the hunger games from peeta's perspective

I feel like The Hunger Games is having a bit of a Renaissance and I was never really a Hunger Games girly like when it was really popular I was kind of young and I was also really scared of stuff so I kind of just stayed away from The Hunger Games because I knew that [ __ ] was dark and I'm kind of surprised that a lot of young kids really like jumped onto the Hunger Games because it is brutal I feel like it's a series that you can really only appreciate when you're older but I mean sure might as well start them young so I re-read The Hunger Games book recently for the first time since maybe middle school and God damn it was so good I kept thinking like every Twist and Turn every decision that the author made I was like yeah that was the best choice and let me just say also I didn't think Peta would be my type I've seen people simping for him recently and I was just like I don't know I don't know if the bread boy would be my type but he is he I cannot stress to you enough how impeccable of a specimen that is PETA like the kind Soul ever he can bake do frosting Decor he is also sassy and flirty and smart so that is why we will be doing the Hunger Games From peta's perspective also someone wrote a fan fiction of The Hunger Games From peta's perspective iggsy Grace you're amazing I'll link it down below it is so much more well written well executed longer has more embellishments it's just overall a really good read if you'd like to stick around for a trashier shorter silly goofy version with a few [ __ ] thrown in there you're in the right place without further Ado let's get into the Hunger Games From peta's perspective hi all my name is PETA like the bread speaking of bread I'm somewhat of a baker myself my father is a Baker and we live in the town of District 12 which is slightly classier than another part of the district the seam which is close to the mines I have two other brothers and a mother as well my brothers and I wrestle and compete with each other but other than that we're not too involved in each other's personal lives and what more is there than going to school and baking bread for this happy family I'm not really exactly sure why my father married my mother because their personalities don't really seem to mesh well together my father is kind-hearted and goes with the flow while my mother is unforgiving and strict and blunt actually I know for a fact that my mother wasn't my father's first choice because on the first day of school when I was five years old my father pointed out a little girl in a red plaid dress with two braids and said I wanted to marry her mother but she ran off with a coal miner I thought why would she want to marry a coal miner if she could have ended up with my dad my dad said it's because when he sings even the Birds stopped to listen that day in music assembly the teacher asked who knew the valley song and the girl with the braids raised her hand when she started I swear every bird outside the windows fell silent and from that moment on I knew I was a goner then for the next 11 years I tried to work up the courage to talk to her without success I may add for a while I knew she had no idea that I existed but that just meant I could look at her longer without feeling like a stalker her name is Katniss and her father died in a coal mining accident that affected a lot of the district leaving her with a mother and a younger sister before her father died he would Supply us with squirrels and a lot of the Town had a good opinion of him which translated to Katniss when she took over the hunting and providing for her family my father said she's really talented with a bow and can shoot animals directly in the eye and that must have been really hard on her having to provide for a family at such a young age to hunt she would have needed to go into the woods which surrounds our district there's an electric fence that's supposed to keep these wild animals I like these mutt mutation things that are kind of like werewolves that the government created during the dark days but our electricity is super spotty so she must be able to slip through things must have been worse than anyone realized because one day my mother caught her rummaging around in our trash for scraps I purposefully burnt two loaves which caused my mother to hit me and I went outside into the rain to throw the burnt bits to the pigs when I saw her crying under a tree I threw the rest of the two loaves to her and then went back inside before my mother could figure out what happened that was our only direct interaction and we didn't even speak with each other but from then on whenever I would be looking at her sometimes I would catch her staring back at me but I couldn't quite decipher the look in her eyes is she offended by what I did that day she hasn't tried to approach me and I haven't tried to approach her that's why at the age of 16 on the day of the reaping I almost couldn't believe when I found myself on stage in the Square looking into our gray eyes once again this is society that we live in is pretty [ __ ] up let me tell you they have this thing called The Hunger Games where a boy and a girl from each district between the ages of 12 and 18 fight to the death this is because the capital where all the rich people live were victorious in an uprising during the dark days where a whole entire District was obliterated and now the remaining 12 have to suffer the consequences it's basically to show that the capital has ultimate control over us we have no contact with the other districts but they all specialize in doing different things District 12 is the worst of them all and we specialize in mining coal anyway so the way in which they picked this boy and girl for The Hunger Games is through a lottery system where your name is entered once at the age of 12 twice at 13 and so on so the older you get the higher your chances of getting picked so my name was entered a total of five times that day you also have the option to add your name more times in exchange for food but my family didn't need to do that the mayor a woman from the capital named Effie Trinket and the only living Victor from District 12 who's actually one of the two Victors who have ever won from District 12. hey Mitch is up on the stage giving the reaping ceremony there's a huge ball filled with the slips of the names of the boys and then a separate one for the girls Effie picks the girl name first and it is Primrose Everdeen AKA Katniss's younger sister it's always unfortunate when the 12 year old gets picked because God's wise they should be the least likely to be picked because when they go into the games they're at an extreme disadvantage because of their age but the fact that it's Prim I don't know a single person whose heart doesn't melt when they're talking to her she's the only one to stop by the shop and look at my elaborate frosting designs when no one could even give less of a [ __ ] and I don't think anyone is prepared to watch Prim die in the coming days I look at her walking up onto the stage when I hear someone call her name over and over again it's Katniss she's wearing this flowing blue dress and dare I say she looks Exquisite but that's besides the point when she says she volunteers as tribute my heart [ __ ] drops she then throws herself in front of her sister and then Gail Hawthorne has to pry Prim away from her a lot of the girls have a crush on him in school and you know what I I'm not gonna lie I see it but I'm pretty sure him and Katniss are like cousins or something they look a lot alike and they hang out a lot because they're hunting Partners if not I'm not surprised he took an interest in Katniss what's not to like in fact at that point I think the entire district has a respect for Katniss because when she goes up onto the stage and faces us no one claps instead everyone takes the three middle fingers of their left hand touches it to the lips and then points it back at her it's an old gesture of our district meaning thanks admiration and goodbye to someone you love and I'm gonna have to watch the girl I've admired die from a distance that's when I hear Effie call outs my name guess it won't be from a distance then of course I don't expect either of my brothers to do what Katniss did one of them's too old to enter the games anyway but I'm so stunned and scared shitless that I almost laugh because in any other circumstance I would be [ __ ] ecstatic to be face to face with her except this is the reaping our chances of survival are slim and we're expected to kill even each other but you know what they say if two people are in a dangerous situation they're more likely to fall in love I'd say the odds are in my favor so when we reach out to shake each other's hands I give hers a little squeeze to say that I respect her and this whole thing is [ __ ] weird and ridiculous and I'm rooting for her anyway I hope that camera across Katniss and I are marked to the Justice building and put into two separate rooms so we could say our final goodbyes to our loved ones I get to see my family my mom and my dad and my brothers everyone is a sobbing mess even my mother but I try to put a silver lining on it both of my brothers are now too old to enter the game so they can live in peace until grandkids come along but seeing their faces stir something in my heart I can't truly say that I'm convinced that I could win but it's not impossible I'm not gonna go out without a fight my mom's parting words to me are actually that maybe District 12 will finally have a winner wow this is a first my mom actually has enough faith in me to win the games she wouldn't say that unless she really believed it I start to feel all warm and tingly inside until she says she's a Survivor that one well [ __ ] turns out my mom is convinced I'm gonna perish and is putting all her money on Katniss nice I mean fair enough I'm strong but I don't have any combat skills like Katniss and I am primed to bake bread for a living whose fault is that mother before he leaves my dad hands me a little white package of sugar cookies and I want to start pissing and crying and throwing up all over again because I don't think I can bear not seeing him again as I leave to rejoin Katniss I'm painfully aware that the whole world can see how red and puffy my face is post breakdown from now on practically every single second I'm going to be on camera and I know that I have to be aware of how I present myself because that's going to affect how the crowd is going to see me but at this point I really don't give a [ __ ] I just saw my family probably for the last time give me a goddamn break Katniss looks way more put together than me strong and determined even that must be how she looks to the world unbreakable and maybe I would think the same if I didn't see her that day in the rain if I didn't know I would be sent to the slaughterhouse soon this whole thing would be low-key Pleasant I've never been in a car or a train before everything is so fancy and they give me and Katniss this whole big meal where we're able to stuff ourselves tetanus and I freshen up and she comes out wearing this fancy looking pin on her chest it must be a goodbye gift or something Evie makes a comment about how last year's tributes were less civilized than us and so Katniss starts eating with her hands I would laugh but I'm afraid about puking up all of the food that I just ate Hamish eventually arrives on the scene drunk as usual and he actually slips and falls in his own vomit and so Katniss and I carry him to his room and I volunteer to clean him up if the roles were reversed I'd be uncomfortable in her position so it's the least I could do at breakfast the next morning me and Katniss both seem to be annoyed at the absolute nonchalance of this man hey Mitch and she asks for any advice and he says to stay alive and starts laughing so I say that's very funny before knocking out the glass in his hand and sending it shattering to the floor only not to us [ __ ] then he punches me in the face when I look up I see that Katniss actually wedged a knife between his hand and the next bottle he was about to grab from then on something in Hamish changes because he actually starts to take it seriously he tells me to let the bruise on my face show because that'll get the other competitors talking then he asks Katniss if she could actually use the knife and she scented hurtling across the room and it ends up lodged in the scene between two panels bam then he makes a deal with us if we don't interfere with his drinking he'll stay sober enough to help us but we have to do exactly as he says so we both agree because what other choice do we have he says first of all don't resist the stylist when we get to the station that's actually in fact all he says because he immediately leaves after that and we actually don't see him for a while and Katniss actually asks about strategies regarding the Cornucopia but the man is gone then we arrive at the Capitol and despite my resentment towards it it is actually Beautiful People start recognizing our train and waving and so I wave back and smile sponsors may be my only hope considering I have zero skills then I get whisked away to get all glamored up because we're going to be presented to the world my stylist is Porsha and she says Katniss's stylist Cinna is giving us complimentary costumes so we can go out with a bang just like Katniss's father so we're standing on the Chariot about to go out and they're like we're going to set you on fire and I was like excuse me me and Katniss were scared we're going to be burned to death and then we're set on fire and I look at her and oh my God words can't even describe her beauty is on fire before we go out to cinema gestures for us to hold hands and so we do and honestly I'm glad he did because that was the only thing keeping me from falling over Katniss even tried to let go at one point and I was like no girl don't let go of me don't you dare we really did make a big impression but honestly it wasn't me it was all Katniss the crowd couldn't take their eyes off of her and neither could I to be quite honest it's the first time I've ever seen her try to be charming and oh boy is it dangerous she has the whole world wrapped around her finger and it's not even just her beauty it's how she embodies something bigger she seems to represent change and determination and sorrow and youth and hope and light all at the same time when we're done I thank her for keeping hold on me because I was shaking like crazy and she said the crowd didn't notice probably and I'm like yeah girl that's because they were looking at you so I smile and get this she leans in and kisses me oh I'm not really sure what this means we get along well she laughs at my jokes and I'm sure if I didn't take 11 years to talk to her uh we would be close by now she could be playing me into lowering my guard and if that's the case she can play me all she wants so then we're taking to the training center Haymitch finally shows up when me and Katniss are eating dinner with our stylists and Effie Katniss starts to drink a bit and it didn't even look like the alcohol was affecting her until she opens her mouth she looks at one of the girls serving us and says she recognizes her and from the looks around the table I could tell that she was not supposed to say that Effie informs us that she is an avics which means she did something traitorous to get her tongue cut out and is now forced to live a life of servitude why would Katniss know an avex is she from our district because I don't recognize her but she's in a little bit of a pickle and Prince Charming's gonna come to a rescue so I said oh you know she looks like good old Deli right Katniss they could be doppelgangers then the whole table relaxes and I'm like crisis averted then Haman says we should go and get some sleep because tomorrow he's ready to talk strategy about the games but before Katniss goes into a room I start to talk to her about the Avec situation because she and I both know that Delhi looks nothing like that chick but she seems hesitant to talk to me so I suggest going up onto the roof Cinder brought me up there earlier and there's actually this barrier around the roof to prevent us from jumping off and killing ourselves prematurely because God forbid we die for any other reason than your entertainment apparently the avex girl and a boy were running away from the Capitol and ended up in the woods outside of District 12 and Katniss and Gail saw them from the trees I'll have a craft came to get them and the boy died but the avex girl survived I asked her about Gail because I assume that they were related but you know I just want to check and it turns out they're not so that's slightly unfortunate then Katniss says that at the Justice building my father was actually one of her visitors and to be honest I'm not totally surprised he seems to have a soft spot for a Katniss's mother and by extension her daughters so the next morning Hamish asks us if we want to be coached separately or together that's an interesting question I wonder what she wants to say if I'm being totally honest with myself I don't think I could kill her at this point if she asked me to so what good is there being coached separately for me I tell them that I don't have any secret tricks and I've eaten enough of her squirrels to know hers so she says we can be trained together he asks me what sort of skills do I have what can I do when I say sir I can bake bread he immediately turns to Katniss and says he knows she can use a knife but what about anything else and she says she can hunt with a bow and arrow then he asks if she's good and she takes him in and says yeah I'm all right [ __ ] every single animal you shoot is straight through the eyeball she can even take down a deer I tell them all this and Katniss asks me what I'm doing I say girl he can't help you properly if he doesn't know what you're capable of don't underrate yourself then she says she sees me lifting hundred pound bags of flour why didn't I tell him that and I say oh gee I don't think there'll be any bags of flour for me to toss around in the arena you know that's nothing compared to being able to handle a weapon then she says that I wrestle and I came in second place only after my brother and at this point I'm thinking so she was noticing this stuff a stuff I said have you ever seen someone wrestle someone to death the thought is straight up horrifying she says there's always hand-to-hand combat and if she gets jumped she's dead and I say you won't get jumped because you'll be in the trees picking people off even my own mother thinks you're gonna win she says if she does that's only because someone helped her I glance at the bridge she's holding and I'm thinking is she referring to that day in the rain I say you'll get lots of help in the arena people will be tripping over themselves to sponsor you she says the same goes for me and I'm like no no everyone besides her can see that that's not true Katniss is truly something special at first I thought my crush on hers would cause me to view her this way but clearly everyone can see the same thing when I saw the crowd's reaction to her and not even just them the way Cinna and Porsha and Hamish all look at her she needs to win this thing I want her to win this thing but wishing that with my whole heart would mean that I need to accept my own death before I even go into the ring anyway Hamish has had enough of our arguing and he says when we go into Group Training we should try learning something we don't already know and not to show our true skills in front of the other players but when we're in our private sessions with the game makers let her in he then asks me and Katniss to act like best buddies and I'm not totally surprised by this Haymitch and Cena and Porsha all seem to have this little touch of rebellion thing going on and it's pretty unconventional for two tributes like us to be shown as like best buddies people make alliances sure but we all know that we're gonna have to kill each other eventually if we want to win Patton is apparently really doesn't like that idea because she leaves the table and goes into a room and says slams the door I guess I won't take that personally so the next morning we go to group training and some of the kids are intimidating I'll tell you that like the ones from districts one two and four Katniss and I learn how to make traps start a fire use a knife tie some knots i x out the camouflaging station in hand-to-hand combat mean while she sweeps the edible plants test I noticed the small girl from District 11 following us around her name is Roo and juloki reminds me of Prim as the games are drawing closer and closer Katniss becomes more and more reserved to the point where she says we should not act like buddies when we're in private so when we're alone we just don't talk to each other it hurts but I'm not feeling all that talking about as I've laid myself sometimes I feel like I'm betraying my family and even Myself by resigning myself to this death but when I think about it in my heart I know that she needs to win she has everything she needs in order to win she has a family to go back to Meanwhile mine has already accepted my death I'm willing to do whatever it takes to guarantee her safety then it's time for private sessions with the game makers me and Katniss are the last ones to go and she sort of wishes me luck before I head in I immediately noticed that no one is paying attention to me they're clearly not interested in The District 12 kids at this point where the last ones together they're probably tired I throw around a bunch of heavyweights as best I can but no one even really bats an eye I'd be lucky if I even get a four when the scores are announced I go back to meet with Hamish nephe and wait for Katniss but when she arrived she storms past us without a word goes into her room and doesn't even come out until dinner when she does she looks like she's been crying and doesn't look or speak to any of us that's not a great sign I managed to catch your eye once but she just shakes her head at me I checked during my time with the game makers and there was definitely bows and arrows in there maybe they were different from the one she had at home and she did worse than she expected or perhaps she's mad for the same reason I was we were both being straight up ignored Hamish finally asks how bad it was and I say no matter what you did they probably weren't even paying attention that much then she said she shot an arrow at the game makers she shot the Apple out of the Rose Pig's mouth and left without being dismissed holy [ __ ] she's worried about what will happen to her and her family but Heyman says that the most likely scenario is that they'll make her life a living hell in the arena which they were already going to do anyway then we all start laughing Imagining the ridiculous scene that Katniss describes to us and then it's time for the scores to be announced I managed to score an eight and Katniss gets an 11 out of 12. the highest out of anybody it's good in a way people will want to sponsor her since she's promising but I have an uneasy feeling in my stomach so when Katniss leaves I go to talk to Hamish alone I say I'm okay with the knife and I could camouflage myself pretty well but those two things alone are not enough to help Katniss stay alive he says I should worry about myself my proximity to her isn't even giving me that much more popularity but I say I've already decided that I want her to win and I want to stay alive long enough to keep her alive and for her to win he looks at me and says we'll discuss this later and then Katniss comes back for dinner she asks hey much about the game plan because we have our first televised interviews tomorrow and he says that I have requested that she and I be coached separately she looks surprised and maybe even a little hurt but she doesn't protest she goes off to work with Effie on her manners and I am left alone with haymage yet again he takes a good look at me and then asks me straight up do you have a thing for Miss Everdeen and I say what yeah he says I shouldn't throw my life away over a crush but I'd say it's not about that and I guess something in my face convinces him because he starts talking strategy he says that my best bet is to get in with the careers at the Cornucopia there will most likely be a bow there after the stunt that Katniss pulled with the game makers but if she tries to go for it she'll be dead before she even reaches it then I'll pretend to be allies with them under the guys that I'm leading them to Katniss but in reality I'm trying to get the bow to her the second we meet up I'll turn on them but the tricky part is I have to convince the audience the invisible crowd that's going to be watching us in the arena that I haven't actually turned on her because that'll be bad for everybody's reputation I ask if the careers will find it weird that I'm suddenly turning on her after we've been acting as best buddies but he says the careers know that this whole interview process is just a bunch of garbage they'll be more interested in my Intel and Katniss and learning about her strengths and weaknesses they know deception is part of the games he has a Target on her back now for her high score and is disliked by the capital for the Antics she pulled earlier she seems dangerous and Hamish doesn't really know what to do about that suddenly I get an idea a kind of crazy silly goofy idea I say the capital sees her as dangerous but what if they see her as just a girl a girl that I'm in love with if I confess my feelings to her during the interview then everyone will see her as part of a tragic love story instead of someone that could cause trouble he smiles and says that just might work but we can't tell Katniss because she can't act for [ __ ] at this point I now realize the gravity of what I had just said I just kind of said that I did without thinking but am I ready to actually confess my love to her and to the world at the same time in this interview I mean the whole thing just seems insane it's not like I'm lying about my feelings though but that just makes it more embarrassing for me but if it's to keep her safe it's worth it he says she'll need a lot of convincing though but no worries I can be persistent we end our session and then I go with Effie to learn some posture and manners and stuff that night Katniss doesn't eat dinner with us and when I walk past her room I can hear the sound of objects shattering then it's time for the interview and once again Katniss is stunning she goes before me the crowd loves her and then at the the end she says that she told her sister that she would win and the threat of her words is palpable then I'm the very last one to go which means the entire time I was just sitting there [ __ ] myself thinking about what I need to do the interview part that was all fine I can do that good and well the confession part that one I'm not so sure about the conversation is going well and then like I anticipated it shifts towards the topic of romance he asks if I have a girlfriend and I say no naturally he presses for details and I say well there's this girl I've had a crush on for a while but I don't think she noticed me before the reaping he asks if she's taken and I say I don't know but I know a lot of boys like her he says I'll just need to go home as a Victor and she'll be sure to fall for me and I say no no I'm not sure it'll work out that way and he says why and I said well that's because she came here with me I take a quick glance at Katniss's face and I could see it's a mixture of shock and confusion and maybe even a little blush I feel really bad for spraying this on her like this after the interview me and Katniss take the elevator up in silence and when the doors open to our floor she pushes me into the urn and I fall out of the elevator she starts yelling at me about how that made her look weak but everybody is saying that no it's actually made her desirable Meanwhile my hands are bleeding out onto the floor I say she's just worried about her boyfriend she says she doesn't have a boyfriend and I say well it's not like you said you loved me so why does it matter it hurts though I mean I I don't know what exactly is going on between her and Gail but I know that the feelings are mutual between her and me as of right now I mean I didn't expect them to be but damn I get my hands patched up and we say our final goodbyes to Hima genefi his parting words are to not [ __ ] with the Cornucopia and to just find water and stay alive that's more for Katniss than for me but she still doesn't know about my plan during the games well she's about to find out that night I knew it would be impossible for me to fall asleep I started thinking about how I'm going to die in the coming days I don't know how or when but eventually I will I think about what my family might be doing in district 12 and if any of them are actually hopeful I'll come back I decided to go up onto the roof and Katniss follows me not long after I was watching the Capital people partying and celebrating the games what a bunch of lunatics she apologizes again for the damage she did to my hands but I say it doesn't matter I was never a contender anyway I'm sure that when it comes down to it even I will kill someone too but I just wish there was a way to show that I was more than just a pawn in the Capitals game I want to die as myself and not turn into a monster in there she says no offense but who cares and I say well what else should I be caring about and she says staying alive and I say thanks for the tips sweetheart she says she's gonna make it back to District 12 and I say well I [ __ ] hope so give my mother my best then in the morning me and Portia make it to this tube where I am lifted from underground and into the arena all of the tributes are in a ring facing the Cornucopia and for the first time since the rooftop I see Katniss a few people down for me I see her looking at something and I follow her gaze to see the bow and arrows that the game makers put in there specifically for her [ __ ] well you know she might just be looking at them making a mental note but she won't be stupid enough to run after them and then I see her get into a Crouch and get prepped to run [ __ ] if she goes in there and dies then this whole thing will have been for nothing we have 60 seconds before the gong strikes and all hell breaks loose and I don't know how many seconds have passed but I managed to catch her eye and she looks at me and I shake my head no suddenly the gong strikes and I see her change chorus heading away from the Cornucopia and I breathe a sire Leaf before heading into hell the careers are brutal I'll tell you that they end up taking out 11 people but I managed to convince them that I'll be able to lead them to Katniss who's probably one of their biggest priorities I pick up the bow and arrow they don't know Katniss can use it but I need to make sure that they have it just in case we meet up with Katniss later when asked I severely undersell Katniss's survival abilities and try to lead them astray the leader of this group Cato makes the strategy to bring all our resources together from the Cornucopia and bring them to the lake so that way we have a base where we have food and weapons and water we hunt during the night where our priorities are thresh and Katniss during one of these hunts I get my first kill which was actually finishing off what Cato had already started it was this poor girl who was already on the brink of death but that didn't make my job any easier it's so weird I'm absolutely repulsed by the actions of Cato clove glimmer how they can just kill so easily and maybe it's not easy for them but how can I sit here and be disgusted by them when I'm doing the same thing and I need to do the same thing in order for Katniss to win we also made a plan to reactivate the minds of the boy from District 3 will keep watch while the rest of us go out hunting the rest has control over the part of the arena with the field and we're not too successful in Catching him but one day the game makers try to flush people out with fire we weren't hit that bad but the Flames push us to a part of the woods where we end up finding Katniss by the looks of it the fire hit her hard we start chasing her in the entire Tower I'm trying to figure out what to do like do I turn on them now do I turn on them later I just don't know she climbs up a tree thankfully and none of us can follow her up and I end up giving glimmer the bow because she says you can she can use it better than me but she doesn't end up hitting a thing I say we should forget about her until morning because she can't go anywhere when really I'm trying to figure out what the [ __ ] to do I'm debating whether or not I should kill the rest of them and their sleep but I won't be able to fight them all and I don't know if I could bring myself to kill someone in their sleep Katniss is probably confused and feels betrayed and hates me now so that's also great I still haven't really come to a decision when a Tracker Jacker Hive suddenly descends upon us and four of us run sprinting to the nearest water source I look around and see that glimmer didn't come back and so I think oh [ __ ] the bow so I start running back to where Katniss was and I see that glimmer in another girl is dead Katniss has the bow but she's not moving she looks dizzy she looks really out of it I say what are you doing you have to run but she seems like she can't hear me I can hear Cato coming up behind us so I say girl [ __ ] run get out of here so now it's official I have to turn on the careers Hato comes barreling out and I start to fight him when he slices me in the upper thigh then the world starts going to [ __ ] I start hallucinating I can't tell what's forward what's backward I can't even tell how I'm not dead yet I guess Cato's probably tripping balls too I end up at the bed of a stream and manage to cover myself and camouflage myself into the Earth I'm not sure how much time passes when I'm in this state all I can do is eat a little bit drink a little bit but to be honest honest I'm not even that hungry or thirsty and pray that Katniss's face doesn't show up in the sky but thankfully it doesn't and one day I hear a voice booming throughout the arena saying that two people from the same district can win the games together holy [ __ ] I'm practically on my deathbed and if Katniss even comes and manages to find me she probably will abandon me anyway I'm only going to be dead weight but you know what she actually does come for me and almost steps on my face when I say you're here to finish me off sweetheart seeing her hearing her voice it's enough to make me keep wanting to live as long as I'm by her side she suggests getting me to the stream so she can clean my wounds when I tell her to lean down for a sec I say I remember we're supposed to be madly in love so feel free to kiss me anytime you feel like it I'm on the verge of death a little flirtatious banter won't hurt anyone plus I'm missing her smile she laughs and says she'll keep that in mind she manages to get me into the stream and starts taking off my clothes and starts treating my wounds but yo my leg is bad she's trying to treat me the best she can but I can tell she doesn't have the medical knowledge to treat stuff like my leg she tries putting these leaves on the wound draw the pus and I could tell she's having a horrible time so I'm out to her how about that kiss to distract her that sends her over the edge because she starts ranting about how she doesn't like pus and she doesn't know what the [ __ ] she's doing she's surprisingly squeamish for someone so lethal I say I wish I let her give Hamish a shower after all she asks me what he sent me so far and I say not a thing wait hold up did she get something and she said she got burn medicine and a whole loaf of bread [ __ ] I knew she was the favorite but damn that's good though obviously I would want her to have those things over me she ends up dragging me to this cave where we make our base for a little while I'm feeling worse and worse and all I could do is focus on her face as she's trying to disguise our little Fortress and I say hey Katniss thank you for finding me but if I don't make it she says don't talk like that she didn't drain out all the pus for nothing I say I know but just in case and she says she doesn't even want to discuss it and I'm like we're gonna have to at this point I also didn't expect her to have such a big reaction to the thought of me dying why does that bother her so much I try to say something again but she leans down and kisses me and says I won't die because she forbids it oh oh I doze off but Katniss wakes me to say that Hamish sent us some broth and it takes a lot of convincing and kissing for me to finish the whole thing food and water and everything is just so repulsive and I could tell also Katniss is trying everything she can but I'm really not getting better the next morning Katniss is actually gone and I start pissing because I know Cato and clove like to hunt at night I'm in no condition to go out and find her and I would be defenseless if anyone were to come and attack me right now but she comes back and is seemingly amused at me getting all worked up over this but no thank God she's all right she's well she's here with me now that the rules have changed I don't have to resign myself to death and now that the rules are changed we can both go home together maybe that's why her feelings have changed maybe she realized she has feelings for me now now that she doesn't have to see me as a competitor that she has to kill I let Katniss sleep for a while and let me just say I get what my boy Edward was talking about I could watch her sleep for eternity it's peaceful and beautiful it's distracting me from the fact that I'm gonna die real soon I take a look at my leg and it's blood poisoning plain and simple can this is saying how I'll just have to Outlast the others and then we can go home together and I say sure sure I asked her to tell me the story of the happiest day that she remembers and she tells me about how she got Prim her goat my Envy suddenly hits me like a truck Crim and Katniss are so lucky to have each other cadness loves her so much and took her place in the reaping practically without a second thought I don't know how much time I have left I hope I did enough to set Katniss on the paths to Victory but if I somehow live I want to pay her back tenfold for saving me suddenly a voice booms throughout the arena inviting us to a feast because each of us alive desperately needs something the remaining people are me Katniss Cato thresh and this girl that Katniss nickname fox face their backpacks marked with everyone's District numbers at the Cornucopia basically it's going to be a bloodbath I immediately turned to Katniss and say she can't go she cannot die for me I forbid it she said of course she's not going but if there's one thing that I've learned during my time with her it's that she can't lie she says okay she's going and I can't stop her and I say oh you want a bet I will hold her heartedly die trying I will drag myself after her screaming as loud as I can until I die from blood loss or someone puts me out of my [ __ ] misery she says she can't sit here and watch me die and I say I won't as long as you're here with me I will not die I promise so Katniss starts feeding me and I've revoked my complaining privileges so I have to just gulp it down she actually comes to bring me this Newberry a Sugar Berry and she starts shoveling it into my mouth and I'm like oh wow this is really sweet and it almost tastes like something familiar something something sweet something too sweet like syrup [ __ ] I try to spit it out or vomit or something but she covers my nose and mouth and I slip into unconsciousness she drugged me with sleep serum the audacity when I wake up Katniss is lying next to me in a pool of blood I noticed she successfully got the backpack and shot the medicine into my arm but what's the point if she's [ __ ] dead thankfully though she's not dead upon closer examination she has a wound on her forehead and I bandaged it up the best I can as I'm waiting for her to wake up my anger is already faded away I'm just tired of being a burden to her when Katniss wakes so she tells me how thresh killed clove and he didn't kill her because he was paying her back for how she treated Rue she tells me that at one point her and Roo ended up forming a little Alliance and they ended up destroying the careers food supply by activating the Minefield and that caused her to lose Hearing in her left ear and then Rue was killed by one of the district one people I say I still can't believe he would give up killing her for that she said I wouldn't understand and it's like how she can't seem to stop owing me for that bread thing that happened years ago I say I think it's [ __ ] fair to say the debt has been repaid considering she just brought me back from the dead she asked me why I did it that day when I didn't even know her and I say you know why but she looks confused and then I remember how Hamer said it would need a lot of convincing a storm comes so there's nothing else for mean Katniss to do except hope Cato and thresh kill each other and also snuggle it's weird I don't think people are supposed to be this happy during The Hunger Games I mean sure I'm severely traumatized from seeing and committing murder but at least I got the girl and we can actually win this thing and live happily ever after I mean we can go back to District 12 and see both of our families again and live in the Victor's village with Haymitch I mean I could see the life that we have set before ourselves and I'm actually excited for once I ended up telling her the full story of how I came to have a crush on her there's lots of kissing and we end up getting a feast from Haymitch then the anthem starts playing and we see that thresh is dead meaning it's just us and Kato and fox face left then the next day we got on the move to hunt but apparently I'm so loud that I'm scaring off game within a 10 mile radius so Captain is not so politely suggests that I go collect some twigs and berries while she goes off to hunt by herself doing a pretty good job if I say so myself when Katniss comes and almost shoots me in the head because she starts yelling at me about how we had this signal where I was supposed to whistle and she whistles back but I stopped whistling and that's the same thing that happened to ruin when she came back Rue was dead and I was like girl I'm sorry but it's okay I'm not dead I promise I was like I was just collecting these awesome newberries and she was like that's night long you [ __ ] and then suddenly a can goes off and she Twirls around and looks at me but I'm not dead and then not too far away we see Fox Face's body being lifted it up into a hovercraft I accidentally poisoned her even though this brings us one step closer to winning I feel icky it's not fair she died because I was stupid not because she was stupid now it's just us and Cato hopefully we could play the same night luck trick on him there's no action for a little while until suddenly all of the water sources are drained except the one at the lake alright [ __ ] let's end this thing we go to the lake looking for a battle and we don't see Cato when suddenly he comes barreling towards us Katniss shoots at him but there are a couple surprises number one he has full body armor the arrow just bounces right off him number two is that he actually runs right past us and we think huh that's odd he's running away from something whatever could it be we turn and look at to see mutts yup a whole horde of mutts Cato's headed to the Cornucopia and we run barreling after him but the thing is my leg is [ __ ] I can't run and so I'm just hobbling after them they're leaving me in the dust but I barely managed to climb on top of the Cornucopia with the two of them and Kata was so winded that he's not even an immediate threat the mutts aren't very good climbers but they could still jump and grab us and Katniss screams when she realizes that they have the eyes of her fellow tributes sure that's just another unnecessary element of [ __ ] suddenly one mutt grabs me and starts pulling me down then just as suddenly I'm ripped away from Katniss and put into a headlock I'm not really sure which situation to address first so right before I lose Consciousness I managed to draw an x on Cato's wrists and Katniss immediately gets my signal she shoots him I fall out of the headlock and then push Cato to the ground so he's at the mercy of the pack we thought they would kill him we thought that that would be the end of it but they kept him alive and he probably died one of the most slow and painful deaths I've ever witnessed the sounds of his cries are forever going to haunt me I finally tell Katniss to finish him off with her last arrow and she does so we won but there are no Victory trumpets no announcements but suddenly there is one saying that the previous revision has been revoked there could only be one winner of The Hunger Games you know what why am I not [ __ ] surprised so I stand up and throw away my knife and look to see Katniss aiming the boat directly at my heart she starts to lower down in embarrassment but I say do it she says she can't but I say I don't want to go out like Cato please shoot me now before something worse comes along she says I should shoot her instead and I almost laugh fine if she's being stubborn I'll just kill myself I rip off the bandage that Katniss has tied so tightly around my leg and Blood starts pouring she says I can't leave her alone and I say Katniss I love you I've loved you for a while and my only goal when I entered this Arena was to guarantee your safety and I did that I don't know how I managed but I did I see her start to Fumble with the pouch holding the night lock and I say no but she says trust me pour some into my hand she's holding some and she says on the count of three on the count of three we put our backs to each other and I tell her to hold out the berries because I want the capital to see this in fact I want everyone to see one two three [ __ ] I put the berries in my mouth but the trumpets start to blast I immediately spit them out and Katniss does the same we go to rinse our mouths as they're announcing that we just won The Hunger Games a hovercraft comes to take us away but as soon as I'm in there I just lose Consciousness for a while I'm dipping in and out of sleep and when I wake up for good I notice that I lost a portion of my leg but hey if Katniss didn't try to help me out I wouldn't be alive at all Portia comes to see me and tells me that Katniss is all right but they want our reunion to be live during the ceremony I'm taken to the stage and Katniss comes out and her beauty hits me like a [ __ ] truck she runs over to me and we hug and share a long kiss and uh Caesar almost tries to interrupt us but I push him away eventually we make our way to the left seat and snuggle up real close while we watch the three-hour recap of the most brutal thing of my entire life I get to see her Dodge the Fireballs which led to a reunion how she dropped the nest on us how she blew up the career supplies Rue's death her singing when they announced the rule that two people from the same district could win simultaneously she called out my name and it made my heart Lurch Apparently after we had one and the hovercraft was taking us away they had to restrain her behind a door because she was banging on it and screaming my name while the doctors were working on me President Snow himself comes to give us our crowns and then we head to the victory banquet me and Katniss stay holding hands as person after person comes up to us I don't even get a chance to talk to her in private before Porsha comes up to talk to me and Hamish escorts her to her room the next time I see her is for our final interview when we get home we'll have some privacy Caesar starts asking her when she knew she loved me and I was like that's an excellent question she said it was when she yelled my name after the rule change because she realized she could keep me she didn't have to see me as a competitor and I suspected as much but it was nice to hear her say it I say so now that you've got me what are you gonna do with me then Caesar starts talking about all our trials and tribulations and apparently she didn't know about my whole metal leg situation and feels really bad about it which I don't even understand because I'm alive because of her she has nothing to be sorry for then Caesar asks the final question the moment she pulled out the berries what was going through her mind she says she doesn't know she just couldn't bear the thought of being without me and I say that goes for me too glad we're on the same page so we get on the train to go home I can't believe this is actually happening the thing is on the train Katniss has changed it seems the closer we get to District 12 the more reserved she becomes then Hamish comes over praising us saying to keep it up until the cameras are gone and I'm like what's he talking about she says the capital didn't like our stunt with the berries so Hamish has been coaching her so she didn't mess anything up and I said he's only been coaching you he says yeah he knows you're smart enough to get it right and I was like I didn't know there was anything to get right what are we talking about here I say wait this whole star-crossed lovers act it was just an act the whole time she was acting during the games she says not all of it was for the games and I was like well how much you know what I guess it doesn't matter I guess the real question is what will happen when we get home and she says she doesn't know this girl is a liar God I'm so stupid I mean I practically forced her into a position where she would have to lie even if she didn't have feelings for me that was the narrative that we were trying to tell everybody the crowd the capital I thought I would be able to tell when she was being genuine I truly thought that every touch every word every kiss was real I go to my room and straight up SOB I guess it was pretty foolish of me to set my sights on a future which was an illusion the entire time plus I'm sure part of the reason that she's getting more uneasy as we get to the district is she probably has something with Gail that she needs to sort out plus what does she mean not all of it was an act which parts were an act does she only care about me as a friend and she had to force herself to kiss me oh my God I stay in my room the entire time and only when we're literally pulling up to the district do I get out to meet her so I hold out my hand and say one more time for the cameras and that's where we will end for today thanks so much for watching I hope you enjoyed this little show anyway I hope you had a good day y'all and I'll see you next time [Music]

Channel: Amanda Todhunter

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Id: H1VR2vnMv60

Length: 40min 27sec (2427 seconds)

Published: Sat Mar 25 2023