Sheri Rose at Calvary Chapel Chino Valley

[Music] I'm gonna start with my little war story because this is dancing on the battlefield but four years ago I was given eight weeks to live with a diagnosis of stage four breast and lymphatic cancer and in that battle I lost my husband my son who traveled with me got married and moved across the country to North Carolina I have a loving year spread I got pregnant on my honeymoon on birth control so that worked well and then I got pregnant eleven years later before my ex-husband's vasectomy so that worked well so anyway I have eleven years spread and I was 40 when I got my daughter and so when I got diagnosed with cancer and Steve is with another woman and my her healthy mom fell apart and her brother who she loved moved across the country she lost everything at the same time I could tell that I was going she was gonna fall apart she was 15 so I made a sacrificial move which was the hardest move I've ever made to allow her to move across the country in a stable environment with my daughter-in-law my grandchildren and my son I'm thankful I made that sacrificial move because she's now 18 graduating high school and going on a world mission for nine months serving God with all her heart but what I've learned through this battle after selling a million his princess books about God's love is that God loves me too I used to buy the lie that I had to suffer and be in an abuse of a marriage for you all to be touched by God and I sent hid that for 25 years I used to buy the lie that I had to give up everything for God to use me and what I have learned through this battle is that God loves me too I am still fighting cancer and I still have tumors all over my neck and my back and I was asking God if he'd heal me I just turned 57 on my birthday in May 8th and it's up I'm still hot it just comes in flashes so flashes and glasses so I can see you all so um anyway but all that to say that I didn't want to beat this for several years I didn't want to dance on the battlefield and I had just came off tour with Chris Tomlin and Casting Crowns and huge arenas teaching a message on dancing on the battlefield never knowing what I was about to walk in I was teaching with power and passion but I wasn't teaching with the compassion I teach now Jobe said at the end of his his battle I have heard about you but now I have experienced you for myself I have always loved God's people and I've always loved God I was a born-again Christian at 24 lost my Jewish family for my faith today my Jewish family is all born again but it was a 10-year battle but now I know him differently and so he he I said why haven't you healed me yet and he showed me those are your battle scars pick up your mat and walk out the call but he gave me four years to get healed myself from abuse from my own childhood from an abusive marriage and ironically right before I got diagnosed I spoke for the Christian counselors Association I was their keynote speaker and God knew that I was going to need them when my world fell apart and they kept me and counseling for four years so now I know God loves me and my head screwed on right and I'm more compassionate than I've ever been and now I don't need things to be different for me to be okay I now understand what it means to have the peace that passes understanding I now understand what it means to have joy of the Lord without it being based on circumstance I now understand that there's a difference between a bitter heart and a broken heart and if you have been hurt as I have and you're still hurt that has nothing to do with forgiveness forgiveness a broken heart God says I'm close to the brokenhearted so I want to take that weight off you if you're still hurt it's because you were hit hard by the enemy and pain takes time to heal and it's tears that heal the pain but I am gonna say this there comes a point where I had to do this once I couldn't cry anymore once I got good counsel once I got healed I made a decision and that decision was this I don't want to relive the enemy's works anymore I now have cried I have dealt with it I have moved on I still live in some of the wreckage but I refuse to give Satan one more day I choose to dance on the battlefield but when I hurt I will cry again when something comes up there's salt in that wound I will cry out to God again I will follow King David's example because he's a man after God's own heart and when I read the Psalms so don't let anybody tell you if you're crying from painful past that you haven't forgiven that's not true forgiveness is just saying this just so you know I want to help you with this it's three words no payback that's all forgiveness is it doesn't mean you won't feel the pain of your daughter that was molested or your son or what happened to you or what your husband did or what your mother did that's not what forgiveness means it means that you've made a decision to let revenge be God's and you won't pay them back and you will let God heal your heart that's what that means I don't know who that's for but I hope it helps you I'm a little bit weak right now so I may have to get a stool in a minute but I'm going to share with you the best I can tonight I'm gonna give you the best possible message I can I don't know if I will be strong enough tonight to stay in sign books if you'll forgive me for that last I was just in a big telecast did you guys see the simulcast on face look if you have and I just did at simulcast and I got home at 3 in the morning and that I'm here so I'm a little bit weak right now but I know God's gonna give me a word and I have a fresh word for you and I'm excited to deliver that word I'm just not sure how much more I can push past that but let me just pray because nothing I say is going to make any difference at all so Lord in the name of Jesus it is your anointing that breaks the yoke not a person and so we are asking now that you would come in and do it only you could do in the hearts of your daughter's your princess Warriors may we leave here dancing may we leave here with joy may we leave here with perspective and in the name of Jesus Satan anything that you are doing to mess with any infirmity in this room with any emotion with any mind with any fear it is shut up now in Jesus name Amen well the Ecclesiastes were told there's a time for everything but we women want to settle into a season and just park there right when you find that good season finally everything's good if it's not one thing it's your mother you know what I'm talking right and so we want to settle into this season and we just want to be right here this is good it's finally good and then we go into the next season but we're warned there's a season for everything so what I have learned in my season of mourning is I was gonna milk my pain and not waste it I was I was like no this is my season it's okay for me to cry I don't like to cry I don't like to feel sad I'm a sanguine personality I'm known as the party girl I want everything to be happy at all times I always have movie soundtracks playing in my home people will tell you that they walk in everything's white and happy my everything is happy in my little apartment but here's the thing in the darkest hours that I had alone in the Christmases where I didn't have a family around the table in the times and I was like why is it that me who opened my home in my heart to everybody in my darkest hour I don't even have my own children next to me or a husband to care for me and I remember crying out to God and saying God I need a family and a family knocked at the door with a good and said we don't know you we don't know your circumstance but God told to come over here and be a family for you at Christmas excuse me my ezreal affair was so much debt and I couldn't work for four years and we didn't have health insurance and I was a sole provider of the whole to magazine ministry so there was no thing to collect no alimony no help no health insurance and I'm sitting here fighting cancer and during that some readers and friends got together and started a fight for life fun and people gathered around me and gave $10 a month and that $10 month doesn't sound like a lot but it added up with everybody giving what they could and I was able to get everything I needed including a place to live for me and my daughter before she moved to North Carolina because my credit was ruined by the man that was married to God is so sweet here I have always had a bucket list to live by the beach and I couldn't get even into any apartment and this woman called me and said I have a vacation rental I'm gonna cancel all of my vacation and it's in Dana Point California on the beach what my point is for nineteen hundred dollars a month by the way who lives there 19 toes on the beach in a little apartment it doesn't happen okay my point is I got to be fed by the Ravens and the wilderness I got to experience what it feels like it's okay I'm on fire now I got to experience what it feels like to have nothing and have everything at the same time I got to experience what it's like to have Facebook family love on me and pray for me and people email me separately and people come and say I'll just coming up lunch with you and sit with me and they never felt like they were strangers they felt like there were family it's like God just sent these people when this family was at my door with a guitar the mother's doing worship and three kids that look like they're in the Peter Pan movie you know I'm like what and a little puppy I'm like am I really sitting here with a family after just laying on the floor going god I can't handle not being with family just I now I'm running through the last three and a half four years of what happened now that I'm healed now that I've cried my eyes out now that I am gonna beat this cancer in Jesus name I am now running through it of all the things God did in the midst of my darkest hour in me for me and around me because sometimes I was so sad which is okay I had a right to be sad I had a right to feel and no one had a right to tell me I didn't but I at some point I'm like I want to change the filter I want to clean my eyes with the living water and I want to see what God did this last three years so I decided to get back up and be who I'm called to be wounded at all and speak and I decided I would write again and got a 10 book contract immediately with focus on the family I'm writing children's books right now called adventures with the king that they're gonna make into cartoons just like adventures in Odyssey they're giving me my own show starting in the fall I'm booked solid I'll never once a month cuz that's all I'm taking right now I'm too tired so you're my once a month I know you're my exception actually you're my exception I did when just a little bit ago and I started doing Facebook live because I can't travel yet I just can't and not like not not around the country and I started doing Facebook live and what's ironic is I was invited to come back on tour with those big arenas and I knew I couldn't I know physically I was could not do the stamina of back east tour so isn't it interesting that that forced me to do Facebook live people that follow me and already the message I just had Monday night 27,000 people have seen it 7500 joined us life the first Facebook live I did 23,000 people joined us live I was like what is happening here Lourdes and from that Bible gateway said can you come back and start teaching on Bible gateway and just it just and I'm like I'm here again I just said - Connie I go what I'm here like I'm in a green room getting weed I mean I took a four year sabbatical look I'm here like getting up and wounded in all battle scars and all without a husband my children still live across the country and now of course because I prayed for my and raised her to be a warrior of course she's going to go into third-world countries for the next nine months on the world race I mean awesome God Thanks you know I'll celebrate with her in heaven but I'm just saying she's doing a mighty work and I am you know and I'm watching my son and my daughter-in-law and they're watching me grovel with God they're watching me wrestle they're watching me fight they're watching me go through human emotions that say I'd today I want to give up okay today I'm strong today I'm not and you know what at Christmas I got the most beaut at my birthday I got the most beautiful letter from my son he was 29 said the way you have risen out of the ashes I will now know God is forever real forever powerful and he and my daughter-in-law are raising my three beautiful grandkids six three and a baby and God opened up another prayer because I have not be able to see my new grandbaby I haven't seen my babies in three years and many of you that follow me on Facebook know this a friend of mine I could only have my doctor won't let me leave for two days flew me there let me see my baby not to meet them hug them of course I posted all over Facebook everywhere I could post it on your facebook even let me share it with a hundred thousand people I don't care if it's your Facebook I haven't got to do this I was so excited but I'm just I'm getting to see things with the living water washing my eyes I'm getting to say like joke did finally and you know I remember saying to people that have already been through hell and back is there a back is there ever gonna be a day that I don't wake up and hurt is there ever gonna be a day where I don't wake up crying is there ever gonna be a day I really needed someone that had already been through it to say yes when you've cried all the tears and you've processed all the pain and you've allowed God to touch you in the deepest darkest saddest place of your heart yes you will have a day that you will say those who sew with tears really do rejoice because David said in the Psalms I read where he said how much longer I cry so much that my my bones are dry Lord and as we saw he did get from a cave to a crown this time I'm not backing down to the devil I'm not afraid to step out on the water because I now know what it's like to lose everything and it's okay I survived it don't walk in fear walk out your destiny because the next generation depends on you getting up wounded and all if you have to finish bloody do it because your battle scars are way more powerful than someone that's never endure to anything your faith is not what you say it's when what you survive and when you survive something like many of you have in this room and what an amazing church that you all would have this many different ministries this is church just so you know I travel all over for 25 years this is a church when you have that many different ministries to offer the real world what's really going on like Jesus did meeting people where we really are at isn't that awesome how blessed we are to be here but there's a season for everything in whatever season you're in right now I want to encourage you embrace that season get what you need to get out of that season and then get out now when people ask me what happened I say do you know what I don't want to relive it would you mind if I don't answer that question and I don't and I won't and I tell my friends if I even start to relive it say we've already dealt with that I don't want to do it anymore and I have accountability now I don't I'm like why would I want to go down a sad road when I can go down a glad road and have a good day why do I want to replay the enemy's works when I can we play the work God can do in spite of the enemy and I don't want to have to lose my legacy because I gave in to my loneliness I gave in to a disease I gave in to it before yes I was angry because my parents have been married and divorced three times each I've been a part of five blended families now I realized today we need to start a support group for functional people that are still married but when I was but when I was a young girl no one was divorced but my family I'm sorry for you that still have a functional family I hope you can survive the world the rest of the lie tell Jesus returns but it's it's important to understand that nothing that anybody does to us can take away what God can do through us nothing we can dance when we're in pain and I don't mean as an oh it's so happy to have be in pain pain is a very real thing but pain doesn't have to be wasted I know how hard it is to push through and this might be your season to mourn this may be your season to sleep this may be your season to serve I had to understand that God loves me too and I was not in a place and when I heard pastor Rick Warren's wife when someone came up to her and said you've been mourning your son's suicide for so long when you're gonna come back out and I heard her say in a Women's Conference I don't know when I'm done morning I'll come back out and that's when God spoke to me I love you too sherry I want people to come refresh you the way you went out refreshed to others this is your season to receive what's that well if you didn't have a mom that loved you well and you didn't have a husband that celebrated you it's really hard to see that you could have a season where people can just come and love you and boy have I been spoiled with love in the last three years in the midst of my darkest hour and the most beautiful thing about your trials that you find out who your real friends are anybody can be a friend when things are going good trust me I lost so many friends and spiritual kids that I raised they couldn't handle the thought of losing me because they depended on me so much as a mentor that they came and gave their eulogy of how amazing and I was and everything I meant to their life and brought their flowers and brought their gifts I never heard from them again because they couldn't handle the thought of me not being there so they mourn the loss it was amazing the loss but now I understand that you don't really know that God is all you need so God is all you have and now I'm surrounded with a team of 10 people that volunteer to put this ministry back together again I'm surrounded with friends and love my daughter and I FaceTime and talk every single day she calls me four or five times a day we're closer now I missed the teenager from ages 15 to 18 I can look at it that way I just went from 15 to good I mean I'm gonna know let me just go there for a minute honestly I am not kidding women you can relate to this I've wanted to lose 25 pounds for 25 years I finally lost my weight whoo no I mean was by force but who cares my point is we can choose to focus on whatever is good whatever is true whatever is lovely nothing will make Satan more angry than being thankful for what you got during his attack you want to dance on the battlefield make him so man I came in today I was tired and Satan whispered you're too weak to give them a message and I said watch me watch me come in you don't allow anybody to cancel out God's call in your life no one Jeremiah 29:11 he knows the plans he has for you declares Lord these plans are to prosper you to use you to leave a legacy to be a light in darkness he has called you for this time never before have wounded warriors need to get up never before have we had to be Ezekiel's never before we needed to speak life to what's dead inside of us first speak life to what's dead inside you I had to start freaking life no I am called of God no he does love me my value isn't based what people have said about I was treated by a husband now I can get back up again in Jesus name because his word says I can and because he resurrected his dead son and I began to study Ezekiel and I love that the dead bones not only came to life but became a mighty army and I love that David was like where's all the people I loved and helped and he didn't want the army God sent them why he's in the cave and his pity party he didn't want those people don't want fight with him you don't you know that at the very end of his life guess who ends up dying for him those people you may not have lost anything God may have reset your table that's what I've learned and I have an amazing team and I'm so thankful and every day is a better day and every day I can say to Jesus your life on a cross was enough that's all I need and I say to God if you'll just give me your peace and joy I don't care what else should give me today because peace and joy what everybody crave and try to get rather it's through food or people or relationships or jobs that's what they really want right peace and joy so why don't we just ask God for the good stuff and forget going through people to get it call me crazy but it's a lot less pressure on us and a lot less disappointment on us and we're not gonna get what we want from these people because they're trying to get it from you in reality while you're trying to get their vote they're trying to get your vote where you trying to get their approval they're trying to get your approval where you're trying to impress them they're trying to impress you so we're living for an audience of none anyway so I think we should just bypass the people to get the peace and the joy and and go straight to the source that gives the peace in the joy and you will be dancing on the battlefield so I now pray every morning god I just want your peace and your joy and he gives it to me and I go skippity doo-dah and my kids will call how you doing I'm doing great really I said yeah I have God's peace enjoy what else is there any and telling you they're able to see well actually doing okay but nothing's really changed mom you still have cancer you still don't have a husband we're not still night and the problem is I bypass all that and I go straight to this amen I want to share with you a few things I want to share with you a story I normally don't share but I really felt led to share this story I'm I lived in Arizona actually represented Arizona I'm a former Mrs America and I lived in Arizona for 10 years I tell people I was a Jew that wander around the desert they moved to California the Promised Land is the real truth and if you've never been to Arizona before just take your blood or and high and put it in your mouth that's in your there but but while I was there there was a couple that wanted to open up in the mountains of Arizona an amusement park like a train western town that would only be run by handicapped people so it was really special for parents that had handicapped children because you could only be employed there if you were handicapped and I thought what a beautiful idea right and so and they lived on the center and there'd be had like a hundred plus but also why they're building it the couple is billionth the husband was a builder and electrician he's putting up the electrical wires and he gets electrocuted and loses both of his hands now you would immediately go God are you kidding me he is building things for handicapped now he's doing the good work and his hands are now gone but he will tell you the same thing I will tell you now I've been through a lot way before the four years and I thought I had a testimony I always had a heart for God like I was starting to tell you earlier and I've always had a heart for God's people but I now have the compassion unlike I've never known and he tells people when he gives the tour of this place I had a heart for handicap but now I understand why and I'm not sure what you feel like you're throwing in your flushes or your handicap is or what you aren't but I can tell you this if it's given by the God it's a gift I'm Dyslexic I can't even read my own books I barely got out of high school with DS and I really did have an English teacher to me I was born to lose in life and if you get any of my books you'll need to hit them backwards but don't worry they're still anointed and there was a time we just Lexia was a great benefit to me once I tried to take my life and I jump behind the bus but what so like Mike my kids were like Mike my kids are like mom you seemed kind of dingy for God to give you so much authority and and I said I said listen God had to pick someone that had no thoughts of their own because I don't get in the way of God I said that's why I write books in his voice Holy Spirit blows right through the air hole but if I had degrees and I was an incredible award-winning writer from high school and I won public speaking Awards all the credit would go to me because all I really wanted to be was an ice skater just so you know and I was pretty good and I was on my way to training for the Olympics and my parents divorced and my mom took that money and spent it on clothes so she could date men took me off the ice left me home with her my step-brother who was a drug dealer who started getting me stoned at ten years old and my dream went away and that's why you see my before picture drugged and overweight but today if I were to get the dream I wanted at best I would be at Grandma's on ice and my gold medal would mean nothing it would not leave a legacy for my little grandbabies it would not leave a legacy for my children it would not do anything for you maybe I could come up here and shine it I can bring it up here look at this but you know think about right now maybe you're in this room and you can't dance because you're so disappointed because you didn't get what you dreamed for and then you held on to a scripture that was misquoted who Ephesians 3:20 he is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than you'd ever dare to dream no a dyslexic writing best-selling books that's exceedingly abundantly more in other words he wants to do something exceedingly abundantly more through you that will outlive you you forget you're just visiting for a little bit and we're out of here and I know people go I'm so sorry you have cancer I didn't know you were gonna die because I'm never gonna die and I want to say we're all terminal you could be dead tomorrow you could beat me to heaven my point is we live too much like this is it no this is our chance to let God do exceedingly abundantly more than we'd ever dare to dream for future generations to make a mark with our lives this is our chance to fight in the greatest army of all times and to be able to say I have fought the good fight I've kept my faith so here's my question to you if God had given you your dream would it have blessed anybody but you if God had given you your will would it in any way impacted the future of your children and your grandchildren maybe what you didn't get is the biggest blessing you could have ever gotten and maybe you came here tonight and maybe God's me the stamin understand right now for this moment for you to say thank you God for what you were moved so I can now move into your perfect will and do your work so you can do exceedingly abundantly more through me now that I'm finally surrendered see when the military signs up they get no choice where they're stationed and they know they're gonna fight why are we shocked when with the fight of the enemy is not fair the fight will never be fair John 10:10 he comes to kill steal and destroy call me crazy that doesn't sound like he's gonna fight fair when my daughter said to me a few weeks ago because since she has said yes to ministry a lot has happened and she caught it just inside herself and she called me once she goes am i always gonna struggle and you know mommy wants to comfort right and the Holy Spirit descend yes what yes it may not be what you're struggling with now but you will always struggle until you learn to fight so the next four months before you leave on the battlefield as much as I want to love you and make up for all the mommy time I missed for you because of this cancer I am gonna teach you how to fight instead and you will have victory over whatever comes against you because your comfort will not help you my comfort will not help you but if I teach you how to combat and let the Holy Spirit comfort you that will be with you forever baby a few days later she goes I'm so glad you're my mom you rock but she wasn't happy with me in that moment because they told us the truth I know we want to protect but we've got to protect her and right now we need to go back out where we belong on the battlefield that's what we were born for we're his princess warriors we're called to dance on the battlefield we can do this in Christ's name and if you get a passion and a purpose and I said to the Lord a few weeks ago I was praying and I was like Lord I don't have the same passion for your people that I had when I was in these big arenas I don't have I feel like my passion is not as powerful I need you to give me my passion back and I feel like the Lord said to me I'm never giving you your passion back because your passion is fleeting and they can't work off your passion they can work off my power I will just anoint you more to do my work but you're not gonna work off what you feel because what I feel can't change you it can change you tonight I can get up and do a little cheer give me a double you give me an a give me an hour oh I owe our warrior but that is not gonna do anything but if what I tell you this the Word of God and the anointing is on it and I tell you the truth and I prepare you for battle and I give you permission to cry as David did many of you are only still hurting because you've never allowed that season of mourning you've done everything you could to avoid it like I did everything it was the hardest thing for me when the counselor who I spoke for all these counselors helped them go back to their ministry on fire and now they're helping me it was first of all humiliating if I were to be brutally honest here I was their speaker and now I'm under their care but when the one counselor said to me have you ever cried or mourn the fact that you were never tucked in bed as a child have you ever cried that your husband never took you out for a wedding anniversary have you ever cried for all the loss I said I don't want to I don't want to feel it and she goes and that's why the cancer spreading those tears and that morning are a gift and she gave me every scripture then she took me through the word and found out what I aligned with what which is a lie and that's what I've been doing for my daughter and I pray that you do it for yourself and for your daughters so she would say something and go give me a scripture that proves that that is true about you you know how we hate ourselves and we find everything we don't like about ourselves and everything wrong with us and so we speak it out loud and we speak what we think about ourselves and we repeat what others say about us more than we will repeat what God says about us so I said lesson number one in combat the word is a two-edged sword it will be the only thing that will cut that lie off speak it out loud I can't I don't feel it speak it out loud now she's like I am so happy I learned to speak to wear it out loud as it absolutely I said your mind has a million thought your mouth can only say one thing so if everything that goes in your mind comes out your mouth and it goes back in your mind and just recycled trash when you like to have recycled truth instead of recycle trash whose ear is ready for truth I want the living water I'm done with the muddy water and I muddy up the water myself by the things I say as a man thinks so is he when I started to believe the lie I couldn't come tonight I was gonna have to cancel two hours before I went wait who's that from that is not from God shut up Satan I do have what it takes to come here and speak in minister to my sisters in the Lord I will do what God's asked me to do he will give me a fresh message I am gonna come and do what he's called me to do and I'm gonna enjoy it ah thank you for those of you that are like I was for three years and you feel like you have nothing to give I want you to think about Jesus in the widow she gave her last two cents prior to this attack and there were two other portrayals that happen that I'll never publicly talk about but the psychiatry Convention that I spoke at said that very few people would even survive one of the seven things I walk through at the same time and that's why he had to send me an entire sentence i kya tree convention to help me cuz Satan came in like a flood and said I'm gonna hit her at every angle until she cannot function anymore but had some bookings I had to complete before I came off the road and they weren't letting me out and I would tell them I can't I am crippled and I never knew you could be crippled in pain like I never knew you couldn't actually get up past pain until this moment because I was forced to feel so much at the same time and the Lord said the widow gave her last two cents and that was enough and I realized I was the rich man prior to that what happened not in money I was the rich man and passion and joy and couldn't wait to get on that platform I couldn't wait to kick the devil too she couldn't wait to see God's moment and now I'm getting up and I had to open up by saying I'm the widow tonight I don't know if I'll be able to stand up here even for 20 minutes I'm in so much emotional pain but I will give you whatever 2 cents I have left and I'd get a standing ovation you know why because it set women free to have a leader get up and say there are moments there was one pastor that was so mad that I wanted to cancel and I got to ask him this question he was in his 60s I said sir how many years have you been in ministry and she had said like 25 30 40 years I can't remember I said if you are had a day that life was so hard you had to give someone else your Sunday morning service and he said I am so sorry young lady how I treated you I've had many days like that you are released you stay home in peace we forget sometimes how we felt in that moment well we couldn't push through but compassion I'm telling you from someone that's just walked through so much was the greatest gift ever but now I'm done I don't want compassion I want someone to kick my tushy I told my friends thank you for all your compassion we're done my pity party is over now I just want you to speak life and say get over it shut up stop talking we've already processed this it's over but it took me three years to be able to say to the same friends stop judging me stop expecting me to be who I was it's like what they did to Rick Warren and Kay Warren they were expecting them to be the same whether for their kid was killed I'm like are you kidding me it's like going into a piece of someone's life like if you went to King David when he was sitting with the Shiva you wouldn't be thinking him it was a man after God's own heart if you went to him when he was in a cave crying you wouldn't be thinking about him as a guy after my little heart don't judge people by one season in their life and don't judge yourself by one season in your life you're precious and you are gonna go through different seasons and everybody processes pain differently stop beating yourself up stop beating yourself up because God's not beating you up for how you're processing he loves you so much and it says that people are to mourn with those who mourn we put those who weep rejoice with those who rejoice so if someone has made you feel bad for processing pain I'm so sorry I just want you to know that wasn't God and sometimes people don't mean any harm to be honest there were people that did me no harm with me they just want me to get up and get over it and get back on that platform who cares you could just shake it off you know what I wanted to say one night say I wanted to break your legs with a baseball bat and say walk it off that's what I wanted to say hey wish you are hurting bad emotionally and somebody tells you to shake it up seriously give me a baseball bat okay walk it off but both my legs are broken I don't care get up and walk it off so three questions I'm gonna answer for you that I know people have right now worldwide this is what people want to know from you as a Christian and you as a Christian may be wanting to know this yourself but here's the number one question that everybody's aunts asking right now after Las Vegas shootings and after child molesting and churches falling here is the question they're asking why God first question that comes out why god here's the first thing I'm gonna say to defend my heavenly father and I hope you will join me in this in the future why are we blaming God for Satan's work does that help anybody in this it'd be like someone coming in your house and kidnapping your children while you were out of town and them asking you why you weren't there to protect them why are we blaming God for Satan's work Jesus already told us the Prince of this world is the devil and that there will be troubles in this world so the first thing that Satan wants to do is have you blame God because while you're hurting and he's hit you his next step is to disconnect you from your father right if they hurt your children then they disconnect from the parent they got a winner in the world of evil so I had to learn John 10:10 Satan comes to kill stone and the next one is this where is God I had that question over and over again to myself God really where were you and this where is the payoff in this and he brought me to four people Daniel could have easily said why is Daniel being thrown in the lion's den let's put a backslidden Christian in the lion's den let him get reacquainted with God I mean Daniel is a good godly man and he's the one being thrown in the lion's den really let's just get him a very very carnal Christian throw them in there but that's where God was in the lion's den and that's what it took for the entire land including the King to turn to the true God so what I had to learn when I asked God before I did my Facebook simulcast as I said why have you not healed me when I can get up and I could show that the tumors are gone because you certainly can you certainly have the power to do it and that's what he showed me he said because I want them to see your battle scars and that you will get up and serve me whether I heal you or not why Shadrach Meshach and Abednego great guys godly guys why are they throwing a fiery furnace where's God he was in that furnace with them where's God how many of you in this room are a testimony that you can say that you've walked through something in your lifetime with the Lord it could have been twenty years ago it could have been ten years ago five years ago or five minutes ago but you walk through something that you didn't think you were coming out of and you're here today and you're out raise your hand look at the room you know what's happened you all we forgot the last time God rescued us it's kind of like when you take your kids to a wonderful vacation you save money you spend everything you get home they go what are we getting it now I'm gonna sleep for a year and try to recuperate my savings account that's what I'm gonna do you ungrateful child but that's what we do to God we forget quickly like I forgot how crippled I was how I couldn't get out of bed - one of my friends came and visited me two weeks ago went wow you are so healed and so happy and I'm like am i I am because I forgot because I'm healed I there's no more tears to cry that I can think of soon I put my false eyelashes back on because it wasn't worth it before Isaiah 43 oh the other two people sorry Joseph's in prison really the man with integrity the man that didn't rape the girl he's the ones gonna go to prison where was God he was with him preparing him get him in the right position so he could finish in a palace and let me just real quickly take a little side note for those of you that have been told the Joseph story that goes from his parents I mean his brothers abused him he saw them and said don't be sad everything's happy God did it all no that's not how the story goes there was a healing process in the middle there was a time where he recognizes that his brothers but they don't recognize him and he tests them and he actually put something on them to makes him look and falsely accuses them and throws them in prison then he makes him go back and get their brother in other words he tests their heart because God's Word says guard your heart it's the wellspring of life you must hear this if you've had abuse forgiveness is not fellowship there is a big difference God did not tell the Egyptian I mean the Israelites to go back and fellowship with the Egyptians that put them in slavery you need to be like Joseph you need to follow the Word of God and if the heart is not repentant and healed and is not safe and they've done something to you or your children you forgive them and you give them to God but you don't hang out with your abuser you can't find a scripture to back that you can't even find a story in the Bible to back that all of them until Joseph's brothers were fully repentant and broken and once and here's what's interesting to me about that story once he realized that they realized what they did to him they still didn't know him yet right it says he excused himself and what does it say next he wept so hard it said that all of Egypt could hear now that doesn't sound like a story that he just embraced them and said yeah you're all here my abusers come on in no God says guard your heart it's the wellspring of your entire life if Jesus himself picked the 12 people to sit at his table wouldn't he expect you to do the same and I want you to notice something else about the Lord that I had to learn the hard way because I had a disaster in my home opening my heart even the Good Samaritan that helped the man bloody man on the side of the road took him to a hotel not his home Jesus did not invite anybody to the table of 12 his inner circle was protected and he's the savior I want you to think about who you have in your home that's lowering the moral bar stealing your husband's attention messing you as a mom or a woman of God and then I want you to think of you who's a mom in this room do you care who your kids hang out when would you invite someone to hang out with them for the sake of calling it witnessing that would take them away from God well then why would God do that to you I hope that sets a lot of people free in this room because it wasn't until I got some really good godly counsel from some mighty mighty leaders that said you've got to stop opening your home in your heart to people that you don't know who they are God didn't ask you to do that so don't blame God for what happened and they still enjoy me to find a Bible story I couldn't if they're not part of your purpose they don't need to be sitting at your table if they're not drawing you close to God go meet them if when you go minister to people do be like you'd be like Jesus along the way by the way your ministry doesn't have to be in your home bring people in your home that love God as much as you do that you can have Bible studies together and you can support each other and you can help each other but go to their home before you let your kids hang out with them know the homes that your kids are walking in because I'm the one that gets hundreds of emails from women all over the world because of my his princess book that have had disasters with their good sweetheart that opened their home to situations that God never asked them to open up and they can't find a scripture to back ed even and as soon as I say to them find a scripture that says open your home to evil people so you can win a minister to them no you go meet them you go out and meet them and you put a Vince together for them but you don't bring danger into your private space any more than Jesus did who does that set free in this room a lot of you yes I know it set me free like nobody's business and I realize that we're valuable when you are in a military base are we allowed to go on the military base just because we want to know and were the people the military protects but you got to have your ID you have to be invited you don't get in those private spaces sorry to park here so long but I am over 55 and I don't really care what you think I care about protecting you and so I'm okay not winning you over I'm really okay and then the third question is now what do I do where was God when that thing hit why God first well now we know it was Satan where's God he's right there in the mix of it with you working out on your behalf and what do I do now because I had to to go to God and go everything I lived for is gone Lord everything my open house and my open heart and my children and my family and everything I fought for and everything I and I've served you and I had all these questions now what do I do and God brought me to two things he brought me to Nehemiah how it was from the wreckage that God rebuilt a better wall Satan wants to whisper to us right now you can't dance on the battlefield look at all the wreckage you don't even have a place to build from I couldn't find my foundation and then I realized God didn't want me to find my foundation here on earth he wanted me to flip my foundation up in heaven and live driven by eternity and then I wouldn't have to worry about it being shaken or taken and he wanted me to begin to lay stones for eternity and to make decisions for eternity because when we care more about people's feelings and our father's will being done we're not going to be blessed we're gonna be messed we really are we're gonna be messed with bad so you have to be careful that you live like Jesus because if we're Christian were following Christ and Christ wasn't real concerned about people's feelings he was concerned about saving people in people's pain right but he wasn't gonna go oh the Pharisees are offended I'm gonna stop preaching the truth can you imagine so if we're Christians let's have the same bravery our Savior did and I you say to me well I will not apologize for God's Word how many Ostrom are willing to say I will not apologize for truth your hand I will not apologize for truth I will not apologize for God's word job I had to make a what should I do now he lost everything he could have walked away and wiped away his witness and he would have missed the grand finale of his life I mean his wife even told him curse God and die he's not even with you anymore and he goes no though he slays me I will not curse him and then God gave him back twice as much as he lost and hopefully a new wife that could speak life and that's where I'm gonna lead you here when you're in a battle when you're in a crisis when you're walking through a battle do not put poop on your life that are yours it's gonna be another bad day praise God you're never coming out of there I'm sorry shut the Eeyore's up you really need someone that's a ticker we're gonna run we're gonna jump we're gonna find our tail oh no that's Winnie the Pooh we're gonna have waiting to go find his tail but you want to be with people that will speak life to you not people that will speak death to you you want people that are in Ezekiel that will speak to what's dead inside of you and that's what people would do to me I had a team of people that have known me 20 years there are my advisory board they walk with me they treated me exactly the same respect when I was vomiting from cancer heartbroken from my family did not want a minister anymore wonder where God is and they would still talk to the princess inside of me they were abagail's to me Abigail talked to the King inside of David before he was King because he was about to make a stupid move in his anger and kill her husband and he said to her is your destiny worth it and they would say to me you have a legacy it won't go away no matter who hurt you and what they did to you you have a legacy you will rise again you will do this again and I'd be like you're on drugs truly and they go and they would not my Advisory Board who's been with me all these years refused to join with the devil and speak the death that was coming out of my mouth they would not join forces with me they spoke to who I really am they spoke to who I really am and who I have been my entire life speak to the death I mean to speak life to the death find the death in your kids and speak life to it even if they go oh you're just my mom I don't care what you say and I have my daughter said to me all the time you're my mom you would like clap if I pooped you know and I'm like yes I would yes I would because that's healthy that meat you ate your fiber my point is speak life first to yourself because if you don't put your oxygen mask on you cannot help anybody else so if this is your season to go into hiding and go in and get yourself healed and go into the cave then that's your season and give yourself a nap and a bath I want to unpack everything before I go because I'm a little bit I'm not gonna put anything on myself I like things organized okay I am a single but I somehow like everything in order and I was gonna spend today and I talked to Connie right and she was good Connie my nails are horrible and I still have my stickers I'm packed and we both looked determined let's not get our nails done less crafts before this event he'll let herself have a break my room looks like a cyclone in it which makes me crazy but I have enough energy now to give you that I could have given to my suitcase and you wouldn't have cared my suitcase has no eternal value my color-coded closet is nice I love it but it has no eternal value it just makes me happy here on earth Joseph could have missed that grand finale of his life Jesus I just think of Luke 22:42 father if you are willing please take this cup of suffering away from me yet I want your will but not mine and I remember telling God when I went out to speak I was so confident that he was going to have me healed Monday night that I was going to get on that Facebook live and I was everybody was praying and people were fasting and Lord goes you are healed how do you think you're standing are you gonna let what you see make you believe you're not healed because my daughter's walk by faith not by sight and then everything else follows that's what I'm learning now I want to close with this letter I have a new journal you have a pre-order form I think that was given out and it's coming out June 15th and I'm it's a it's warrior letters for his princess warriors and then it has a journal page and then it has 50 of my truths like I shared tonight with power truths and I want to click I want to close with this letter it's my princess warrior I have created a time for every season in life this is my perfect timing for my plan right now my beloved it is time for war the enemy's attacks are great it's time for you my princess to put on the full armor and fight I know the battles you face will not be easy but I will be with you and they will be worth fighting your fight will not be wasted it will live on long after you're gone and we're celebrating your life in eternity but for now look around you my beloved warrior see that you are much needed on the battlefield now there is nothing for you to fear for you will not be defeated I am with you I am for you I am fighting for you soon I will return and this war will be forever won love your king is there anybody that could do guitar music for a second that would be such a gift to me thank you I have no gift of music whatsoever if you're in this room tonight and you don't know the Lord you aren't here by accident and maybe you've tried everything I didn't come to know the Lord tonight was 24 and I was at the end of my rope when I was on the top I had one beauty pageants I'd lost weight I got off drugs and I was more and more depressed because no matter how I decorated myself I needed peace and purpose I needed a savior but I didn't know it as Jewish so of course Jesus would be the last place I'd go but right now this moment has been orchestrated for you to know him so with every eye closed for a minute out of respect to those that just need to have a moment with God [Music] I'm not gonna have you come forward but I am gonna say if you want a touch from the Savior and you want to receive him as your Lord just slip your hand up praise God flip your hand up praise God just slip your hand up praise God praise God repeat this prayer with me everybody so our sisters that are about to come into the kingdom aren't alone dear Jesus thank you for giving your life for mine thank you that all I have to do is ask you to forgive me and you will so now I take a step of faith and I say forgive me of my sins I take a step of faith and I ask you into my heart right now and I receive you as my Lord and Savior amen if you're here right now and maybe you were I was three years ago you're pretty wounded you've been beaten pretty bad Satan has had a field day with you and you're like I got a glimmer of who I really am tonight and I need a touch from the Savior I am like that bleeding woman that needs to touch and feel the power of God again I need a healing touch physically emotionally or spiritually raise your hand okay a lot of us Lord you see your daughter's hand right now she's reaching out to you and she's saying touch me give me a new piece a new purpose a healing unlike no other God you promised that you are close to the brokenhearted so whatever they need to do to get healed whether it's cry whether it's to get counsel whether it's to do something that out of the ordinary that's obedient whatever it is you show them by the power of your Holy Spirit what that is maybe there's something they need to let go of or someone but whatever it is you know and we ask that you would touch them now in Jesus

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Length: 62min 22sec (3742 seconds)

Published: Wed May 23 2018