Revealing The Truth: How My Life Transformed With Relocation, Feeling Lost, Depression And Marriage

the past year has been wild there are days where I would cry and be frustrated and depression anxiety I'm lost in the weights that I waited for a year and I didn't know what I wanted to do again but now I've seen life in a totally different way gosh I'm getting emotional white that I feel like I feel like 2 years ago I feel like I knew exactly what I wanted and now all those things I wanted don't even make sense to me anymore because my life has changed drastically but I just wanted to kind of come back on here and be like hey guys we're back and don't even know to start from but we're going to start from here this video right now oh hey loves and welcome back to the channel guys and also welcome back to our studio it has been a while but we're back and hopefully we're better but we're going to be doing a little bit of like an Life update and we're just going to have like a chat chat a very calm conversation and we'll just kind of catch up update you guys on what's been happening and what's going to be happening moving forward so if you guys are new here hi welcome to the channel my name is kichi and leave you're returning subscriber hey girl hey guy welcome back it is good to have you on here again I just want to get comfortable because this is going to be probably going to be a long video but I don't want I don't want it to be too lengthy but we're back in the studio and I feel like now I'm ready to kind of like get the ball rolling but it's been a while guys it has been a while it has been a crazy couple of months or years um especially like after getting married and then right after getting married having kids I feel like I didn't have any break in between but it has been a crazy last three 3 years personally in my life that I've not really had enough time to just focus on myself so I told myself this year I really want to focus on myself and take time out to reflect on my personal and professional life and goals and things that I want to achieve on my own and then also reflect on things and plan on things that I want to achieve with my family as a whole but yeah the past year has been wild let me tell you that I'm sure a lot of people were asking in my previous video in my previous relocation reuniting with my family video I did get a lot of comments on oh what happened why was there a separation and I I feel like I'm someone who I'm very protective of my personal space I don't let people in until I feel comfortable and okay with in Sharing certain information that makes sense to have control over The Narrative of my life if that makes sense last year has been crazy but I'm if there's anything I'm grateful for is family and friends and I don't take that for granted so for anyone who is trying to get updated with what's been happening um last year I relocated to Canada I relocated to Canada and um the goal was actually this goal was not a last year goal it was a goal of 2 years after I got married so after I got married we started processing our um Visa right if you know anything about Canadian immigration it is the grace of God and it is patience if you don't have these two things then I don't know what to say to you so um we started this whole Journey 2 years ago um immediately after getting married we were like okay what do we want to do where do we see ourselves what is our goal and we plann that so it took us a while we actually forgot about it and started processing a new one but we then got a response as of the time where we got a response we had already moved on with our lives and kind of like forgotting that um goal and I feel like sometimes God just does things at his own time and when I start to reflect on so many things that have happened I'm like okay okay okay and if you follow me you know that something I always say is God would never give you what you cannot handle this thing that I handled there I don't even know but um to cut the story short um I moved I relocated and then I had my baby and then we were processing um permanent residency that's another chapter on its own and in summary something that would usually take a couple of months prolonged and took over a year but I don't want to go into details right right I want to probably talk about all of that in another video and we'll just kind of talk about things and how it was the difficulties we experienced the hurdles the emotional side of it the physical side of it depression anxiety and just everything that was in between and inside of it there are days where I would cry and be frustrated and just want to come back home and and then it went from us thinking oh it would just take a day it would just take a week oh next week oh next um the next week after that and that's kind of like snowballed from next week next week into a month 2 months 3 months 4 months and like funny enough one year I still say I'm saying this now I'm laughing but it wasn't funny it was difficult I like the thought of it is even making me anxious but was mentally not settled but like I said if there's anything I'm grateful for was family that I had in Canada cuz see I don't I don't know how I would have survived on my own and I don't take it for granted to be honest with you but yeah I'm just going to leave it at that I'll probably talk more in depth to cut the story short um separation was never a plan I don't think I don't it was never a plan it was just something that I feel like had to happen for whatever reasons God had planned for it or yeah it was something that I don't know like I say God never give you what you cannot handle God gave us something that we thought we couldn't handle but we handled it and yeah so this year is going to be filled with a lot of new things a lot of new Journey a lot lot of exploring a lot of Discovery a lot of trying new things and travels definitely um just a lot of discovering myself to be honest with you um I feel like I'm lost in so many things I'm lost in the waights that I waited for a year because there are so many things I had planned but I just was waiting for God to answer I was waiting and in that in that mist of weight I felt like I got lost and I didn't know what I wanted to do again right I knew what I wanted to do but I was just lost and I feel like that's the only way I can explain it right so now I'm breathing finally because now I can focus on myself and I can discover myself and figure out what it is that kichi oai wants 2 years ago I felt like I knew exactly what I wanted right and now all those things I wanted don't even make sense to me anymore because my life has changed drastically and I'm so grateful for the change I'm feel like I'm getting emotional I'm so grateful for the change I'm so grateful for all the addition and for me to see myself in the future I need to see myself and my family in that future so my goals have changed drastically things that I thought would make me happy 2 years ago don't even move me anymore um I was so I me I remember like two years ago I was so ambitious like three two three years ago I was so ambitious and I'm still ambitious don't get me wrong like when I get started you cannot hold me down nothing can hold me down I'm I have to heit what I want to heat and get what I want to get but now I've seen life in a totally different way gosh I'm getting emotional what I've seen life in a totally different way um that I feel like I feel like H if and if my husband sees this video is going to laugh at me let me package myself my God I kind of have forgotten where I left off in summary what I was saying was the past 3 years have been one of the hardest for me and the best for me it has made me see life in like a different perspective entirely the things that I used to overlook I don't overlook them anymore things I take for granted I don't take them for granted anymore things that I felt were the most important and now like the least important to me so if there's anything that I I feel like God was showing me I don't know but I don't want to get too deep but we're back guys we're back and my goal for this month and the the next coming months is to just be is to show up every day right I want to see how I can film every single day I want to wake up and I want to make up and I want to sit up and record I've kind of set up my studio now well it was previously set up you guys already know how my studio was set up the lighting I'll leave the link up here so you guys can see my filming Studio Tour and setup or everything is fixed the only variables are the decco the plants you're seeing here the flowers you're seeing here the props blah blah I can easily move things around switch things around take my mirror from here to the back if I feel like I want a different vibe which I think might work maybe we'll try that later on you guys know that when it comes to setting up I get so crazy and excited I want to move things around I want to switch things I'm going to do that right now I'm sorry okay sorry that didn't even make any difference did it sorry about that that's how we are on here but I wanted to kind of see if if we could play around with this I definitely will go more in depth with everything in a subsequent video but I just wanted to kind of come back on here and be like hey guys we're back and we're home in case you guys missed the prev previous videos but yeah um moving forward we're still going to be creating more creative content around filming helping creators create build an online brand make it profitable enjoy the process learn from the process grow as well because I have grown so much and I'm so proud of the woman that I am and that the woman that I'm also becoming as as well and for anyone who is watching this and has been a part of this journey I am so extremely grateful for all that you guys do for all your kind words guys my eyes are get to tear again gosh for all your kind words for all your I don't know to just being there it kind of it it means something I feel like you know when you're doing something it feels like you're not doing anything but the person that you're doing it for receives it 100 times more if that makes sense so yeah um that is it guys moving forward like I was saying it's going to be more Vlogs and hopefully More Exploring definitely more collaborations because now I I feel like there is a goal that I want to achieve on this platform and this was a goal that I started off with on this platform but yeah guys um I'm trying to think of if I'm trying to think if there's anything I I want to say my babies are here guys they are having like The Sibling rivalries they they love themselves but they also fight for attention right when I'm holding Kila casin wants me to hold him when like it's so cute and it's so wild to see that I'm now officially physically a mom of two like before I was I was a mom of two but physically now that I have of them together I can't stop smiling it's just so amazing but yeah guys if you have any suggestions on what we're going to be doing on here if you want more of this conversations on this platform do let me know if you have suggestions on what we can film on what we can do collaborations feel free to let me know down in the comment section um open to it and I'm working towards it at the same time cuz what I want to do is to create a balance between what I want to give and what you guys want to receive so the things you guys need and the things that I need so we're trying to find a balance so that way I can keep my existing Community engaged and entertained but I can also you know attract more people and get more people that want more insight on what I have to give it that make sense does it make sense I think it makes sense but yeah I don't even know where to begin I feel like I'm I have so many ideas that I don't even know to start from but we're going to start from here this video right now okay so yeah guys that is about it for this video like I said I'm going to be more indepth with like my journey so I'm probably going to be doing it in like series and sharing with you guys the journey right do if you have questions specific questions let me know I think I'm going to do like a Q&A on Instagram yeah if you guys are watching if you've been watching for a while if you are subscribed thank you guys so much for sticking around with us I can't wait to see you guys in the next one till then like I always say stay fabulous and stay blessed bye guys hey hey hey [Music] hey

Channel: kelechi mgbemena

Views: 23,778

Keywords: Relocation, Personal Growth, Mental Health, Kids, QA, Lifestyle Changes, Self Discovery, Marriage Journey, Creative Content, Sibling Rivalries, Rebuilding Life, Online Brand, Balance, Collaborations, Marriage, Vlogs, Motherhood, Family Goals, Emotional Journey, Community Engagement, Filming Studio

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Length: 16min 19sec (979 seconds)

Published: Wed Mar 20 2024