( desparate sigh) Hi its 2 A.M what the fuck am I doing? *nervous chuckle* okay I am ready for bed. I got all my shit goin on I got my like, pimple cream on I got... you know what I mean? I'm ready for bed. but plot twist - im not going to bed *dramatic drum thing* I... pull all nighters like.. A LOT probably too much, like an unhealthy amount I'd say at least once a week if not like, TWICE not like more than twice because like if I do more than two in the week, like I LOSE IT like I'm talking about like maniac behavior I'm talking about call the social security number... that didn't make any sense this is so ironic like I'm literally pulling one right now, it's 5 am, FIVE AM (puts down phone) *tHuNK* (sighs) I need help but I can't go to bed tonight and let me tell you why well... I spent the past four hours watching a crime documentary on Netflix it's actually called "Evil Genius" - this is not partnered with them although I wish it was netflix - eEughhH it's like a four-part documentary with four episodes and it is CREEPY AS FUCK and I'm SPOOKED as FUCK but here's the problem, right? normally when I watch scary shit at night I usually follow it up with something fun and light-hearted to kind of like, take my mind off things and make me a litte bit like less anxious or whatever tonight, that wasn't an option MY WIFI JUST DIED died I don't know what's going on, I'm very concerned and worried and my ability to watch a funny and heartwarming video before bed was TAKEN AWAY FROM ME AND RIPPED OUT OF MY HANDS and now I'm all freaked out I tried to like lay in bed but my heart was like BEATING like I literally can't go to bed like I -d- I CAN'T *SPOOKED* I had the idea to pull an all-nighter and when I usually pull all-nighters it's to edit because I have to get a video done (cheery music) this time its different because I don't have anything I need to get done tonight well, I do but I'm just not gonna do it. I was like, why not turn this moment of anxiety into CONTENT *cheering* first thing that I think we need to do is - we need to make a coffee sis don't be silly here, now I'm also not taking off my pimple cream, I don't care what anybody says, like these zits need to go away great... for our first all-nighter activity, we're just gonna get hyped up on coffee because that's always the best way to start a video and the only way in my career, thus far that I've started a video I'm really excited because i bought these cool vanilla coffee pods for my espresso and they just taste absolutely phenom(enal) soOoo been really digging that lately also got these mini little... espresso... jars... that I can use. ALSO PHENOM(enal) does anybody really care about the stuff I'm talking about right now? I mean I hope not because that would be kind of sad, like imagine if you cared about my coffee pods that's like depressing but I mean if you do care... bless your soul baby also, something really funny happened to me the other day and I thought I would share I decided that I would be a conscientious health queen for not only my self but also for the Earth and thought that I would start buying reusable straws because... so I decided that I would order some reusable straws off amazon and care for my planet. I don't know I wasn't really thinking I just literally added the first ones I saw to my cart and then called it a day they show up to my house the other day. okay and look how fucking long they are WHAT? like? (pretends to sip from straw) like what the fuck is this? and I ordered like 40 of them like why would I I don't know wha- I don't know why I couldn't tell you maybe I'll use it today... that'd be kind of funny would you laugh if I used it? (crash) (crash) this video you would think like oh all-nighter like wow this is gonna be a lit vlog well you're wrong. because there's literally nothing to do at night I don't know what to do maybe we could fold some laundry (crowd booing) maybe we'll go to the store might go to the store and buy Cheez-Its I dont know lately I've been really into Cheez-Its *bubbly slurping* this is the stupidest thing i've ever seen i literally can't believe myself but im kinda into it *more bubbly slurping sounds* wait is this lowkey like... really bomb as fuck like this whole thing going on here like the coffee tastes great the straw is actually a great distance from my head i can do it without hands im kind of fucking with this WHY AM I NOT MAD AT THIS SITUATION THIS IS SO AGAINST ALL SOCIAL QUEUES I thought i'd do a little laundry folding life update because honestly you guys have a lot that you need to be updated on also the camera's crooked is that better? nope but, whatever *sighs* A lot has happened i moved to LA i live here now do i like it? yes am i having an identity crisis? yes let's not lie about it i had my whole routine down at home you know, i have my friends, i had my life i had everything like figured out and then i moved here and all of that is changed my entire youtube life career all started and existed-- when i was at home and so know im trying to like adjust here, and like figure out a new routine because i dont have a routine down right now none of this probably makes any sense and im probably going to cut all of this out, but like its alot anyways so now that im admitted to the internet that im having an identify crisis let's talk about some fun things oh, one fun thing that everybody is just DYING to know about is why i moved here, cause i remember i said a little while back, that there was this whole big scary reason that i moved here that i moved here, and there IS but i know realize , and I talked to my parents about it and they agree. it's not the best idea safety wise to talk about it , yet because my mom still lives in the apartment that i used to live in and i go home and still visit there sometimes so talking about this situation while i still return to that same home, sometimes its not a good idea yeah like I don't wanna die .... actually i kinda do I can't tell the story yet, but once my mom moves, which i dont know when she's gonna move might be in a year, might be in six months might be in five years but you have my word, that i will tell you the story, its a little sketch and it will be really good clickbait i kinda got you guys excited about that for nothing, then my parents will be like "Emma, you can't tell the story yet cause it's not safe." and then I was like *high pitched "Oooh"* I think those were the two big elephants in the room Lets try to think about things that aren't disappointing Uhhh- Wow, can't really think of any hmm That's... upsetting Well, I mean, some good news would be that my apartment's coming along QuitE nicely Feeling REALLY good about that You know what? We're having fun with the process I'm getting really JAcked from having to move things everyday Furniture and big boxes so that's really good for me and also me looking like a boy more than before Which is upsetting because we are still single and we are still looking for love more desperately than EVER EVERRRR!!! what else is going on? wow, really running out of stuff ummm.. *tsk* really starting to get desperate here In other news, I haven't shaved my legs in a month I look like a Chinchilla and it's not good and, I'm not okay with it I can feel my leg hairs static-ing to my to sweat pants right now and I'm NOT okay with it, I'm not and I don't want it to be that way and I never wanted it to EVER be that way - I - this isn't what I wanted I'm not gonna hate on myself because I.. do my best and I.. am just living in the moment and doing me *booing and fart sound effects* ok I'm done folding my laundry I have nothing else to do with that ..so now we have to figure out another activity to do so that you guys don't get bored umm.. *fast paced action music* comment down below if you guys think this video is super f*cking boring I think we're gonna go to the grocery store and buy cheese-its do I need to do that? NO did I have pizza today? yeah, I did and I ate like four slices of it and I also had breadsticks and garlic bread and I'm feeling very thick But I really want Cheese-ITs you have to follow your gut and what is my gut saying? Its saying "Cheese-ITs. NOW." *slurping sound effect*
I love that for me *slurping sound effect*
mmm... That is hot...mmm This cream I probably should wash it off
Cause it kinda looks like cocaine People in LA are very judgemental When you are going in publlic, even at night, late at night You never know who you are going to see THATs worrysome I don't want to be judged.. for who I am
BUT in LA, you are judged for who you are whereas at home I can go around looking like a piece of ass lets rephrase I can walk around looking like ass no one really cares, but here, you get stared at It's like...
(sigh) I find myself trying to look good when I'm here because everyone else looks good Its like weird for me because I'm very used to not giving a fUcK But here I'm kind of like more like "oh shit maybe I will put on a little more concealer today on my under-eye bags" (voiceover) you know what that might not be a bad idea There's nothing wrong with putting a little effort in
