idk what im doing with my life (and that's ok)

foreign [Music] I need to go grocery shopping you know what cereal basically lasts forever like if you steal it right it doesn't get stale so like what's the big deal and I don't have any bowls left oh my God this is embarrassing you know the cereal's old because it's Cheerios but it's heart-shaped Cheerios from Valentine's Day I definitely got the cereal before Valentine's Day and it's the end of March so decaf coffee some almond milk in it and we're having a morning I like the taste of like disgusting dark coffee makes me feel like a woman oh I love you I love you baby um you can see how good I slept because of this little what are these called Kinks not that type of cake freak why do I keep wanting to say Calico that's a cat cowlick like when babies get them from sleeping on one side of their head like literally been hours I'm still in my pajamas shut up I'm gonna show you guys how to make the best smoothie in the world you will need frozen strawberries frozen bananas dates almond milk and chia seeds because when I put these in there I feel like I'm being healthy some banana I add about four to five dates usually the only dates I'm getting am I right yeah they look like cockroaches [Music] wow it's very thick now I'm gonna go drink this and play some online Scrabble foreign [Music] [Music] I wanted to film today because I'm getting my hair done and it's a beautiful day out and I just feel like filming I used to like plan my videos out so hard and know exactly what I was filming and I needed to have some concept before I turned on the camera and now it's just like turn on the camera whenever I feel like it and whatever happens happens things change people change honestly I feel like YouTube has changed so much in the last two years and I fully think that's because of tick tock I think Tick Tock has taken over it is rotting our brains and yes I'm addicted to it I'm fully addicted to my phone it is bad so yeah I'm gonna skedaddle why not only did I get my hair done I also went to Whole Foods should we do a little Whole Foods haul because that is so interesting and I know you're all dying to see what I got from the grocery store almond milk purple carrots the most perfect strawberries potatoes lettuce chocolate chip cookies I actually want to try these not bad I got some pre-made falafel I was feeling crazy clearly some cheddar cheese avocados brownies banana peppers soup sourdough bread they have an orange juice machine there where it like freshly squeezed orange juices freshly squeezed freshly squeezes oranges and I oh my God it's so good I did it and it went all over my hand and all over the bottle some chicken breasts mini Belgian waffles frozen pizza Amy's frozen dinners frozen french fries and some fresh sliced turkey breasts the one thing about going grocery shopping is now I have so much option to choose from I don't know what to make for lunch but you know what I don't have to choose when I use hellofresh yes this video is sponsored by hellofresh I love hellofresh I've used it myself for many many months with hellofresh you get fresh pre-portioned ingredients and seasonal recipes delivered right to your doorstep I do a serving for two people and then I'll eat half of it for dinner and then eat the other half as leftovers the next day so I get two meals out of it I said this before but my favorite part is that the ingredients are pre-portioned so there's no food waste you're not wasting anything you only use exactly what you need and I love that because I hate wasting food it also makes eating healthy way easier they have so many options if you're vegetarian if you eat meat if you're a pescatarian I tell everyone in my real life like if you're trying to get into cooking and you have no confidence in the kitchen it is a great way to get into it it helped me develop my cooking skills so much and you're making your own meals you're saving so much money by not doordashing every meal you're eating healthier it's just a million good things in one if you guys want to try it you can go to hellofresh.com and use the code kennedy16 for up to 16 free meal and three surprise gifts again that's hellofresh.com musical kennedy16 for up to 16 free meals and three surprise gifts make your loved one a special meal and if you don't have a loved one well you're not special because neither do I I watch season two of Bridgerton and Ruby's rubbing her butthole on the floor I'm gonna kill myself why are you doing that not to make this entire video about food but let's make lunch I love watching people cook and eat I'm gonna make a salad okay listen I don't know what I'm doing with my life and I don't care anymore I'm not trying to figure things out I'm not trying to plan for the Future I'm Just Doing planning is stressful and stupid I don't believe in it you've got to be joking triple washed then what is this dirt on it there's literal dirt on it and it says triple washed I don't believe you this one there was a bug oh my God what the [ __ ] Whole Foods I'm suing you tried to kill me I'm washing it again it says triple washed they're Liars how is it triple wash if there was a [ __ ] bug I I it doesn't take much to gross me out that's why I'll probably never be in a relationship is that related yes it is banana peppers anything pickled I love she's perfect [Music] well this is just fascinating Welcome to My Safe space this is where I spend so much of my time I just discovered my very first diary entry from when I was 16. this was literally six years ago and I need to show you guys how absolutely dramatic I was but also how I kind of have not changed just listen I also want to preface this by saying I started writing writing this diary because I was watching the show Awkward and she has a Blog in that show and I wanted to be her I often get told I'm a negative person with a negative view on things I'm not really sure when my anti-everything attitude began but somewhere throughout my 16 years of living I started preparing myself for the worst I guess when you get your hopes up for something and it ends up not happening you stop being so positive and start realizing that life is full of bad situations and pessimism for example nothing ever works out for me I mean like ever for example tonight I was supposed to go to my friend's house and we were gonna do something I had never done before get high I don't drink I I don't smoke I don't sneak out I basically don't do anything fun the highlight of my Friday night is watching the colors my bath bomb makes when I drop it in the water and in my odd way I'm comfortable with that like most introverts my home is my safe place so why do I feel so shitty all the time like I said I'm supposed to go get high with my friend tonight just me and her and the safety of her basement I had my money ready and I didn't even do anything Friday night because I was excited for tonight and figured that that's enough excitement for my weekend still in the back of my mind I told myself not to get too excited I told myself that something was gonna happen that would ruin my plans to experience something different for once in my life I'm sick of laying in my bed watching movies wishing I was the main girl who always managed to be living an abundant upbeat life but no my friend had to ask me last minute if I wanted to go to a stupid party where I do not know anyone you can meet new people she says I'm sorry did I say I wanted to meet new people I'm fine with the people I know I don't want to be around people my age who feel the need to get drunk every weekend I hate it and I hate who I am and I hate the way my brain works and I hate that oh my God and I hate that the only guy who I talk to is a disgusting Pig who just happens to also be so [ __ ] hot I was a dramatic uh teenager then I started writing about the boy that I liked who I didn't actually like he was just super hot and older than me this diary entry is titled this story is [ __ ] and I sound 12. and in the diary entry I named him Elliot that's not his real name but I didn't even want to type out his name so I said so I called him Elliot Elliot is so hot okay I'm gonna tell the story as if it was in a book so I can remember exactly how it happened I'm walking down the hallway to leave school and usually at the end of the hallway Elliot is waiting there to go to basketball practice as I approach him me and my friend make eye contact and I make a fake disgusted face but when Elliot looks at me a big smile appears on my face as it does on his oh my God this is so pathetic hey he smiles hi I reply how are you he playfully says back I'm good I don't know when the conversation ended because I walked out the door and now that I've written it out it doesn't seem as hot as when it happened but trust me it was then I wrote I gotta get out more after school today I was waiting in the gym hallway with my friends and Elliot comes over to me his friends following I say the stupidest stuff when I'm around him and I don't make sense but I can't help it because he's so intimidated and full of himself and I'm not I've decided if he asked me out again I'm gonna go it's decided but if he doesn't I'll let it I'll let it go and get on with my life then I wrote he's a [ __ ] I remember being in class and like my phone would be my backpack and I'd pull it up like every five minutes to see if he snapchatted me this one says so we went to Applebee's it sucked and I hate Applebee's [ __ ] Applebee's am I right I actually remember that it was disgusting I just recently started feeling like I was actually 22 years old like I don't know my 21st birthday I still felt like a kid or like the whole first year and a half of living this living in this apartment I felt so young still but I went through so much of like trying to cling on to my childhood 20 the ages of 20 and 21 were purely just like me trying to regress if we watched Hannah Montana twice I would like play games I played as a kid like do anything to connect to my the child version of myself but eventually you adapt to the change and you gotta get on with your life foreign [Music] foreign [Music] foreign [Music] look how much she loves this little Tower I think that's gonna be all for this video I'm just spending my day cleaning and preparing for my trip tomorrow I hope you guys enjoyed spending some time with me I think I always say this but my life is really not very interesting I know some of you like that this is real this is me and this is exactly where I'm supposed to be all right thank you so much for watching and I will see you in my next video bye I just tripped on my knees I just tripped on my knees [Music]

Channel: Kennedy Walsh

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Length: 13min 37sec (817 seconds)

Published: Thu Mar 31 2022