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finally that was the last page we've been at it for three hours now yeah i think we covered everything i can't be bothered to check i'm so done with this thanks for the help i can't stand physics it's so boring i'm glad you wanted to help me you're a life saver true i saved you from the history paper last week helping me out with physics is a nice way to pay me back we're a good match i'm really thankful you wanted to start studying together these past months have helped me a lot and i imagine you've appreciated it too what do you mean yeah i heard you but i don't know if that's a compliment or an insult that i'm smarter than you first thought did you think i was a dumb airhead i know i have a reputation but it's not like i wanted to have it i thought you would have realized that i'm not an idiot at this point just because i'm hanging out with the jocks and the girls doesn't make me one of them do you really believe that that i only came to you because you thought i'd be an easy help i know we hadn't talked much when i first asked you but i thought you at least saw me as a more considerate person than that i would have never asked someone to simply do my homework for me you know it really makes me sad to hear you say that you thought i was only just using you i know what people think of me even from the start i thought you saw through that that's why i asked you in the first place i thought you were different i'm gonna tell you something i don't tell other people i know i'm popular i know people think i look good i get reminded by their creepy eyes and sleazy comments every day i've seen their comments online i've heard their pickup lines and i've received more unwanted pics than i can count i've heard what they want to do to me and how my face on the floor moaning their names and begging for more they call me a dumb ass idiot and i've heard white trash and more than once i laugh it off at school because that's what's expected of me but i've cried myself to sleep more times than i care to admit i've never told anyone this but i never wanted this i never wanted to be the girl everyone sees me as a a pretty face and least of all an i don't think i'm an i've tried to convince myself that i'm not but after a while it's hard to believe you're a decent person when everyone around you is saying you're not and about being a it's so not true every time i hear someone say that about me i feel more and more gross about myself the worst part is they put that on facebook my parents have seen it they don't tell me about it but i see it in their eyes every time something new pops up about me but the truth is i've only been with one person in my life it was with one of the jocks we did it to get attention no other reason i didn't even particularly like him of course we both knew what we were doing but i didn't even think about why people talked about it being the best feeling in the world it wasn't it hurt and i regretted it immediately but we were cool we got into these characters acting special and bragged about all we did 99 of which never even happened but we faked it until we made it and it worked we made it but that's the thing about faking it when you have faked it long enough you can't go back to who you were before eventually the character stuck with me i got popular people told me i was the hottest girl in school and i won't lie i liked the attention i was cool and popular everyone wanted to be my friend but before i knew it i was an object they didn't want to be friends with me only the idea of me the attention i got was not for who i was but for what they imagined me to be a prize a status symbol i tried so hard to change the way they thought about me but it was too late it's true what they say you know first impressions are important and i mine up if i could go back in time and change anything in my life that would be it i would make sure i didn't create a character i've made plenty of mistakes in my life but the only mistake that matters started there and now in our final year i meet you when you moved here i thought i had a real chance to change you were nice sweet even you asked me how i was about my hobbies and we could talk about life for my entire time in high school you were the first person i would actually consider a real friend i've been able to act like myself with you and not just the character i made up i thought you saw me for who i am i thought honestly that you understood me are you really telling me i've been wrong if you thought i was only going to use you when i first asked if we could study together why did you say yes because i was popular did you only help me to get into favor because you would get attention if you spent time with me yes i want you to be honest a simple yes or no so you did well i guess you are just like everyone else after all no i don't want to hear you say anything more i can't believe i was falling for you all this time i thought we had something i was wrong i get it it's not your fault i up and i will probably be branded for my mistake for the rest of my life i've only got myself to blame so thank you for acting like you cared it was nice to know you were there you actually made me feel like a person i've actually been happy the past few months with you shame i had to wake up i'm leaving i need to get out of here what why should i stay fine i'll let you tell me your side but make it quick i'm not keen on staying too long oh please you're telling me to not judge you that's rich it's true we didn't know each other well at that point but you yeah but i i guess that's true considering the entire school had already decided who i was you didn't have much else to go on i'm still not okay i'll keep listening [Music] i guess you really did give me the benefit of a doubt that's more than most have given me so i mean was i worth the doubt or do you still think i'm just using you thank you i'm oh thank you yes i'd say that's quite a good summary of how i feel a bit cheesy but to say scared and lost that's how i really feel i haven't been myself in so long until i met you there were times i doubted myself and who i was am i really the person i am with you or had i actually become the person the rumors say i am i didn't know if i was faking it now or if i faked who i was before but i'm definitely more happy with who i am today though and a lot of it is thanks to you only four people know the true me my mom my dad my sister and now you and for some reason your opinion about me is the most important right now i'm so happy to finally hear that someone appreciates me for who i am and not who i've tried to be i didn't think it would matter so much to me but it's such a relief that you see me like this i finally feel validated stand up i want to hug you thank you thank you no i'm never letting you go i'm gonna hug you forever you you don't have to apologize i understand why you said what you did and you didn't mean for it to hurt my feelings i totally get why you would be confused why i asked you to help me especially since we had only known each other for like a week when i asked i'm glad you don't see me like that anymore honestly it doesn't matter who you thought i was at the start it's been like four months now and you just showed me that you know who i am today now that's a compliment i'm glad you realized in our first conversation that i wasn't a condescending honestly though this has eaten away at me for so long i've been scared i've been wondering who i've been to you but i never dared to ask i could be myself with you and i was happy to be your friend and that was good enough for me but i feel so much happier now i'm sorry i snapped at you you stopped me when i was ready to leave you stopped me from making the second biggest mistake in my life god i feel so dumb now i almost walked away from the first real friend i've had in years maybe i am an idiot you're not supposed to agree you're supposed to say that i'm not you're a shitty first friend you know that no okay i don't even want to joke about that right now you're an amazing friend better than i could have ever hoped for do you want to go do something fun we could head over to my place and play some games i have quite a few games actually i bet i could beat you in mario kart for example yes you may consider that as a slap with my glove i challenge you to a duel and the weapon i choose is video game cars oh definitely we could order some food too i was going to have a bite to eat after we finished studying anyways okay let's go and don't be mad when i crush you with my bowser driving skills

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Length: 12min 29sec (749 seconds)

Published: Thu Sep 17 2020