Mikey Sauers:<i>
I don't think
anyone is immune</i> <i> to the effects of war.</i> It doesn't matter
what your upbringing is, <i> how tough you are,</i> <i> how badass
of a SEAL you are,</i> you have to accept
you're doing an inherently
dangerous job, <i> and people die.</i> Mark Matzeldelaflor:<i>
War is violence, right?</i> <i> Once you've experienced that,</i> it never leaves you,
it's always there. Dave Hancock:<i>
War, it's confusion,
it's chaotic,</i> <i> it's disgusting.</i> It's all
the worst parts. <i> Trying to understand that,</i> I mean, people have been
trying to understand that for-- for millennia. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
Ramadi is 2006
was the hotbed.</i> If you had a heat map
of conflict going on
in the world, you've got your hot fire red,
that was Ramadi. Sauers:<i>
Ramadi was, like, you know,
take a dirty city</i> <i> where they have all
the abandoned buildings</i> and then throw
some garbage on it, light it on fire,
and that was Ramadi. <i> It was just dirty,
it was bombed out.</i> A lot of the infrastructure
was damaged. Hancock:<i>
It smelled like
gun powder</i> mixed with...
like rotting flesh. Sauers:<i>
It was a very
hostile environment.</i> A very unforgiving
environment. Most of the insurgents
in that area just had
a run of the land. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
There's insurgents
running around</i> <i> torturing people,
planting IEDs,</i> <i> and not just
attacking Americans</i> <i> but their own people.</i> Team 5 was there
to take out the trash,
essentially, <i> to get those bad people
out of the picture.</i> <i> Knowing that it was the most
dangerous place in the world,</i> <i> that's where
we all wanted to go.</i> <i> It's something we feed on.</i> You want to go
to the fight. <i> Guys want to employ
their training.</i> <i> And they want to make
a difference.</i> Sauers:<i>
We fight for America,</i> <i> but your brothers
the most important thing,</i> the guys on the left
and right of you. <i> Those are the guys
that really, you know,</i> <i> make why you're out there
important.</i> My name's Mike Sauers,
I was at SEAL Team 5. And I was a point man. <i> A point man is a person</i> <i> that walks in the front
of the patrol</i> <i> figuring out the routes
to the target.</i> Usually the first person
that's gonna come in contact with any enemy that's gonna
attack you from the front. My name is Dave Hancock,
I was a comms guy. <i> You were the guy
on the radio</i> <i> getting all of the information
from various sources.</i> And you're painting
a picture to the people
who can't see it. <i> My name is
Mark Matzeldelaflor.</i> I was on Team 5,
I was a sniper and an assaulter. There's definitely a lot
of different personalities in a SEAL platoon. <i> And I think that's
what really brings
a SEAL platoon</i> <i> to what it is.</i> Hancock:<i>
There was this guy,
Rob Guzzo.</i> <i> As soon
as Rob checked in,</i> and he was gonna be
a comms guy, I mean,
we just hit it off
right off the bat. <i> Like, we were
just laughing all the time.</i> Rob is a guy where
if you met him once, you would never forget. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
He was a walking holiday.</i> <i> It's like the feeling you get
when Christmas is around</i> and there's like
this warm warmness around
and you're just happy. <i> So it was like
a very positive energy.</i> Hancock:<i>
He's just got, like,
this high-pitch laugh.</i> ( imitates laughs ) Like it goes something
like that, like... ( imitates laugh ) And you would
just start laughing. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
Rob was a total jokester,</i> <i> which is awesome,
but at the same time,
he was serious.</i> You know, his parents
were both military and he had
this sense of pride. Robin Andersen:<i>
Rob as a child</i> was always very active. <i> And he liked
to make people laugh.</i> <i> His father was very athletic,
being a Navy SEAL,</i> <i> and so Rob got
a lot of his natural
athletic ability</i> <i> from his father.</i> Bob Guzzo:<i>
He was around
the SEAL Teams</i> and so he got
to see it first hand and I'm sure that was
planting that seed then. When Rob was 9,10,
Bob was a BUD/S instructor <i> and would take
Rob frequently</i> <i> to the SEAL
training compound.</i> Guzzo:<i>
Sometimes we'd go
to the pool</i> <i> and I'd give him
a little spin in the water</i> and, of course,
he was all game for it. Once I realized he was
comfortable with it, I said, "Well let's try
tying your hands up." He goes, "All right,
let's go for it." Then we did
the hands and feet tied. And he loved it. <i> There was nothing
that he wasn't willing
to do or try</i> <i> and give it
a hundred percent.</i> Andersen:<i>
He's always been
the guy's guy</i> <i> that everybody wants
to be their buddy.</i> <i> His younger brother, Aaron,
and then his other siblings</i> you know, they all
just idolized Rob. He was the big brother. <i> After he graduated
from high school,</i> <i> he ended up going
to State University
of New York</i> in Cortland,
New, York, which was where
his father went. <i> He played football
like his father,</i> and his father
was in the Beta fraternity, which Rob joined there
as well. So it was kinda,
as time went on, <i> it really looked like
he was following</i> <i> his dad's footsteps.</i> <i> When he decided
to join the Navy,</i> <i> it was on September 11th.</i> Guzzo:<i>
I was stationed
at the Pentagon.</i> <i> I put in 27 years
in the United States Navy,</i> <i> and 25 of those years
were to SEAL teams.</i> <i> So fast forward now
to me getting orders to DC</i> <i> as an anti-terrorism
officer.</i> We're sitting in our office
that morning. <i> You could literally feel
the building shake.</i> <i> And there was no doubt
in our minds what was
going on.</i> <i> ( sirens wail )</i> Guzzo:<i>
By the time we got in there,
it was just--</i> <i> you couldn't even
recognize it as a building.</i> <i> It was just total chaos.</i> Andersen:<i>
I called the fraternity house.</i> The first thing he said
when he picked up the phone, "Is my dad okay?" And I said, "He's fine." And he just, like,
broke down in tears. You could tell,
he was moved by it. He says,
"I wanna do what you did." Andersen:<i>
I was like,
"Rob, you've got a degree.</i> <i> You can go in
as a commissioned officer."</i> And he's like,
"No, you know, I want
to go in at the bottom. I've seen how people
respect you." 'Cause I enlisted
and then got a a commission
half way through. <i> And so I said,
you know,</i> <i> "All right."</i> You know, I was just
so proud of him. Guzzo:<i>
With the world affairs
the way they were moving,</i> I knew Rob was going
to certainly get deployed
into a combat zone. <i> ( gunfire )</i> <i> So when I heard that Rob
and his platoon</i> <i> was going to Ramadi,
I obviously was concerned.</i> Everyone knew Ramadi
was extremely volatile. It was very
hotly contested. It was controlled
by the bad guys. Andersen:<i>
There was just
so much combat</i> and so much death
of American forces. I remember thinking,
"This ( bleep )
just got real." I mean, this is--
this is not playing around. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
The reason we were in Ramadi
was to bring about</i> a certain amount
of order and control
to a chaotic scene. <i> ( gunshot )</i> ( shouting ) Sauers:<i>
It was just such a violent
environment over there</i> and, I mean,
it was a very tough
environment to fight in. <i> ( gunfire )</i> <i> I mean, the buildings were
literally touching each other.</i> <i> There's a lot
of channelized terrain.</i> You're constantly
looking around 360 and 720, so you're
constantly looking up. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
Alleys, windows, doors.</i> <i> Each window is a threat
where someone could be hiding.</i> They could shoot from
and gauge you from. So you needed to have
a lot of communications between the troops. ( gunfire ) ( shouting )
Move! Move! Dave's coming up!
Dave's coming up. You can ask guys,
"Hey, what's the biggest
weapon you carry?" ( gunfire ) You know, and guys'll be like,
"Oh, 50 cal sniper rifle.
Or machine gun." No.
It's your radio. <i> It's the biggest weapon
you carry.</i> ( gunfire ) Matzeldelaflor:<i>
If we're in a fire fight,
that comm guy is your voice.</i> The comms guy
is the one that's going to bring in support,
reinforcements. The comms guy
is basically the guy that's gonna
save your butt. Hancock:<i>
So then it's up to you
to be sure</i> <i> that you have positive comms
at all times.</i> On several occasions,
I mean, you'd have to go outside on the roof
and expose yourself, <i> just to actually
get positive comms.</i> A lot of times,
we would be on our back
just kind of... just kind of like
skedaddling along the roof
like this, with an antennae
up like this. <i> Like, "Hey."
( Hancock laughs )</i> "Hey,
can you hear me now?" This is Red Bull six Romeo. Be advised,
troops in contact. Sauer:<i>
Dave was our
head communicator</i> <i> for the platoon.</i> <i> It's one of those jobs,</i> it's not as sexy
as being a sniper. <i> You know,
when you're a kid,</i> <i> I don't think
anybody wanted to be</i> <i> the little green army man</i> that was holding
the big radio. - But it's so important.
- ( grunts ) Man on radio:<i>
Red Bull six Romeo
this is Slater oh nine...</i> Hancock:<i>
I grew up in Syracuse,
New York.</i> <i> I was a three sport
athlete,</i> <i> so I played football,
I did indoor track,</i> <i> I played lacrosse at college
on a scholarship.</i> I was on a team
for 13 years. I joined up in 2001,
right after the attacks. Just seeing the smoke
from my mother's place just kind of
did something to me. <i> At the armory,
there was fliers everywhere,</i> <i> as far as the eye
could see,</i> <i> for families,
if they hadn't heard
from somebody</i> <i> who worked on the towers.</i> And I looked up
and there was this older lady. <i> She was probably 60.</i> <i> She had climbed probably
about 15 to 18 feet</i> <i> up a power poll.</i> <i> Because she had a flier
of her son,</i> <i> who was in Tower One.</i> But she refused
to post that flier over anybody else's flyer. Just out of respect, she did that. Yeah, that--
that was probably a defining moment
in my life. <i> I wanted to do something,
to have an impact.</i> <i> And I didn't
want to wait.</i> <i> I wanted to be
the best of the best</i> and I wanted
to go fight. Sauers:<i>
Dave had a serious side</i> because he would get
so focused in, laser focused
on what he was doing and making sure
everything was
super perfect. Sauer:<i>
Dave was kind of like
Rob's mentor.</i> <i> Rob was an assistant
communicator.</i> And Dave definitely
ran a tight ship. A lot of times
me and Rob would be up
for, you know, four or five extra hours
after a particular op, changing
all of the radios because we were gonna be
in a different battle space for the next operation. <i> We'd do comm checks
with every guy,</i> <i> with every truck,</i> <i> and with the actual
battle space commanders.</i> <i> Because it all boiled down
to one thing.</i> Make comms. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
Rob didn't take
that lightly at all,</i> <i> that he was responsible
for the safety</i> of all of his brothers. Sauers:<i>
I remember seeing Rob
in his element</i> <i> and really, you know,
being a master of his craft.</i> - What you got, Mikey?
- Nothing yet. Clear, man. We were doing
an overwatch mission. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
There was weapons
being moved in a Mosque.</i> <i> Our whole task unit
that was out there</i> set up in different positions
to monitor this insurgent activity
that was going on. Dave, we got,
like, a peek-in
north of our position. Copy. Be advised OP 1
has a looker to the north. <i> No copy.</i> From building number? Man on radio:<i>
Building seven.</i> Okay, I've got looker,
building seven. Sauers:<i>
It was a pretty big
operation.</i> <i> I think we had
three separate elements</i> <i> just with our SEAL unit.</i> And there were several other
army units out there. There was a marine unit. <i> ( men shouting
in Native language )</i> Ready, fellas. Mosque started putting out
a call for blood, which is a call
for people to come and fight. <i> ( shouting continues )</i> -<i> ( gunshots ) </i>
- Contact, contact! Comms, OP 1
has troops in contact. Say again,
troops in contact. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
And we just started
taking heavy fire.</i> ( gunfire ) I got 'em, I got 'em. And ( bleep )
hit the fan. Like...
( imitates explosion ) <i> ( men shouting
in native language )</i> ( gunshots ) - What do we got?
- Hey, we got contact north. Sauers:<i>
I was on a roof with Rob,
trying to deconflict</i> where the different
elements were at. - What was the last location?
- Building 19. And we had a map
of the area. <i> We were trying
to figure out</i> <i> where the fire
was coming from,</i> what was their positions. <i> Asking Rob
all these questions.</i> I mean, it was just bang,
bang, bang, bang. Hancock:<i>
I mean, we were just dropping
people left and right.</i> ( blows ) Shootin' 'em,
killin' 'em. 'Cause they kept
coming out. But they we wanted
to get out of there before things
turn really south. <i> So Rob was in charge
of getting all of his guys
out of there.</i> OPs 1 and 2,
move to extraction. <i> You guys converse,
we'll hold down the watch.</i> Copy all, copy all.
Break it down. Break it down.
Let's go. Break it down. So we had elements
in different buildings, so we were cross covering
each other. - ( gunfire )
- ( shouting ) <i> Rob was coordinating
the extract vehicle.</i> Where the vehicle
was gonna come in, what's going on
in the battle field, <i> where rounds
are coming from,</i> <i> where bad guys are at,</i> who was gonna move when. - ( gunfire )
-<i>
30 seconds!</i> <i> ( man shouts )</i> Hancock:<i>
That's a lot
of crap to balance.</i> <i> Like, we have,
what, 50 guys out there?</i> And there's rounds
going every which way. OPs 1 and 2,
breakout is a go. - ( gunfire )
-<i> Go!</i> Move forward! ( indistinct ) And so Rob's element,
those were the last guys
off the target. <i> So they were overwatching
our two elements</i> <i> as we were moving
to extract.</i> We're out, we're out. Torches ahead,
heads up. OPs 1 and 2
have moved out. <i> ( explodes )</i> All right,
let's go. I was in the same
element as Rob. <i> So we were
the last ones to leave,</i> <i> to move to the truck.</i> <i> Go!</i> <i> This whole time,
Rob is on the radio.</i> - Fire. Pealing south.
Both of these are--
- ( man shouts ) Matzeldelaflor:<i>
When he's not
shooting rounds,</i> <i> he's listening
the entire time.</i> ( gunshots ) ( shouting ) Man, get over here!
Come on! - Left bank.
- Move! - ( gunshots )
- Let's get outta here! Get down! Let's go! Come on. So Rob was responsible
for the safe extract and the safe operation
of 50 plus guys at once, during a massive
engagement. And he did
a phenomenal job. All right, let's go. Hancock:<i>
That point of the deployment,</i> <i> things were still
real, real hot.</i> Sauers:<i>
We were doing a great job
of maintaining</i> <i> the infrastructure
and integrity</i> <i> in Ramadi.</i> <i> But we still knew
it was a very dangerous place.</i> <i> You know,
one of the greatest things,
is like, you know,</i> <i> just being in a really
terrible situation,
you know?</i> You're just hunkered down
on the ground, and you can just look over
at the guy next to you and he looks at you
and smiles and laughs. <i> Rob was known
for trying to break up</i> the monotony
on missions. One of his classic moves was to tell
a "knock knock" joke. Like, we're actually
hitting this building, right? And, like, we're clearing
the building. It's a very serious thing. And the doors don't open,
he looks back at me, and he's like,
"Knock, knock." And I was like,
"Wait-- now, here, now? Are you--
Like, really now?" He's like,
"Knock, knock." I was like,
"Who's there? What? Who?" And he's like,
"Theodor." And I was like,
"Yeah, okay. Theodore who?" And he's like,
"Theodore's locked." ( laughing ) He said, "Hey, do you know
what time you go
to the dentist?" And I said,
"Is this a joke?" And he says, "Yeah."
And I said, "What time?" He says, "Tooth hurty." ( giggles )
I said, "What?" He said,
"Tooth hurty. Get it? Tooth hurty." I said, "Yeah, Rob.
That's terrible." When a joke cracks off
in the middle of something
like that, it kind of makes you
take a couple steps back
in your mind. <i> And so I think
it actually has an actual
real benefit</i> beyond just
being humorous. <i> Rob and myself
were in the same tent</i> <i> in Camp Marc Lee.</i> One of the Christmas packages
that came for Rob had this little polar bear,
and you pressed its hand <i> and it would light up
and do a little dance</i> <i> and sing the,</i>
♪ Stop, collaborate<i>
and listen ♪</i> ♪ Ice is back
with my brand new invention ♪ ♪ Something grabs... You know,
like every time
we'd come back, we'd go to that
and just press it
and watch it. Press it again.
It became like a ritual. Like every time
you come back you just... Yo, relax.
Kick it one time, boy. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
And then we'd sit there for,</i> you know, five times
just play that thing. This stupid
little polar bear that would just
gave us such joy. <i> It was like a little piece
from the outside world</i> <i> in this--
in this war zone.</i> Matz is--
he's very laid back. <i> But when he needed to be,
he was a very intense guy.</i> Matz was a sniper, and a hell of a sniper too. <i> He was wired
into his craft.</i> Matzeldelaflor:<i>
I grew up in
New Hampshire.</i> <i> I was an only child.</i> <i> Growing up, I'd just always
be running around in the woods,</i> <i> like, climbing mountains,
snowboard ,and skate,</i> <i> I did a lot
of skateboarding.</i> Sneaking on
to people's property,
mischievous stuff. The most military exposure
I had in my family would have been
from my uncle who is a marine,
who I looked up to
for sure. <i> And so I started researching
the military.</i> <i> You know,
I found team guys</i> who blow ( bleep ) up
and go after people,
you know. So I thought
that was pretty cool. Hancock:<i>
So we were sitting
in a building</i> <i> and we got compromised
at some point in time.</i> ( gunfire ) I remember hearing
do do do do do. <i> They lobbed a couple
grenades up on the roof.</i> - Man: Go, go, go!
- ( explodes ) <i> We had guys on the roof.</i> <i> They tumble
down the stairs.</i> Like, "Holy ( bleep ).
That was close, you know." But then, like,
somebody had to go up
and get all the gear because, like
there was still gear. Like, there was guns
and belts up there
on the roof. <i> And so Rob kind of
heads it out the door.</i> <i> And there's literally like,
the unexploded grenade.</i> All their old grenades are
pretty nasty and trash. All their fuse timers
can just burn real slow. <i> So you never really know
when it's gonna go off.</i> They can not go off
for three, four minutes and then just...
( imitates explosion ) There's literally,
like, a grenade. <i> It's unexploded ordnance,
it's sitting right there,</i> <i> but it doesn't have
a spoon on it.</i> <i> All the guns
are on the other side
of the roof.</i> And Rob just...
he just kinda like... Like, he looks over at me
and smiles and he's like... ( humming )
And he kinda does
a little dance. And he kind just
hops over it. Like, just kinda giddy. You know, he goes
to that side of the roof,
he grabs that stuff. I cut over to the right,
I grab the stuff over here. And then he's
just kinda laughing. He looks back at me
and he's just like... You know,
just kinda playing around. And I'm like,
"Get inside," you know.
"What're you doin'?" He's like,
"Well, that was
interesting." So we just kinda finished up
and went about our way. He didn't hesitate.
He knew that we have to go
over there and get that. <i> And he chose
the most perilous route.</i> He chose the one that was
gonna keep me safer. So to me,
that personifies "warrior." Matzeldelaflor:<i>
I mean, Rob's the most
loyal guy you can get.</i> No matter what,
he's gonna support you, 'cause you're his bro. Sauers:<i>
When he went through BUD/S,
I was an instructor</i> so it was really cool,
to be able to think, "Hey, I've just put
this guy through training," <i> and to be able to see,
Rob evolve</i> <i> into a highly trained
warfighter,</i> <i> it was a really
rewarding process.</i> I grew up
in a small town in central Pennsylvania
called Port Allegany. <i> Grew up hunting and fishing
and played sports.</i> <i> The worst thing
you could do to me
as a kid</i> <i> is make me sit in a chair
for five minutes.</i> I think I was
about 15 or 16, one of my older brother's
friends told me he was in
Navy SEALs training. He's like,
"We're like a wrestling team that carries machine guns
and blows stuff up." So to me, I was like,
"That sounds great." <i> I was in the Navy
for 13 years</i> and I was a SEAL
for 11 years of that. I mean, Mikey had been
on a lot of rotations before. So he had been there
and done that. I had a good respect
for him already when he came
to our platoon. He's a fun-loving
type of guy, you know? In addition
to just being a good pipe hitting
team guy. Newscaster:<i>
President Bush heard
from his top military brass</i> <i> at the Pentagon,
Wednesday,</i> <i> who have urged him
to boost the number
of US troops</i> <i> assigned to train
the Iraqi security forces.</i> Hancock:<i>
About midway
through deployment,</i> <i> our main focus
had begun to shift</i> to support
the Iraqi police. Sauers:<i>
But I don't think
it was to the point</i> where the Iraqi police and the Iraqi Army
themselves <i> were able to hold it down
without a US presence.</i> While we deployed,
Ramadi, it did get better. But it was
constant maintenance. Hancock:<i>
So we were constantly
being, like, pulled out</i> to go and assist on these
particular missions. And it happened
all the time. <i> Like, there was a school</i> <i> and some suicide psycho
decides to go blow himself up</i> while school
is in session. <i> It took out
like the equivalent</i> <i> of a busload
of schoolchildren.</i> <i> I don't care
how hard you think you are,</i> <i> like, the first time
you see one of those
kind of aftermaths...</i> <i> You know, like the dust
hasn't even settled yet.</i> <i> The smell of explosion--</i> I mean, it's still rampant
in the air. <i> It kind of resets your...</i> <i> I would say
your level of what's</i> <i> just utterly
disgusting in the world,
you know.</i> Sauers:<i> You know,
guys like Rob and Dave</i> <i> had to report
on what's going on.</i> <i> As a communicator,
you have to get very intimate,</i> you know, with the environment
around you. Hancock:<i>
So, like, you have to say,</i> <i> "Well, so far
we've identified</i> <i> that there is
at least 11 children.</i> <i> And how do you identify,
like, 11 children,</i> from like a mass
suicide bombing? Well, you identify them
by body parts with like different pieces
of clothing on. <i> I mean, being a comms guy
in that particular situation,</i> <i> things would be
a little bit closer to you</i> <i> because you were
having to hear it.</i> <i> And then you're having
to, like, talk about it.</i> That kind of puts it on-- on a different level. <i> I remember Rob having
to go on a few of those.</i> And he was visibly
just like, "What the--
like, what? Excuse my--
like, what?" And I think, I'll speak for myself, like, you never really
understand, like, you never really
come to come to grips
with that answer. You know,
it starts-- it starts weighing
on you. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
The enemy in Ramadi</i> <i> was pretty into using kids.</i> Hancock:<i>
What I thought
was just disgusting</i> was the use of kids for the intent. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
They know that people
have soft spots for kids,</i> <i> and they'd exploit that.</i> They'd try to leverage them
to carry things for them, to move weapons
or explosives or even
to set up attacks. Such a war-torn country. And, you know,
most of these kids-- it's like, you know,
they don't really have
long-term goals. <i>It's really hard to understand,
as an American.</i> <i> They grow up
in a war-zone.</i> Like, war has been
their life. Hancock:<i>
So we were on a target,</i> like, right in the middle
of the city. <i> ( gunfire )</i> Watch that front,
watch that front! We got attacked
on three different sides. <i> Folks are coming your way,
Jack, they're coming your way.</i> Hancock:<i>
Guzzo was on
the second story window.</i> Moving in the alley. Hancock:<i>
Well, one of the guys
attacking was a kid.</i> <i> He was like
a 10-year-old kid,</i> eight, ten-year-old kid. <i> But he was dressed up,
he was dressed up</i> like a full blown
25 year old attacker. You know,
he had his check rack. <i> He didn't even have
his AK on him.</i> <i> But he went
to pick it up.</i> <i> I know Rob
didn't want to</i> <i> but, I mean, he had
to make a decision.</i> <i> "Do I do this?
'Cause he's going
to pick it up.</i> <i> Do I not do this?</i> <i> Do I do this?"</i> ( muffled gunshot ) Hancock:<i>
Rob had to make
a decision.</i> <i> You know, several of us
have been</i> in that same situation. You know, like,
you wait until the last
possible second. <i> You know...</i> <i> To protect himself
and his brothers,</i> <i> you know,
he did what he had to do.</i> In the SEAL teams,
we try to inoculate you to any situation
possible. But the real thing
is always the real thing. I couldn't imagine
that there was anybody
out there who wanted to shoot
an eight-year-old kid. But when that kid's
pulling a trigger and rounds are flying
towards you and everybody
around you, that kid is
a significant threat. Sauers:<i>
Having women
and children be part</i> <i> of that enemy
combatant group,</i> I don't think you can
prepare yourself for that. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
After six months' time</i> and you've been stuff
every day, it gets to that
"over it" type of feeling. <i> It's kind of like
you're revving an engine
full tilt.</i> The engine starts
letting you know that you need
to cool it down
for a bit. Hancock:<i>
Everybody was there
for one goal,</i> <i> to come home feeling
like we had changed something</i> <i> for the better.</i> When we left,
things had become dramatically
less violent. <i> At the end
of deployment,</i> <i> I would see
like kids and women</i> <i> would be outside
in the streets.</i> <i> So I think we took that
as a sign of success.</i> Sauers:<i>
We came back
from Ramadi,</i> <i> it was kind of
a changing point
in the war.</i> <i> It was such
violent fighting.</i> <i> They brought in a few doctors
and psychiatrists.</i> <i> Basically, said,
"Hey, if anybody
needs to talk..."</i> It was more
of a volunteer thing, though. I'm not sure if anybody
took them up on that offer, I know I didn't. It was just kind of like,
"SEALs don't get PTSD." <i> But, you know, going through
a deployment like that,</i> it doesn't really matter
how much experience you have
under your belt, I think it changes everyone,
a little bit at least. Andersen:<i>
When Rob came home
from Ramadi,</i> <i> his eyes were just dark</i> and it was like
looking into abyss. He just wasn't
the same person. Matzeldelaflor:<i>
War is a constant thing.</i> <i> So your chemicals
in your brain,</i> <i> your adrenaline,
it's up, it's elevated.</i> <i> And when you come back,
it's almost like a dullness,
right?</i> <i> 'Cause you're not
experiencing things
at those levels.</i> So things can kind of
just seem just "blah,"
you know? Like just drab. Andersen:<i>
Rob, in his attempt
to adjust,</i> <i> just started drinking a lot,
never sleeping.</i> <i> Well, I think
when he did sleep</i> <i> he had the nightmares.</i> And I remember one time,
he's laying there sleeping, and his legs
are running, and his trigger finger
is doing this. <i> For years,
he would either call me
or his father</i> <i> in the middle
of the night</i> <i> and he would
just want to talk.</i> <i> He would cry.</i> A lot of times
he would be intoxicated. And that just became
our routine. If you don't get
any sleep, like, your... you really can't heal,
like, mentally. It just gets worse and worse,
it just tumbles, you know. Then you're drinking
to go to sleep. And then that turns
into like four or five
drinks a night just to go to sleep. And before you know it,
like... Yeah, now you're pounding
bottles to get-- you know--
it's-- yeah. Guzzo:<i>
When Rob started having
these problems,</i> <i> we knew we had
to get</i> <i> some kind of treatment
for him.</i> <i> But he insisted
he did not want to do it</i> <i> through the Navy
chain of command.</i> That if he did,
it would impact his ability to continue being a SEAL, which, whether it was
true or not, if it was in his mind
and he believed it, then that's
where the truth is. Andersen:<i>
Rob eventually saw
a psychiatrist</i> <i> and he was diagnosed</i> with a variety
of different things including PTSD,
anxiety. PTSD, it's like
a silent disease. <i> Just affects
people differently.</i> Matzeldelaflor:<i>
We all have this,
like, black cloud.</i> I've seen it
in myself. It's just like
this mental state. There's sunshine
behind the cloud too, that you can get to,
but sometimes that cloud just consumes the sun. It's a mix,
I think it's a mix of what you've experienced
in your past and what's
going on currently, and then also when you
start thinking about
into the future. Guzzo:<i>
Rob went through
the civilian treatment.</i> And then also got into
the military treatment. But he was still having
these little setbacks. <i> But those issues
started to become</i> <i> farther
and farther apart.</i> <i> After he got out
of the Navy,</i> <i> he started working
towards a master's degree
in kinesiology.</i> <i> He was doing well
and enjoying it.</i> <i> And he was informed
that he was a father.</i> <i> He eagerly accepted it.</i> It was very encouraging,
very loving to see that. And again,
it was kind of a shadow <i> over the fact
that there was still
that issue</i> <i> that was unresolved.</i> That day, Rob had
just got back from the bar, maybe, like, you know,
2:00, around 2:00 AM. So I woke up and came out and I was, like,
foggy headed, drowsy. Him and a couple buddies-- you know he's talking
to the marine buddies there about combat and stuff. Um, so eventually,
I went back to sleep. And the next thing I know, I get-- one of the marine dudes
busts in my room. "Mark, I need your help!
I need your-- I need you
to come out here
right now." I come out of the bedroom
and I see-- I see Rob, you know,
sitting in a chair. <i> The first thought
in my head is,</i> he's doing a prank
on me right now. And like, there's--
it doesn't make sense. There's no way
this is real. I, like, nudge him,
say, "Get up." That's when I notice
the reality of the situation. Sauers:<i>
I got a text.</i> Text just said,
"Hey, do you know
Rob Guzzo?" I was like,
"Yeah. Yeah, I know Rob.
What's up?" And... the person
texted back and said, "He lives
in my building. I think he just
committed suicide." At first I was
in disbelief. We'd just texted back and forth
two days before that. We were talking
about football. It just took me by--
I was so surprised. Matz called me
that morning. I'll never forget. I'll never--
It'll never be out
of my head. It'll be there
for the rest of my life. It struck me
into the heart. Like I've never felt before. Hancock:<i>
Matz called me.</i> He said, "Rob's dead.
Shot himself." I was just like... "What?" Couldn't put it together.
Couldn't wrap around-- couldn't wrap
my head around it. We went
to the funeral home and I told
the funeral director, I said, "You know,
I have to see him." Because he had put
the gun in his mouth, you know,
it was, it was-- the exit wound
was you know... On the other side
and he just looked so-- he was so beautiful. And I just
went up to him and just was
stroking his hair and, you know
I kissed him on his cheek,
and I just said, "Honey, it's okay.
You know, it's okay." Sauer:<i>
I mean, it's one
of those things</i> <i> where you
always look back</i> <i> and you always think,
like, you know,</i> if there's more
you could have done. You can kind of
do the "what-ifs" all the way back. But at the end
of the day, there is
some perfect storm type of situation
that happened where you unfortunately,
you don't have-- once you make
the decision, there's no way
to undo it. <i> It's a very
permanent decision.</i> Hanford:<i>
Yeah, but I don't think
you can blame yourself.</i> <i> You know, like,
you could wish that...</i> <i> Man, I wish I--
I wish I had picked up</i> <i> on some subtle change.</i> Or... I mean,
I wish I had, for sure. Absolutely. 'Cause I miss him, but... Yeah, I don't know. If he was here,
I would just tell him, "We're very sad. Too soon." I would just say,
"I miss you, brother. I miss you, brother.
I miss you and I love you. And I'll see you
on the other side." I miss his presence,
you know. His-- his "The Holiday,"
basically, right. I miss that. And I'd just tell him
I love him. And to think-- what?
Damn it. You know, his dad and I
had 60 years almost of Navy service. And we frickin'
could not save our son. <i> But there--
you know, there is hope.</i> <i> And I think things
are getting better.</i> I think, the PTSD
and the traumatic
brain injury, the "invisible wounds," are starting to be
more and more accepted. <i> There's so many veterans
that are struggling,</i> <i> and so my goal
is to help other veterans.</i> <i> I volunteer now
with the organization,</i> <i> "America's
Mighty Warriors."</i> <i> We pay
for the treatments</i> <i> that are currently
not available at the VA.</i> The biggest one
right now that's getting
a lot of attention and showing
a lot of promise is a hyperbaric oxygen
therapy treatment. <i> The earlier you get
treatment for PTS</i> <i> is the more likely
that you'll be able</i> to manage it
and rebound and have a successful,
productive life. Sauers:<i>
Any veterans out there
that think</i> they may be suffering
from PTSD, get help. And if this gets out
to just that one person
who's struggling and hears what we're
talking about and says,
"Well, wait a minute." There is some hope there. Hancock:<i>
And I really hope
somebody watches this</i> <i> and can be like,</i> "He was a ( bleep ) all-star,
and he was hurting." And so they can say,
"Well, that's-- It's okay
that I'm hurting." Matzeldelaflor:<i>
So you gotta kind of</i> <i> keep yourself
in check.</i> <i> Be aware that you're
no invincible,</i> <i> no matter
how badass you are.</i> There's no one
that's invincible, everyone's mortal. Enjoy life
while you have it. <i> ( man laughing )</i> <i> ( laughter continues )</i>