My Toxic Friend prt1

the title says it all I had a toxic best friend the story is pretty long so I will most likely be making it into a series of its own as a recap of the ending cut off for my last video I made a new friend named Rose in the fifth grade she was always outgoing popular and ambitious I admired her for knowing what she wanted and not letting other people get to her and if someone tried messing with her she would shut it down real quick in the beginning it was innocent like any other friendship and she would protect me from a lot of the bullies I had around this time we sat at the same table in class and we would play every day during recess and if we weren't hanging out in person after school she would call the house phone and we would talk the entire night this cycle repeated every day up to the start of middle school when it was finally time to start the new school year I was super excited because I had a new best friend and knew we had some of the same classes together middle school for me in general was a fever dream honestly I completely suppressed those 3 years and never remember it until I end up telling a story about something that happened everything with seemed to be so perfect in the beginning everything I thought I wanted in a friend and more however as the year went on the relationship started to become tainted I was still close to Valerie at the time but a little after the year of the sixth grade had started I noticed anytime I would approach her she would look at me and then turn away without any sort of acknowledgement to what I had to say I never knew why and it got to me for the longest time when I would ask Rose why Valerie could be so upset with me or if I had maybe done something to make her angry she would just brush it off and tell me she was probably being being a baby and that I should just forget about her anyway as the year passes I would make a few friends here and there but nothing that would end up being a long-term friendship and I was okay with that cuz at the end of the day I knew I would always have Rose however things started turning a bit Rocky as the year of the sixth grade ended and headed towards Summer Vacation she would call the house phone every day just like clockwork however my parents started to get upset at this when I wouldn't be home or available to call and Rose would call back a million times until someone picked up if I was ever unavailable to talk on the phone Rose would get super angry with me and tell me how she needed to talk to me and me not being there to answer was super selfish I would always end up apologizing and promise to answer next time she'd call even when I didn't really understand what I was apologizing for after summer vacation everything just kept getting more serious as the time passed it started off slow anytime I would talk to another person who wasn't Rose she would get furious with me and always remind me that I couldn't keep any other friends because no one actually liked her cared about me aside from her that I should be grateful that I have her otherwise I would be the lonely loser everyone knew at school I didn't understand why she would say these things to me if she cared about me so much but as I got older and began understanding what her way of a friendship meant I knew it was bad this treatment started off as a form of alienation alienation is a conveyance of property to another this term has many different definitions and I am in no way an expert on this subject but I found this definition best fit the experiences I had with Rose at at the time I began growing a large dependence on Rose and clinged to her more and more as the year went on the actual abuse didn't happen until the first few months going into the seventh grade I remember it was during lunch I had a regular table that I would sit at with rose every day but this day in particular I had run into an old friend of mine from elementary school that I hadn't seen in forever and he invited me to sit with him and his friends at lunch that day I took the offer and had a great time with him catching up and also making friends with his friends it felt good to have a change of environment for once when the bell rang for lunch to be over I went outside with the crowd of people and said bye to my friend before going to find Rose I ended up finding her in the back of the crowd of students but she wasn't happy in the slightest I remember asking her what was wrong but she just glared at me with her arms crossed out of nowhere she hit me in the stomach and told me that I shouldn't hang out with those guys anymore especially if it's when I was meant to sit with her at lunch and that I wasted her time because she was waiting for me to sit with her I remember just holding myself and looking up at her in a Fe F manner she never laid hands on me before and I thought it would have been fine since it was only a onetime thing I told her that it wouldn't happen again and she just walked past me and left me there in pain in a small State of Shock this was just the start of everything crumbling in our friendship it was New Year's Eve she was staying over at my house and we were upstairs in my room I had my dad's tablet so we could play games and watch YouTube videos like we always did she asked me if I wanted to see something crazy and of course I said yes not knowing what I would be getting myself into Rose hid the tablet from me as she typed in whatever it was she wanted me to see and I just sat there giggling thinking it was going to be something super funny she turns back to me and it was a website I had never seen before with videos of girls and women being in bed together I looked at Rose super confused and she began clicking on one of the videos I never knew that girls could like girls in any sort of way like this but as the video went on I noticed Rose was watching it and smiling and I was extremely confused and started feeling a bit uncomfortable she would tell me to watch at certain times and I would try to act like I was watching but I would stare at the corner of the tablet but I could still see the things that were happening in the corner of my eye I thought the weirdness would end at the video and then my little sister came into the room Rose told us she wanted to build a blanket for it so we could immerse ourselves in the bedroom and no one could see us let's be ninjas she'd call it so we grabbed all the blankets we could for my room and would tie the sides down from my bed to the top of the closet until we were finished and had a small blanket for at the foot of of my bed Rose told us to each grab a doll we really liked and go into different corners of the room I had a life-size Spider-Man doll at the time so I grabbed him and sat under my desk in the corner of my room while the other two grabbed a doll of their own Rose was the only one allowed in the blanket fort she told me and my sister to sit on top of the dolls and to start moving on it until it felt good to us and then just go with it after me and my sister looked at each other confused not really knowing what Rose meant and then we heard noises coming from behind the blanket and then I understood what she was doing I remember feeling sick and extremely uncomfortable I whispered to my sister to just pretend it makes similar sounds that Rose was making so we sat there in our corners and mimic the noises and I remember wanting to cry the entire time I was uncomfortable embarrassed and just confused as to how we even got to be in this position anyway it was New Year's Eve I thought we were just going to watch movies until the countdown and then drink appleid at midnight like adults did with champagne I learned later on what happened that night and looking back on it now I can't believe that a kid had known what that kind of action was at the time when we got back to school after the New Year everything just kept getting worse I remember this one day in particular there was a new girl to our school and she had asked me where certain classes she had were and which direction she could go in to get to them I reluctantly helped her out and she seemed super nice and funny and then Rose got to school and she saw me talking to someone who wasn't her I remember seeing the girl's face change from friendly to confused and when I turned around to see what she was looking at I got a big stinging pain in my cheek as Rose's fist met with my face and I fell to the floor the girl didn't say anything and she just walked away like she didn't see anything I didn't try to make any other friends the rest of the year before spring break the school had put together an assembly they called the be kind assembly it was supposed to spread awareness to the school to be kind to one another and to stop bullying how ironic for my current situation am I right during the assembly we would all sit in the bleachers and watch videos on people doing small acts of kindness and after the assembly was over there would be a raffle where they would select one lucky student who would win a bunch of merchandise from the Dodgers baseball team this prize included a bunch of things ranging from a backpack a nice new hat water bottle and four tickets to an upcoming game too Rose wanted to win that prize so badly she would buy five raffle tickets during lunch every day that week and write her name on it I have to win those prizes for my dad he would be so excited plus me putting my name in so many times makes for a gutin win during the assembly we watched all the videos as usual but Rose was about to jump out of her seat from excitement for when they drew the name for the raffle when it came time the school counselor reached into the raffle ball and Drew out a name I watched Rose's expression change from excited to annoyed and Furious within a split second as the counselor read another girl's name from the raffle everyone flooded out of the gym when the assembly had in it and Rose complained to me the whole time about how it's so stupid that this other girl who we will call Heather won the prizes and she didn't now the key thing to keep in mind here was Heather never came to claim her prize at the assembly she wasn't at school that day I suppose so when we got outside the gym Rose turned to me with a smug expression on her face and told me she had a great idea let's just pretend that you're Heather you could just walk up to the counselor and tell her your name and get all the prizes for me there's no way that'll work won't she recognize me I doubt she would you just have to walk in there with confidence act like you are Heather and just tell her you have a fear of crowds and was nervous to claim the prizes in front of everyone or something I don't know that sounds like a bad idea it was worth a shot I guess I just wanted to win those prizes for my dad since he won't be around much longer look I didn't want to worry you earlier by telling you this but my dad got diagnosed with cancer and I just wanted to get him those prizes so he knew how much I loved him and he had something cool to have before he well it doesn't really matter anyways hi um I'm Heather I came to claim my prizes we later ended up getting caught when the real Heather showed up after school I just remember getting in the car with my mom and seeing her answer a phone call with the caller ID being from the school and she just looked at me and turned the car around without a word I knew I was a dead man Rose and I ended up getting detention for a week after this incident and everything seemed to be a bit better afterwards and then spring break rolled around and I didn't know it at the time but my life was about to change forever and I'll get into that in the next video sorry for the abrupt ending but I didn't want this video to be super long with this story so I decided to make it into a two-part series I hope you guys are all doing well and without making the end card too long and sappy I hope you all know how loved you are and with any struggles you may be facing I am here for you through them as much as I can feel free to reach out through my Instagram when you need a friend and I will do my best to get back to you with as much support as I can give I love you all and I will see you in the next part of this video

Channel: Peanut Button

Views: 1,839

Keywords: #mytoxicfriend, #storytime, #bulliesgrowingup, #animation

Id: mgPXV5ryJEU

Length: 10min 45sec (645 seconds)

Published: Fri Jun 28 2024