ever going to give me anything that I'm ultimately looking for that's a very important moment in one's search to realize nothing you're looking for is ultimately going to answer your question and then what happens then I would say you become available for something that's beyond the mind you begin to understand that the mind can never understand reality when you begin to understand the mind cannot understand and innocence arises you come to the feeling I don't know I don't know in not knowing I would say you become open you become available you become available for that which you cannot think that is beyond the mind but that which is that which is that are very hard that which I would say is the most obvious thing there is your being your presence that's here now every moment but we overlook it we're so hypnotized by the world that we forget what that are very hard and what the world comes from we can never grasp reality with the mind it's not the right tool there is no tool but when you begin to understand more and more deeply what you're not that I'm not the image that I'm not the body then I'm not my thoughts I'm not some thing you become available to what's beyond the mind so what is beyond the mind it's the vastness of being it's what we all are here now but superimposed on it is our own individual image the past so we don't let awareness consciousness flourish it's often when we come to a crisis in our lives others a deep suffering that we really see how I'm so identified with this psychosomatic entity and it makes us really stand back and see it out there and realize I'm not this I'm not that I would say you're the Noah of this and that the problem is we take ourselves to be the known and Noah you can never know it's not an object to be known you can only be it let's just spend one minute quietly in silence look for silence silence is looking for you [Music] if you'd like to join us after the break we can go more deeply with questions into some of the aspects we've touched on thank you [Applause] [Music]

Channel: Science and Nonduality

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Length: 19min 50sec (1190 seconds)

Published: Mon Aug 24 2020