Tori Spelling Visits Her Husband in Rehab | True Tori (S1, E1) | Full Episode | Lifetime

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[music playing] I don't know what I'm going to say to him today. I don't know what to expect, to be honest. I know it's going to be hard. And at the same time, I feel really excited to see him. And I feel like that's the wrong thing to say. I feel like it makes me sound weak. But it's been really hard, and I miss him. I miss having my best friend. And that was just stripped from me. I had it for seven years, and it was just gone one day. I don't want to cry when I get there because I don't want-- I want to be strong. ] with all these paparazzi. They should shut the gate. Oh, god. I hate them. I hate them. Yeah. OK, just walk. And I'll go behind you. Tori! Tori! Tori! [music playing] Dean and I have been married for seven years. We have four amazing kids together. I thought our fairy tale would last forever. And then in one moment, everything changed. I know our marriage is worth fighting for. We can survive. I'm Tori Spelling. And this is my story, "True Tori." MAN: Call Stephan. DEAN: Where are we? Dean? MAN: Just kind of step up and get an appointment. Where is everybody? Camera over there. Ugh. Sorry, you guys, for you're about to hear. I want to preface it with don't feel uncomfortable because I don't feel uncomfortable telling the story. So don't feel sorry for me. [music playing] My whole life, I feel like people kind of got it wrong. They had preconceived notions about me. And I spent half of my life having to kind of overcome that and feeling like I wanted people to know the real me. You know, ever since growing up as Aaron Spelling's daughter, "90210," it was always poor little rich girl, nepotism, everything that was hurtful and untrue. Everyone told the story of my life except me. So that's why I wanted to do this. Every tabloid, they always got it wrong. Except one week, they got it right. When the story of Dean having an affair with a girl in Toronto came out in "US Weekly," that story was true. When this all happened, I wasn't given the option of dealing with this privately. It was on the cover of every magazine. Everyone told their version of what I was going through. None of them have been true. They said Dean had gone into treatment for sex addiction. They said that we were getting a divorce. They said that we were secretly back together and that we had taken some exotic vacation. There's been every story you could create, they've told except the real story. So now, I want to take that power back, and I want to tell everyone the real story, what's happening with me and Dean, my relationship, and tell them what's really going on. I got a call from my publicist on my cell, and she said, "I just want to tell you something." There's a story that's being shopped around. It's a girl, and she's claiming that she had an affair with Dean in Toronto when he was there. And I just wanted to give you a heads up. We don't know what's going to happen. We don't know if it's true. It is what it is. It's just a story being shopped around. Dean was standing right in front of me. I looked up at him, and I said, "Great. Who did you [bleep] in Toronto last weekend?" I was totally kidding. There wasn't an ounce of me that thought it was real. I didn't think for a second that it was true. My husband for seven years. Why should I have to ask those questions? I trusted him. There is always someone looking to get publicity in situations like this. And I thought that's just what it was. And I thought it would go away until a week later. I got a phone call from my publicist again. This time, she said, "The girl has come forward." She's put her name to the story. She's going on record. She's giving all the details about her two day affair with your husband in Toronto. And it's going to come out next week, Christmas. We were about to go to school to see Liam and Stella in their holiday performance. I asked Dean to step outside so I could talk to him in private. I wanted the truth. I didn't want to make him defensive. I just wanted him to know that I knew, to see what he said. My heart was pounding so fast-- it is right now-- that I could barely speak. He told me, "I don't know. There's nothing. There's nothing. Nothing happened. I don't know who would be doing this. I don't know what girl is doing this." Then, he was looking at me, and I noticed that his right eyebrow was shaking up and down. And I said, "Why is your eyebrow shaking? Are you lying?" And he said, "No, I have no idea. No, nothing." And I said, "I'd never seen your eyebrow shake before, ever, in our whole relationship." Then, I said, "What would you say if I said I knew her name?" He's like, "What's her name?" I said, "Her name is Emily." He said, "Yes, there was a girl named Emily." And then he looked at me, and he said, "She was at that bar. She came back to my hotel room with me, but we just kissed. We didn't have sex." And I knew, in that moment, that the worst had happened. And I said, "I don't believe you. I don't believe you for a second that nothing else happened." And I took a deep breath. So I went on to watch my kids perform. I had a baby on each leg holding them in my lap. My husband was sitting next to me. He was videotaping. I can still remember that moment. With all that going on, I was so proud and devastated all at the same time. And I knew that next week, everyone around me, everyone in the world, would suddenly know that this fairy tale wasn't true. And I said, "When we get home, I need you to tell me every single detail. If you even want me to entertain staying with you, I want to know everything." He started at the very beginning, and he went through the entire weekend, every single detail of their weekend. He told me everything. I just listened. I took it all in. I think I nodded. Made sure I didn't show any emotion. I didn't want to cry. I didn't want him to know how much my heart was broken. The next day, Dean voluntarily went into treatment. A few days later, "US Weekly" came out. It was the cover. Everyone knew. We spent Christmas alone. Dean was in treatment. And he's been there ever since. I did the only thing that I felt I could do, and that was to go on and be a mom. Oh my god, there's no paper towels. Oh my god, there's no paper towels. Can you please go get the cereal? Please, you guys. What? Stella, will you look in the pantry and see if there's any more paper towels? I have four children. I didn't want this to define me, to define them. I wanted their lives to stay as normal as possible. OK, we need to change. No, why are we doing that right now? We don't have time for that. FINN: Mommy? Yes? Just wait, baby. I pushed it all deep down, let him deal with his demons. And I went on to take care of my children the best I knew how. Are you OK? Yes. What was it? Do me a favor, and go in the bathroom, and get a toilet-- and get a fresh toilet paper roll. I know that Dean is the father of my four beautiful children. I know. We are out of paper towels. I know that he's my soul mate. I know that he's the love of my life. And I also know that he broke my heart. I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust him again. But I've made the decision that I want to start dealing with our relationship. So in a couple of days, I'm going to go see him. Do you want to run upstairs and-- and grab a t-shirt, grab underwear? You have shorts down here and socks. Will you start to put your clothes on maybe while I'm fixing breakfast? I don't know where they are. In the basket, as always. Where's my phone? Where's my phone? Shoot. This is the hardest time of the day for me is getting them ready. Wait, wait, Liam. No, oh my god. I didn't say go outside. I said go near the front door with the car keys. I didn't say go to the car with the car keys. This is the hardest time of the day, getting them ready, dressed, fed, school. Dean and I had it down. We had four hands, and we had a routine. And it wasn't easy, but we worked together. And we did it. And now, I do it alone. And it's really-- I don't do a great job. But at least they're fed, and they're alive every day. And so every day, I'm just-- when I get past this moment in the morning, I'm like, I made it. OK. Ready? Backpacks in the car. [music playing] Stella? STELLA: Yeah? You, I will pick up at 3:15. Liam, you have enrichment, OK? Yes, baby. What's wrong? What hurts? Your tummy? I'm sorry, Mama. You've been a really good girl. [vomits] Oh, [bleep]. Hattie? It's OK, buddy. OK, baby. You're OK. You're OK, Mama. Liam, please. It's not about your iPad, my friend. She's sick. Liam, it's not about your iPad. She's throwing up all over the place. Please. It's about your sister. You threw up on the iPad. It's OK. The iPad, we don't care. My kid is sick. Please don't take pictures of this. She just threw up everywhere. Thank you. Every day since the story of Dean's affair broke, the paparazzi have been following us. It-- OK, just wait till we get home. I told them the baby was sick, and he respected that. But some of them will just keep shooting. They don't care what I say. OK, you guys, we're here. The last time I was on time to school was back in December before Dean left. I'm coming, baby. Your shoelaces, buggy. The headmaster of our school, she's been a really good support. She's like, they're fine. You're doing a good job, Mommy. They're in one piece. You're doing a good job. We're just a little late. The kids, they know that we're a little different. They know that we have paparazzi that follow us. They know who paparazzi are. They know that we're on TV, that we're in magazines. They don't know it to be a bad thing. They don't ask anything about our relationship. They think we're a family, and Dad's just not here right now. And it's hard on them that way. I can tell every day that it's really hard on Liam and Stella, especially Liam. What? This time of day, the two little ones go down for a nap. I love this moment because it's really hard in the morning. And I'm going, going, going, going, and I'm doing the best I can. And I also hate this moment because this is the time of day where I have a moment to myself where I can think about stuff. And I think about how everything is really bad in my life. And it makes me really sad. [music playing] (SINGING) How do you feel so well? I am sinking down. I am sinking down. Call to the owl who hasn't left who can't be heard. You don't have to help. You don't have to help. I have so much pent up that I haven't dealt with. You might explode. As soon as you start to access that, I'm going to combust. And who's going to take care of my kids? Like, I can't do that. I have to just take care of my kids. Everything is about them, and that almost is giving you a way-- It's a distraction. --to deflect from what's going on with Dean. So what's the balance? TORI: For sure. You got to-- you got to spend some time with him and talk to him. Mehran has been my best friend since he was 15, I was 16 years old. I call him my "gusband," my gay husband, and I watched him put everything on hold to take care of me. I owe him so much. I've had no time to process this. I feel like I know I'm still in love with him. I know that. So that's something very good. That's solid. This is, ultimately, the man that you love-- Yeah. --the father of your children. And if you want to make this work, you need to deal with it. I'm seeing Dean in two days. I've now decided that I am going to deal with this. Are you nervous about seeing him? Yeah. I mean, I guess you want to know, like, what I did to make you do this. I guess I want to know what I did. Why-- why do you think it's something you did? You're blaming things on yourself. This is, like, really weird to watch for me. He's done something wrong to you. Why do you think that is something you created? But isn't that what any woman feels like? If something-- - I-- you shouldn't. This could be completely his own issues. This might not work out. I think that's the thing you have to kind of understand. Like, this might not have a happy ending, and it might. And I think you need to be open to that. I'm well aware this might not have a happy ending. Totally separate from me, there's a bee on you. Ah. - I'm allergic. Can you turn around? Where? Ow. [bleep] no. Yeah. No. What are you doing? It was on you. MEHRAN: No, it wasn't. I swear on my life, it was on you. Oh, you had to do that moment, didn't you? And I haven't-- It was crawling up your back. --I haven't waxed my back. Did you notice? It was really unnerving. Don't touch me. [music playing] JESS: Hi, guys. KATE: Hi! - Hi. - Hi, guys. Hi. - Hey, how are you? Good. How are you? My two friends, Jess and Kate, they've been with me through the whole ride. I kind of like all of these. Kate is the one that said they can be drapes. I didn't even think of that. They'd be super heavy. TORI: Kate is that one friend I have that she literally tells me exactly how it is, whether I want to hear it or not. Oh my god, just take as many as you want. Kate is really angry at Dean. She only sees this one way. Dean's a piece of [bleep]. You shouldn't be with him. You're better off without him. I shouldn't have said that. Look at this one. This is pretty. No. I-- I like it. Jess was actually the person who was with Dean and I when my publicist called and said there is a girl shopping around a story of spending the weekend with Dean. I feel like she's closer to the situation just because she actually witnessed my life coming undone, basically. Well, I don't want to bend down, either. What-- what should we do? Just stand here? I don't know what to-- honestly, I'm panicked. I want to get that fabric on the ground, but I can't bend over, or the paparazzi will take a picture. Just leave it. Just leave it. Just leave it there. But no, we want to take it with us, and we can't bend over. It breaks my heart to see her go through this. It truly does because she really is one of the nicest people in the world. And I don't want her to be miserable. She needs to still, like, enjoy her life, and have a life, and be happy, and I don't know if she will. OK, tell me which way. Right. Let's just get the-- whatever we're getting and get out of here. I'm happy to finish-- I just got a text from Dean. [bleep] that. No. What? What? TORI: Oh, god, you guys. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. I feel like I'm, like, shaking right now. Who's [bleep]? Who's [bleep]? Yeah. Was that the wrong text to somebody else? Who's [bleep]? I don't know, but I just got like-- my heart stopped for a second. Randomly, in the middle of the fabric aisle, I get a text from Dean, and it says I can't even look at [bleep] right now. Don't respond right now. What-- Wait. It's not a joke, right? Like, that's-- No, it's not a joke. I mean, I [bleep]. Wait. Don't respond. What-- - Don't respond? You have to. Like, if you got that text, I would be furious. Tori holds everything in. If my husband cheated on me, I would be done in a second. It would be over. No ifs, ands, or buts. There's no excuse. Have you seen him yet? No, I was-- I was about to tell you guys that I feel like I'm ready to go see him. I'm ready to start dealing with this. Like, I can't-- But that right there is-- JESS: Exactly. --almost like a collapse from that, like-- JESS: Right. That's a red flag. I mean, that text is like-- I would be panicked. And you're just telling us now that you're going to go see him. Like, we don't know-- Yeah, we don't know-- JESS: --where you are with this. --what-- what's happening, what's going on. I was honestly gonna tell you to be like, I'm ready to finally deal with this. [phone ringing] That's probably a good thing to do, though. Hello. Hey. I'm freaking out right now. You should be freaking out. Well, Jess and Kate are getting me all riled up. I just got a text from Dean saying I can't even look at [bleep] right now. In, like, 30 minutes. I have to go pick up the kids. What time will you be over? OK. Bye. He thinks you guys are freaks. He says that you're spiraling me. I just thought I was getting, like, a moment away, and then that happens. It takes me right back into it. [bleep] But I don't know anything yet. So but he's in a treatment center 24 hours a day, every day. Like, I-- he can't-- he couldn't have sex with someone if he wanted to. Like-- Yeah. --there physically is someone with them all 24 hours a day. I'm not-- I'm not trying to beat up on you. But you're too trusting. [music playing] TORI: Hold on. Hold on, Stella. Don't panic. OK, and go. Hi, how are you? I try to keep a normal life for the kids. And then one of the things that we do together and we've always done together, we do nail art. Like, that's our thing. I want to distract them from the fact that their dad's obviously not here. That's the elephant in the room. Dad's gone. This one, this one, and this one. And then that one? He likes to get rock and roll pedicures because his dad wears polished toes, so he wears it. Oh, yeah? TORI: Yeah. Cool. TORI: Cause you're a cool dude, right? Yeah. Here I am trying to enjoy it. But in the back of my head, all I can think about is this text with this girl. WOMAN: How old are you, Stella? Five. How old are you? 40. What? When is your birthday? The 16. WOMAN: You don't know your mommy's birthday? Why didn't you tell me? No, I didn't-- remember, we celebrated my 40th birthday? We all went to Mexico. Remember, Dad was filming in Canada? He met us in Mexico. We went with Uncle Mehran. Does this all sound familiar? No, I don't remember anything. Who are you? You're kind of like Dad now. I don't know about that. He always says that he doesn't know me. WOMAN: Is that when you're being bad? No. He does it all the time. It's a running joke in the family. Dean plays this game with here when he's like, who are you? And she's like, Stella. And he's like, Stella who? And she'll be like, Stella Doreen McDermott. He's like, how do I know you? She's like, I'm your daughter. And he's like, no. And when he does it, she smiles instantly and starts beaming. It's, like, their thing. And he hasn't been here to do it. And I was just trying to take the place of Dean playing that game. Now, it's getting creepy. Sorry. Getting creepy like he doesn't know me. He doesn't really not know you. Like, he's making a joke. Crazy. [music playing] TORI: What I called you about earlier in the fabric store. MEHRAN: It was nothing. I knew that no matter what I said-- Wait. Tell me what the-- where the text came from and who it was to. It was to another person in treatment. That's exactly what I said it was. Why did he text it to you? Was it by accident? By accident. The message wasn't for you. And I said, OK, I panicked when I saw it. Sorry, babe. My heart sunk when I saw your text. I thought whatever I say, she's not going to believe me. Let me see. Basically, he was texting with someone else. Pretty much, it was innocent. But I'm on high alert. What's going on here? What-- what-- what are you doing, cleaning up? Yeah. You are? By throwing them? Oh, no. MEHRAN: What? Ferris was H- U- M- P- I- N- G her. Ferris, I didn't know you had it in you. Oh, now, she's humping him. TORI: Oh my god. MEHRAN: So we're all together. - Wait. MEHRAN: Come on. - Wait. You're not concerned about this? No, I don't care. I just look over, and she-- and he's humping her. MEHRAN: He or she? He. You guys, that is not appropriate. There are children here. MEHRAN: Wait, you guys are going-- you're going to call your dad. Come here. Finn, you want to talk to Dada? OK, you want to call Dad and say good night, Dada? He's at his therapy, baby. MEHRAN: Let me take it. You don't-- OK, here's Dada. Hello? Hi, Dad. Hi, Daddy. I want you come to bed. TORI: OK, hold on. Let Finn have his moment, baby, and then you'll talk, OK? Say I love you. Hello? Oh my God, wait. You got disconnected. Hold on. OK, Liam. Hey, Dad. He didn't answer yet. It got disconnected. Let it ring again, and wait for him to pick up again. You got-- you want-- do you want more milk? No answer? Now, it went to message? Now, it's not picking up. [music playing] I don't know what I'm going to say to him today. I don't know what to expect, to be honest. I know it's going to be hard. And at the same time, I feel really excited to see him. And I feel like that's the wrong thing to say. I feel like it makes me sound weak. But it's been really hard, and I miss him. I miss having my best friend. ] with all these paparazzi. They should shut the gate. God. I hate them. I hate them. Yeah. OK, just block me. Tori! Tori! Tori! Yeah. Wait. Can I-- hold on. It doesn't matter what he did. He's still my husband, and I still want to look good. Don't judge me. [music playing] OK, let's go. Wait, they're right there. They're coming over the top. Hi. DEAN: Hey, baby. Hey. How are you doing? There is tons of paparazzi. So I had to come around the back. I'm sorry. I'm sorry you had to deal with that. No, I am feeling guilty bringing them here. DEAN: No, don't. Yeah, there's total transparency. I mean, I know he's been here working really hard on himself, and I would love to hear what you think of everything, where-- where he is presently, I guess. [music playing] My nickname. "Dino" wanted to be known as the tough guy, intimidating, bully. It's funny. We-- we had a conversation. You were like, I've never liked that nickname. And I was like, why? And she's like, it's just-- I don't know, something about is just kind of like mover, shaker, douchebag. And it had a real profound effect on me because like, yeah, I was-- I was that guy. I-- I was "Dino." The good side is obviously why I fell in love with him and why we started a relationship. But I became attuned to the other behavior. I started to see moments pop up, probably like, what, two months in, four months in to our relationship? Like, I felt-- what's the word-- bamboozled? I don't know, like-- I was really drinking a lot. --a bait and switch. And I-- I've lied my whole life. I-- I'm tired of living like a liar. That's how I got out of things for years. I-- I've-- I've hurt you so bad, and I [bleep] on our life. And so you know, that's why I'm dealing with my alcoholism, and my addiction, and my depression, and mental health. Everything that is so important to me is-- is on the line right now. And-- and if-- if I don't change who I am from the inside out, then-- then, you know, we're not gonna-- we're not going to make it. I'm not going to make it. Everything you're saying right now sounds very familiar. Mm-hmm. So I want to believe, and it could be true. But like, how-- I'm not in a place where I can believe any of it. If we're going to get through this together, I need you to be honest. I need you to tell me when you're hurt. You need to-- you need to tell me when you're furious at me. I'm angry for the obvious reasons. I'm angry that-- I'm angry that you cheated on me. Your voice got so small when you were saying cheating. Because I'm scared. I cheated on you. I cheated on you. I lied to you. I cheated on you, and I lied to you. I cheated on you. I cheated on you. I lied to you. I cheated on you, and I lied to you. That was the one thing that you always said would never happen. And that was my biggest fear our whole relationship. I mean, the night it happened, and I talked to you what, at seven-- no, six o'clock. Friday night, I talked to him. See, it's upsetting you. So now, I'm feeling like I can't speak. No, no. But I'm saying, like, that was the last communication I had with him that night. - I have to sit in this, babe. I'm angry that I feel like I had to doubt myself for so many years that I was the one that was so crazy not to trust you when eventually, I couldn't trust you. There's one thing that I-- I just want to say, genuinely that I'm sorry. I don't want to lose you. Over the last seven years together, I've tried to bring about change in Dean. We discussed why he would act a certain way, and it was old patterns. And he would always say that he understood, and he would change. And he never changed. Like, I've been let down over and over and over again. I'm not sure he can. I don't know if I believe it. We have to keep the door open. You can't have guests with the door closed. You put our pictures up. DEAN: Yeah, I try to make it just homey as possible. They miss you. I miss them so much. You have no idea. It's great to-- to be here and be so intensive in the therapy, but I-- I miss you guys like crazy-- like crazy. What are your thoughts about me coming home? Like, when? Coming home when? Soon. I just want-- I just want to-- I just want to see how you feel about it because I know how hard it is for you and how hard it is for the kids. And quite frankly, I'm really ready to come home. I-- I-- I don't think I'm comfortable with that yet. I feel like once I make that decision, I can't go back. Like, I-- that's the only thing I have-- DEAN: That totally makes-- --holding over you is that you're not home, like-- --that totally makes sense, but I want to-- I want to know, though, that you're not just using those excuses because what you really want is-- is you don't want me home at all. No, it's, like, the opposite. Like, I'm the type of person that would just sweep this under the rug, and you would come home. And we would just go right back. And I'd be like, I hope he changes, shoot. Like, now, we're in it. Like, I-- I don't have the tools to even challenge if you didn't change. Like, I-- I just feel like I need to be heard before we even embark on that. I just haven't been heard yet. And I-- I want you to be heard, babe. I haven't allowed myself to be heard, OK? I can't go to that place yet. Can I hug you right now? No. It seems like you're-- you're holding back, too. You should just let it go. - I know. - Let it go. Now. Why? What-- what would it feel like if you just slapped me in the face right now? I don't want to slap you. What if I wanted you to slap me in the face? Babe, that doesn't do anything for me. Because you can't access anger or-- It hurt so much, and-- no, please, please, please, babe. That makes it so hard for me. - I'm sorry. Sorry. Because when you do that, it makes me just want to be like, OK, everything's fine. We're fine. We're fine. And it's not fine. I'm just trying to be comfort you, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'll shut my mouth. I'm sorry. I don't want to cry because I feel like when I leave here, the paparazzi are going to still be out there. [bleep] the paparazzi. Well, sorry, but I have to go home and deal with it. Like, you don't-- you're safe here. You're protected. DEAN: Well, you-- I have to live my life. I have to-- We can bring the car in and shut the gate. They won't see you. I don't want them to see me crying. I don't want-- I have to go pick up Liam and Stella. OK, I'll walk you down. I'm conflicted because I want him to come home, too, because it's really hard taking care of four kids, and I would love the help. But I just feel like we're not there yet. JESS: You haven't seen it, or you saw it? TORI: I have to put all four of them down. And they won't sleep through the night. Honestly, you guys, this is a picture from five years ago. And I was never under 100 pounds. It's when I was sick. It's when I had the flu. Let me see the inside, what it says. And wait, why-- why are they saying you're hospitalized, though? I have no idea. Rough complexion. Wait, let me see. Oh, no. That's so-- like, I mean, come on. Like, really? That's a super bad picture. Well, right. Well, they just take a million pictures of you. So they take the worst. They want to show the worst one. There's, like, peach fuzz all over my face. That makes me feel really bad. I give up. Take this home. I don't want the kids to see it. OK. Jess and Wolf, they're two of our closest friends. So we do a lot of things together as couples. I talked to one of his therapists that does, like, patterns, I guess. When I hear so much about what a rough childhood Dean had, and how it's self-sabotage, and self-hatred in doing all of this, I understand. But it makes me feel like then I can't be angry about what he did because he has so much-- I mean, come on. Like, that's-- that's the stupidest thing I've ever heard in my life. No matter what, that's not an excuse for what he did to you and your family. And then he said today that he wants to come home. How do you feel about that? I don't feel like that's a good idea. I don't know. I don't even know how you go back to trusting someone after this. Well, it's sad that the one person who's supposed to be your rock did that. So I don't know. I mean-- I don't know how you handle it, honestly. I haven't seen you take time for you. Yeah. But he's by himself healing. I feel like this was all done to me, and then now, it's still-- And you're still getting screwed, yeah. Hey, what are you up for? Can you come in here, please? What happened to your game? I turned it off. WOLF: Are you supposed to be asleep? You're supposed to be asleep. I am not tired. I'll let you guys talk, and I'll go hang out with them for a minute. I'll let you guys chitchat. Five minutes, Liam. Special occasion. JESS: Is he OK? It feels impossible. What, him coming back or everything? Every-- like, it doesn't feel like I'm left with any option. I mean, realistically, I didn't plan on raising four kids alone, and then it scares me so much that I'm like, well, then what am I gonna do, no matter what, take him back just because of that? No, no. I will never forget what you said to me when we were shopping. You said that you felt like this was your-- you were just-- this was, like, your [bleep] lifetime and next time would be better. And when you said that to me, I was like-- like, how could you even say that? That's just-- I went and told Wolf. I was like, that was really sad that you even said that because that's just-- I don't even remember saying that. You did. I'll never forget you said that because we were talking about the kids, too. And I said that there's no reason-- like, if you are not happy, the kids aren't going to be happy. [music playing] I don't even remember I said that. When I met Dean, I opened myself up in a way that I had never emotionally done before. And I allowed myself to feel things and to love someone entirely with the promise that there is this future. I don't know what I did to deserve all this. You didn't do anything. And that's what you have to remember. You did absolutely nothing. And now, when I think of that, I'm so scared that we won't grow old together. That's my biggest fear. I don't want Liam to see me cry. I don't want him to see me cry, OK? JESS: OK. My friends have all said that I can't believe what's going on how calm you seem. When I say I haven't processed this yet, I'm telling the truth. I completely haven't processed this yet. And I know that to even figure out what I want to do and need to do that I have to deal with this and deal with Dean and deal with what's happened. [music playing] Have you been angry? Have you had a chance to be, like, mad? I can't forget about what happened. Well, you know, it could happen again. Could you be a single mom with four kids? This is so scary. That's how far I had gone down the rabbit hole. That was not something that needed to be talked about. I don't know if that's enough. Maybe love doesn't always help. LIAM: Hi, Dada!
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