so I've gotten off work. it was a very light
day. my rotation in surgery has been very relaxed. we typically see breast cancer patients
luckily without basically any complications and the patients are typically ready to go home in a
couple of days after the surgery. we don't really go to the operating room, we could go if we wanted
to but typically we're more in the infirmary. by choice but also because that's basically where
our work is. anyways today I want to go to a coffee shop. I'm going to take my laptop, do some
work. I feel like I could also revise my notes for neurology and nefrology. I'm currently reading
also "what I talk about when I talk about running" by Haruki Murakami. which has actually been a
really nice surprise. because it's on my phone, it's easy to read and pick up along the way.
it's always a nice day to reward ourselves but I feel like today especially... I would like
some sushi in my system. so yeah. do some work, read a little, have a little coffee and a
little pastry and then maybe get some sushi! I think I'm going to get some sushi but I
think I'm going to do a little takeaway. y'all the goods are acquired. this box!
so because we are now arriving into July, this marks the halfway point of the year. it
marks the halfway point my first year as a practicing physician. I feel like everyone who
is starting out is always in a very difficult position in every profession. we're scared to
make mistakes. luckily I've been in teams where I haven't done anything without double-checking
something, without confirming things after, without asking for input. I've always felt very
watched in my year so far. now on my third month I feel so much more confident in all of my work
in the emergency department, in the infirmary, talking to the tutors. in just like 3 months! and
this is when we switch and go to another specialty all over again... but I I feel like in just 3
months we learn so much. it's the only way that we are going to improve and learn, is to just show
up as what and who we are right now and just hope that with time and practice things get better.
because they always do. it's very interesting to see that the knowledge that comes to us, it
comes in a more relaxed way. in my experience what I know from looking at a case is very intuitive,
very natural. I think it's awesome to stay always in discussion with with your peers and your
superiors. I feel like in medical school it was always a very rigid, strict way of learning in
boxes and structured. now i think it opens up into this world of everything everywhere all at once.
I feel like the most important things to know are those very practical things like who do you need
to call when this happens, what is a paper that you need to fill in when this other thing happens.
these very practical things that nobody tells you. also will differ from service to service or
hospital to hospital. you just learn when the time comes and you don't know how to do it and so you
have to ask someone. it's not really a weakness, you're just starting out so it's normal
to not know stuff. regarding the specialty choice. i still have absolutely no idea of the
specialty that I want. I felt like I was taking it day by day and that was already too much.
now that things are feeling lighter and better, the question about the specialty has been taking
a greater toll on me but it's still not something that I feel scared or feel disconnected from
my intuition. I feel like when the time comes I will know. it does feel scary that I really don't
have any preference for any specialty and I'm a very indecisive person so I was already expecting
this, I was seeing this coming from miles away. I'm looking at it in a very positive way. the fact
that I don't have something that ties me down to a particular place or particular specialty is
really good because it just opens so much. so right now I'm still exploring but I still
have no idea what I want and that's okay! so June has been really hectic so for my bullet
journal still only have the front page and then this is where I typically do a habit tracker on
this side and then here is a little letter that I put so I can write a letter to myself at the end
of the month with things that I learned or things that were kind of hard for me that month and then
I'm planning at the end of the year to just open them all and read them by order. I love to put in
the little envelopes every month, it really makes sense to me and then that's when I start with
the weekly spreads and yeah this is the weekly spread. so not only do I love to plan and organize
my days ahead of time it is also a huge necessity and I love to do it both on my bullet journal on
my planner but also digitally. the programs that I use currently are notion and akiflow and akiflow
is this video's lovely sponsor so what is akiflow? akiflow is a time blocking program I look at my
free week and I firstly block out all the time that I already know I'm going to be spending
at work, just fixed hour set scheduled events, then I brainstorm all of my tasks, things that
I have to do, things that are pending in my life and I organize them through tags and projects.
you can drag and drop these tasks wherever you find time in your schedule. akiflow is a super
intuitive program to work with. all your undone tasks in a day will automatically be moved
to the next day as overdue. you can write in natural language in the command bar to create
a task or event and akiflow will integrate these tasks and events with so many different apps and
programs for example Google Calendar, notion, ticktick, and so much more. you can also share
your availability in your schedule with team members friends to plan out stuff together
and if you have any questions at all working with the program akiflow offers a one-on-one
productivity session call where you can get personal help setting up your schedule! so yeah
again thank you so so much to akiflow for working with me in today's video and thank you so much
to every single viewer for making this possible. "let's go! starting line crossed
and only finish lines ahead of us, wait that's not right. only lines to finish ahead
of us. yeah that's the ticket because this is 5K finish lines! i listened for the first time to
the new Charlie XCX album, it's so good so good to run with! just gives you that... attitude! also
it got me thinking that every time I pass someone that's running you know in a work day, at this
hour of the day, I just think "they're so cool". every single person that passes by me I just think
to myself "they're so cool". you start thinking "I'm here among them, I'm cool too!", okay we're
cool too, I'm cool too. I don't do this every day at all. I typically work out after work or at the
end of day but I really really love to work out right in the morning where the first thought that
I have in a day is not immediately have to go to work. so I want to do this more often just because
it really helps with my mental health in general. feeling very sluggish, feeling very tired. even
though I love to wake up early and exercise early I have a problem with going to bed early as in
I never do. I'm always doing stuff and so I just forget and then when I look at the clock it's like
midnight 1:00 a.m. and so I start getting ready to bed at those hours and so I just fall asleep even
later than that. I think I underestimate sleep a lot but yeah today I'm definitely feeling the
sluggishness of the afternoon a lot more. I'm determined to do something productive because
I'm going to go to lisbon tomorrow, so I'm not going to go out today. I think I'm going to do
some admin work, I'm also going to read. I'm determined also to finish books this week because
y'all remember when I went to the Lisbon book fair I didn't purchase any books because there
wasn't really a price that was tempting me. the one that was kind of tempting me was one from José
Saramago. there's one bookstore that always makes good prices on his books however the book that was
on sale that day I had already read from him even though I don't own a copy. I'm really glad because
the other day I was browsing another bookstore and I found this hard cover of "Klara and the Sun" for
8.99 and it's so pretty! it's a little battered than bruised along the edges. when I started
reading it, it was such a surprise because I had completely forgotten about the premise. my goal
is to finish this one and to finish "what I talk about when I talk about running", that's also
a pretty short and simple book and I just want something. I just want to finish a book, I haven't
been able to finish a book in so long! so I just feeling really frustrated with myself. so yeah I'm
going to get to work. I think something that helps me when I get home from work and I want to do
something is to not immediately put my pajamas on. I'm still wearing my jeans which helps me because
I feel like I'm still with my work clothes. I hate emails everything that I have.
