Unresolved Grief & Judgments Against God (14 of 16)

uh you're gonna hear some good stuff god bless you sally yeah thank you so much okay thank you thank you thank you thank you jesus because we stand here in his grace don't we and so thank you wiz i know he's carried this vision of a deliverance school for some time and he has shared it from time to time and so you've done it now and we are delighted you have yes yes and thank you we said you invited lea and i to take part too we consider it a privilege and an honor to be sharing in this time with you and so i realized when i looked at the program i was on session 14 out of 15. i thought oh how will that be lord i know i know i just think okay god this is interesting and of course i have sat and listened as mike has already shared so much amazing stuff with you took that off took that off took that off you know so much has already been covered but hey this will be revision hey don't we need revision yes i am uh by profession a teacher so i'm very comfortable in revision and um it's going to be a joy to share with you now i've called this a little different than what's on the program because as i looked at the subject i thought i need to go a bit broader i want to speak to you today about emotional wholeness that means we want to have healthy emotions and healthy emotions start with us being able to identify them and name them and so i thought it'd be really fun just have a little bit of change how many have ever seen the movie inside out i am not a person that looks at lots of movies but inside out i looked at and i thought wow even the world is making movies about emotions and so this young girl riley they have characterized with cartoons really different emotions and so this is just a little exercise about three minutes when we're asked to guess her feelings so it's a good lead-in but it's funny too so margaret would you just like to push the button here it is with some good sound that's riley [Music] yes you're feeling [Music] another one's coming up did you get that another another emotion another feeling did you get that she dropped to water all over overwatch [Music] she is sad here we go she is [Music] ah this is an interesting one this is interesting we probably wouldn't have classified this one she is disgusted maybe something she read look at this one she is scared [Music] so we're going to have the lights back on but that just introduces that subject did you enjoy that how many of those emotions did you identify with all of them of course you know research actually tells us that you know there are over 40 emotions and for the average person we're actually able to identify three in our own lives and so it's interesting to me that hollywood is picking up movies and exercises like that now because i think we've come to appreciate more what healthy emotions look like you know i was over obviously over dramatized but at least she was expressing her emotions was she not and we could easily discern what she was actually thinking but unhealthy emotions are emotions that we don't acknowledge we actually shut them down we suppress them and you say well why do we do that in fact you know there are times when we ignore them we actually deny them we despise them and you you don't know me from what i was many years ago maybe my honest a few would know i was really locked up emotionally i was really quite shut down anyone who knew me then that probably tells you everything doesn't it and so the fact that i'm much more opened up today is the work of the holy spirit of my life but why do we shut down emotionally i think it's largely what we've been taught at what happens to us in our childhood you know i mean we know we know the old saying when it comes to young boys have you heard any one adult ever tell a child a young boy don't cry and so we don't validate people's emotions we shut them down and obviously in the family that i came from my dad was definitely the head of the house he was he was strict he was you know he was benevolent he was kind but he was he was strict and so there's obviously no place in my family where i could ever actually share what i was really feeling so i just learned to shut them down and then i became a christian when i was 17. and actually there was some teaching in the church at that time that totally reinforced my thinking anyone ever seen this diagram you might recognize it who's ever seen that and i have to confess to you i've taught it but i would teach it differently now do you know what that means the fact is the word of god and we put our faith in the word of god and the engine goes and pulls us along but in those days feelings were the caboose and i it just fed what was already in me feelings are rather insignificant better to be denied we love our christian life by faith and feelings you dust by possum that insignificant and it actually did a lot of damage because then of course i mean to go through that whole scenario when my late husband got cancer and i had no idea how to process what was in my heart i'll get to some more of that i could not relate a victorious christian with a grieving christian so the next picture because this is also part of my problem beside that kind of teaching that you live by faith and not your feelings which has truth but you know how you've already got some wounding in your life you hear it a certain way but this one was there was a whole praise movement and we love praise and we're not knocking the value of praise but hey it was praise the lord anyway you just praised your way out of everything oh when your heart is even heavy and breaking you've still got to get up in church i remember my husband was dying in hospital getting up in the church the majestic with my children and dancing so that was good sally it wasn't really i was being so dishonest with my heart i went to a christmas eve service with my three girls andrew was in hospital and the emotions now were beginning to boil up inside of me i just want to boost the tears and i thought amaro is up the front she's the only one i felt safe enough to tell but i couldn't because it was not the right time so this is tragic what did i do packed up my three girls and went home stuffed all the feelings down again and just went on and you know thankfully i had a friend who helped me unpack what was happening inside of me but let's just go to one important question why do we have emotions in the first place i heard my own say we need them and we do they actually tell you what's going on inside of you actually indicates what you believe about a situation but now i don't think that's your baseline ah that's it wes god is a god of emotions and it just proves we are created in his image and you only have to go to the old testament and you will see the emotions of god the father but i just want to pick up today jesus who actually said and we've heard it so many times haven't we that he said if you've seen me you've seen the father so whatever we see jesus doing we know he was reflecting his father so what emotions did jesus show i've put a few up there i thought it'd be fun for you to look at them and i don't even mind if you spend a minute talking to your neighbour about it can you identify i think they show some of the emotions that jesus showed it would not be the whole list what i really really love in watching the chosen is that jesus expresses himself he's so real oh he's so real so what emotions did jesus show first one love compassion and i'm sure you can think of times when it was said you know it says in john 11 mary martha and lazarus jesus loved them people knew that he loved and it was recorded about him we could spend so much time on this the next one he actually showed his emotions and he cried you know actually wayne and i um not weighing leah lee this time leah and i have spent quite a lot of time in rwanda and they had a proverb and it was men swallow their tears but not jesus he's our great example he cried he openly showed his tears so much so that they is recorded that he wept he wept over the city of jerusalem because he knew what was going to happen to it he cried he showed his emotions and obviously behind the tears there was extreme sadness sure what's this one we thought we didn't know better not go too do violent here when wayne was looking over my shoulder he did not go too violent on anger sally so that's a modest emoticon of anger was jesus ever angry any anger his anger was not sin of course but it was righteous anger you can be angry and sin not but things stirred his heart and he was passionate about certain things don't you love him i think you see some of that when you go into the temple that was anger that was passion that was zeal for his father's house you know in that time he was so upset when he asked the guy you know stretched forth your hand and it was a withered hand and the bible actually says he was angry at the unbelief that was in the room whoa so jesus and he wasn't ashamed he just didn't think i feel very angry but i'll just push it down and just yes everything's okay yes and smile away no but he expressed his anger and i've got scripture verses for all of this you can go and look them up i don't mind but i we haven't really got time today to do it thoroughly and of course that last one i'll get back to this one but this one here did jesus ever laugh oh yeah i love the verse but it says he rejoiced in his spirit and that word rejoice actually when you look into the original greek means to jump for joy and he said you know um he talked about my joy being in you so he must have been one of the most joy-filled people that have ever walked the earth because the kids love to be around him he laughed and that's why i love the chosen because he's so real and he's just so joyful and you know i think god is a god of joy our god is a god of joy just by disposition that doesn't mean to say he can't empathize with us and our sadness but you don't ever hear any stories about be quiet in heaven god is having a bad day you know no he's sitting in the heavens and he's laughing at his enemies i love the move of the spirit when joy breaks out oh yes we need a good dose of joy and when we laugh we are we are just not manifesting what jesus walked in so good isn't it and then of course this one here i found i tried to find a place that that sort of picks up something of his trouble do you know what actually says in matthew that jesus was troubled in the amplified it says he was distressed as she says he was depressed because if you look at that word trouble it means heavy so in the garden of gethsemane he experienced heaviness that was weighty there was grief and he said yeah she he actually went in cold actually went and told his disciples anyone know what he said to them different translations actually say i don't mind if we look it up but i'm just aware of time but i think it was come up on another powerpoint a little bit later but he actually went and told them i'm sowing to the point of death he told his disciples there's those three close ones is that honest you know as i began to see this about jesus i just love him he just made himself so when he walked on the earth he made himself so vulnerable you know he was so honest he was so real there was no hidden agenda you know when the when they were hanging out with him he was real don't you love him oh i tell you when i began to see that i began to realize that jesus was giving me permission to be honest with what was happening in my heart he validates emotions because we don't live out of them but i tell you we need to value them we are permission giving in this conference for you to feel your feelings and a lot of what mike's already been speaking it's been there but i just want to let you know today that father god created you in his image and made you a person who has emotions you know if you talk to people and they never share can i tell you the story about that book you wrote just before i married wayne he gave me a book that he wrote and he called it swing wide the gates it was a story of his life and of course it was good for him to finish it before i got married again because it was all about his journey with mary his late wife and so when i was reading i thought oh goodness me he hasn't mentioned one emotion in this book he's just lost his wife and this i didn't feel any emotion it was just like journalism you don't mind me saying that it was like he was giving it was like it was like he was giving a report and i thought you've lost your wife i've lost my husband surely there was some emotion involved so i said that to him i said it's good darling but there's no feelings in it oh i'll go and rewrite it then [Laughter] so he did because you see we have to be people who know how to process emotions because if we don't do it they will become unresolved and if you have unresolved emotions inside of you things happen there are we just a few yes there we are the first one's a volcano i can testify to this one because i had buried my emotions there was one that used to sneak out there was anger oh i used to think oh you know i didn't understand i had no understanding of what i'm talking to you about you know this was foreign territory territory to me and my kids would do something small like they might just drop something break something spill something like that and i would get angry and i knew it was over the top anger it was ridiculous but i would just i would explode and the trouble is when you do that other people cop it it just spews everywhere and innocent victims end up hurting and as the old saying goes hurting people hurt and i had no idea no understanding at all but i had buried emotions inside of me i had unresolved anger it's a good clue if you get angry all of a sudden and lose your temper you think hmm what am i hiding in my heart what is unresolved in sight of me and i realize now as god began to heal my heart that there was anger inside of me and are being pent up anger towards my dad because there was no opportunity to ever share he would be the disciplinarian but he never asked us first what was going on on the inside of us it was just you've done wrong you know you could never share you know and i did say he was even more damaged than we were because he didn't have any opportunity in his family to ever express himself you get a lot of compassion for your parents when you actually look at their life but you don't have that ability when you're a child and so volcanoes are you think oh i just heard no leader from the church wouldn't be careful of peter and aunt turned up right now you know and i'm i'm in a frenzy oh thankfully i don't explode like that now do i mean i don't think he's ever copped it this it so good that god heals us he gets a better deal than andrew god [Laughter] and look this next one that was me too you know if you don't deal with an emotion let's say disappointment anyone ever been disappointed here and if you don't resolve it that disappointment just continues to grow and you add to it you add to it and you add to it and then i discovered that it's a spiraling effect because disappointment will take you into grief grief will take you into fear and before you know it you'll end up with mistrust and if it just keeps on going you know we'll end up you'll end up in unbelief and you'll end up as cynic you'll be totally disillusioned and if your disappointment isn't any relation to god you will find it very hard to believe him again so this way you've got to resolve it you can't leave it there festering because grief is another one oh i'm i i know what grief feels like now it's not a pleasant experience oh i just thought if only somewhere just come and play it away this after i lost andrew i just want to pray lord i hated the feeling it was just like this great big coat on me and i thought oh just get rid of it you know and someone on the first sunday i was in church came up after we'd buried andrew sally it's going to take you five years to get over it no but in lots of ways they were quite right you just don't recover from the loss of a loved one with one prayer you just don't and so you know thankfully i had my friend now who was able to help me process grief but i soon began to realize if you don't do anything with it once again you spiral down and spiral down i tell you what i'll take you into depression and hopelessness and despair and abandonment that's what will take you am i right colleen grief is and grief comes off you in layers and we're going to just touch on and this one is easy isn't it if you don't resolve your emotions what happens you get chained to your past and you can't move on so what are we going to do about this jesus gives us permission and we want to become whole true and of course i need to say here just before i really didn't find a good picture for demon but just in a conference on you know deliverance the results of not resolving your emotions what is it the demons will attach themselves to your emotions how many of you know that and have already experienced it you see if you don't deal with grief and it just sits inside of you spirits of grief will just come in and compound it have i been delivered from the spirit of grief you bet i have you know and you just label some of these key situations and you know what i've never cast out a spirit of joy yet [Laughter] well i tell you i have cast out a mocking spirit well we're in one church one time when that way unless she was a leader in the church next minute she's on the floor and she's laughing and i thought that's not the holy ghost you know so i remember speaking to that mocking spirit you get out of here now in jesus name and then why didn't i got holy laughter so we started to laugh at it but the dear woman got free but i'm just telling you that if we don't resolve our emotions enemy is no respecter of persons and i tell you i reckon a lot of damage is done when you're a child you know i remember nicola she would have been about my daughter nicolas she would have been a nine years old when andrew got sick and it was so interesting i didn't know anything about demons or anything but my web just had the children around us andrew was there and people were coming to visit andrew myself and nicholas said bless her heart i'm feeling left out mum and you know she began to cough and i thought oh i don't even believe in demons but is this the spirit of rejection she's feeling so i thought i better try and deal with it and she's his name just lisa she's just a little girl but i tell you that's where the enemy will really work havoc with children they are no respecter of persons and i tell you parents we have a job to be looking after our kids and protecting them do you know why jackie came to me one day she would have been probably about seven or eight andrew had died and she said this to me she said mommy if we had looked after daddy better would he still be alive that's what you're talking about judgments she was making a judgment as a young girl that maybe it was her fault our fault that her father had died i'm so glad she told me otherwise she could have been in a conference like this years later because i was able to talk to her and tell you no that's not the truth dear it's interesting jackie became a nurse it tells you a lot doesn't it so there we go we're going to look at now jesus actually offers us a pathway to wholeness hoho aren't you pleased oh thank you jesus you can just stop and have a little praise moment because aren't you grateful that you don't have to carry this stuff all your life you're looking at someone who has been healed and delivered oh thank you jesus you know when i realized that we may be going to have to testify i got out some old journals just to say this and i thought wow i can't hardly recognize myself back then as to how i am now that's how thorough god has done you know i you know what i said to the lord when i realized i needed some deliverance i said well if there's any demon inside of me lord why don't you get the whole lot out because it has surprised me people seem to be happy to live with them i die so called after my i'll get some deliverance but actually one dear young person younger person has already said to me look i'm just going to go for the lot let's get the whole lot out i thought you're a woman after my own heart you know we want to be temples of the holy spirit you don't want to have one demon living inside of you and i tell you because i said that i went through quite an intense period which i didn't really have a lot of theology to cope with actually you know we were in an era when you hardly believed that a christian could have a demon so you're looking at a huge paradigm shift to me but when i discovered i needed deliverance it was a huge paradigm shift i tell you and the leaders in the church actually one leader said to me sally if you need deliverance the holy whole church needs deliverance and i tell you i was so dumbfounded because i was trying to come to terms with what was happening to me that i didn't have an answer but now i know i think you said 99 and a half percent of people will need some deliverance conservative then you said so this is very permission governing isn't it and then i heard because i was on staff on this church but the leaders got together and i wasn't there and they began to try and work out what has sally done she must have a past that we don't know anything about because the understanding was she could only have a demon if you've done it if you commit fornication of course then you'll you'll have a fornicating spirit but how stupid it's like you've got it that it causes you to do it do you get it yeah yeah yeah so anyway let's just move on because we're just going to do this quickly jesus offers us a pathway to wholeness now i've deliberately done the word offers o-f-f-e-r-s now mike has given you r's i'm going to give you office so it's a lot of it over i don't know overlap here but it's all good you can choose which one you like so jesus offers us a pathway to wholeness next slide please the very first thing you have to be prepared to do on becoming whole emotionally is you must open up your heart and i love this verse and psalm i have declared my ways and opened my grace to you and you listen to me oh god father jesus they are the safest people to pour your heart out to tell them like i think mike was saying privacy sometimes you don't have to go and tell everybody what you've talked to god you can share the very deepest intimate moments with him but i've got a picture there what are they seeing enemies has ever gone poking seeing enemies what do they do and they stay that way and some of us have stayed that way for too long stiff upper lip kind of stuff you know you have permission today to feel your feelings and the only way you're going to get whole is to say okay i feel safe enough in the presence of jesus and amongst some people that you trust because sometimes for me i had a friend and she was a very safe friend and i felt i could open my heart initially she would have to wait for me to say anything because i was afraid of speaking she would patiently wait because i couldn't always get my words out i had no idea really how to pray for my heart it was all from your head and so god is giving us permission and many of you even while you've been here how many know your heart has opened up more let them into every room of your life it's the way to go it's the first step on the way to having our hearts healed and old emotions resolved next one feel your feelings this is the permission giving that jesus gives us you feel them you can name them you can acknowledge them you know i have discovered and praying for people that i'll often say to them you know they've got a horrendous situation and i say what do you feel and they look at me blank and then i say look let's just tell jesus what you're feeling right now and they just look at me and actually i think because god is so opened up my heart i actually can feel people's feelings sometimes i have to give them a little bit of help are you feeling this oh yes i am you know we have to get in touch with our feelings and express them of course appropriately feelings themselves are not sin and sometimes i think we think they're evil no they're not they're neutral of course you can act out of your anger and go and kill somebody no no but you can say to someone and you can say to god god i feel so angry now you know i was absolutely amazed at the feelings that were locked up inside of me i thought goodness me i'm a christian and i can feel hatred inside of me i buried it for years and then another one i hated my friend said this sounds like self-pity sally no christians acknowledging self-pity self-pity is very very close to grief so watch it it's a nasty things when you feel sorry for yourself everyone else should feel sorry for you and you punish everybody that's a nasty thing too but anyway i love what jesus said then then he said to them my soul this is what he said to his disciples he actually expressed it to his leadership team oh my soul is very sad and deeply grieved so that i'm almost dying of sorrow was he feeling his feelings was he expressing it appropriately and he wanted his leadership team to stay with him but they went to sleep dear jesus what he went through for us we'll never understand what was really happening to him in the garden almost to the point of death he was feeling that sorrow on him so we feel our feelings okay that's your first if next one now you had a lot of teaching on this forgive from your heart see so much of christian forgiveness from their head i forgive yes i forgive that person lord guess what that's done now i've done it i forgive and then you see the person again and wow all the feelings get stirred up because you haven't forgiven from your heart oh i know this stuff and we know the forgiven should be forgiven grace for grace we heard mike talking about that but we've had a lot of talk about forgiving people who have hurt you but we haven't had a lot of emphasis yet on the hardest person sometimes to forgive do you know who it is yourself some of you could get free today if you just let yourself off the hook check yourself talk how do you talk to yourself do you say things like you stupid old thing you may have messed it up again haven't you [Music] who's ever watched yourself talk before i had a lot of self-talk but hey acute and amazing key is to forgive yourself because you don't just other judge other people we judge ourselves and you there must come a point where you release yourself from the judgments you've held against yourself but then it becomes a lifestyle sometimes i've hopped into bed at night and the holy spirit said well have you forgiven yourself yet sally for something that's happened through the day i thought no actually i haven't so sometimes the holy spirit says some amazing things do you know what he said to me one day he said have you forgiven your insurance company answer i said no and i felt inside of me anger frustrate righteous yes i said well i don't want to forgive them and honestly i struggled to forgive the insurance company answer who pulled out of new zealand and then left us without any insurance on our home so he you know oh it's so good you see you can get your you know old emotions resolved because we're going to we want to resolve them but you have to live with it so that you're living in healthy emotions and i'm so glad the holy spirit doesn't let you get away with much so the other person now i'm going to put it this way because back some years ago now i was fairly early marriage with andrew and some of you might remember he got involved in electioneering remembers that day oh we had i think barry you did too didn't you oh there were so many christians that got involved we're all we're all electioneering i was as campaign manager and you know other christians and we prayed and we were working really really hard and we actually believed that we'd all get and most of us were standing for the national party but you know all said and done election's over guess what nada change anywhere not one except graeme lee who was already an mp he got in he was a christian and i struggled i didn't know anything about the healing of the heart at this stage it was long before i understood any of this and i want and you may find this difficult to understand i'm just telling you what the holy spirit said to me a few months later he said sally have you forgiven me i've said what do you think i said i said i don't have to forgive you because you don't do anything wrong you know what he oh holy spirit he's so gracious he knew i didn't understand much about the healing of the heart or anything but he actually took responsibility you know what he said but i have hurt you because he knew that all the prayers that we had prayed and what we were believing had not come to pass how we had seen it and i didn't have a lot of comprehension then as i have now graciously he took responsibility he didn't have to because i don't i don't really see that god sets out to hurt us and my and where i am now but in those days i didn't understand so i just said i did i i forgave him he could see i was going to build up a judgment against him and i was going to hold a grudge in my heart towards him and since i have been in ministry like this i have come across so many people who make judgments about god have you ever walked through a situation when you've prayed for someone that you love we did that with andrew then they die hands up now you have to resolve that absolutely because the church will never come into the miracles that we desire if you leave that buried in your heart you have to resolve it you have to have a theology that helps you to resolve it and i tell you what the enemy loves to do he loves to malign the character of god so god looks bad and he gets off scot-free that's what he does so he will make god look bad in your eyes you know there was one time just comes back to me now just be you know when things were really getting tough with andrew i woke up and i had this picture and i knew i was crying as i woke up i was crying then there was i saw a wall and on the other side of the wall i was aware that jesus was crying and i knew he desperately wanted to reach me but there's a barrier up wasn't his barrier it was mine you see if we build judgments against him he can't minister his love and compassion and healing towards us and heal our hearts because you're not going to let him are you why would you if you're carrying some grudge in your heart and i know there's so many horrible things that happened today and i've had people say to me why did god let that happen to my child why did god do this why didn't he come in and do this and you know and it's real but you know when jesus was on the cross he asked the biggest why of all he gives you permission to ask why i don't think he'll always tell us the answer sometimes you will hide it from us but you're allowed to say why you're allowed to express your anger and your frustration at him because i tell you he can handle it he's had many kids before us he knows how to handle the situation that you were in and i there's a lot of things as i've grown older on the lord i just have a too hard basket you know sometimes they're just too hard i don't understand everything but i did minister here at the beginning of the year i can't go into all of it now just to suffice to say the holy spirit said to me once he said sally when you don't understand you lose trust when i didn't understand i didn't lose trust and i knew he was talking about the cross when he cried out my god why have you forsaken me i don't think he went to the cross fully comprehending the presence of his father was going to lift from him so he felt abandoned he was taking our abandonment for us none of us ever have to be in that situation ever in our lives when you feel everybody has abandoned you plus god the father none of us ever have to walk through that total abandonment because jesus has taken it for us oh thank you jesus but then how do i know he kept his trust because just so many i don't know how much time went past when he actually declared father now is father not god father respect your relationship into your hands i commit my spirit was it a prayer of trust so he didn't understand but he must have just gone back to i know who you are father i trust you i don't understand why this part of this journey is like it is but i trust you and i i just so sense in the day and age we're living in what god is really wanting to do in our lives we have to be rock bottom and trust and i tell you bill johnson also said that bold faith stands on the shoulders of quiet trust you've got to get your trust plank in place because there are times we do pray and we don't always see those things happen the way that we have yet believed for don't believing will always be that they're seeing more and more but we're there's more to see and there's still times when people are walking through that and we have to be there for them allow them to express their hearts but you don't stay there because we forget from our hearts so today some of you may well have to forgive god release him from your judgment because he hasn't done anything wrong but you have formed an opinion about him and we must release him because he's always good we know that but you have to know it in your heart so forgive from your heart the next one i know this is going to be this oh there's so much i could say we're running out of time just keep rolling and so we've had so much beautiful teaching on this the exchange at the cross so once you get in touch with all those feelings you bring it to the cross because we know what the bible says and honestly mike he just painted an amazing picture of what jesus took for us on the cross surely he has borne our griefs and he's carried our sorrows have you ever looked up that word griefs and and when you go into the new testament in matthew chapter 16 it actually translates as diseases but i looked it up the word griefs there and the amplified will bring it out talks about melody you know what i saw the other day anxiety you know the church we just is riddled with anxiety at times as the world but that word griefs can be translated anxiety god jesus bore our anxieties we don't have to be anxious like the world it talks about calamities i thought oh i like that calamities earthquakes he understands all the stuff he bore the impact of it disease sickness the works and then in isaiah chapter 53 verse 10 it actually says he made him to be sick for us do you know that that's also in verse 10 of that then you look up that word sick it's rooted in that same word for grief and guess what hope deferred makes the heart sick that's the same word that's linked back to grief switches sickness and disease so i've got great news for you you precious people of god jesus bore your disappointments on the cross oh hallelujah oh hallelujah you can have another praise moment that is awesome isn't it oh i think sometimes we think god's out to disappoint us since i've grown in him i don't believe he deliberately sets out to disappoint any of us it's our human reaction to what is happening that we don't understand would you agree so he's born our griefs and he's carried out sorrows that word is pain physical and it can be heart pain this is what he's done for us plus all those other amazing things that mike listed and then it says and with his wounds we are healed so you bring your grief you bring your disappointment you bring your unresolved anger whatever it is you bring it to the cross you let it go give jesus back what he bore for you so that you can receive his healing he knows i heard how to heal our hearts he's so good at it you know you do the forgiving that's our part it's his job to heal oh thank you jesus you heal our hearts he takes the pain out of the memory so you know i'm because you know with the loss of andrew this was a journey i was on but i know he's healed my heart from that loss is that amazing i have found people years 10 20 30 40 sometimes even 50 years later they're still grieving for a loved one that really saddens my heart i know there's a process of working through grief but jesus did bear it for us so we must come into a place of healing and wholeness at some point in the journey it is a process but you will get there because he bore the grief for you ah do you believe that i do believe it so with his wounds we are healed he said i could never have married wayne if i was still so tied to andrew thought okay let's move on now i really couldn't find a very good picture for a demon but hey renounce because you may well become very aware as you work through this there's going to be a need to renounce any demons that have attached themselves to your emotions so i thought have a burglar was in your home you want to say oh hello really nice to see you like a cuppa you would do just that you'd boop them out i think we have to get that kind of aggressiveness in our spirit when it comes to the demonic that in my name they will cast out demons and we've had so much teaching about that i am sure you fully comprehend it now amen that we are people who are called in his name we believe in him that we have the authority and the power to cast out demons and may we go from this you know well equipped to go deal when you see it pop up in someone you're praying for sometimes it can just happen i was praying for a lady once in a conference and she was sharing something with me that she'd never told anybody else it was a secret in her heart and then i thought goodness me she's a baptist lady i hope this is okay the next minute she's coughing away and i thought goodness i haven't even told a demon to go just because it had come into the light the demons began to shift and you know and i've got a little thing i use i tell the devil if i'm feeling any attack on me well if you're not going to listen to me i'm just going to tell on you he hates to be told on because he always works in the dark so i tell you that's why a lot of you got free while you're here because you've brought stuff into the light yeah thank you lord so the last one have you got it office are you getting it next one seek emotional wholeness just don't stop but i've put that like a mirror out there because you look in the mirror of god's word you see how jesus is and we just want to be like him real vulnerable no hidden agendas people know you you know they can trust you you don't you're not behind the scenes somebody else you're the same in the church as you are at home fuel seek emotional wholeness so just don't stop but let's make it our life passion to become like jesus and to know what to do with our emotions and have healthy emotions your healthy emotions are they're identified you can name them you can feel them you can express them and if they're painful you can lift them to jesus he bore them so that you might know healing and we can move on and then heal healed people bring healing hurting people hurt i want to be in the company of those who know how to get my heart healed so that i can help other people get their heart healed the miracle of the of a healed heart let me tell you this you will take to heaven with you but you know if you have some physical healing our bodies are still subject to death and you're not going to take these physical bodies to heaven with you so there's something very very precious about the healing of our heart you go to heaven with a healed heart isn't that really beautiful it's an eternal miracle you take your heart to heaven with you thank you lord and so just the last slide just so you've got it being a teacher offers you got it exchange renounce and seek and so i don't know where is this four o'clock what do you want to do pray you're happy to have a minister yeah i feel like i can lead them but i just don't know what you okay that's very good do you want to search some people have been told it's just your emotions and you've gotten into it you've gotten into an agreement to really downgrade and uh um denigrate is that the right word just despise your emotions and so we need to actually repent of that and actually give ourselves permission uh to be able to work with our emotions and and respect our emotions uh not become unstable but to actually work with them so some of them some people have been locked up and haven't been able to acknowledge your emotions let's stand do you want to pray what do you want me to do what do you want yeah okay okay time to be honest church so let's pray do you want to just pray after me raise your hand just raise your hands to heaven if you know you've been locked up now can you spot the ones you know you've got some locked up emotions inside of you well that's a large number ah so let's pray father thank you for jesus jesus thank you that you're so real that you expressed your emotions and you're very permission giving today and you want to validate our feelings and you're giving us permission to feel them and i just want you right now to think who shut you down is there someone you need to forgive and you can whisper their name out loud today lord say i forgive i release from my judgment this person or persons who who have caused me to shut down emotionally so next next prayer as you're doing this say lord forgive me forgive me for shutting down i realize when i do that i'm shutting you out as well as others so just receive his forgiveness just receive you know we're not always very good at receiving his forgiveness i had such a revelation on matthew 18 once if that guy in matthew 18 had really received the forgiveness that was offered to him he would have gone and shouted it from the rooftops he didn't get it he was still in works mode so the more we know how to receive god's forgiveness the more free we're going to be able to give likes freely you have received freely give so receive us forgiveness take it like you're going to once you get your heart open lord today i give you permission to come and love me so i feel safe with you so then i will open up my heart to you now deliberately open up your heart you're in a safe place he loves you so much oh oh we open up our heart lord to you oh oh invite him into every room just invite him oh we used to sing when i was in children's mind she'd come into my heart lord jesus let them into your heart let them into your heart every room those areas of extreme pain where there's unresolved emotions let them in and you may need to if you've come up if you've believed some lies like you know men don't cry what other lies are there um other lies that come they're just for girls yeah so man it might be something you really have to do i break my agreement today with a lie say it i break my foot we can all say it i break my agreement today with the lie that men don't cry it's a lie it's a lie get it it's a lie yes and any woman who feel like that you may have been shut down and told you know and just overlooked you know just you've opened up your heart and they don't understand you say well they don't understand me so i'm just going to shut down and i think there's some people like that here you have attempted in the past as a child to open up your heart and they didn't believe what you said and they ignored what you said they even rubbished you for what you said that'll shut your heart down it's not safe but i want you to know this is a safe place jesus is here we love you he loves you open your heart and let him in there's a whole lot more we could do i i don't know which do you think it's do you think we've got time just to deal with people who maybe have a judgment against god is there time to do that because that that is going to cut your relationship sort of down with father and with jesus how many he would say yes i have made a judgment against god well there's a few so it's important that we do it isn't it it's very very important because god wants to restore your relationship with you he's hanging out he's missed you i feel that lord he's missed you he's missed you you've had a relationship a much closer intimacy with him but some things have happened and you've shut down and you've made a judgment against him it's the old trick in the book because really what satan said eve was really like god was withholding something from you am i right he was making causing her to judge god and we don't want to do that so shall we all pray it together so father we come into your presence right now you know us through and through and we want to bring to you the judgments that we've made in our heart towards you you understand why but today lord we ask you you want to make it personal forgive me for judging you tell him how you've judged him it'll be different for everybody pour it out pour it out tell him open your heart and say i judged you in that situation you let me down i thought you were going to do this but you didn't my heart is sick hope the food makes the heart sick oh shove a secret oh forgive me just ask him to forgive you just clears the deck forgive me for believing this lie pray it forgive me for believing this lie and break your agreement with it now i break my agreement with the lie that you are whatever restore me to yourself i really sense when i shared that picture that jesus is standing and there's a wall and he's standing on the outside of a wall and he's weeping with you that's very specific for some here i don't actually feel that let the wall down let them come and comfort you let them come and gather you up on this great big arms of love and just whisper into your heart i know you don't understand i love you trust me sometimes he makes sense of the journey sometimes he doesn't i'm a bit of a fox terrier i go after stuff and i want to know why and graciously many times he does help me but sometimes he doesn't oh so lord i just thank you for healing flowing in this place right now we can put your hand on your heart well i thank you for that anointing that's upon us your church that heals the brokenhearted so where hearts are breaking lord i thank you for that anointing right now coming healing he's here oh he loves you more than you know he died of a broken heart so that we don't have to live the rest of our life with a broken heart lord you say you're near to the brokenhearted and you bind up their wounds just see your heart being healed now he knows how to love you his love is a very healing love it's a very safe love it's a very pure love lord why are we standing in his presence because this is intimacy you can feel he's very close listen to him listen one word from god can change everything like when you said to me sally have you forgiven me one word like that changes can change your destiny can change your destiny just one word spoken by the spirit so listen to him right now why he says the holy spirit's very heavy he's enjoying reconnecting with some of you i think that's probably enough you want to give people a break yes yeah however you judge somebody that's how you walk with them from being on you'll remember the parable of the set talents the the five the two the one the guy that got the one he buried it because he judged god he said i knew in other words from his perspective you are a hard man uh reaping we have not sown so on and so forth so i was afraid so i buried it here it is back the other two didn't judge god that way at all they were happy to trade and to bring increase and happy to represent it back to the back to the to the one who gave them but that guy had judged god and that determined his whole life from then on the whole course of his life was based on the judgment he had made about god so what sally has shared today is really significant about this issue of how we and what we've what we've how we've judged god god cannot sin it's but that doesn't mean we haven't made a judgment and our judgment is sin okay so we have to release some of grudges just want to leave that with you so you may need to think about that overnight gonna you need to marinate that a little bit but god the holy spirit will just show you something when he does you'll know what to do with it okay god bless you thank you so much for being here uh we'll let you go now

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