This Is How I ESCAPED The Cult Of WOKENESS

all right welcome back to my channel if you haven't done so already please subscribe but let's get right into it this is actually how i escaped wokeness i i became a woke zombie for a while and it was very much so due to college just like every other story you hear i'm very grateful to be out of that cult and this is kind of my journey um into how i got into that and how i kind of got out and how you can also test to see if you're in the cult of wokeness because the reason i say cult is to denote that it is bad for you like it is bad for your health your relationships for your future your country for your neighborhood for your cat your dog the spider in the corner for everyone i don't know how to say this so i want to describe what it feels like if someone doesn't really understand it i know they're people who they've just been like and i woke from the beginning i don't know how someone can actually be anti-woke from like the beginning because that's kind of i hate to use the word that's kind of problematic like you were not woke at any point in time so hopefully everyone watching this at a point kind of had a drip of like wokeness because i think people go into it with good intentions and there is that's the whole trick about it is is the the well-meaning folks who get sucked into this thing that has so much attached to it in a very trojan horse-like fashion so it's i i hope that there are some people who were like you know i mean well i do want to end racism or i didn't like what i saw uh with the george floyd thing so i do want to do a little bit of work to make sure that i'm fighting against any systemic oppression that exists and that sort of thing this video and these videos aren't to appease those types of people like i don't think that's good with that said there's a different thing going on right now our current mode of like social justice there's something amiss about it and i'm here to say like i fell for that wave for a little bit but it doesn't yield the sort of liberation that you would think it would yield now a little bit of background about myself i spent my high school years in south africa and during the time in south africa i learned a lot about nelson mandela i was in school in south africa through the late 2000s and it was still healing so there was a lot of discussion about race they had a truth and reconciliation commission but not only that they just adopted a framework that aids forgiveness and people think i make this stuff up literally des122 has written two books as far as i know two books on forgiveness desmond tutu was out there protesting like getting arrested getting tear gas his daughter and his wife were strip searched uh in a very um disrespectful manner by the apartheid uh police force archbishop desmond tutu wasn't allowed to vote even though he was a a notable respected archbishop just the fact that he experienced the the worst form of racism and fought against it and his ultimate thesis coming out of that was we need to forgive and that actually kept the nation from becoming a terror war zone bloodbath uh dystopia is something to take note of and that's what we learned a lot about during high school so that was embedded in me from the beginning like from the time i kind of started learning about nelson mandela from to the time that i was in college i began to you know things were fine blm really wasn't a thing at the time life was good to me america was one of the friendliest countries i've ever been to but then college was like you know it taught critical theory it taught critical race theory when it came to like sociology and stuff like that it was it was it was dark the trouble is when you learn from that lens and that's really kind of what some classes took it wasn't like oh this is this is a theory or this is um a school of thought it was this is how you have to look at life like these are the tools and that's that's it like this is actually what reality is i had that framework kind of begin to get embedded in me but pay attention to the feeling i didn't feel good about it like i remember the one day it was raining outside it was almost halloween i think it was like 2014 and we were learning about symbolism we're learning about uh antonio gramsci gramski i don't know how to pronounce his last name and the hegemony and i just felt dark like i literally feel like it felt like my heart was opening and like darkness was coming inside from that moment it was dark as i adopted that lens through college like my outlook of the world was dark and hopeless little did i know my outlook of the world would then come back to affect my my look and the way i saw myself who i was the value that i brought how people saw me all just deteriorated because it was like i had to take all these factors into consideration i came out of i came out of college with that world view i came out of college thinking like as a black woman opportunities for me are so much less likely to happen or be given because of my blackness that i was very much so uh hyper aware of microaggressions i was very aware of just like the way the world is the way you're taught that the world is so it's like everything's working against you literally like you walk out of the door and like everyone is conspiring against you so whereas from the beginning i would just kind of walk down the street and say hi to people if they didn't say hi back i was like whatever it was like every look that i got was it was racist it was just racist and it was also racist sexist like it was more than just one thing it was like everything you are is everything someone else hates like literally walk down to the store and i'm i'll not pay attention to all the people who walked by me and who were just normal i would walk by like say 10 people and if one person like gave me a bad look or or you know they didn't move out of the way like they're walking and then like you know it's like oh what do you do and they just keep going i interpreted that as like it's an act it's a microaggression like that is an act of racism so regardless of all the other interactions i was fine that one thing would ruin my day like i remember i felt like i would have a dagger in my heart but it wasn't just that see that's just going to the store now you have to go through the whole day and if you ever get anything of someone treating you like crap or if you ever get someone who like opens the door right for maybe their family and then like you're far away off and they don't open the door for you like actions like that i would interpret all of that as microaggressions against me so that would make me so fragile that by the end of the day i'm literally i'm filled with so much darkness i'm filled with so much anxiety i'm filled with so much stress that i can't even like do my normal like work like i can't live my life like that right like i can't live and actually work and give a hundred percent of the task because i'm kind of under stress and duress so yeah that's what life was like like honestly like that's what life was like when you are hyper aware of all these kind of critical theory notions and ideas especially like the neo-marxism stuff it's like i don't really know what to do with this energy except protest i remember i was super like bothered about like no justice no peace in la like i wanted to do whatever i could to help 2016 y'all like 2016 i was out like i literally i was out when i heard like trump was running and like you know cnn was saying everything that was wrong with trump i literally couldn't function i couldn't like i couldn't pay attention in school and when trump got elected like i literally couldn't hand in assignments that quarter like i had to ask for extensions for my time limit because i literally couldn't focus i was like sick i was literally sick i was depressed i was stressed everyone cry i would spend my entire night almost like throughout the night trying to block ben shapiro's account like trying to get it reported i would like report it to twitter like can you please suspend ben shapiro why is he still on here i remember that so vividly and this lady called ann coulter i think i don't remember i don't even know who she is i don't know what she does but i was like anne has to be removed she's killing me and that was my life like literally that was my existence every day it wasn't until it got too much it literally wasn't until like it got too much that i couldn't function that i was like i have to do something about it's like i have all these knives of like people not opening doors for me people not looking at me well people not saying the thing that they should have said people saying the wrong thing i mean just like getting looks like getting looks was enough to trigger me for the day and i was at a point where i was literally like i'm a christian and i just had to be like lord what do i do with this like i feel horrible i'm not at peace like i am not at peace and he was literally like you have to forgive them my word is very clear about offense don't be offended the bible literally is like don't be offended and that that is that doesn't mean that no one should offend you that just means that if someone offends you don't take that offense to heart so i remember just sitting down with like a i think i had like a notebook or a journal and i just started writing like i just started writing all the names and everything anyone had ever done because i remembered it all like i remembered everything every white person had ever done like a car ride anything where they said anything i held all of that here guys and it was too much to the point i just had to write it and i remember just like beginning that was the beginning of feeling peace writing it down so this is if you're trying to find out how to have peace hopefully somehow this video is giving that to you just begin to write down everything and don't hold off race don't think like oh race is this untouchable field like we're not gonna go there no if someone has offended you because of a racist act write it down and i remember writing it down and then just being like okay i let this go like i let this go i give it to you god like i i forgive them like i forgive them for all the things that they did these are people that i actually still have relationships with today they probably don't know how much hate and how much like anger i had towards them for the things that they didn't even know they were doing but in the moment of forgiveness and this was a journey this wasn't just like one journal night this was like i had to do it over and over again and if something resurfaced i would be like okay i can't hold on to that like i want to hold the grudge but i'm like this is gonna break me apart and i just journal it down i just write it down i write down what went wrong and i would say like you know what this person could have had a bad day and that is just as much as a possibility as as it would have been that it was a racist act like i had to be open to those possibilities otherwise i'd never let go of the grudge and so i just did this over and over again and it took about a year honestly guys like it took a year to kind of go through all those incidents and journal it out and be like you know what i can't hold on to this this is another one that i'm trying to keep forever and hold on to it for fuel for fire but ultimately guys when i tell you now i had so much peace you guys and i still have so much peace and it actually isn't just about those incidents and like forgetting them i remember them vividly but there's no pain attached to them and i cannot tell you i've never had this amount of control in my life emotionally um and in terms of like my psyche like i feel so much peace from morning to sundown so through that process of forgiveness it's much more harder for me to take offense now because i had to reject that whole that whole mode of thinking and i'm like yo i don't even want to play your woke game that alone is adding such a burden to my life that i haven't been able to find or correlate in actual reality like it is a burden that is optional because it doesn't actually exist in real life and since i let that go i can sleep a full night's sleep and not toss and turn i can look at ben shapiro and be like yo live your life i don't really care i can be like i'm gonna paint right now like i literally have a painting right here i can paint when i want i am always at peace 24 7 yo like this is why i really want my black brothers and sisters to consider forgiveness and then maybe in your own time you can forgive because it's like you're being robbed of your own peace and guess what you're the only life you're gonna live you're not gonna like live another life like the guarantee of that is never there right now your soul your existence your consciousness it's only you you're the only body you're gonna embody on this earth at this time so ultimately because of this i couldn't hold on to wokeness anymore like wokeness was literally crippling me literally crippling me i couldn't see the gain in it in any way whatsoever there was just no gain in being woke and my lived experience can change but then my lived experience gets challenged because it doesn't fit the narrative there's just so many things i was like this isn't worth it i'm just gonna have my own life and i'm gonna live my own life i'm gonna be my own person like i was done with it and i'm done with it now i'm free like i am so free you're robbing yourself of the best experience of your life which is just being free deep down in your soul that's all i have to say that is how i escaped the cult of wokeness if you like this video like this video leave a comment below when did you wake up and when did you leave the cult of wokeness you can still care about the widow the orphan the poor you can do that without wokeness i love you and i'll catch you later bye-bye

Channel: Kimi Katiti

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Keywords: artist, musician, los angeles, skateboarding, girls, california, skater, vlog, black, female, illustrator, african, woman, girl, how to, cult, woke, wokeness, antiracism, antiwoke, problematic, grace, forgiveness, freedom, deliverance, free, forgive, desmond tutu, south africa, college, fear, anxiety, depression, ben shapiro, ann coulter, cnn, nelson mandela, apartheid, deprogramming, deprogram, deprogrammed

Id: S5Ak5uEcDUQ

Length: 15min 4sec (904 seconds)

Published: Fri May 28 2021

Reddit Comments

[u/chillthrowaways]

Amazing.

I guess it's good to see people realizing the woke ideology is shit, but this is an ass backwards way of getting there. How about realizing that the things you were "forgiving" people for weren't even about you in the first place. The guy who didn't hold the door for you probably didn't see you, the person who "gave you a look" probably wasn't even thinking about you. It's not that these people have done wrong things, but should be forgiven. It's that THESE AREN'T WRONG THINGS that happened, but you somehow twisted every single thing that happened to you into something racist.

[u/__pulsar]

Say "literally" one more time I dare you....

[u/cyrixdx4]

Subscribed. I hope she gets in touch with other youtubers to show that she isn't alone in this revelation.