My Glow Up Journey As an Ugly Friend...

growing up being that ugly [Music] friend I've always had this terrible tease when I was little I had my bracelet I had it for 2 years but it didn't really help if I laugh really bad I would got this kind of picture like yeah I'll just be showing my gum I had all these names like Big T girls um I mean they're on in Chinese I don't even know how to translate that in English even my girl friend would make fun of me with the boys this chubby face hated it I once had this kind of hairstyle where I used glue like seriously glue to glue this two part of my hair and be like this just to make that my face looks smaller my teacher in my middle school once call me in class that I have such a thick skin on my face like in Chinese it's like holy and PE it means that you have no shame all because I was joking with my friend before the teacher comes into the classroom so we were laughing and then after that all the boys in the class start to call me that no one ever call me pretty growing up as a girl I never got the compliment of oh she's such a pretty girl no so this thing about having makeup I think it it's really it acts as a weapon to protect myself from it my skin was really dark and in Asia Beauty standard the brighter your skin is the prettier you are which is totally untrue I was like this for my whole middle school year I kind of gave up to be like a girly girl even though I kind of like it I cut my hair hair short just so that others won't compare me much with the other girls and then I got into cosplay I did a lot of Cosplay I started my first cosplay at the age of 12 that's how I met makeup I got to learn a lot of makeup technique cuz in Cosplay you kind of it's not good for you just being you you know you got to be the character and each character looks different got to learn actually tons of makeup skill in my years of Cosplay so when did I become the pretty one is after I graduated my high school because look here's the thing I know how to do makeup I know how to do cosplay makeup but I never actually tried those like daily makeup it wasn't like a normal thing for Chinese high school girls to know how to do makeup at my time I don't know maybe like now now it's different this one time happened like 4 years ago my friend really good friend of mine she was like sitting next to me and we were like chatting with a bunch of other friends and suddenly she just say this out of nowhere she she was like oh my gosh you're so pretty it was the moment that I realized I'm not the ugly friend anymore me before if I show any interest to anyone it would become a joke to them in my middle school there was once a girl being really good friend with my crush at the time I am really bad at hiding my intention emotion I'm really bad at hiding something so if I like someone they will know let's call him James then the girl come up to me one day you know that James is kind of like you too and I was like are you serious I just showed that a little bit of like I don't know I I didn't quite believe it cuz I'm I was still the ugly friend at the time so I know that I showed a little bit of happy when she told me that and she's like yeah I can actually help you to talk to him exactly like the classic s girl I was like so happy I went home and waited for her message my crush James text me with a screenshot of that girl's chat window with him the girl says like do you know that eing is actually having a crush on you and he was like no way then she's like yeah I kind of tease her a little bit today and she was so happy it was so gross you should at least let her know it's not possible it was humiliating but I'm really thankful for the guy to actually sent me the screenshot otherwise I wouldn't know until today that it was actually a joke to make me look bad something that I am still practicing to this day is to accept to accept the fact that it happened only accept the fact that it happened not meaning that you should not try to change it after we done all of this the most important part the most the most I could not stress enough it's the eyelashes check out my lashes it's a [Applause] book piece [Music] of P this is incredible rible I'm in love what I want to share here is that even though we live in a world that we don't have much control over what the beauty standard is what other things do and say one thing you and I can control is the way we dealing with it I just happen to choose the way which emphasize my good part on my face and embrace the nonperfect as a personal style and doing makeup makes me happy one just had so many options when you thought you had none right

Channel: Talk with Yixin

Views: 192,642

Keywords: glowup, latebloomer, girlstalk, insecurities, makeup, transformation

Id: fLncMt6s0H4

Length: 6min 30sec (390 seconds)

Published: Sat Jan 27 2024