The Dementia Simulation - Everywhere at the End of Time Reaction

hello everybody welcome back to the channel and today we're going to be talking about something a little bit more serious than usual but just a little bit if you've watched my channel and are interested in this type of content then you may have heard of something called everywhere at the end of time but even if you haven't i'm gonna explain everywhere at the end of time is a series of six different recordings done by an artist known as the caretaker and in short the album itself is supposed to be an artistic look at the experience of dementia now already as you can tell by that introduction that this is a rather serious topic and i'm urging you now if that is something that you may be sensitive to yourself or if that is something that you view as a serious topic and don't really want to interact with there is no shame in clicking off the video because it's going to be sad however i view this as a very important piece of art especially for what it is and the serious issues that it's dealing with leland kirby also known as the caretaker made this as a means of giving people a sort of idea of what the process could be like dementia itself as it's medically classified is broken down into seven stages however the first stage has no discernible symptoms so the six stages of symptoms he converted into a sonic format the first stage opens with a sort of shining esque ballroom music it sounds like a vinyl recording taken from the 1920s and from there well we're gonna find out overall people who have listened to the entire album have said they've experienced forms of confusion melancholy anxiety and memory loss with regards to the tracks themselves essentially the way one processes and retains information about the music they hear within this album is supposed to represent what some people feel about their entire lives whenever they experience this terrible disease now i want everyone to know that i am approaching this from a 100 place of respect i have had family members as well as people i know go through this terrible illness and i don't want this to come off as a oh look i'm doing the six hour everywhere at the end of time challenge instead this is a piece of art that i want to experience firsthand and i know it's a lot for a lot of people to experience themselves so hopefully by me doing this you can have a better idea or better understanding of not only of this tracklist and the artist the caretaker but of the disease itself so i am going to be listening to the entire six and a half hour everywhere at the end of time live with you all what i'm gonna do is we're going to switch from the camera that you're watching through right now to this camera on the laptop and everything is going to be centered through it so that way you can hear whatever i'm hearing and i'm going to periodically check in or check in whenever i have something to say regarding what i'm hearing and discuss it with you guys and i also want to bring to light some other outside ideas while listening to it for example there have been people who have taken the emotions they experienced while listening to it and comparing it to actual medical sites that give descriptions for how dementia can be and they combine the two and they seem to mesh well so we're gonna try that and again i don't want this to come off as some challenge or cool thing that i'm doing on youtube i think that this is a very important artistic piece that's been put together and i want to try to analyze it as much as possible so what i'm going to be doing during the six and a half hours is i will be listening through earbuds to the actual album and i can pretty much do anything aside from that as long as there's not audio stimulation because for one setting in a corner and staring at a wall for six and a half hours could have some other adverse side effects and because we're scientists we're simply testing one variable at a time so i'm going to be walking around and on the computer and writing 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i am excited not necessarily for what's about to happen to me but i'm excited to better understand um not only this piece of art but the experience that the artist wants to get across with it so hopefully you all enjoy again to whatever capacity you could enjoy this type of video i promise the conspiracy icebergs next and we'll talk about funny giants and all that i promise but for now hopefully you set through this ride with me if you're willing as much as possible and either way whatever you decide to do i just want to say thank you for watching all right so let's get into it all right so here we go the caretaker everywhere at the end of time stages one through six i am starting a six hour train i cannot get off of and let's go not there okay never mind anyway now that we're there beginning the six and a half hour run real quick looking at this it's segmented into the different tracks but also the different stages so stage one and then it's all the tracks through that and then stage two you can see right there and it continues on then there's these really long gaps that the titles are concerning anyway so here we go no getting off this pony once it gets running and let's do it [Music] oh boy the ballroom music while that's playing i believe i have the audio set to where you can hear me while i'm talking over it in the description for the video the caretaker gives descriptions of what each stage is so with this it's stage one it says here we experience the first signs of memory loss this stage is most like a beautiful daydream the glory of old age and recollection the last of the great days [Music] and this incredibly nostalgic sort of melancholy music is troubling considering i know where this is going and then here if we go to dementiacentral.com which i pulled up which looks pretty legitimate to me because remember we're stipping stage one because stage one doesn't have any symptoms so our stage one is in real dementia stage two it says stage two is very mild cognitive decline symptoms maybe forget names misplaces familiar objects and symptoms not evident to loved ones or doctors so it can just be basic forgetfulness which going back to the music i'm hearing right now and you guys are hearing right now it's very it like you know it's there you can hear all the music just fine but the weird little crackles in it it feels like it's a burned vinyl sort of like it's just got some scratches just got some build up so even though you can hear all the music you can tell that it's a little bit wrong so i am going to continue listening if i have anything to say i will come back and let you all know also another thing to mention is the artwork of all this so like looking at this all of the different stages have their own distinct artwork that goes with them and while it's never particularly said as this is all very abstract oh okay a different song but similar tone anyway um this seems to be like a rolled up book or magazine at least that's what i get from it it feels ruffled though like the suggestion is for stage one it's just a little bit off it's just sort of nostalgic in a way because it feels it feels like it's a perfectly rolled up magazine but there's just sort of a gash through it or a wrinkle and i guess that's kind of the part that i'm in right now so i will come back if i have anything else to say or if the music changes substantially hey i'm back at 11 minutes in uh i just wanted to point out like so i'm sent there listening to it and as the different songs come in i guess it's because i'm hyper focused on it but the crackling seems to be getting louder so like this track playing right now is the same track from the beginning but it feels emptier if that or more empty whatever if that makes sense um also looking at the chat track names the first one is it's just a burning memory and then we don't have many days late afternoon drifting and this one's childly childishly fresh eyes and slightly bewildered things that are beautiful and transient etc i don't know if this is actually more distorted than what the first one was or in other words i don't know if there's actually more of it missing or if i'm just looking for it but it's right on that line that i can't tell if it is so the paranoia is already set in so yeah i'm 20 minutes in i believe yeah right at 20 minutes in and i just want to say that this music is absolutely beautiful i know it's going to become bad and i know that the whole idea is that it's going to deteriorate and i'm going to be very sad but right now at this moment it's so pretty like i've been just listening to the sonnets and the strings and the drums and what's also interesting is i read somewhere that the caretaker did the if i like struggle with wording it's because i'm listening to this much louder than you're hearing it so i'm trying to talk through it but uh the caretaker made this entire thing on a computer and i know that like these are sample tracks and then he kind of edited a mess with him but it sounds so beautiful right now and i was sitting there listening to thinking man i hope it can just stay i hope i can just stay where i'm at and just stay in this moment like as far as the music goes and then realizing what that means for the overall point of the project it's very um a personal um it's a personal delivery of what this is trying to do so that's where i'm at right now all right so we are now on to stage two uh so the happy and somber music is still kind of there but remember how before there was like some holes in it or is a little like rusty now that's the majority of the noise and it's kind of evenly balanced with the actual music it's this like just cloud to listen through even the paintings kind of representative of that like looking at that image i know it's a flowerpot like i know what a flowerpot is and i can make it out but i can't tell you what it's made of and it looks it almost looks at the base of it like it's two people like there's what looks like a boy on the left and a girl and dress on the right sort of dancing around it but that's just i mean it's just a flower pot it's weird i know what it is but i can't tell you the details of it and as with the music i can hear the music but i can't hear it through the fog which i believe yeah the title distraction stage two and then we can change you from there with stage two the description reads the second stage is the self-realization and awareness that something is wrong with the refusal to accept that more effort is made to remember so memories can be more long form with a little more deterioration equality the overall personal mood is generally lower than the first stage and at a point before confusion starts setting in which ties back into what i was saying that i it's still there it's just harder to listen to and then looking back at what would be stage three it says this is again to do with actual dimension stage three is mild cognitive decline symptoms are increased forgetfulness slight difficulty concentrating decreased work performance gets lost more frequently difficulty finding right words and loved ones begin to notice this is the stage where it actually this is the stage where most people begin to recognize it and as with the music here it went from just a little grainy to now it's hard to miss the quality of the actual track so yep stage two hey uh i'm back i think we're yeah right coming up on that one hour mark um so the music has changed like now it's much more hostile uh not only is there still like the graininess of it but there's these long drones that carry out for a while i hear what's like really high pitched uh strings that kind of sounds like a shriek and every now and then there's the sound of like footsteps getting closer or at least something that sounds like it um and even then through the glimpses i hear chords and sounds that are similar to stage one so i'm both really intently listening and afraid of what noise i'm gonna hear so i'm on edge uh and it's not really part of the like the overall goal of making me forget or whatever it's just like it's building up anxiety and making me nervous so i am a sixth of the way through and not even really related to the experiment the noise just got creepy so uh i'm doing great yeah something else that i also have to mention uh we're a little bit further now yeah we're an hour ten minutes um every time that it switches tracks in stage two there's no carryover it's like a stop there's a dead stop and then it continues and that silence is so awful for some reason um i don't know what to make of that yet i just don't like it we are now at an hour and 20 minutes um in the past like well stage two for the past like 10-15 minutes has just been horror movie music like like i'm expecting some scream or like noise to jump out and scare me because it would honestly be a relief but it's just tension and it's awful all right so we are now on to stage three uh so this song that's playing in the background i'm almost positive as the song stage one or the very beginning of this opened with however as you can tell it's so gone that if if you hadn't have known it from the beginning you wouldn't be able to make it out at all and also this painting that goes with it it's like it kind of looks like a floral arrangement a little bit i think or greenery of some kind but it's not really made of anything and the brush strokes are way too broad to tell whereas with the last stage i could tell what it is but i couldn't tell what it was made of here i can't tell what it's made of and i can't really tell you what it is or what's going on and that in connection with the music's heartbreaking sorry i forgot where my camera was setting now you should be able to see the image a bit better uh yeah i can't i can't make it out and it's awful and speaking of stage three the description for it reads here we are presented with some of the last coherent memories before confusion fully rolls in and the gray mist form and fade away finest moments have been remembered the musical flow in places is more confused and tangled as we progress some singular memories become more disturbed isolated broken and distant these are the last embers of awareness before we enter the post awareness stages that is such a horrific phrase the post awareness stages and then again reading about the actual details of stage four dementia which remember three to four whatever as moderate cognitive decline it says difficulty concentrating forgets recent events cannot manage finances cannot travel alone to new places difficulty completing tasks in denial about symptoms socialization problems withdrawal from friends or family physician can detect cognitive problems so as to relate that back to where the music is at if it here comes another one of those moments of silence i absolutely hate it it's i can tell what i'm familiar with like i said that first track that as it says the final memories i can hear those memories from the beginning of this but everything around it and it itself is so distorted it's hard to make out and new stuff is just blurred it's it's like i can't learn and i can't like learn the beats or learn the songs anymore i'm just kind of grasping for what i already know from this track or these tracks so yeah stage three something else uh that's interesting about the stage of where are we at we are at an hour and a half in um something that's interesting or i say interesting some a detail about it while listening to it is that there's these little drones in the background like every now and then there'll be like a click click um or like the it sounds very mechanical just noises will appear randomly but not only that some of the music that i can understand will go for a bit then stop abruptly and then another piece will pick up and it's kind of like everything's mismatched so even if i can make something out and kind of hang on to it it's over as soon as it shows up and i i keep getting jumbled around whenever i try to hear something so whenever i listen to intently i'm kind of like punished for it if that makes sense okay so all at once we cut from like the distorted music to this which is just like broken audio and little robot noises and what sounds like people trying to talk in the background ah man okay so there's another four hours of this it's like in a movie whenever someone's coming out of a coma and they just like hear everything at once like it like sensations brand new that's what it sounds like also looking at the artwork for stage four the first thing that comes to mind is it's like a person standing to the side bladed right and it's like the clay is the hair and then it's like someone's shoulders uh and then like a shirt or a dress right beneath the shoulders but the important feature is that you can't make out any details on the face like you know it's a person there but you can't recognize any of it and i'd imagine that this is where forgetting people comes into play man what's the name of this section stage four and then post awareness confusions man we've hit the point where like simulated at least where cognition of things is non-existent and then in the description it says stage four post awareness stage four is where serenity and the ability to recall singular memories gives way to confusion and it's the beginning of an eventful process where all memories begin to become more fluid through entanglements repetition and rupture so i assume this is the part where i begin to stop recognizing actual tracks and tunes you know something interesting about this i remember a study that said with dementia patients normally one of the last things that they forget is music like the the last thing they'll forget their favorite song they'll be able to hum it and recognize the tune because it's ingrained in them somewhere even after they forgot things like people and events and abilities they'll remember music so there's something especially heartbreaking about telling that story through the form of music and then going back to stage five on our chart the symptoms are well the definition for stage five is moderately severe cognitive decline symptoms are major memory deficiencies need assistance with adls such as dressing or bathing forget details like a dress or phone number doesn't know time or date doesn't know where they are so this is really man getting into the part where they can't really process or someone with this could have really processed um details about them that are necessary that combined with the music i'm listening to right now is haunting man there's another like four hours of this oh my word all right anyway yeah ah all right two and a half hours in uh it's getting to the point like this droning over and over in my head uh it's not only making me nervous like i mentioned before but it's getting hard to do stuff like playing video games or looking at my phone or whatever i'm just like i'm losing the ability to focus on it because of these noises just over and over so i'm getting to the point of not only anxiety but like frustration with this so that's where i'm at do you hear this it's much louder for me right now i am upset the things i do for you people something i've noticed that's really weird about well i mean it's intentional but it's odd is even with as messed up as the music you can hear right now is if i try to listen really intently i feel like i can hear glimpses like little beats and stuff from music that i've heard earlier and i don't know if that's intentional i know it's intentional but i don't know if there's actually music there or if it's just me filling in the gaps but it's something all right this has just been horror music for the past however long like i'm scared like do you hear this do you hear that do you know what i'm going through anyway looking at the title this section is called post awareness confusions so the scrambled back and forth thoughts and everything must be the complete just like lack of cognition like because that's what it sounds like it's just confusing so at the current stage we're in as you can tell compared to what you heard last time i was talking this is much more pleasant like it's not really music i mean i mean everything's music but it's not really like a lot of cadence or beat or whatever but the sort of disjointed sounds sound decent they sound calming compared to everything else around it and that's because the section of this track is called temporary bliss state or the idea that people who are going through this will have these moments of not really cognition but of bliss or serenity in the middle of it where everything's okay for a while before more after confusion sets in so what i'm hearing is kind of like an island in the ocean in the midst of everything being terrible it's like this one nicety and it's like as weird as it sounds um it's calming right now compared to what i've been hearing and i'm quite fond of it and then as we're coming to the close of stage four sections titled post awareness confusions that music that was there before is kind of more haunting now it's more spaced out and it implies that things are going to be bad again and here we are at stage five it's just this is static and people trying to talk and noises and everything happened at once and i can't understand any of it i can't even like looking at that picture just pure abstract i don't even know what it's trying to be or even close to it kind of looks like someone on a staircase maybe a little bit i have no idea man oh that's heavy okay stage five description reads as post awareness stage five confusions and horror more extreme entanglements repetition and rupture give way to calmer moments the unfamiliar [Music] i am getting at least right now in the beginning zero moments of calm it is entirely chaotic and then reading stage six on site whenever it comes to dementia itself it says that symptoms can include cannot carry out adls without help forgets names and family members forgets recent events forgets major events in past difficulty counting down from tim incontinence difficulty speaking personality and emotional changes delusions compulsions and anxiety this is a full state of disconnect from all social standing which is why the music is just unhinged noise and madness and it's terrifying especially with as loud it is to me right now because it's supposed to be because in a condition in which someone is experiencing all of this it is terrifying to go through all this at once because i can pull these out and i can be done with it but the idea that someone could experience life in a way that they don't know anything that's happened to them and they don't know what's going on it's just constant fear is heartbreaking you know i've been listening to 40 minutes of whatever this is and it quit being terrifying and now it's just kind of like a dream like you know how whenever you think about moe street not like lucifer but when you think about dreams after the fact they just kind of blend the details of it and like you can like when you wake up you can tell oh obviously that wasn't real but while you were in the dream it felt real this is what thinking about a dream feels like at this point like it's just it's there but you know it's not real and if like the purpose of this is supposed to be like the music's representative of memories the fact that i think it's music but i don't i can't tell anything about it yeah beneath this cookie though uh i started eating food but nothing else to do this was really loud it's like the longest jump scare build up ever actually hold on this video's got comments on it my great-grandmother had dementia at 85 years old one day i walked into her house like any other day and she grabbed the nearest thing to attack me with thinking i was someone breaking into her house some time ago i was at my grandparents house for sunday dinner when i arrived i noticed that my grandparents had some guests over they had invited my grandfather's cousin joe and his wife i sadly forgot her name over to eat with us when it was time for dinner we all started talking as usual i forget what the conversation was about but joe's wife ended up saying something along the lines of i need to speak with my brothers and sisters again it's been a while after she said this the table went silent and i wasn't sure why the silence was broken with joe saying something like honey they're all past in a sad tone joe's wife went on to say really all of them are gone this was the moment along with some other signs that i realized she had dementia this put me into a weird feeling sadness for the rest of the day leading on to the next about two days after the sunday dinner my mom had it for me and joe's wife passed away the night before it felt so well knowing that someone who i just met and talked to who seemed to have a good amount of life left in her had died it made me think ignoring the fact that that's a peter griffin profile picture i'm trying to find anything that isn't this hey look moodle is over here i'll watch you when i'm done with this a 10 hour loop that's pretty much oh of just the beginning song okay all right whatever oof this one imagine listening to this for the first time and scrolling through the comments just to find a comment you wrote years ago i knew this whole youtube channel was in my head [Laughter] i don't think there's any minerals in this i think it would have ran into one by now that would be funny though looks like everyone here is equally depressed about this as i am fun fact every stage gets more scratchy and grainier signifying the fact plaque building up in the brain how does this connect with records records make grainy noises when plaque builds up in the grooves i'm not sure if i'd consider that a fun fact but yeah is it weird that like the music right now that you all are hearing like i'm sure that sounds really weird to you guys and it is weird but it's almost like the drums are almost kind of they have a cadence to them a bit listen to this now it's kind of a choir it feels like it feels historical monumental i don't know it feels like almost calming in a scary kind of way i guess that's what acceptance is but like like listening to it for this long it's kind of like i don't know it's just kind of pleasant that it's there i guess i don't know homeboy shouldn't have passed me the ox could you see me in a car with friends and they're like you play something did you just turn this on oh my word no guys we let the whole song play through two hours left so we are coming up on the right around the five hour mark the music is a lot more sparsed out than it was previous like previously it was just all at once all together uh the music the noise and now it's much more like sort of desolate i guess it feels like it's harder to find the details of it which uh details of it it's harder to actually hear it as it just shows up less which again in relation to the concept is frightening um i've i took one of my earbuds out i still have the other one in uh going i took one out uh just because i was getting headaches from the noise so loud uh i'm still listening to it still haven't stopped but it's just like i'm not giving myself a throbbing headache over it so yeah that's how that's going uh but yeah we are let me see five hours i think we're about to hit yeah stage six and oh boy all right uh we just hit stage six which seems to just be white noise also so that you all can see this is the image for stage six which is just a blank canvas and that in combination with the noise is haunting it's it's just nothing it's the lack of anything man okay what's the name of this section stage six and then a brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat long decline is over place in the world fades away [Music] all right what's the description say it says post awareness stage six is without description then if we go over here which this would be stage seven which is very severe cognitive decline or late dementia cannot speak or communicate require help with most activities loss of motor skills cannot walk this is like [Music] just the absence the after then down here in like fast assessment it says speech ability declines to about half a dozen intelligible words progressive loss of ability to walk to sit up to smile and to hold head up again if music in this is supposed to be relation to memories and as you hear the music it's in relation to what someone at that stage may be experiencing with memories this is literally just none it's just silence it's like it's trying to make music but there isn't any man okay an hour and a half of white noise yay hello everyone it's me again back from the pit of despair and we've got another hour left it's just been like this for all of stage six um it's randomly broken up by noises of what sounds like rocks being like thrown on walls and like these little crashes and like pitter patters and it's making me incredibly anxious and i hate it uh which i'm supposed to i understand symbolically i'm not supposed to enjoy this it's not supposed to be fun and it's not um see an hour left cool hello i'm back well for you i'm not back it's just been cut up but for me it's been another i think 30 minutes yeah 5 57. we are like half an hour away and i never have to listen to this again like just like the fuzziness and then these random like drones that come in when we get up i hate it like that like that noise is like that and i don't like it but i'm almost there uh i see like it is humbling and it does make me thankful because like this is this is a simulation that isn't near as bad as the real thing or what the arts demonstrating right and also the fact that like like i said earlier i can take these earbuds out but the imagine imagining this played out over the course of years and in a much much worse state is haunting and this this project really does make you think so yeah so i'm coming back in at 6 10 so 20 minutes left um because it went it went from like quiet okay there's some noise it went it did go from like quiet to nothing just absolute silence uh and it's weird it's almost like hearing the drones like those long drones is more calming than just the abject void of noise um like relating it back to like the disease it's talking about this is like a complete loss of higher order thinking or function there there's literally nothing uh there there's literally moments of nothing followed by just sort of these moments of hazy noise like that so yeah 20 minutes left so i'm back and i'm putting the other ear back in because i'm hearing for the first time what sounds like music since i don't i don't even know man like where are we at 6 17 see stage fives when it just honestly stage four two there was no music for the first time in four over four hours i'm hearing music again like it's faint and it's weird it's that sort of swelling chords um [Music] but it's really nice to hear music again and considering the name of this track is a place in the world fades away and the fact that it's been getting worse and worse and now all of a sudden the music is back man that's [Music] that's heavy because like even though i know what it means even though i know what it's like involving just the fact that it's been like bad for so long the fact that i'm hearing something now is so pleasant oh man that's heavy man all right yep that that hit yeah i get it i get it i get it okay all right i'll be back shortly like talk about a way as an artist to get your point home like you build up this tension like it starts decent but then it's just tension for the rest of it and then for four hours it's just like painful and scary and anxious and everything and then at the end to bring back the music it just says a whole lot more than words ever can wow okay back again piano i think um in the last six minutes that that's that is definable music for the first time in four hours like those last chords like i thought were music but i guess that was like the prelude to it and now it's actual like instruments it's almost a voice [Music] ah man it's like oh it's like a angelic for a reason man this is heavy okay all right so we're coming up on the end and the music's fading out it's just silence i think so there was there was regular music that slowly became distorted and then there was a void of sound and then there was this intense confusion and madness and then just silence and droning followed by an angelic choir and now absolutely nothing someone's entire journey yeah over the course of six hours man just looking at that plank canvas i didn't expect that ending to like really be like the full impact of it yeah that's it no no thank you chromebook okay man i'm going to take a minute to gather my thoughts and then we'll switch back to the camera that you all are used to and we'll wrap this up so thank you for watching this far well that was certainly something you know i went into it with the slightest expectation that i was gonna find the whole thing pretentious and if you think that it still is that's totally fine that's your own opinion but like as far as artistry goes and especially art like this where the interpretation or the emotions that you receive during it is the main point i it absolutely hit home for me while listening to it i remember i always used to think that paintings like picasso was just kind of pretentious at least the people who were really into it or talked about the greater meaning behind it were and i still kind of do about them but um my girlfriend convinced me kayla convinced me to go to see an exhibit of picasso's works and while i was there looking at the paintings there was this moment where i was looking at the details of it because it showed all his portraits right and it showed he had the portrait of what he painted next to what the original person looked like so for example if the lady that he painted had a large nose on the painting it would be this incredibly exaggerated nose and everything else drawn around it and there was this eureka moment i had while looking at it where i got the purpose of picasso's works or at least his portraits were to highlight the most notable characteristics of a person and make everything else fit around it and when you think about his paintings that way it's kind of like a memory it's kind of like while you're looking at it it's the way you would remember the features of a person during this during everywhere at the end of time especially in the ending whenever i was so desperate for there to be some manner of cadence or music because what had it started with music and then it began to break up the tone and make the audio fuzzy it made it completely unenjoyable and then there was no music and i was just so desperate for anything so when at the very end there was some music and i was so thankful for the music i had as distorted as grainy as covered up as it was i was just thankful that i could hear again and applying that to what the purpose of the piece is i i got it and i know that's sort of a pretentious thing to say and it is a lot you could think i'm pretentious right now for talking about that's totally fine but with this that moment i had where i said oh i got it was just in regards to the like people who go through this do not have the luxury of being able to pause or being able to take their earbuds out or whatever because it occurs over the course of the rest of their life so there at the end where after just four hours i was so thankful to just hear something again the the imagination of what people go through in that state is horrific and you want to talk about a horror piece this is the most like existentially terrified i've been in a long time um and i thought like and that's the purpose of it right like you're supposed you're not supposed to feel good during this um and for a horror piece for something that made me very introspective and grateful for the life that i have um i think it absolutely knocked it out of the park and i didn't enjoy it in the sense that one may enjoy something like i'm never listening to that again but i enjoyed it in the sense of what it made me think about and sort of the ideas that it made me come up with during it i enjoyed it in the sense that i appreciate it for those of you who may not ever want to listen to have a sort of vapid curiosity with it i hope that maybe this video was enough or it kind of gave you insight to how one may feel during it but either way whatever either you enjoyed my suffering which is totally fine that's what the channel's here for or you liked just seeing someone else talk about it i hope that you enjoyed the video as much as you could and as always thank you for watching this has got to be the most like weird sort of experimental video i've done at least top five on the channel i can't think of anything that even remotely competes with how odd this was a six hour simulation of dementia um but i think it's i think it's an effective one especially like because i tried to cover like the creepy and the weird and the horrific which this thing was all of those and like i said like i said i appreciate it for what it was and i hope that you in some regard enjoyed this video especially if you hear this one i have no idea what this is going to cut to obviously the recording for it has now been seven hours at this point considering the intro this outro and the six and a half hour recording no clue what this is going to cut down to but however long it's been for you all i hope that you enjoyed and thank you so much for watching thank you so much for uh continuing to support the channel as much as you have we are at i think 570 000 now um which is again a fake number this is all a dream and none of it makes sense but thank you all so much for getting me here i really don't deserve it but you guys are fantastic and thank you for the support you've given me thank you so much to my patrons over here thank you to my top tier patrons that you can see um you guys are awesome supporting the channel monetarily is something that i can never at well i guess i do ask for it's something i can never expect or thank you all enough for and i greatly appreciate it so just thank you for your time thank you for your dedication and consideration it means a lot and i'm glad that you enjoy the videos i wasn't kidding earlier next video i plan to do well i don't see i never know with the ads getting approved and with edits which one's going to come out first at the time of recording this the next thing i'm going to work on is the conspiracy theory iceberg if that comes out before this or after i don't know but expect that around the same time either way thank you all so much for watching i hope that you enjoyed i'm going to go lie down drink coffee and listen to uh probably kanye or i don't know just some music that is actually discernible uh this is wild anyway thank you all so much for watching i hope that you enjoyed i hope that you have a great day thank you for the support and i will see you in the next one but

Channel: Wendigoon

Views: 1,701,975

Keywords: iceberg, explained, scp, analysis, breakdown, scary, spooky, horror, creepy, comedy, funny, laugh, humor, cringe, intel, deep web, dark web, hidden, tier list, secret, top ten, top 10, countdown, compilation, meme, memes, meme compilation, internet horror, reddit, ask reddit, redacted, childhood, trauma

Id: 3Vslc-SvYMc

Length: 48min 55sec (2935 seconds)

Published: Sat Sep 18 2021