"My Therapist Had Me Make a List" | Creepypasta

my therapist had me make a list it was meant to serve as both an outlet for perseverate 'iv unhelpful thoughts and a way to acknowledge events from the past that up until recently I've been working hard to keep buried I was to bring this list to my next appointment where we would discuss its contents and explore how it could be used to eliminate this tendency to keep replaying past events in my mind she said it would give me permission to take a break from thinking about those things knowing that my experiences were safely preserved on the list should I ever need confirmation that what happened was real and my feelings are valid it seemed like a logical strategy and I would not be surprised if she observed positive outcomes when using it with her other clients hell there might even be a handful of peer-reviewed journal articles that posited a statistically significant negative correlation between creating a list of ones persistent negative thoughts and the frequency in which they occur as a professional in the health field it is essential to be knowledgeable of empirically supported interventions strategies but that alone is not enough a competent clinician recognizes the importance of individualizing treatment this is because a strategy that yields positive outcomes for one person can negatively impact another when my therapist gave me that arbitrarily chosen homework assignment after speaking with me for less than an hour I think she must have underestimated the extent of my anger and overestimated my level of empathy the list though turned out to be a brilliant idea for entirely different reasons fun fact I have a profound appreciation for lists there's just something about order and organization in general that puts me at ease so even though I had no intention of attending a follow-up appointment with that therapist I got started on the list right away I remember every incident that happened during that traumatic 3 year period of my life in vivid detail so making the list was easy the difficulty came after was complete when it was time to analyze what I had written down the first time I read it the paper grew damp with tears of humiliation that drip dropped from my face the second time tears of frustration rained down upon the page in big fat splotches when I read through the list for the third time my tears slowed and things started to come into focus the subtle escalation of violence my ever-increasing threshold or accepting intolerable behavior it was also obvious I had let that turn me into a cliche with that realization my eyes were wide open seeing things clearly for the first time and they were bone dry so my list I've read it and reread it so many times that the bride white pieces of college-ruled paper is now tattered and discolored wearing thin along the permanent crease lines that have developed from the repetitive folding in unfolding the writing is faded and smudged in some places making parts of it illegible but that is okay I've had the whole thing memorized for a while now now in dis comical how narcissism can make a person believe they are untouchable an inflated sense of self was Jack's signature reflected in every area of his life including his privacy settings on Facebook which made it all too easy to track him down that never could resist a good humble brag and in a single status update he gave me everything I needed to know the last year of sacrifice in perseverance it was all worth it when I was unexpectedly made partner at prestigious law firm today happened just in time for the big move two most sought-after neighborhood in Portland two this was immediately followed by an exterior photo of his new house complete with the hashtag blessed gag me a zoomed in hoping to catch a glimpse of the house number and any reservations I might have had about what needed to be done disappeared I guess standing on that beautiful wraparound porch was a pretty blonde who's Brad smile told me she had no idea when she had gotten herself into he tagged her in the photo so it only took a second to access her profile our similarities were too blatant to be a coincidence blonde hair athletic build at least 3 inches taller than him I'll educated working in a helping profession seems that Jack has a type that is okay I have a list I keep it with me at all times it grounds me when I start to lose focus reminding me of the horrific things he did to me it can also be very calming in terms of high stress like right now for example when I'm sitting in the dark Arctic Ross the street from Jack's house the house has been quiet for hours and when I see Jack pull into the driveway I'm relieved that he is alone because I have a tranquilizer gun with enough acepromazine to knock out a horse a bag of various tools and a list of things to do and I plan to take my time you [Music] you

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Length: 6min 50sec (410 seconds)

Published: Thu Sep 21 2017