March's weekly vlog 2023 [CC]

happy Monday everyone and welcome to March it  is time for my weekly week in the month vlog   does that even make sense I'm not sure but  anyway welcome back to my video (giggles) hello my   beautiful butterflies welcome back to my channel  if you're new here my name is Beverley and it is   lovely to see you today in this video I'm going  to be spending a week with you on the run-up to my   birthday and I'm so excited so I hope you're all  doing well grab that cup of tea let's get to it (gentle folk music plays) so as always my mornings start virtually the same  let me turn you around and show I have neighbors   on because neighbors has come on freevy if you  didn't know which is like an app by Amazon which   is completely free to watch and neighbors is on  from 2012 you can watch all the old episodes and   I love neighbors and I've got a blanket around me  I've got a little doggy man on my lap and another   doggy man over there and we're just gonna  spend some time chilling and relaxing let   let me know guys how you're enjoying these week  Vlogs if they are something that you are enjoying   if you'd like to see more of them let me know  maybe I can Vlog the whole month and then just   you know show what my month's been like I don't  know I'm I'm all over the place with this let   me know what you're thinking how you're enjoying  them but I just want to give a big thank you to my   patreons for your support and it just oh it just  means the world to me so thank you so much guys   thank you and if you're interested in supporting  me here on the channel and on my blog don't forget   to check out the description so that you can help  me out as well it's just £2 a month so go   and check out my Kofi and my patreon don't forget  to leave this video a like and a comment and don't   forget to subscribe if you're new here but um  let's have a chilled and relaxed morning shall   we I've been sat here for a couple of hours just  watching neighbors and feeling really not well and   I think it's something that I don't talk about  enough on my Channel about chronic illness and   how it affects your life like I'm sure a lot  of people who work and who don't have chronic   illnesses would be thinking must be great to spend  the morning on the sofa with your dog on your lap   watching TV they don't realize just how painful how  sick you feel how your head hurts and your jaw   aches and this tiredness that I can only the only  thing that I've ever felt before I was sick that   was similar to this was when I used to do night  shifts because I used to be a nurse before I got   ill and I did um I used to do night shifts but I  used to live in like nurses quarters which was at   the back of the hospital and I remember one time I  did a night shift and it was my first night shift   so I didn't sleep very well in the day before  and then I did night shift and then the next   day they had like a hospital function on the grass  right in front of the nurses home and so I didn't   have any sleep all day and then I had another  night shift and that night shift is how I feel   when I have fatigue on days this bad just this  like absolute brain numbing tiredness that just   makes you feel like you just want to curl up and  sleep for a year but you know if you have a nap   it's not going to make any difference because  that's not how fatigue works it's just very   sad it's sad you know think about who I was  before I got sick and how I used to I used to   walk everywhere I lived in Birmingham which  is quite a big city and I used to instead of   taking the bus anywhere I used to just walk  I loved walking for miles and miles and miles   and I was you know before I went to University I  wasn't very independent like I was very shy and   quiet and struggled a lot with leaving the house  on my own and by the time I was living on my own   I like loved going out shopping around the shops  going looking around on my own and going and doing   things by myself just felt so empowering and so  amazing and chronic illness hass once again taken   that away from me because now I don't leave the  house unless I have somebody with me because of   anxiety issues but also because I can't walk very  far and I just never know how I'm gonna feel so   if I go out I like to be with someone whether it  be a close friend or usually my husband it just   made me feel really sad today I've I feel very  emotional emotionally tired and I think that's   something that comes when you feel really really  really tired is you just feel so emotionally raw   like anything could make me cry that kind of tired  you know I'm just sat watching neighbors and I'm   so lucky because I've got my best friend my dog  is sat on my lap this is Gizmo you've probably   seen him before that's Dexter over there who  doesn't like cameras so he'll you'll rarely   see him and yeah I am lucky that I'm not forced to  work by that I mean there are so many people with   chronic illnesses who have to work um because they  don't get benefits even though they should be able   to get benefits because benefits are incredibly  hard to get or benefits just aren't going to look   after them they're just not going to get enough  to be able to live people who think we're just   sat around all day enjoying just sitting around  watching telly have no idea how hard it is to get   benefits and there are many many videos about  disability benefits and how hard they are to   get but people prefer to stay not know reality of  how hard it is and how much our governments don't   want to help us so yeah I'm rambling now but I  just wanted to talk about how I'm feeling today   and how just because I'm I say I'm not feeling  well can sometimes times seem a bit difficult to   understand because people don't get to experience  what I experience very often but imagine having   the flu every day like really like real flu not  a cold but the flu and still being made to feel   like you've got to function and still wanting  to live your life imagine that just for a moment   and just try and have some empathy but anyway  I'm rambling so I think I'm gonna sit here and   watch a bit more neighbors my mom wants a cup of  coffee so I'm gonna try and make one of those in   a little bit for her and then I'm gonna attempt to  have a wash and get dressed because sitting around   in my pajamas all day just always makes me feel  really down I like to put together a cute outfit   makes me feel cute and human so I'll probably  show you what I'm wearing today but if I didn't   always check out my Instagram because I generally  will share what I'm wearing over there but yeah I   hope you're having a better day than I am  Mondays are hard though just be kind to yourself   so I'm dressed now I'll show you what my outfit  looks like if if I remember if I don't remember   look on my Instagram is all I can say I always  share my outfits but um I just wanted to show you   quickly like my setup for how I do my photographs  so we're here in my let me turn you around in our   garage conversion I do have a whole video of  our garage conversion this is my background   for my pictures Forbidden Planet picture and my  teddy bear collection I had a lot more than that   um and all our books and stuff I do have  a bookshelf tour up but this is like my   background of my pictures and then when we turn  around this is my setup so I have this like light   that I bought for my YouTube channel but it it  just lights me up really nicely and then here   is my stand for my phone and it just stands on  this poof (laughs) yeah um so this is a bit You Don't See and this is the bit you do and I just think it's  important to be very honest and open about the   truth of things like I bought the light a while  back I think it was in the sale on Amazon if I   remember rightly this is where I usually film my  videos can you see my sofa where I film a lot of   my YouTube videos or I sometimes film them at this  desk here so this is like me and my husband wanted   to have a space that was ours so when we converted  the the this room it was gonna be originally like   a tiny home situation but then we decided not  to do that because we couldn't get a bathroom   in here and it was just easier to swap rooms  with my mom that was her suggestion not mine   but yeah I'm just gonna take a picture of my  outfit of the day it's like this really simple   easy dress that I've just got hot chocolate  all over because we've just had our shopping   and I always mean to do a haul you know like  a shopping haul I'll try and remember next   week I'm very foggy today anyway I've just got  this like really nice wrap on and a hair band   you know pretending that we are well dressed for  the day so I'm gonna do my little video that I do   for tiktok and I put up as shorts on here  so you will have seen what I'm wearing to be   fair and then I'm going to take my photographs  for the day and then I'm just gonna sit in the   living room with the dog on me and a blanket and  do some writing I do a lot of role playing which   is writing with others as characters from like  TV and film or characters people have made up   it's called role player me where I role play and  I role play as characters from like Harry Potter   Supernatural and Marvel mostly and it's just like  fan fiction but with other people and I really   enjoy that so I might do that this afternoon a  bit of writing bit of you know meddling about   with things yeah I'm just having an okay afternoon  but I'm very aware of the fact that I am flaring   like look how pale I look I look like the Dead  the living dead that's all right its   okay it's not the end of the world so I'm going to  take my outfit of the day stuff and stop waffling   else this complete video is going to be about  nine years long but that's okay let's do this (sound of the hob, the spoon against the pan and the food bubbling) I am so full now that meal was so yummy  and really filling and really cheap to   make actually so I'll leave a link to that  recipe down below because I think a lot of   us who are disabled are on budgets and things  and most of it you can like buy frozen so I'm   a big fan of that and right now I have to get  my newest video out so that'll be out by now   so I'll put a link to that down there as well  this video is me basically talking about what   it's been like working with the deities that I  work with so it's been really really fun to just   talk about that really interesting to like look  back at where I've come from and where I'm going   my plans and stuff I'm so full though uh and  I'm really tired so plan is get the video out   go downstairs take my nighttime tablets with a  hot chocolate and come to bed so uh wish me luck (neighbours theme tune) happy Tuesday my butterflies my  goodness we had an awful night's sleep   um My Little chap here wasn't very well in the  night and so we didn't sleep very well so I'm   just chilling in bed for a little bit and then I  think I'm gonna have a quick shower and then we're   going into town for a little bit we're gonna go  thrifting and to a supermarket just get some bits   and Bobs as you do so yeah I'm gonna bring you  along with us but first of all self-care is always   got to be your number one priority so I'm just  sat here in bed comfy warm and watching neighbors   I'm gonna watch a couple of episodes before I  get up because I hadn't slept very well and I   think it's really important to Prior prioritize  your energy levels and so my energy levels have   not been great recently so I'm just gonna chillax  and rest and recuperate and then I'm gonna do fun   things that's what today is all about doing fun  things oh I am tired this morning though so wish   me luck and spoons so I've just just got back from  thrifting I didn't record anything while I was out   because I was just in my wheelchair and it was  just a hard work getting around the shops but I   really enjoyed just getting out of the house for  a little bit it was so nice to just get out and   and just have a nice time and we come back and I  have my medication and we bought some sandwiches   from Morrisons we just sat and had a chitty chat  I got some nice things so watch out for my Thrift   hauls I always share what I've um bought in the  thrift haul if that's out before this comes out   I'll link to it down below but yeah now I'm just  gonna chill out with my little doggy man who's   starting to feel better now (doggy kisses) I'm just gonna chill  watch some Telly not gonna do a lot today it's   all about resting now because I'm tired but I had  a nice time so uh yeah I meant to record while I was   out I just forgot I'm sorry guys I'm gonna  get better at this Vlogging Malarkey I will   I will I'm determined also let me know down in  the comment if you're okay with me just vlogging   a week in my life or if you'd like my whole month  because I could monthly Vlog let me know what you   think let me know your thoughts and feelings  on that but right now I'm gonna have a little   chillax good morning and happy Wednesday it  is about I don't even know what the time is   it's probably about half eight quarter to nine  something like that this is the usual time I get   up but to be honest I did not want to get up I've  been having really really like what's the word mom: Vivid thank you vivid dreams recently I had  really strange one that was on a train with uh   my husband and my mom and we were going to Norway  on the train how weird is that and there was like   a little teeny weeny models of everywhere we  were going in different areas would light up   for where we were it was really weird see I have  weird dreams that's why I don't personally follow   the whole dreams have meaning thing because  my dreams are weird weird so this morning a   couple of things are happening Dexter who's right  here he's very Shaggy at the moment haircut this   morning and then also this morning our cleaners  coming she keeps on top of the kitchen and the   bathrooms which is a big help for me because  keeping up with housework when you've got M.E. is   really really difficult so just having someone  keep on top of those high traffic easily messy   rooms is a big big help my mom's been having her  come for a long long time so we just carried that   on and it's been brilliant just about to have  my cereal and chill out for a little bit might   watch some neighbors might be addicted can't help  myself freevee have just put all like old episodes up   on there because they've bought the new series  and I'm so so so excited I've literally watched   neighbors since it first began and I love it  it's one of my favorite shows I love it so I'm   gonna settle down for a bit with Mr wismo here  as as always on my lap I can't get him in frame   there we go Mr wismo and we're just gonna sit  and watch some neighbors for a bit and have a   chill yeah today is going to be a good day I'm  gonna get my blog post out so yeah that's my   day in a nut shell let's do this so the cleaners  here the dogs are settled sat here with my mom   my husband's upstairs editing his video and I  I'm just pre-writing out my blog post for later   today every Wednesday I have a blog post out on  on my blog I took mainly like tips and tricks   and things that work for me also Health updates  and disability and that sort of thing are mainly   on my blog these days the link is down in the  description always but it's really important to me   to try and share what is going on with me and to  do that for me is in my blog and I find writing it   while I'm just sat chilling with the dog is such  a big help so if you're a Blog writer don't feel   like you've got to be sat in front of a laptop  or anything like that you can get a Microsoft   Word and all these sorts of things on your iPads  and tablets so (yawn) oh dear oh excuse me and phones and   then I've got the Microsoft cloud that is shared  with my computer so I can literally write it on my   tablet and then access it on my computer and then  it's just a copy and paste job later saves me a   lot of time and a lot of energy points energy  points spoons I suppose you would say I'm very   froggy today can you tell but yeah just kind of chilling  pre-writing my blog post the doggie is snoozing   on me and yeah we're just having a nice morning  relaxed morning I need to have a shower today but   I'm quite low on spoon so I won't have a little  snooze on the sofa before that yeah that might   have to happen this morning but yeah today's blog  post I'm just talking about how organization has   helped me to manage my chronic illnesses better  so if that's the sort of thing you're interested   in check out my blog making sure I'm staying  hydrated and um yeah just having a nice morning (sound of Northern Mudlarks in background on TV) so after basically falling  asleep on the sofa I had a shower I do feel more   human now I must be honest I do feel more human  shower does help me although it is exhausting   my mum helped me blow dry my hair but I think I'm  gonna get like a hair dry stand I know chronically   Jenni I'll link to her down below but she uh uses  a hair dryer stand and it works really well for   her so I might give that a go right now I'm just  getting my blog post up I'm just gonna mess about   on my computer I'm listening to this 80s mix on  Spotify and get to check my emails and all that   kind of thing it's all just kind of sitting and  chilling really so yeah it's it's all right I'm   doing okay I'm looking forward to bed though that  is for definite yeah it's gonna be an early night   tonight I think uh happy Thursday everyone I hope  you're all having an absolutely wonderful week   so far my morning has been a bit mental my mom's not  been very well this morning so I've been looking   after her and yeah she's okay now though but she  sometimes has mornings where she feels a bit sick   and a bit dizzy and try and keep her in bed but  she's always like she's still in that Society   way of thinking why she's got to get up and be  productive and get things done even though all   she does is sit on the sofa and play puzzles  on her iPad which she could do in bed and rest   but I love my mum so I put up with  her mentalness don't we all anyway   I'm having a pretty good morning other than that  got up I'm worried a bit about my birthday weekend   though I'd arrange for like some of my best  friends to come out we were going to go for   afternoon tea at a local stately home and then on  the Sunday we're gonna go out for Sunday lunch but   the snow's getting heavy let me show you look at  it and my best best friend is having to come from   London so I really don't think it's gonna happen  so I'm thinking maybe of doing like a zoom Chat   thing instead maybe oh it just all feels a bit  meh you know when things don't come together but   then March we usually get snow I always try and  celebrate my birthday and it never quite works out   so I'm thinking I should just maybe stop trying  and just celebrate my birthday in April have like   a twofer kind of thing like the queen used to  have two birthdays I could have two birthdays   I mean if it's good enough for her why not for  me but right now I'm gonna have some god time   in my witchcraft room I need to do some bits and  Bobs in there and then I need to record my Thrift   haul for the month of February which should be up  by the time you see this so I will link to that   down below I feel like I'm saying that a lot and  not really showing you what's going on in my life   I apologize (sings) I'm not very good at vlogging but I'm  hoping that you're enjoying this video anyway let   me know down below give me some encouragement say  some nice things to me right now I'm gonna pick   out some jewelry to wear for the day and I always  like to pick intuitively and wear things that are   going to help me through my day and then I'm gonna  have some time in my witchcraft room happy    F-F-Friday everyone I hope you're all doing well um I  am exhausted yesterday I did so much I was running   around looking after my mum which is part of being  a carer and that's great I don't mind it at all   she was really ill yesterday so I just kind of  spent the day looking after her I also got video   recorded and edited I don't know how I did it all  but now I'm kind of regretful because I really am   tired mum's um asleep in the other room I can hear  her so I might just chill in bed for a little bit   tired but I'm sorry I didn't record much yesterday  but basically I was just looking after my mom and   my mom doesn't want to be on video which I totally  am okay fine with so um I just didn't want to   record as much and now I'm tired running  up and down stairs is definitely not fun when   you have chronic fatigue M.E. really messes you  about and notice this hand's quite shaky today   so I'm just gonna take it really easy today and  chill out I haven't got much to do today so yeah   I'm just gonna be very restful today I think and  hopefully my mom's feeling better I hope so because   I don't like it when she's not very well but yeah  we're just gonna chill out in bed for a little bit   I think until mum's ready to get up and um just  see how the day takes us really hello everyone  (giggles) it's Friday it's Friday afternoon I've just kind  of had some crackers and Philadelphia with some   coleslaw on it was really yummy and then for like  a pudding I had apple slices with peanut butter   very yummy very healthy so I'm gonna have just a  really relaxed afternoon I think I'm wearing like   this 1980s dress that I thrifted from eBay a few  months ago and I've just put a jumper underneath   just want to be comfy these dresses are so comfy  I always get them like a size too big and they're   just really really comfy so yeah I'm just doing  lots of self-care today which is really really   important of course I am just a bit hacked off  I think I'm gonna start having two birthdays so   let me know down below when you think my second  birthday should be that could be my unbirthday I   might have to pick a secondary date in the Summer  where I can always plan something to do with my   friends because it always goes wrong this time  of year March is really hard because it's either   really warm and spring-like or it's freezing cold  and blizzards and snowing and everything yeah I'm   not happy anyway I'm gonna go and chill out with  the dogs watch some mud larking with my mom and   just kind of have a restful day and then I might  see if I can have a bath tonight that might help   me feel a bit cheeried I might cheer me up a  bit but yeah it's just kind of a self-care day   today I'm very shaky as well I keep finding my  heads shaking away like a little bobble head   and I hate days like this where I'm shaky  and this hand's been very shaky and cold   and I find when it's cold my fingers lose all  color and go very very numb I don't know have I   caught a new disease I hope not but yeah I'm not  happy about this I'm gonna put some gloves on and   just sit and chill in a blanket with a dog well  it's Friday evening I've got my bunny ears on I'm   ready to do some self-care I'm going to have um  a nice wash with an exfoliating face wash and I'm   gonna do all my skincare and everything got some  more water over here that I'm gonna finish it's   been a difficult week this week I'll be honest  my mom hasn't been well and I've kind of done a   lot looking after her I'm really exhausted my eyes  are so small oh I'm really really tired so I think   I'm just gonna do a little bit of self-care and  then get into bed early what do you think Gizmo so I really hope that you enjoyed this weekly  Vlog if you did and you would like to see more   (Gizmo shakes loudly) do you mind sir do you mind if you did and um if  you did don't forget to let me know by leaving   it a cheeky little like down below so I know that  you enjoyed it and YouTube will as well also while   you're down there drop me a comment let me know if  you're enjoying these week Vlogs if you'd like me   to do a monthly Vlog let me know because those  things can definitely happen uh I just I don't   know at the minute I mean it would be quite nice  to do a monthly Vlog but then again it's a lot of   work so plus my weeks are very samey let me know  anyway let me know what you'd like to see in the   future here on the channel if you enjoy my new  content if you if there's anything you're missing   and you want back just let me know all the things  down below I'm waffling because I'm tired anyway   (laughs) last and certainly not least if you  like my content and you like my dog   (laughs) don't forget to head down below hit that subscribe  button ring that little bell so you always know   when I upload I'm usually here Mondays and  Fridays my health permitting I always do my   very best to be here with you every week twice  a week don't forget to check out my husband's   Channel as well I will leave a link to that down  below and I'll see you in the next video bye (gentle folk music plays)

Channel: Beverley Butterfly

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Keywords: March's weekly vlog 2023, weekly vlog, weekly vlog 2023, a week in my life, a week in my life vlog, a week in my life with chronic illness, life with ME, myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome, living with myalgic encephalomyelitis, chronic fatigue syndrome, chronic fatigue, life as a disabled carer, life as a disabled person, disabled creator, beverley butterfly, subtitles, english subtitles, closed captions

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Length: 28min 25sec (1705 seconds)

Published: Fri Mar 17 2023