I’ve Got A Rare Disease

hi my name is Kyle have you ever been so scared of something that you just couldn't cope I ate myself and it isn't a figure of speech as long as I remember myself I lived in constant fights my parents fought every day they yelled to the point that I a 15 year old guy as I had done in my childhood hid under the bed I bit my own fingers and forearms until they bled so as not to scream from anger and powerlessness my fingers look like stumps my lips and inner sides of my cheeks were bleeding and would not heal and when they hurt too much I chewed my tongue and my hair I understood that it was abnormal but could not stop eating myself you can't imagine how many times I tried to stop but this terrible habit was always stronger than me my life seemed like a nightmarish maze without an exit but one day in the midst of darkness a ray of light appeared this Ray was miss green the school's new psychologist and a very nice person she came to deal with children and their problems one of who was me we met once a week and spoke meaning she spoke while I quietly sat and looked at the ground how I wanted to say just one word but I couldn't I was scared that as soon as I opened my mouth she would start yelling just as it had always been with my parents one day miss green offered to play a game to get to know one another better she asked many questions and I was supposed to draw the answers at first I liked it but everything went off the rails when Miss green asked what are you scared of Kyle I took a large piece of paper and drew for two and a half hours though for me it seemed as though not more than two minutes went by all that time miss green closely watched me and wrote down remarks in her notebook when I showed her my drawing all she could say is God Kyle in the drawing were the eerie shadows of my parents who I saw every day from under my bed I'm scared of getting the fear was the only thing I told her throughout all of our sessions miss green took the drawing with her saying she wanted to show it to someone she gifted me a drawing book in which I would draw among its pages there was a note Kyle you're the most courageous person of all I started carrying this note under my heart now during my parents fights I didn't chew on my fingers but I wrote in my book it seemed like I wasn't too bad at it my fingers cheeks and forearms finally started healing I felt normal and after each session with Miss green it became easier she was so nice and beautiful one day I understood that I was in love I imagined that after finishing school in college I would come and marry her but my dreams were destroyed when I saw Miss green kissing a guy I was heartbroken I wanted to scream but instead I hid under a bridge I cried non-stop and bit my fingers lips cheeks and forearms in my fist I squeezed the only important things for me miss greens note that morning the police found me I was almost unconscious and I was taken to the hospital my parents were already waiting in the ward as soon as we were alone they started yelling how could you run away from us do you even imagine what problems you created I couldn't listen to their yelling I needed to hide crawl under the hospital bed but suddenly I felt something soft in my fist miss Green's note this piece of paper filled me with strength courageous I whispered but my parents didn't hear the words the most courageous person of all is me Kyle I yelled in such a way that they suddenly became quiet mom and dad looked at me in their eyes I saw the same fear that followed me my entire life shut up go away I don't want to see you I yelled repeating what they would tell me hearing the yelling the doctor ran into the ward and got my parents out miss green and the guy she had kissed came inside he ended up being her fiance and a teacher at one of the country's best art schools his name was Gary he told me that the best art critics and artists were amazed by my drawing I was invited to participate in a contest to receive a scholarship to their school a month later I won it I left my parents and started my studies it was very hard for me to speak with people but I already have friends at the end of the story I guess there supposed to be an ending about the fact that I no longer bite my fingers are cheeks but that's not the case I just can't get rid of this habit I used to eat myself because of fear now I do it when I draw with inspiration van Gogh cut off his ear and God helped me I won't bite off my finger at some point thanks for being with me these few minutes how do you deal with fear what would you do in my place share your comments and subscribe to our Channel

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Length: 5min 20sec (320 seconds)

Published: Fri Aug 16 2019