Overcome Suicidal Thoughts and Depression. You are Loved. - I Am Living: Jake Luhrs

when I was a teenager I I reached out to two girls and alcohol and drugs and things like this because I wanted to feel something I wanted to feel loved I started playing music at the age of 17 and I was like that's what I want I'm gonna work to get this respect in my life and I started doing it and people came to me people loved my music I was using my energy for the raw I wasn't doing the right thing with it and I feel like now that I look back I think God was like man it's close its close to doing don't you need to do my band ended up breaking up and I was depressed and I left my mom's home at Columbia South Carolina I live with my buddy and I was a painter I'd wake up at 4:00 in the morning and I'd paint till 4:00 or 5:00 in the afternoon but I would come home and I would get depressed cuz I didn't have my band I'd started drinking and I started living this routine and I just saw myself getting away because I felt no love no respect I was painting a house and I walked outside for a cigarette I looked up to God I was like God I was like I don't have family I don't have love I don't have respect myself I don't have anything and I want to kill myself and take my life month before that I started thinking about committing suicide and I was like God if you're real Jesus jeez if you're if your son Jesus and I was just like that man I was taunting I was like because I didn't care cuz I know I saw I never saw any proof of any of this if your son Jesus is real and you're real you need to show me right now because right now I'm giving my heart to you and if you don't want it then nobody wants it because I don't want it I'm telling you right get in there I could not stop smiling you finally became a real man and and look to to your creators that Here I am taking heroin drugs alcohol sets the trail take this out of my life I don't want it I don't want think about it I don't want it to be a part of who I am today you just have to ask the Lord to cleanse you of these things you're not gonna be perfect you're going to fall again God knows but he loves you you will never be alone you are forgiven don't abuse grace but embrace it understand it and that's why I walk up here with you guys and I have no shame because God has taken that all away from being our friend and showing daily with new desires God's desires and God's love [Music]

Channel: Provoke & Inspire

Views: 118,437

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Keywords: Jake Luhrs, August Burns Red, Come&Live!, Testimony, Jesus, God, Holy Spirit, Christianity, Metal, ABR, Story, Come and Live, This Generation Loving Jesus, healing, The Ember Days

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Length: 3min 7sec (187 seconds)

Published: Wed Aug 18 2010