Ryan Is Attacked Outside British Pub, Leads to NDE

[Music] from the time that they pronounced me that was a good 45 minutes they cut my clothes and then they paddled my heart cuz my heart had stopped and I could see people screaming and crying but I didn't realize that was actually my physical body because I was somewhere else the only thing that I could feel if you could imagine absolute love and peace there wasn't anything else to be felt I was GRE by people I had known in the past I'm back home again incredibly safe and felt at home welcome welcome to roundtrip death everybody and welcome to our special guest Ryan nurse how are you this morning Ryan I am very well thank you my friend and thank you so much for having me how are you uh I'm doing great today it is a beautiful sunny almost Spring Light cold but sort of spring like day here in the mountains of Utah but you're in a very different environment tell everybody where you live and what you're doing there so I've actually been living in almost every country now from Mexico down to Brazil and back up and I'm actually based here in Colombia right now I've been living in Colombia for the last five months and I will actually be here in medin where I currently am now for one more week before I head to Venezuela okay you do not have a Central American access where are you from so I'm from England England uh sort of Southeast England on the outskirts of London okay but why Central America what are you doing there so look I always listened to my intuition and back in 2021 it was almost like I had a calling to go to Latin America something which just kept telling me go to Mexico go to Mexico and one morning I sort of felt like my life had almost flatlined and in I if we're not growing I believe we're dying so I said I need to really push myself so far out of my comfort zone and do something sort of big and bold and with that being said I literally picked up my credit card I booked a oneway ticket to Mexico and I literally left the very next week and haven't looked back since so yeah I went from Mexico every country down from Mexico Central America made my way all the way down to Brazil and then I started to come back up and yeah I'm back here in Colombia right now well living the dream love to hear about it by the way just a little interjection for everybody listening uh the the internet service in Colombia isn't always as fast as what we're used to Ryan's voice is going in and out slightly please put up with it it'll be worth it because his story is awesome so let's Jump Right In if you don't mind you had oh wow a horrific thing happened to you and you can go into his much or little detail as you're comfortable with Ryan but let's go back just a few years you were in the UK what happened on this Dreadful night yeah so look I'm happy to talk about all of it and thank you as well for bearing with me with the sound regarding obviously the Wi-Fi because it is Columbia and it is a bit iffy but you said something horrific and obviously what happened to me was absolutely horrendous and mainly for my family it was actually even worse because for me I was just sort of laying there but the choic is the decisions and the things that my family had to go was absolutely yeah unimaginable but for me also now looking back you know I realize that sometimes your most profound periods of pain can actually also turn out to be your greatest Gifts of growth so let me talk to you about what actually happened to me on this night so back in 2011 as an 18-year-old boy there was this one specific nightclub that was maybe 5 to 10 minutes maximum away from where I lived and me and my friends would always go to this nightclub sometimes even three times a week that's how local it was and that's how much we enjoyed it we knew everybody there so one weekend we decided to go to the nightclub as we usually did but we noticed that there was this group of guys there that were sort of like Outsiders they wasn't from say the normal surroundings like the normal area because we would have known them and we didn't know them these guys look like they were out to cause trouble this night so we were just sort of dancing we was panting and the music was pumping the drinks were flowing and we were literally dancing the night away but then these guys decided to have an argument with some of our older friends and obviously us younger guys and some girls there as well we were sort of like just watching it all unfold and nothing really happened it was just a bit of pushing and shoving and a bit of sort of shirt tugging and that was it it got broken up and everything was fine what we thought and a few hours later me and my friends decided to leave the club and we got into a taxi but then we got into this taxi and as we started to leave the car park we noticed that these same Lads or sort of older guys they come out of the club and they actually come over to our taxi and they removed us from our taxi so bearing in mind we were sort of 18y old guys we was like boys basically and they're 26 27 28 so they're sort of like men compared to us and they literally said this is our taxi and they they literally pulled us out of the taxi so with that being said there was a bit of say disag agreement I guess and we was obviously saying that it was our taxi and then all of a sudden they're saying that they booked it first and then the driver turned and S sided with them which we we couldn't really believe and then things started to make sense obviously as we go through the story but we decided it'd be wise to get into a separate taxi to obviously make it back to the safety of our parents' homes so we got into the taxi we left the car park we turned left and then we turn left again onto what is a dark unlit Road so as we're driving down this road obviously things are pitch black but then we noticed the same bright white headlights of that vehicle that we just got extracted from filled the whole interior of our taxi and out of nowhere this loud angry voice started shouting for our driver's walkie-talkie demanding that we pull over so our driver began to slow the vehicle and he started to indicate and he started to stop and he pulled it up onto the path so we started saying to the driver like what are you doing why are you stopping like what's the reason for you for stopping it was just silence he didn't say a single word so me and my friends were just looking at each other and we was confused we didn't have a clue what was going on and as the driver stopped he turned the vehicle off and that same vehicle with those angry men in pulled up behind us and they switched their lights off so those two drivers must have known each other possibly possibly you know because it's quite a small local area a lot of the drivers do know each other a lot of the people know each other as well so with this being said our driver was just sat there and his car pulled up behind us switched his lights off and then there was this sort of eerie Sound of Silence because me and my friends we were all looking at each other thinking what happens now what happens next yeah and you don't dare get out so no we we would just sat there just pleading with our driver just asking like just go like leave there's nothing we're not doing anything he didn't say a word he didn't even turn around and then literally suddenly out of nowhere there was this really loud knock on the passenger front window which my friend was sat in that seat so he opened the window and he started to ask what's what's the problem what is the issue but as soon as he opened the window he to get he began to get punched through the window by one of the guys so me and my friends all panicked and we started to open our doors to try and stop this madness from happening but as I opened my door I was greeted with the same fist I didn't even had a chance to take my seat belt off and I was glued to the back of my seat like a Sitting Duck and this guy was just Pummel him in in the side of my head over and over again it was like 10 20 30 times it just kept going on and on and on it was like a it was like a hammer drill to the Head it just didn't stop I was panicking obviously I was trying to get my Buckle undone because of the sheer pressure and the force and the Panic the seat Bel was doing what a seat Bel should do which was the lock and I couldn't get the Buckle undone so bear in mind I'm getting pummeled in the side of my head by this guy and I'm trying to get my belt undone and it just wouldn't undo and as the guy just pounding my head in at one moment the only thought that went through my mind said this is how you are going to die like Ryan this is how you're going to die Ryan you need to get the belt undone you need to get the belt undone and I was pushing it as hard as I possibly can and then h it went and it was this pressure just relieved from my body we lost you for just a second was this you said a voice in your head yeah so I had a voice in my head just telling me this is how you are going to die and I honestly believed in that moment I was going to die like the force that this guy was punching me with it was unbelievable it was almost like he was hitting me with a baseball bat it was that hard and I just thought I'm not going to get out of this taxi alive I did I popped the Buckle I released the pressure and I managed to get out of the the the the driver's rear door so I opened the door and as I sort of popped the Buckle the punching stopped I got out of this door and I just run down a side road because I knew the area quite well I run down the side road and I sort of just hid in a bush and as I hid in the bush I called a friend for whatever reason I just didn't want SN of calling the paramedics or or or the police I just thought I'll ring my friend cuz he lives close and he's with his girlfriend they have a car and they can come and pick me up because in that moment I just wanted to get back to the safety of my parents home I just wanted to go to bed so I called my friend and he said he's going to be there in any moment and I was just hiding in this bush panicking before you go on can I just ask how many other people were in the car and what was happening to them so what what it was it was me two of my younger guy friends and one of our girlfriends who was a little bit older than us so there was me two guys and one girl so four of us but bearing in mind when I got out of the taxi I looked back all the madness that was UN folding and I see my girl friends getting beaten up by the guys I see my my girl of ours A girlfriend of ours she was getting beaten up by the guys as well and These Guys these five guys were all attacking us bearing in mind one of them's a taxi driver he was also attacking my friends as well and I just see this madness unfolding and I couldn't believe it was like something of a movie so I just had to call for help I had to call for someone to come and pick us up straight away so I run down this side road and I just thought I need to ring my friend cuz I know they have a car and they can come and get us so quick so I just called my friend but my heavy head was so it was just spinning round and round it was like this gyroscopic feeling that was just going round and round and round I could barely keep my head up and I was just mumbling these words to my friend like you need to pick us up now and a little bit of time went past I don't really know how long maybe five or 10 minutes went past and my friend they AR in the car my friend and his girlfriend they AR in the car and they waving me in say come on get in get in so I run and I get into the car and we actually went back the same way of where the attack was cuz we had to go and pick up another another girl another lady from the from the car park so as we drive back nobody was there it had all stopped and my heavy head was just spinning round and round and we pick up this other friend of ours and she saiding look you need to get this guy to the hospital like you need to take this boy to the hospital now and my heavy head was just falling down but I couldn't keep it up and at one point I just I rested it on the window ledge to try and hold it up but even then every bump that we went over in the car my head just fell down and I remember my friend said to me like we need to take you to hospital now and I said no like I just want my bed I need to go back home and he was just saying look Ryan we need to take you to the hospital like please let us take you and I just literally forced him and pleaded with him to take me back to my parents' home and he did and I remember just as we as we pulled up outside my parents house he said like please please please ring me in the morning make sure you're okay and I said yes everything's going to be fine in the morning in that moment I just believed that I just had a few drinks I've been beaten up and I'll be perfect in the morning I'll be back to normal so I get out of the car and I stumbled up the driveway to my parents home I put my hand on the handle I open the door and I just walked through and after that I don't remember a single thing so now I can only speak to you from my parents point of view okay and while they must have been terrified what time in the morning was this so this was around from my memory my mom told me around 5 a.m. in the morning so this is now on a Sunday morning 5:00 a.m. okay but bear in mind my mom she she always used to wait up for us kids like if we was going on a night out she'll be there at the top of the stairs waiting until we got home this night she knew something wasn't right quite right because it was 5:00 a.m. never once did I get home at 5:00 a.m. never the latest probably was around 4:00 a.m. and this is like ever this is like a late late night most of the nights it was between 3 and half 3 I'd get back my mom knew the times ID get back but this night it was later than usual and apparently I just walked up the stairs and I walked past there she said to me Ryan are you okay like is everything okay where have you been and I just had this blank look on my face and I just walked straight past her but then what did I do I took my clothes off and I folded them up as I usually did I put them nice and neatly down at the side of my bed and I got into bed my mom was watching me and I wasn't even looking at her and I just got into bed and I closed my eyes so as the minutes and the and the hour sort of went by she was monitoring me the whole time cuz she knew something wasn't right she said that was snoring like really really loudly snoring and it wasn't normal for me and then suddenly I start vomiting this jet black almost projectile vomit so my mom comes in and saying like what's happening Ryan and no response just this vomit just kept coming out and out of my mouth so she goes and sees my dad and says look something's really wrong with Ryan he's he's vomiting this jet black vomit but look my dad being my dad like my dad is my best friend yeah and my dad being my dad just said to my mom he just had way too much to drink like he's probably been on these black zambuka shots and he's he's thought he's cool with his friends and he's done all these black zambukas they probably bought a bottle and done it between them he'll be fine in the morning don't worry he'll be fine just give him a few hours he'll wake up he'll be fine but my mom you know with those maternal instincts knew that her son wasn't right knew that something was really wrong so she was just monitoring me again and again and again and I start vomiting once more this jet black vomit just kept coming out of my mouth bearing in mind my younger brother who was around 9 years old at the time he was in that same bedroom as me on the top of the bunk bed looking watching me just looking at his brother just thinking what is happening like he had never seen anything like this before and then thankfully for me my old brother gets a call from a friend to say how is Ryan doing is everything okay bearing in mind my brother knows nothing that's happening said why why wouldn't Ryan be okay and then this friend told my brother they had a fight there was this big argument and end up getting beaten up on the way home so bearing in bearing in mind this has just happened my old older brother was straight on the phone to my mom and dad saying like you need to wake Ryan up now like make sure Ryan's okay but wake him up so my parents rush into the room and saying Ryan wake up are you okay I was completely unresponsive so with that being said the paramedics were called and there was multiple ambulances outside my house and my dad said it was like all hell broke loose like there was paramedics just come rushing up into my bedroom and there was just many many paramedics coming into my room there was walkie-talkies there was sirens there was beeping there was just noises that my parents never heard before it was like again it was like a TV series or a documentary or movie it was crazy before you know it they had me on that stretcher they took me downstairs and they got me into the back of the ambulance so my dad stayed at home to look after my younger brother and the rest of my siblings and my mom went into a separate ambulance followed me in pursue we arrived at the first hospital which is maybe 40 minutes to an hour away and obviously my mom arrived in the separate ambulance she said when I arrived they had already taken me in so my mom's now all alone in the hospital looking for answers trying to figure out what had happened to her son so she was sat there in that waiting room confused didn't know what was going on as the paramedics and the doctors and nurses come by my mom's just pleading with them like please tell me some answers like where is my son what's happening they said they don't know nothing and as the time goes by my mom tells me she was sat there and she hears a voice down the corridor she starts smiling she starts being happy and feeling good she heard my voice down that Corridor this huge sense of relief was just like oh my God he's okay so she follows that voice and she just doesn't know where she's going she's walking down this Corridor just looking for the voice listening listening listening she hears it coming from a dorm so she goes into that room and the voice wasn't mine it was another boy and it wasn't my voice so bear in mind my mom is now up here and she's excited she's happy did she get dropped straight back down to earth to realize that it wasn't her son so she goes back to that waiting room and again every doctor every nurse that comes by she ask him where is my son his name is Ryan nurse where is he like what's happening to him nothing and then suddenly a doctor a nurse comes out and says to my mom look we prepared Ryan we we we prepared him ready for an operation he needs go into surgery we need to take him via air ambulance to a specialist Hospital he needs an emergency brain operation right now so bearing in mind I was just laying in my bed a few hours before now my mom's being told he your son needs an emergency brain operation yeah this is the very first thing that she's heard about your condition right she she doesn't know what happened no any any any parent listening out there like just imagine if that was your son for instance like how would you feel in this moment wow how terrifying so my mom is just like what is going on because there's no signs of bleeding there's no blood no bruising no sign of trauma at all so my mom saiding how can this happen look they didn't take me via air ambulance by by helicopter they actually took me in the ambulance but they rushed me there on the blue lights and as they sort of got me out into the ambulance my dad just actually arrived in the car so as my ambulance leads with me in it my parents obviously swallowing in their car in P um to try and obviously keep up with us so I obviously make it to the to the hospital way before my parents and then my parents said that they arrived there around sort of 4: or 5 P p.m. I believe it was or maybe a little bit earlier actually cuz what happened when my parents arrived they didn't have a clue where I was I just went in for this emergency operation yeah so my dad and my mom are asking every doctor every nurse every receptionist where's my son his name is Ryan nurse where is he we don't know we don't know where this guy is they were going around for hours my dad is stressing out he's he's screaming he's shouting at people asking for answers nobody knows so bear in mind my parents are in this hospital that it's huge and they just up and down the stairs asking every single person they see and then finally they located me and the operation was done and look my parents said around 600 p.m. they got to see me and I was laying there in that intensive care unit on a life support machine because I had to be rushed into hospital because I suffered from a fractured skull and a blood clot due to a bleed on the brain I had to have that an emergency brain operation because all that stuff that was going on internally if that wouldn't have happened I wouldn't have survived they told my parents when they finally got to see me that the severity of my injuries was so bad that if they would have waited any longer I would have died at home in that bed cu the blood was just pouring out into my skull and it was just pushing my brain down my spine CU there was nowhere for it to go so just just imagine that any parents are listening I I can't even imagine you know I have adult children and that just is terrifying well in 18's barely an adult holy cow we haven't even talked about near-death experience yet but I feel like I need to take a deep breath after that that's uh exciting and terrifying and like I said horrific okay so we're gonna come back to every all the physical stuff that happened um and your and your recovery from this but in a nutshell I believe the doctors at this point after surgery put you in an induced coma correct yes that's correct okay and as this where you felt like you had a near-death experience yes so I was in in Ju coma straight away on the first day obviously when the doctors told my parents look he's never going to wake up from this go and tell you your friend's family he's never going to wake up on the third day they told my parents again because there's zero brain activity you need to pull the plug and that's when my dad sa my life because my dad said no way which allowed them to keep it on for a few more days and in total I was in that induced coma for one week the day they reduced station to try and bring me out of the coma my lungs weren't functioning by themselves so I had to be put straight back into the coma and again they were telling my my parents like if he ever comes through from this if he ever wakes up he will never walk or talk again and would be in a vegetative state for the rest of his life my parents insisted they keep it on and they did and then the second time they reduced sedation and my lungs I started to function by myself but bearing in mind I didn't just wake up open my eyes and start to talk to people it was just a line on the machine to say that my lungs were working but then this is when I believe when things started happening and when I actually experience this outter Body Experience just before actually waking up back on the back in the real way like back on earth when I actually physically opened my eyes and saw people like real people I actually was gifted an out of body experience and you know I'm going to explain this now and I truly believe that we as humans don't really know the true meaning of life and when we do is when we actually experience death and let me talk to you about why I believe that so in this out of body experience you know like I'm going to talk a little bit about when I was a child just for a couple of seconds here because we all hear these things online in newspapers for instance it used to be on the television like people see these out body experience and something traumatic happens in their lives and what happens they they go through these Out of Body Experience where they might see a bright light or they might see themselves or their families or their whole life might unfold in front of their eyes and as much as these were really sort of cool stor stories when I was a child we used to talk about these things in the playground at school and we all had our own ideas of what it could be when you die for instance and I never believed in any of that I was such an atheist like I never believed in a God and I just didn't believe in anything it was just like we are born we die and then that is it but now I truly believe that something or someone knows a lot more than we know and what happens to us after I don't know but you can make your own op opinion from my own story but for me I was in that out of body experience and let me talk to you about it now so this is now in the out of body experience I remember looking down at myself Through The Eyes of someone or something else whether it's my Creator my maker I don't really know but I was looking down at me for a set of someone else's eyes and I was looking down at me laying there in that hospital bed and I was outside there was these two huge big black ladies and they were pushing me on this hospital bed and we're going down this cobbled street and I saw this whole thing unfold and it was so picture perfect it was like 5K but better it was so pristine this experience and everything was just bright and it was just Crystal Clear Clarity and the quality was insane and I was just watching myself being pushed down this Cobble Street and these two black ladies are just talking in this unknown language like it wasn't French it wasn't Spanish it wasn't Portuguese it wasn't English it was just a language that I didn't have a clue what it was I never heard anything like it before I didn't have a clue what they were saying but they were just talking and it wasn't like they were arguing but they were having like a heated conversation and I'm just trying to figure out what they're saying I didn't know and they're pushing me down this cobbled street and cuz it's cobbled my Hospital the bed that I'm on is like bumping and as this bumping me my body was sort of sliding down the bed and as we're going down this street it's and going down and down and down and the bed is just bumping and bumping and my body is slowly juding down this bed and I just hear this voice whispering in my ear like wherever my ear is but these eyes and here his voice is Whispering saying and just kept saying they're going to drop him they're going to drop him and I just believe that they were going to drop me off the end of the bed and as my legs started to come off the end of the bed we made this sharp left turn what I can only say is this giant set of glass sliding doors into what seemed to be like a huge reception area and we go in there and I'm watching and then pushing me towards this desk this huge sort of rounded desk there's a lady on this desk and we're heading towards this lady there's many people in this reception area and they're all just talking in this unknown language and as we're going towards this lady at the desk she's just pointing towards her left and what is just a brick wall and we're heading towards her so now it's our right so as these ladies are pushing me on the bed towards the lady at the reception we make a sharp right hand turn which is her left then as we make that turn these eyes that I'm watching this experience through I sort of get transitioned to the other side of the reception and now I'm s or I'm sort of hovering or what I'm doing I'm here in the other side of the reception and now I'm looking across the reception these two ladies now pushing me towards the brick wall and I'm thinking what's going to happen now cuz there's no way for them to go and they're getting faster and faster and faster but they're not going anywhere but at one point it gets so fast but they're barely moving like I can't I can't explain it because the things are just getting so fast but they're not going anywhere but as I'm watching this through these different set of eyes I'm bracing myself because I could just tell that that hospital bed with me on it is going to hit the brick wall so I'm bracing myself s and as the time goes by I'm just waiting for the impact and then out of nowhere bam the hospital bed the gurnie hits the wall and it goes up like this and as the bed goes up the wall opens up almost like a giant cat flap and my body just slides through but as my body passes through this door this this flag these eyes that I'm viewing this experience through get sucked straight back into my actual body in this out of Body Experience so now I'm back in my own body but I'm just falling through just dark black nothingness and I don't know where I am everything is just black and I'm looking around I'm observing things I'm thinking where am I what what is this place and it's just like I'm falling out of the sky it's literally I'm just falling to nowhere so time goes by and bear in mind in this place there's no no time time in space doesn't exist like time was just forever nothing actually existed I had no perception of anything in this place so I'm just falling what seemed to be like forever and I'm just looking everywhere up down looking for answers and then right down there towards my left I just see this small glistening outline of a bright white shining Square I'm thinking what is that then as the time passes by the square is getting bigger and brighter bigger and brighter and I'm actually being magnetized and I'm moving towards this square and I'm just thinking what is this place where am I going what is this Square I really didn't know but this square is getting bigger and brighter bigger and brighter bigger and brighter and it got so big and bright at one point the intensity of that light was shining so bright it was almost like heat in my face I closed my eyes and the moment I closed my eyes was when I felt the soles of my feet hit what I can only imagine is another wall to another cat flap or another wall to another dimension and it was almost like I was coming down a slide in the swimming pool and I sort of slid and shot out of this place and Bam I landed back in the hospital bed and now I'm laying there in this place which just bright white and it wasn't the room because there was no walls there was no ceiling it was just forever just white and I'm laying there and I'm now looking down at myself again through these other set of eyes while my body is just laying there in this bed and the time goes by and I'm looking for answers I'm thinking what's going to happen next what's happening now and then just from behind me where I can't see the doctors and the nurses just started to come in and they just started preparing me and they just start operating on my body and now I'm looking down there at my body and the doctors are just operating on my head but look there's no blood there's no pain which is all peace and pleasure this was one of the most beautiful picture perfect amazing thing that I'd ever seen in my whole life doctors working on my head and they're all just talking they're whispering in this unknown language and I'm just trying to make sense of everything okay I've got so many questions I'm going to stop you for a minute and and let's let's sort through some of this because there's a whole bunch first of all this other set of eyes looking down on your body you've mentioned a few times yes most people will say that was me out of my body looking down on my body but you feel like that wasn't the case with you no I truly believe it was either like my maker my Creator like but what is that am I my own maker I don't know but then also for me I believe it could possibly be the eyes of my my granddad he was my best friend I have a tattoo here I don't know if you can see let me show you here guys on the camera I have a tattoo that says Grandad here there Grandad so my grand was like my best friend I see him three times a day cuz he lived literally two doors down from my parents yeah he was the one that really believed in me in life like he said you can achieve anything you want you will become so successful he was always there for me but then when I lost my granddad I lost like a huge part of myself and I truly believe like my granddad was the person that helped pull me through that say whole trauma or the traumatic experience So You Were Somehow tuned into his experience of looking down on you then right I believe he I believe like from my own eyes whether this is correct or not I I truly still don't know now but I just believe something inside of me is saying maybe it's your grand looking down at you okay just looking over you to make sure you're okay but the thing is there kept being these transitions where the eyes kept transitioning back into my head right back into my body interesting okay now you were talking about also looking down on this surgery happening with no blood or anything and these people are talking in a different language Is this different than the initial surgery that you had gone through what was it just a few days before this the real surgery in the hospital is this something different or like a replay explain it's okay if you don't totally know just your opinion no no I I truly don't know no I truly don't know will I ever know who knows maybe one day I'll figure this all out but at the minute I I can't be 100% certain but maybe it is a sort of a replay of what actually happened um possibly I really don't know but the word that I want to use actually watching this unfold through this different set of eyes was Bliss it was Blissful it was the most Blissful thing that I'd ever seen me being operated on and these doctors just whispering in this unknown language and it was just so perfect just watching this thing unfold it was no pain it was just pleasure it was one of the most amazing things or probably the most amazing thing I've ever seen yeah cuz off hand you would think that that would be disturbing not Blissful I've had some other people on this show that have talked about seeing Spiritual Beings whether they called them Angels or whatever Spiritual Beings actually doing some healing to their body while they were out of the body is maybe that do you think maybe that's what was happening could well be because like I say the these people they look like me and you but the language the noises that were coming out out of their mouth it's unexplainable like I could not tell you even what it sounded like so these could have been say Angels they could have been Spirits they who knows what they could have been but they they the language they were speaking was just not from this planet at all well and the reason that you felt Bliss tells me that something good was going on something spiritually positive was happening at that point right sure okay tell me what else happens while you're in this kind of state yeah so as the time goes by and again I can't put a number on the time like it was just yeah there's no time it was literally forever it could have been a year it could have been a second it could have been a week it could have been any time so as the time goes by these dogs to the nurses they sort of dissipated they just start going behind where I couldn't see and they just pack up their tools and they just leave and now it's just me laying there and my body is just laying there in this bed and now I'm looking for answers I'm asking in front something now what happens and I'm just looking down on me laying there a Mobile just peaceful just laying there and just TR Tranquility maybe the the word like just Bliss my body is just laying there and then out of nowhere there was this transition I get this transition and it's almost like there's this Hoover inside my brain inside my mind it's like the most powerful suction that's inside my body's mind and it sucks These Eyes straight back in like I said there's always is this transition and the eyes got transition back into my body so as I'm laying there now I'm Got My Eyes in my own body and now I open my eyes and I look up and I'm in this place where I really don't know it is but all I all I know is I'm laying in this hospital bed with this curtain that is around me just in front of me I this huge curtain that surrounded my bed and now I'm thinking now what happens I really don't know so I'm looking around and I'm looking for answers nothing but then suddenly these curtains start to open up and as the curtain open up this Supernatural bright white light shines through again with such intensity that I had to close my eyes so I close my eyes because it's almost like heat on my face that's how bright it is but as my are closed I can feel it's like dimming down and I can feel that the intensity is like getting to a point where it's safe to open my eyes so I open my eyes and as I do open my eyes was when the most profound incredible thing that I've potentially ever seen and the main part of the story happened so I open my eyes and I remember looking out there and bearing in mind this this wasn't a room this wasn't a place it was just forever it was just forever it went on forever and as I look out there as far as I could see just forever I saw every single face that I'd ever seen in my whole life every single person that I'd ever seen in my whole life it could have been someone that I bumped into as a kid in the street could have been someone that I went on a school trip with and it was someone that worked there it could have been anybody every single face that i' never seen and everywhere I looked up down every single place I just saw faces of people you know they were in an order of importance because the closer that these faces got to me the more important that these people meant to me like it could have been a childhood friend it could have been a family friend to a family member and then right at the very end of my hospital bed with my immediate family the people that really meant the most to me my granddad he was there even though he was dead he was there right at the end of the bed my mom my dad my sister my brothers and they were all there and they're all just looking at me and I remember looking back at them and I looked at every single face and I remember looking out all of those faces and every single face that I looked out to they were just silently sobbing there were just tears running down the faces of every single face that I looked out to and straight away I panicked I was nervous I was scared the first thought that went through my mind said what have I done wrong I really thought that I'd done something really really wrong my heart was going I was just panicking I was nervous I was so scared I just thought I done something really really wrong I need to grab their attention so I started to I start to speak to them not a single word come out of my mouth nothing I tried to shout I tried to scream no words were coming out of my mouth so I thought I know what I do I try and grab their attention so I put my hands up to wave at them it just looked straight through me it was like I didn't even exist and again I tried forever literally forever every single thing that I done didn't work and I remember I closed my eyes and I cried and I just give up on myself I literally closed my eyes and I started crying and I remember I just put my head back and I dropped my head back on that pillow and the moment my head hit that pillow that suction again was on my head on the top of my head with such intensity it sucked everything out of it the people the faces the the eyes the bright white every single thing got sucked up and out of my head and just went so now we're not in bright whiteness we're in Peach black again and I'm just thinking what's happening now cuz I can't see anything everything is pitch black but bear in mind in this white place it was cold but now in this dark black place my body's starting to warm up I could feel it I could feel my body getting warm I couldn't see anything but in the distance I hear a beeping noise beep beep beep and in my mind I'm thinking Ryan you need to wake up you have work today and you're going to be so late for work you need to wake up now Ryan your boss is going to be so angry with you if you don't wake up now because you're going to be so so late so in my mind I just believed it was a Saturday morning and I had work on a Saturday so I'm just telling myself wake up you're going to be so so late I believed I went out the night before and I couldn't wake up in time for work and my boss is going to be so angry with me so this noise is getting faster it's going beep beep beep and it's getting louder and F louder and faster to the point I said Ryan Wake Up Now boom I actually open my eyes and now in this moment I'm back in the real world and I look around and I'm in this pitch black room all by myself laying there in that hospital bed and I'm looking around and my head is so sore my body is hurting and I look down slowly at my myself and I had needles all in my arm I had pads all on my chest had a huge tube down my throat and I'm just thinking where am I is this a movie is this real I don't even know where I am and I just hear this beeping at the side of Meep beep and I remember turning my head so slowly because it was hurting so much and I look and that beeping noise was the life support machine that was keeping me Al live this very whole time and again I look back at my body and I look around and then I remembered everything every single thing I remember it all it was like the only way I can explain this is like back in the day when we we had computers maybe 10 years ago and we used to try and open too many tabs and the computer would just freeze cuz it was too much information I literally had dropped in my mind every single bit of information from that night prior to when I was attacked and I remembered everything I remembered who it was what people were there what taxi it was where we was I remembered every single thing that information just got dropped into my mind and I remembered it so specific and I cried because the pain was so bad because of the information in my mind at that time was so so painful again it just felt like someone had smashed me over the head with a baseball bat because it was just too much information for my mind to to take in at one time and again I just cried and this is now back in the real world I just cried my eyes out and I remember I put my head on that pillow again and I cried myself to sleep but then when I did wake up in the morning I woke up and I see the faces and the bodies of my real family and they will stood there at the end of my bed the very first time that they saw me actually woke woken up the first time and they were there my mom my dad my brothers my sister and they were all just looking at me and I remember they were saying he's awake I wonder if he knows who we who we are because the doctors told my parents he would never remember any of you he won't walk again he won't talk again he won't remember his own name and I remember my older brother comes so close to my face and he said I wonder if he knows who I am but I thought you idiot of course I know who you are I couldn't speak I could barely move in that moment I thought of course I know you are my mom was there she was just crying her eyes out and they were asking me things I couldn't even reply and this is when I realized that I'm back on Earth and I truly believe from that whole experience just to sort of finish this part off that I believe we're all here for a special reason some people find out why they're here on Earth and others don't sadly but I believe that I had to go through that experience to really discover who I truly am and I believe that I was put on this planet to help other people discover who they truly are doing the research now looking back I honestly believe that I was sent back here to earth like my life was spared because I hadn't yet finished the job that was sent here to do in the first place and that's why my maker my Creator sent me back to complete the mission that I was sent to do and this is why the people were crying that's why all those faces were crying because they knew I hadn't fulfilled my potential and because I hadn't done that they were crying because they were still trapped in a place where they didn't want to be because I was the person that was here to guide them to show them the way because I hadn't done that yet they were all just crying their eyes out because in that moment that was the end of me Ryan nurse was no more and you know looking back my family used to say like Ryan you're like a cat with nine lives there was so many times when I had like almost death like knocking on my door like crazy things when I was a kid like I would do stunts on my bike where I was knocked out many many times i' would walk out in front of buses cars for instance my mom my poor mom how I didn't die when I was a kid many times over and people say Ryan you're a cat with nine lives you know this is the last this is the last like this is the last life that I would ever need because I don't need anymore because I know now I'm here for a purpose and I found my purpose and this is the life that I'm going to truly make count I can't wait to meet your parents they sound awesome let alone saved your life and sometime way way down the road when we're both on the other side you introduce me to your granddad too sure deal 100% all right I I have a question about you said that you met you saw everyone that you had ever met in your life yes was there any kind of interaction was there any memory of experiences you had or just like seeing a stadium full of people it wasn't even it was just white space that went on forever and it was just everywhere was filled this white space like it was just filled with faces so it wasn't so much part of a Life review as it was just a glimpse at all these people it was the people that i' I'd seen yeah I would seen them maybe I I wouldn't even said a word to them maybe it was like I bumped into them in the street went oops it could have been anything but I'd SE them at one point in my life I would have seen them somewhere and it was every single face that I'd ever seen they were all looking at me and all crying and just tears coming from their face okay you said that you came back with a purpose are you familiar with what mission statements are yes like businesses and stuff have them sure can you can you put that purpose into a one or two sentence like a mission statement what's your purpose so my purpose is help to help confused adults discover design and live their dream life by showing them the way because obviously I took my life from deathbed to sunbed from depression to progression and from Calamity to Crystal Clear Clarity so I believe my mission is to use the knowledge I've gained from facing and overcoming the adversities in my life to help other adults discover and design the life of their dreams and to become the very best version of themselves excellent answer okay I want to hit on a couple other things the first one is you mentioned to me before that you've written a book and people can find it on your website that'll be in the show notes give us the very brief what's your book called what's it about so this one isn't really to do with the out Body Experience there is a bit in there about that but this book is called sort your sh out and it's literally how to build the life of your dreams cuz at one point in my life I didn't have a clue what I wanted to do with my life I was so confused I faced and overcome many adversities in my life to the point where I am today I've been living my dream life for the last few years and I'm it on a daily basis and how I'm here now it's crazy and I obviously had to go through the steps myself to actually achieve this so I thought I am called to put this into writing into a step-by-step easy process for other adults to do the same so look for a fraction of the cost that say a couple of cups of coffee you can get your hands on this to actually build the life of your dreams and then I'll be soon writing my next book as well so this one you can head over to sort your [ __ ] out. ran nurse.com and you can get it there or you can head over to Amazon and type in sort your [ __ ] out and you can get a copy but my next book which I'm going to be writing this year and Publishing this year it's going to be called dying with regrets that's an awesome title your first one by the way there are quite a few other books on Amazon by the same title so be sure to look for the one by Ryan nurse or or just go to his website okay you gave us a minute ago a perfect ending to this podcast I should have just cut it off right there but I wanted to hear about your book and I think other people like me are going to be curious was there any kind of resolution to this whole thing with I mean these guys just attacked you unprovoked uh there was a lot of damage what happened to them I mean were they arrested things like that yeah so obviously the guys were found straight away like the place where we live is so small and like everyone knows everyone people talk so these guys got found straight away they know who it was to round up the story if we found out the reason why we got removed from the taxi because the first taxi that we got into was actually these guys's friend the dri was their friend so there wasn't Four Guys attacking us there was Five Guys attacking us bear in mind it's me two younger friends and a girl so it wasn't say a fair fight anyway and they just beat the crap out of us well besides you were seat belted you you had no chance I was seat Bel I had nowhere to go I couldn't even get myself away yeah you had zero chance I literally zero chance so it wasn't a fight it was just being beaten up basically so yeah so obviously it went to court it went to court many many times and the jury couldn't agree on one thing and they couldn't agree on one other thing and it kept getting adjourned and adjourned and like for me I'd never been to court in my life so as an 189 year old boy at the time it was just such trauma for me it was so horrific like I remember at one point I was in my old career I was a car mechanic and I was there my dad just turns up to the garage one afternoon and he's like panicking he's nervous he's just been rushing he's like you need to be in court now and bear in mind I had overalls on oil all over me I had like a car in bits DUS wants the car back and I'm just like I don't want to go and he's like no you need to go the judge has called you in like you need to be there I remember just crying the whole way there I get into court and I just didn't want to be there it was just so much pressure for me as a young boy and I had to go there cuz I remember when the police come to my bed when I first woke up I wrote a written statement of exactly what happened and CU one of my eyes was busted it was upwards the letter went from big uh letters to small and it went bent down and I read back everything and the jury couldn't believe it so in the end yeah that there was I think a couple of guys out of the five of them went to prison I think one got a year and was no one got like eight or 6 months whatever it was was it wasn't long I think he just got a bit community service in the end the guy that attacked me was actually the taxi driver from the other taxi or like the first taxi and he got 18 months I believe and was out in a year so people say to me look oh you didn't get Justice there like they should have got five 10 years they should have got this that and the other look what is the price of a life how many years in prison for someone should it be for a life would you say would you argue it should be a life or a life I don't know like some people have different opinions but what is the price of a life so if you're listening to this now let me tell you a price of your life is absolutely pricess you can't put a price on anybody's life so for me waking up and being where I am today I'm so grateful for all of that past pain and the people that I once believe were the source of my suffering because I had to go through that stuff in order to get to the place where I am today so no justice for a life is is good enough so for me it was just forgiveness I forgive those people because all of those things that those people once done to me in the past whether it is that whether it is other things that happened CU many other things happened in my life I forgive every single person that I believed or perceived what caused me pain in the past because you know pain is inevitable suffering is optional you can either be a victim or a victor of your past and if you're still suffering today and you my friend are a volunteer so you need to forgive and move on because it's not like forgive and forget it's forgive and move on because those people that you say potentially have pain or anger towards them they've already moved them with their life so you need to forgive them because anger is such a strong word anger is one letter away from the DAT anger is the one letter away from the word danger anger is the wind that blows out the lamp of the Mind and holding on to anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die it is forgiveness that is the antidote but it's not always that easy sometimes we want to forgive what's your secret to forgiveness it's just knowing that if you don't forgive that person for what they done or those people or that situation that was potentially out of your control like for me I didn't want that to happen to me but I was in say the right place at the right time or the wrong place at the right time if that didn't happen would I be where I am today would I have wrote my book here that I've got in my hand would I have helped the people that I've helped on a global scare would I been speaking on stages across the world would I have podcasts would I be doing the things that I'm doing today potentially not I could have been living that life that wasn't fulfilling that was just the the mundane that the the average life that society says that we need to live no so what is the secret to forgiving knowing that forgiving isn't for anybody else it isn't for them it's for you because if you don't forgive and move on and accept the certain situations and things and people and what have happened into your life if you don't accept them for happening the way that they happened and understanding that potentially you didn't have control over what happened and whether we like it or not we all hold our own responsibility we all hold we all played a part in our life Journey but I was in that situation I didn't have to go to the club that night but I I wanted to go so I responsible for that for being there but if you don't forgive that situation those people that painful event is going to hold a piece of you for the rest of your life and you'll never get be able to get through your life without feeling pain in some sort of way and you'll never truly get past what would happened to you and you'd always hold a a piece of resentment inside of you and it's going to eat you up for the rest of your life so you need to forgive and know that it's going to set you free so forgiveness is Freedom my friends so Ryan any last message for us yes so I have something that I like to take you through guys here a little journey so I just want you to to go with me on this one and just use your imagination so Envision this just imagine you managed to meet your maker your Creator and they said to you how was your time on Earth did you do all of the things that you wanted to do go all of the places where you wanted to go say all of the things that you wanted to say you said no no I didn't so they invite you to sit down at this desk and on this desk are two big books and they point at the first book and say this is the manual that I had created for your life so you pick it up and you begin to flick through and you see all of your life start to unfold all of those magical maternal moments in the arms of your magnificent mother all of those fun times growing up through childhood teenage years early adulthood then you start to see all of these amazing things all of the things that you were too scared to do so you look at the second book and you pick it up and you flip through and of course this is your life your life up to today yeah it's an okay life but then suddenly you're flicking through pages of blank nothingness absolutely nothing and you're instantly overwhelmed with resentment responsibility and regret knowing for well you can never reapply to return and reattempt to relive the life that was created for you all along because that is it it's over there's no going back but people I just want you to realize that your dream life is right there right in front of you ready for the Tak in but you just have to reach out and grab it with both hands so whatever you do people don't wait for the manual make the manual because if regret is something that you're going to take to the tomb with you do not take your greatness to the Grave because so many people have such greatness inside of them waiting to be shared with the world but they're not doing it because they honestly believe that they're going to wake up tomorrow not many things in life are 100% guaranteed my friends but two things are that we are all born and we will all die it's what we do with the opportunity between these two events that really matter most so please do make the very most out of your uni unque dot that you have on this Earth thank you so much well said Ryan thanks for being on with us thanks again for listening and sharing this podcast don't forget to hit the follow or subscribe button and sign up for our newsletter roundtrip death.com if you want to share your near-death experience or if you have questions or comments about the show send an email to Eric roundtrip death.com until then I wish you everything good that you're looking for in this life and the [Music] next

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