[music playing] - Hey.
- Hi. DRIVER: How are you? Good. - How was your day?
- Good, how are you? Good. So I'm a medium. PASSENGER: You're a medium?
- Yeah. PASSENGER: OK.
- Like a psychic. Oh, interesting. Not the, like, a medium
size, like, medium. [laughing] That's right. Shirt, pants, underwear. OK. So I feel like I have
somebody who's coming through that is like a friend. He's kind of got like a big
brother-type of feeling to him. Yeah. Is he the-- is J? How do you-- I just saw the letter J. Is-- Julio. That's his name. He, like, this is weird. We hung out all the time, and
he was like a big brother to me. Yeah. Because he was, like,
10 years older than me. DRIVER: Yeah. Because I don't
have a brother. Right. I came out to only a very
few people, and I trusted him. Is there something--
did your friend have some sort of issue with his blood? How do you know that? DRIVER: He's-- There's no way
you can know that. He's telling me that
he died very quickly? Yes, like in two weeks. He went from, like
100, and he's gone. But I'm connecting with him. I feel like the other thing
I'm getting, OK, interesting. I feel like there was a secret
he didn't want people to know. But he's shown me something
with like, blood counts. What? He died from AIDS. DRIVER: So he didn't actually
tell you that he had it. Not until he was--
not until he was dying. He was a nurse, and he
believed mind over matter. He was like, the
meds are poison, and he's like, if I believe I
don't have it, I don't have it. Just like-- I'm still
pissed that he did that. Like, why did he
decide not to take meds and tell himself that
he didn't have it-- DRIVER: Right.
- --when he did? I've dealt with that
for a long-ass time. It just, like, broke me
that someone so smart would be so-- make a
stupid decision like that. I always feel like
there's-- like-- DRIVER: Yeah. Like, could I have saved him? Right. [sighs] I feel that he wants to
remind you this is really how he wanted things to be. The wheels were already
moving by that time. So we just don't feel that
it would have done a lot. He's there when you need him,
and he is with you a lot. I hope so. [music playing] (SINGING) You say you think
about me all the time. When my friend
died, I felt horrible. I felt so much doubt
and guilt and I was pissed off that he didn't
tell me that he was sick. And he was a nurse, and
he knew how sick he was. (SINGING) What I'm
trying to tell you now is something you can't
ever seem to figure out. Going forward, I
don't regret anything. It feels good. It's just, it feels really good. (SINGING) As you see.
