THE EMBODIED WOMAN: Part 2 with Makenzie Marzluff ... All Things Heart-Centered and Divine

hello and welcome to the embodied woman a home for the authentic creative podcast I am so honored that I get to do this and I so honored that I get to do it with my friend Amber thank you it's a really big deal that we have the freedom to say what we want to say to create what we want to create and to create Ripple effects through speaking Our Truth whether it's just us that hears it whether it's thousands or a hundred it's like just the fact that these conversations like Robin Cohen said I'll never be the same and that's how I feel after every episode that we do after every conversation that we have whether it's just you and me whether it's you me and these incredible guests and today um I am feeling really um proud that we're continuing this conversation with McKenzie I met McKenzie because of Yo and I was introduced to her cacao drinking chocolate because of Amber and I've got oh there she is what a gorgeous picture that is she's such a goddess I've got my caca here oh my God she's so gorgeous so McKenzie thank you for being here trying to turn my camera on there it is beautiful hoha how are you I'm good I'm on now so that feels really good and very grateful oh my God that's my favorite place in the whole world Hawaii or Maui Maui beautiful I want to be you when I grow up I want to oh my gosh right back at you for real for real you're so sweet how are you doing like what's going on that's what that's what I was gonna ask you well I'll let Amber I've I've started talking already but Amber how are you doing well I'm good you know I Siri and I were talking about obviously we had a a first conversation with you that was absolutely magical and amazing and Siri was just saying that you know I introduced her to my most favorite morning sacred of drinking the cacao and um we Mo we talked a lot about your your story and how you how you have arrived at where you're at and then when we finished the conversation we were like wait a minute we didn't talk about like sacred sexuality and we didn't talk about your book and and your your leadership role in ushering in this new paradigm shift of how businesses um are operated from a space of heart rather than you know a more patriarchal masculine linear type of practice so I actually um I wanted to read a description of your book how to lead a badass business from the heart because this is really a conversation that that we've been having that I've been having uh that's really resonant and so I feel like it's just perfect Divine timing for you to come back and talk about this um so if does that sound okay to you beautiful of course of course so how to lead a badass business from the heart is a blueprint for conscious entrepreneurs to bring their business to life in a way that is entirely rooted in the heart while the old Paradigm of business rooted in fear and greed has left most of the spiritual Community terrified of capitalism money and success this book grants full permission back to The Visionaries and light workers that are here to restore the heart on our planet through their Creations in this book you will learn through the author's unconventional stories and insights how you can be an instrumental part in Paving the new paradigm of business I mean h it's like music to my soul because I am a Visionary light worker in the spiritual Community wanting to Succeed in Business and make a lot of money and make huge impact and have been challenged with the old Paradigm of hustle and force and fear and scarcity and competition like all of us yes and so I would love to hear from you how that came to you and how you practice it in your own life and how you help other conscious entrepreneurs bring it into their businesses this is a big one it's a big one well when I first drank iasa that's where I have to start because I was say Bring It All We Got sacred sexuality plant medicine let's do it all yeah I got to start there because when I left that very first ceremony I was very connected to my true purpose which I heard the message and I forget if I shared this on the last one but the message was your purpose is to spread your glitter in the world yes doesn't matter what you do it doesn't matter you know yeah what tasks you're up to it's about how you do it it's about your being and that took a lot of pressure off because I had always come from the place having grown up in a a household that focuses on traditional success and education and making money and whatnot this really gave me a lot of relief oh wow in just being me and bringing my light to every room and every interaction that will fulfill my purpose and so I had I had the opportunity to just stop focusing on like what's my purpose what's my purpose what's my purpose from this place of like headiness and and in this openhearted space I remember leaving the ceremony I messaged my Aunt Amy and I said I'm never writing another business plan again I recognized how me writing out these business plans were so heavy and I had been limiting myself in terms of how much I could actually achieve and actually reach and actually expand into by trying to Define it and here's my plan here's what we're going to do and I just said I'm going to never do that again and and then within the next 24 hours an a business idea came through and um you can read the book if you want to learn more about that story but the idea basically the message was this is one way you will spread your glitter in the world so I took that message to Heart knowing that okay I can bring this product to the market and to others and this will be one way I share my light this is just a vehicle so rather than focusing on the numbers and how much money we're going to make and how many stores we're going to get into and all of that I got to focus on just bringing my light to others through the vehicle of this product so I would go to the Farm's markets and I would go to the trade shows and I would pray I would ask to just get out of the way and and allow my light to come through now I truly believe that when we step into a space like that we have no choice but to attract Prosperity because if you were born with a dream and you were born with a vision and you were born with these gifts that were meant to break come through why would the universe Creator God Source whoever you believe gifted you these gifts and these ideas and these Visions why would you not be res supported in bringing those through I believe that it's when we get distracted from our dharmic path that we start struggling when it comes to money and when it comes to being supported I believe we need to get on the path of Our Truth what are we here to share and then we get to allow the support to show up in our lives so this in in one ceremony I had the energy of my business of that business at the time present itself and I could sense that she she was a feminine energy and she had a voice she had her own personality and in the book I talk a lot about that I talk about how I got to start I started forming a relationship with the signature of my business the soul of my business the essence of my business and I started writing to her writing letters and and getting these intuitive nudges and these this guidance this support from the invisible realm and it doesn't mean I didn't make mistakes it doesn't mean it all went peachy clean in fact that business is not even here anymore however it went exactly as it was meant to go for me to gather the experiences and lessons I needed to have on a soul level so this is how I see business I see business just like I do sacred Union it is a it is a foundation of personal and professional and Spiritual Development your business is a mirror it it's always mirroring to you energetically where you're at and that's huming for me to say because I have stuff go weird in my business all the time now in the business that I'm in right now I don't call it a business I call this my Dharma I call this is my mission I share these plants with the world through the vehicle of caca kaao and then soon Ava this ceremonial Cava from the havian islands coming through so with that said I wholeheartedly believe that we can't think our way into our purpose we can't think our way into being an entrepreneur it honestly happens and we need to be in a space to allow it to happen and it's like when I first I I had some ceremonies where I just was seeing chocolate waterfalls I didn't know anything about cacao I just saw chocolate waterfalls for so many ceremonies and I was like what is happening why am I why am I in a Willy Wonka Factory in my ey can someone please make this stop and it wasn't until years later I had my head in a stone grinder and I just see the chocolate spinning around the stones and I'm like oh my gosh this was in my ceremony there it is yeah this was in my soul this was in this is in the contract that I came to this planet with and it just happened it doesn't mean it doesn't have my full engagement my full participation on a daily basis but it's just happening I'm not I'm not creating it for my mind I'm not trying to manifest anything I'm not focusing on what the goal is and just sitting there and trying to use the law of attraction to get to it to be completely honest the most successful things that I experience in my life now it's because I prayed first and I I listened and then I answered I I said yes to doing what that answer was you know I said yes to going to the farm because I heard that's the next right step even though I had no idea what I was doing and didn't speak Spanish and going to Guatemala alone as a young blonde girl is very dangerous so but I heard to go and I didn't know why this wasn't coming through my mind this was coming through my prayer and so I believe that it's a spiritual connection that will allow us to actually step into true Prosperity when it comes to being compensated for our gifts and for our Dharma and for our service in the world and there's so much more I can share about money but I'm going to pause and see where you want to go with this I'm excited to hear more about money and then let's make sure we have time for sex always always I love that you want me to keep going about m yeah I mean I'm in tears just because McKenzie and you do these ceremonies once a month online and I've been to one the cacao ceremony and I just have to share like you're so magical and you know Amber this magical being brought me to you this magical being and when you speak You're channeling you know I can feel the channeling and it just brings me to tears because you're so pure and I love the work that you're doing and it's so important the work that you're doing as an entreprene newer as a spiritual person as a woman that you know what Amber was talking about that we're shifting this Paradigm that you're the voice of this and we're we're like yes please tell us more you love it thank you thank you for us all this platform to to open ourselves up to truth you know because as I share as I listen to these words coming through I'm I'm remembering I'm getting that deep reminder so it's it's an honor uh when it comes to money it's very important that we don't limit ourselves the that the patriarchal society would would have us do so for starters when it comes to spreadsheets and finances and budgets all of that just has infinity signs in it for Me Infinity in Infinity out I don't bring my mind in when it comes to finances unless I have to calculate a margin or something just to be triple sure this is about restoring the feminine on our planet within the way this we operate and so what's that that's going to require when it comes to money is us coming so deeply into our intuition where am I being asked to invest resources where am I being asked to take a risk quotee unquote where am I being asked to pause where am I being asked to act and and really getting and and it doesn't mean you'll be perfect right away again we make mistakes but thankfully the Divine mother allows us space and Grace to make mistakes and we must practice this intuitive way of operating in order for our nervous system to trust that a lot of people say well how do you trust making these big RI like taking these risks taking these leaps of faith it said well I did it enough and realized I was always safe I always landed on the other side and now my body recognizes that but I had to prove it to myself and at first it feels a little wobbly and again that's where prayer comes in that's where the allies of the plants come in that's where nature comes in support the nervous system as you're making a transition from the old Paradigm to the new paradigm of quote unquote business if your Dharma is let's say quote unquote trading time for money and you think oh well I need to then have X amount of clients to make x amount of money you're limiting yourself completely completely limiting yourself because you're under the impression that the Angels can't change the numbers in your bank account and I'll tell you that they do tus they're just numbers on a screen literally it's just numbers on a screen so I don't go into my bank accounts and try to figure everything out because they're just numbers on a screen I pray ask for the guidance I act and I call on my seraphim I call on my angels my Spirit Squad and my team to support that and I don't really look at the bank accounts because I just trust that it's taken care of I know that that probably sounds super privileged however I did that when I had $15 in my bank account and to this day I push my edges because this medicine is asking me to uh grow and make larger and larger purchases of this medicine and so at one time and it's requiring more cash flow than ever and it and it pushes me at at a at an edge yeah I want to hear about this upleveling well tell ask ask it in another way what do you mean so you're growing you're upleveling as a person so and therefore as well simultaneously your business is upleveling and so it requires these kind of cycles of regrowth and like returning and like opening and then feeling scared and then like opening again and like am I ready for this and this is what I'm being called to so I'm going to trust like what you're talking about yeah but yeah yeah and and nature is the best analogy if not the only analogy we should use when it comes to money and resources and being supported because let's say a waterfall if we want the water to flow are we is our pipe are our pipes clear so that's the first step I'm realizing in any type of upleveling is like for instance I went through a divorce last year hard hard [ __ ] really hard [ __ ] however ever since that divorce I've had more doors open more opportunities arise more alliances form more Prosperity come through it's like oh I didn't realize there was a kink in the hose on multiple levels I'm not talking about a person that was I'm talking about within myself within myself there was something that was in congruent with my soul and in congruent with my true authenticity and therefore I played small I wasn't using my voice I was Outsourcing my masculine energy I was Outsourcing Safety and Security I was shrinking in order to make someone else feel comfortable and I was taking my wings and curling them back yeah that's on me so as soon as I removed that and it took work and a lot of ceremony and alchemis but as soon as I the the more that I shine and share and open my wings now now I'm an actual pillar for for service and for receiving support for my service my light is actually unobstructed I'm an actual Lighthouse and I can allow that abundance to flow and now this is going to happen again right because I'm going to continue to evolve and continue to grow this isn't about a destination this is about we came to this planet to expand our Consciousness we came to this planet to evolve our souls so it's it's not about how much money we make it's about what we need to learn what Karma we need to clear what lessons we must Embrace in order for us to go to this next realm hopefully preach preach hopefully so with that said so so yes I'm I'm so now I'm in this space of these opportunities these doors opening these alliances forming these products coming to life and I my number one kuliana responsibility with that is to be grateful is to open my arms wide and let it all in and just be like thank you thank you thank you thank you step two if I start noticing any sort of contraction nervous system disregulation fear I recognize that that's an upper limit that's an upper limit to me receiving this next stage of my growth and the next you know level of beauty Prosperity connection and love so I must so sometimes the waterfall will like dry up a little bit because there's another kink in the hose or there's some stagnancy in the pipes and that's all Divine because it it it gets our attention it when when when resources aren't flowing we it gets our attention on a soulle level and I I would refer to it as Gaia is getting my attention to say okay pause let's turn back let's look at the pipes and let's excavate this like what's going on what's happening within me that's in congruent to this flow am I not speaking my full truth am I acting from a place of wanting to prove myself do I have shame that I'm not addressing am I scared of what people would think am I scared of receiving more because I'm scared of losing it all again h and these are some questions that I might ask myself yes so I believe that just like nature Gaia uses resources very very wisely and it's like a teacher you know we can't expect it to be raining all the time we can't expect it to be sunny all the time we can't expect it to be one way we have to allow nature to do its thing and I'll pause there see what questions you have I'm truly enjoying being a receiver and listening and take and really just taking it all in it's all very deep deeply resonant it it makes absolute sense to me um very specifically in areas of my life I'm I'm noticing kinks in the hose I'm noticing where um opportunities to clear out I'm noticing um you know Gaia or God or Source or Mother Earth or mother money or whatever all of it all of it um yeah it's just it's fascinating also when you said I had this like little o when you said a fear of receiving more because you might lose it again I a like woo in my body about money but more about relationships and love because I have been divorced for four years and I say I want love more than more than anything I deeply want it and there's a little part of me that's like what if I get it and then it goes away again right it's like it makes me want to cry um so it's just interesting to notice that you know really and and just I don't have to really do anything about it it's like oh isn't that interesting that's present that fear is present and I can I can have compassion for that and that of course I would have that experience I'm a human and I've had human experiences where I have I have had loss and I have had pain and I so that's going to come up so my human self gets to say oh oh and then my soul gets to say yes sweetheart but here's the deal you are spiraling up so yes you might experience loss again you might experience pain again probably you're a human and you will you will be at another level where you will be able to see through a different lens and so to go back to what you said if we truly are here and I do believe this if we truly are here for the expansion right the the Soul's greatest expansion and and Consciousness then every experience we have um contributes to that oh unmute yeah yes 100% I I just so resonate obviously with your share and it's so real for me and my body too and still you know I'm so curious I'm C so curi ious how that's going to show up in future partnership or you know what for both of us and right now it's just this what I'm hearing is to just keep when we're scared of something go into the fear like you said like what's the worst that could happen is well we do lose again and and I did that with my company when I did that when Co hit or whatever you want to call it when 2020 hit I I he I was really scared of my business crashing and burning and as I was taking a walk I just said what's the worst that could happen is I lose my company and I just was like well I'll just build it up again yeah I finally because but I had to face the fear I had to feel the feelings and then I ended up recognizing how much that fear was operating me right and so now I try to name it faster um in any area of life but yeah it's like fear is a guide poost in many ways I had this oh goe I was just gonna share a little brief story yesterday I had this experience and I was laying on my couch and I was in a lot of feelings I was experiencing intense feelings um and at one point I felt almost this panic in my body like I wanted it to go away right and then all of a sudden I went Amber you've experienced like I mean some pretty shitty stuff in your life like you've had the the you know you've experienced like the deepest loneliness you've experienced the greatest Darkness you've had the most intense rage and anger you've the sadness that you have felt has felt at times like it was endless and you've survived so there's nothing that's going to happen right now on this couch there are no feelings that are going to present themselves that you haven't been there before and worked through it and moved through it it's not going to kill you so your job right now is to surrender let it just roll in okay what are you here to teach me okay let me feel you yep and we'll just keep feeling them until we don't need to feel them anymore so it just reminded me when you were saying that you know can relate on every level like same the eclipse the other night or whenever that was a week and a half I was shook by how much emotion was coming through and yet I just had to let it flow and that's what I love about the Jean keys he talks about let it crash into you let it let it Let The Wave just roll over and and then we get to turn our suffering into art if we the deepest yearnings of our hearts the deepest pain the deepest abundance like all the things that we can feel in our hearts can we bring that into art can we bring that into form can we bring that into service in a beautiful way and that's through alchemizing right here you know turning our life experiences into service because we've been through so much and so now we went to help that's beautiful so so good I saw on Instagram a story where you had your bike and I so relate okay because I don't like riding a bike just like you I fell over when I was younger I don't trust it I don't like it I can do it I don't like it and you talked about the exhaustion and traveling and like just I know you give your whole life to your mission and I feel that way like I several nights haven't been able to sleep I'm up I'm like chanting I'm meditating I'm praying I'm journaling I'm breathing I'm like affirmations like you know um and I'm and I'm exhausted because I have this manifesting generator energy where I'm just like my Miss like something is like making me like I just have to create I have to create I have to create I have to be doing I want to make [ __ ] right so I was relating to your bike post of like you're like I've just been I'm here I'm going to I'm exhausted I got a I got a ping that I need to ride this bike up this hill was it a mountain I'm like [ __ ] you know and today I did the same thing not with a bike but I went down to the dock of the bay and I just was like I'm GNA be I need to be in nature before I talk to you um so I'd love to hear about the bike the rest of the bike story and just the exhaustion and and as entrepreneurs and all that yeah I really hadn't experienced this level of burnout before to the point where I could barely walk and like go on a walk you know and and that that was confronting for me and it was because not only all the travel different time zones four months of living out of a suitcase while managing a company but I was also there were places where I was giving my energy away and I believe that my soul was trying to get my attention and say these places H while they are on your heart and while you do genuinely care you're not going to be able that's not what I have in store for you that's not how you're going to make a difference in lahina and on Maui you know and that was so hard to hear um because with lah you know it was so basically last year I went through a divorce relocated back to Maui because I'd only ever left because my ex didn't want to be here so I relocated back on the day of the fires so I have the trauma of the divorce that I'm still work working through obviously viously merged with the trauma of fires that this whole island has gone through some more than Evers some more than others different varying degrees of course but regardless I um I went into this hyper Vigilant fight ORF flight mode and I think that from both experiences since they were both so shocking they took me off guard I wasn't expecting them I think my cortisol just shot through the roof I think my adrenals got shot and I think that my body was trying to get my attention in this last month to say okay you've done so much work emotionally so much work on the shadow side so much work mentally and spiritually but the physical body has taken a hit from these experiences and the more that you keep doing this and overgiving overdriving neglecting these different parts of yourself and of your business you're just going to keep burning out and and it just so so that was kind of getting my attention and and also seeing where I was giving in L from a place of and and I think a lot of people could relate to this in general I was giving from a place of shame shame for having a house shame for living here and having survived shame for having a beautiful Sanctuary that I get to live on while meanwhile all these people are suffering and also just shame for being white while living on native land that's unlawfully occupied and it just was a lot so I had to get so honest with myself where am I acting and giving from a place of Shame and and feeling like I'm not worthy of this beautiful Abundant Life yeah so that was big and it and the burnout forced me to get honest about that so I've made some changes and I've made some shifts about where can I give and and what's been really interesting is that my soul has redirected me to a lot of inward work is how I can actually make a difference right now because the micro is the macro and I know it requires both but I'm finding a balance for myself with that said the bike is tender because I was on a road trip with the bikes on the back of the van when my husband revealed what he revealed and so I my inner child who loves her bike but it's always been a tender thing because didn't grow up with a dad around didn't have a dad teach me to ride my bike had my friend's dad eventually teach me but I didn't learn how to ride till I was seven it was always tender thought I had reprogrammed that inside of my life experience in marriage and boom it's all here again so I just heard my intuition like get on your bike today and I'm like no but I did and it was exhilarating it was exactly what I needed because it was me tending to my own inner child versus Outsourcing that looking for validation a man's presence you know anyone's approval I just got to you know maybe my burnout was my inner child trying to get my attention all along and she said hey I'm still here this is still a part of you you know and um so so now it's like remembering that to attend to her and it's not easy to because we have to be adults and live out these all these responsibilities but they do have our innocence has a beautiful way of getting our attention when we're feeling extra vulnerable it's probably our inner child when when we're feeling scared it's probably our inner child so it's like how can we tend to those parts of ourselves and for me getting back on the bike was how I said to her you know what who cares about all the people that said they don't want to be here whether it was your dad or your husband I got you and you're on Maui you're in Paradise look at how supported we are look at how abundant life is you're doing like let's play let's just play together and yeah that was very it was a healing day and it was a turning point for me I um I love that story and this is another conversation that I've been having a lot lately is this concept of sourcing from within sourcing safety sourcing security sourcing pleasure sourc you know I mean at the end of the day right and yesterday I my intuition said hug yourself because often times when I'm when that little girl in me is just feeling all the feelings I want to be held and the only people in my life right now consistently that are holding me or my children and I'm mostly holding them and so I said you know what in this moment I get to give that to myself and I and I I hugged myself and I wept and I said see like I get to give that to myself right now and no matter how many people are in my life or no how much abundance or anything that's happening externally at the end of the day I must Source from within all of it all of it um that brings me to my next question because we have to make sure that we talk about sex and pleasure and all that stuff because this is another conversation that I've been having a lot is how the practice of pleasure and sacred sexuality is allowing us to tap into tune into our feminine um principles right to usher in the new paradigm so that's one way for me that I have been um I'm using the practice the self-pleasure practice and other practices that bring in pleasure is to help me move into that feminine principle of receptivity and softening and allowing and flow and so I'd love to hear from you how that was brought into your life and how you use that as a practice for yourself and and how you teach it to others yes absolutely and I do just want to reflect like the the tenderness of these times and when you mentioned you know the emotion that's been flowing I think that there's a core wound within Humanity but especially with the feminine of worthiness and I know I'm certainly navigating deep layers of loneliness and it's not comfortable it is not comfortable at all especially when we give so much and we just want to be held at the end of the day in somatic physical touch is a primal need right so just just offering my compassion and letting you know like I'm very much going through the same thing and so many people especially women are and with that said my journey with um sacred sexuality and my sexuality and sex energy in general which is really just creative life force energy has been a big Journey for me it started with um someone introducing the fact that sex is not something that's meant to be goal oriented it's meant to be a practice of breath and connection to the Divine and I was just like what do you even mean you know and up until that point I had only seen sex as something as I should do for the man it's a chore and I never like had an issue with it I didn't have any trauma I just was had a lot of religious programming and and repression so everyone has a different Journey right everyone has a different story and when I got I had a healing session with a tantri Healer and what he did was he activated my Kundalini by tapping on the base of my spine it was a nonsexual experience he he activated the Kundalini energy and then he moved it throughout my entire body and because he was a raike practitioner was able to do that and while he did that when he got to my head I just had so much emotion you know like and this is probably I don't know nine years ago I I had so much emotion I felt like for the first time ever my my inner child was letting herself receive love from a physical touch space and up until then I'd been very reserved even my Aunt Amy she would say like that my body was resistant to touch and affection because it just hadn't ever received that so I had these walls and these barriers so this guy this healer really opened up a lot for me and um we had some time together where we got to just breathe in to like moving the quote unquote sex energy through the spine and up the spine and around the body and in that my chakras started opening and realigning because I think up until then especially through the use of let's say like a vibrator or porn my sex energy was very restricted to my sacral chakra experience quick releases done right which a lot of men can relate to that and now I was learning that number one this is sacred this energy is sacred this is the energy that creates worlds this is the most sacred energy on our planet the most powerful energy on our planet it creates children Offspring and I learned through different texts that you're creating mental and spiritual and emotional offspring anytime you activate that energy anytime you have an orgasm even if you're not creating physical ospring you're creating other Offspring and you're putting that out into the planet and into the universe into the into the consciousness of humanity so I started looking at well what Consciousness do I want to be where do I want to be creating from yeah and so I had to let go of these lower parts of you know engaging with porn or UTI izing sex for validation or to just please my partner I had to start like asking myself what's what's my reason for this what's my why so then um so it's like kind of like step one I understood that sex is sacred and that it's not about the end goal it's about presence breath intimacy eye gazing if you're with a partner and then later on in my journey I guess you were talking about pleasure I just began participating in various Retreats you know women's Empower Retreats sacred sexuality Retreats things where we could explore in a safe space different Sensations because as a woman that is in you know very much had been performance driven on the computer going to meetings that's not a very like sensual experience yeah so I needed I needed spaces and mentors to in books and and um and experiences to call me forward and relaxing into my feminine into activating my senses again because we shut these parts of ourselves down we numb numb these parts of us out especially if we've had trauma and even if we've just had one experience in a sexual setting that didn't feel empowering mhm you're going to you your fascia inside of your Yoni could then okay numb so I love um kimon nami's jade egg she teaches women how to use it and not only how to strengthen the muscles of the Yoni but it helps reawaken the sensations I started incorporating more feminine things in my life of flowers dancing singing breathing slowing down um I started appreciating doing the dishes appreciating doing the housework and folding the laundry because I realized that when I use my hands that progesterone gets activated so this has been a long journey for me and now where I'm at also share vulnerably is discernment around who I lit into my field yeah and that's not easy when it kind of sometimes feels like it's slim pickies no no offense to anything it's just you know to find well you're Discerning so that makes sense exactly and and but i' I've made some mistakes you know but and I I see them as I see them as beautiful experiences to mirror what they needed to mirr to me to reorient me and help me become even clearer around what is right for me to LIT into my womb and into my vessel but because we humans and I'll speak for myself I crave touch I crave intimacy I crave surrender I crave submission I I crave being able to like Drop in that space in a way that really only in my experience opening up the womb and cervical penetration can get you to but it's like that is nothing if it's not merged with the emotional spiritual and Beyond intimacy to be met at every single chakra so so I have so many friends that are in the female empowerment space pleasure practices that's not my work but I deeply respect it because it helps us women remember sex isn't just for the man oh and now I need to know what do I like what do I like and now the now the test this is my test is can I speak what I like can I speak what my boundaries are can I speak what I prefer can I speak what really opens me and I'm learning about myself it's never about a technique it's never about the physical it's about intuitively my womb knows if I am fully safe to completely open and the deepest pleasure that I could ever experien is I I imagine because I actually haven't experienced it yet I I sense that the deepest pleasure will be experienced when when I'm met on every level intimately every single chakra aligning and merging and so that's going to take take time and patience and discernment and right now for me it's about just the Beloved within you know and for me while I totally support pleasure practices and not making it just about the clitoris and like touching your whole body like activating everything fully being in your breath having a ceremony setting an hour aside for yourself get get Rose I buy flowers for myself regularly buy yourself roses take a rose petal and put it all over your body and even alongside your Yoni like bring in the sense bring in these goddess codes and and give yourself that space and that's going to allow you to come into just the worthiness the the true receptivity and and then on once you do that I mean you have to be Discerning about who you lit into your field from there because you've set a standard for yourself right so for me I really like value those practices and I'm kind of in a space where I'm really just channeling as much as possible my creative energy into my service because I need as much energy as I can can get um but every season is different you know and I'm just I'm in a I'm in a deep space of Yearning right now for a counterpart for a masculine counterpart for a dance partner and I am surrendered to that yearning it's it's motivating me to dance with myself and to just come into deeper sacred Union with the Beloved Within go thank you McKenzie gosh you're so eloquent you're just you're authenticity is so pure it's just there's no filter you're just I mean maybe there is but you're just speaking like the purest from your heart and it makes so much sense because you because the caca is your mission that you would have your heart so open and that you would be so pure with how you speak and it's just beautiful listening to you everything you're sharing I think who the women that and men that we share this with that hear this or that watch this on YouTube are in for so much gold in what you just shared like I love love love love your wisdom and and just just that vulnerability of like I am in yearning and I have these desires but I am also like taking my time and being Discerning it's just like H so beautiful thank you and I think this is the path of the conscious woman right and I'm so being called forward in that because it's like if I have this high high high standard in my mind's eye about the caliber of King I'm calling in then I def I honestly have work to do because there have been times that I've allowed people into my field that they're they're beautiful people but intuitively I [Music] knew that they weren't it and I create my I create more suffering for myself when I'm trying to make something work or I'm trying to fit someone into a box and so this is what I'm coming into forgiveness of myself for again like all great experiences I'm glad I had them and I'm also recognizing that like I'm in a deep preparation portal for for sacred Union and whatever that's going to bring and so I get to raise my vibration and so it's looking at every pattern around my eating around my sex sexuality around my boundaries around my words you know every single it's not I'm never going to be perfect I'm humanist [ __ ] but it's like if I'm calling in a High High High Caliber man then how can I even uplevel myself and maybe at the end of the day all I actually get is just deeper self-respect and deeper Union with the Divine and that's the gift okay I think there I think there's more there's more coming for you thank you I um I also I want to acknowledge um I think how important it is to speak your yearning honestly and vulnerably because um you know there has been a part of me I've been single for you know almost four years from my divorce and there have been moments McKenzie where the loneliness and sadness I have felt has felt like unbearable and um and then it's like but there's some shame around that because then I feel like ew you know like I shouldn't need or want that badly right but the truth is is that as humans we all deeply yearn to connect on a deep soul level and to have a partner and to have connection and to have deep Soulful intimacy and so there's nothing wrong with acknowledging and admitting that I deeply yearn for this and I was listening to a podcast recently and it just it touched me so deeply because it it felt like somebody spoke the words that I had felt in my heart but didn't really want to say out loud because it made me feel you know icky but she said that she wished that God would take away her desire for love because it just didn't ever seem to work out and the hope that she had and the longing that she had for it was so painful that rather than hope for it she just wanted the desire for it to be taken away and when I heard that I just was like oh my God I know that feeling I I that has been a prayer of mine please God if if I'm not if you don't have somebody for me yet then please take this yearning away because it's brutal right and I will also say that I have continued to come back to how do I Source from within how do I Source from within how do I Source from within and I have moments where I'm like totally at peace with that and in total trust that it's all working perfectly right I have been doing a self-pleasure practice a self-pleasure meditation practice that includes breath includes meditation includes self-touch and um I've been consistent for over 60 days and it's become a ritual it's become a sacred practice it's become a way for me to care for and nurture the vessel that holds my soul so that when it's time and I feel it's really happening closely right now um that I have done all this beautiful work to know my body to know myself to know my desires to be able to speak them um you know so I think that I see you I feel you I hear you I get where you are and I just would offer you know the hope that I have longed to get rid of at some point um you know that that um even if the perfect guy came along like if I haven't learned how to really deeply truly love myself um that I would somehow be wanting that to fill fill some holes so I just I'm in the practice of filling all the holes and then welcoming in beautiful partnership M wow so amazing thank you for sharing that it's such an example for so many women to hear that and I just yeah I'm really receiving I hear in your journey and just the courage it takes to surrender to that loneliness and for that four years because you know the temptation to numb that out to avoid it to busy it away it's you know it's so it's like I just really commend your courage it does take courage and that's you know I I'm not even a year into my divorce yet and I can see that well I'm not traveling the rest of the year right so I am grounded for these eight months and it's like whoa now I'm it's re this next layer of healing is really coming to the surface where of course I want to run away and like can a man just rescue me from this yeah no no nothing's going to rescue me from laying down on the floor and just feeling the loneliness and I'm just going to I'm I'm a yes to being courageous and like you're giving me so much inspiration in that right now because I was just talking to my friend about this last night and and she was like oh my gosh one day you're going to laugh about this and you're going to look back and miss these times alone right yeah cherish it cherish it and like you're right you're right so y yeah it's all it's all perfect well thank you McKenzie for gracing us again we're so honored thank you Amber as always for being so vulnerable and courageous and sharing so well and articulately like your life and your path and your story and everything everything that you go through um I again I said this at the beginning I'm so honored that we get to do this that we have the freedom to do this it's so important thank you McKenzie love you McKenzie love you love you guys so much and I just I really hope we get a hang out in person because I adore both of you more than you know like I feel a resonance and just a yeah a full FS so come to Maui would love yes I would love to dance dance parties caca dance party yes ceremony dance party 100% I'm I'm dead serious so would love love love to do that all right yes yes yes yes and so it SNY so much love thank you talk to you bye bye love her love I I have a craving to read this because I wrote it this morning and I feel like it applies to what Mckenzie was sharing so sometimes the best experiences are the ones we show up to by ourselves and have with God and spirit Angels guides your little girl and your higher self all coming together for highest and best good for you and for everyone knowing it's all going to be okay and then amazing all the Miracles and Magic are here all the blessings are here A New Day always Dawn a new River I think of McKenzie's waterfall image always runs flowing away all the old and flowing in new fresh Miracles Earth is renewing so are you sweet one part of the whole and also whole unto on self beautiful beautiful Yep this was so good yeah it was perfect I'm glad that we got to have another conversation with her it feels more complete now yeah we got to discuss all that we did and yeah it's just it is it's so healing when you hear other people speak their truth and when you speak your truth and because you know I've said this a million times and I'll say it again the parts of us that we've tried to hide and pretend like we okay um as soon as we speak it out loud we realize we're so not alone every single human has those moments of desperate loneliness of longing of Yearning of pain of fear of confusion of uncertainty of Doubt of you know all of it like and yet somehow we've been conditioned I think and I don't know why to to be in this energy of Separation AF afraid to share that you know afraid that it will somehow make us um unlovable and so we hide it you know yeah I think it's from these painful experiences that we have you know it's like all the things we can think back and go like oh that's where I was just being my innocent pure normal natural self whatever quotes normal and then I got hurt I got made fun of I got laughed at I got judged or there's like the programming of all the conversations that people well I'll just be specific like I think I've shared this like my mom and I used to sit at the table after school and I would share some things and she'd be like well that's because she's like this and she's like that and she's judging you and you're and she would psychoanalyze the whole thing but it was like kind of like we were judging them back and there's just all these coping mechanisms right cuz it's pain ful to be vulnerable and human 2 two two um yes Angel what's 222 mean balance Harmony relationships Union oo yep soulmate yeah perfect we will We Shall end on 222 here we go all right thank you Amber loving you love you guys for listening thanks for coming on this journey we so appreciate you and we would love I would love I think Amber would love we would love to hear like what are your stories what are you thinking about all this what's going on for you you feel free to reach out to us share with us how this is hitting you we want to hear too all right I love that yes I would love to hear all right bye guys bye

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Length: 64min 52sec (3892 seconds)

Published: Mon May 13 2024