How I Left a Cult/ My Story of Leaving Jehovah's Witnesses

hey no cruises hi guys welcome to the nuthouse worthy inmates rule the asylum I don't know why I think that that was really weird um we don't have an intro for our vlog right now in case you've never been here before I'm Liana and it's been a while since I posted this is my family's vlog where we post things about her family but I didn't know where else to put this video so I'm putting it here so I'm gonna put a warning at the beginning this video let's just go over adult topics so please do not watch this if you have children nearby put on headphones if you're going to I would suggest because it does cover a lot of dull topics I don't like talking about this in front of my own kids this is going up on my family channel cuz I feel like it'll help a lot of people so that's what's doing um sorry just heard in my door I thought my kids coming in um so a while back I did a random facts about me kind of a log blog and I said I was at a cult and everybody was like whoa we need some clarifications I figured I'd finally do that video this video is going to be really hard to film because this is a very touchy subject for me I'm gonna cover a lot of things that are just not child friendly or work friendly so I wouldn't listen to it work and I wouldn't listen to it with little kids nearby um so just wanna put that disclaimer out there but it is still topics if you're upset by that please don't watch um so there's gonna be a story time um I hope everybody's doing okay doing this pandemic and I guess this is the best time to talk about story times because well nothing else today right right I'm not used to story times been a while bear with me um so I want to start off by saying my family most of my family are not Jehovah's Witnesses um so no I was not born a Jehovah's Witness technically technically but I was not the one who became a Jehovah's Witness first either my mom so there's a little background about drops witnesses and Colts Colts are highly controlled groups that take over your entire life that controller you can talk to what you can read what you can watch what kind of music you can wants to do and that in the description if it's Jehovah's way this is a lot so just as an FYI um no they are not the weird sect of Christianity that they are portrayed as innocent and that they're portrayed to be they are not they are actually I can centered them one of the more dangerous cults because everybody just thinks oh whatever they're just weirdos or whatever but no a little background on Jehovah's Witness they are a doomsday cult which means they believe the end of the world is coming and you need to prepare for it and only Jehovah's Witnesses are going to survive it long and destroyed story they think that 144,000 Rove's witnesses will go to heaven and be with Jesus to help him reign as king and that if you're not a Jehovah's Witness and you're not picked to be 144,000 you're just gonna die that's it they don't believe in hell they don't believe in birthdays don't believe in Christmas they don't believe in anything but celebrating Jesus Memorial which really isn't a holiday because it's you go and you listen to somebody talk about the end of the world and then you pass about errata plate of bread that nobody protects in and a wine that nobody drinks there you go and how do you prove that you're a part of the hundred forty-four thousand according to them you just know so yeah take that as you will so anyways Chavez witnesses are special because they don't clear at the end of the world repeatedly throughout history so when they started in their late 18-hundreds early nineteen hundreds you should look up their history it's crazy I'll leave some links down below but people are better explaining that kind of stuff Vic than I am and if you want I can make a video specifically about it but there's a lot of really good resources on YouTube specifically with people who like to tell their story because we're tired of the silence honestly why should I be quiet because you were jerk like that's how I feel right now so gonna start with my mom background about her and I'm gonna move forward because this will make no sense unless you know about her so my mother who gave birth to me um was a single mother who had lots of health problems mainly kidney problems but whatever um Chad shut up she had some kidney problems um she was also an addict and did not know who a single mother and did not know the father of her child is so there's your background she lived with her mother at the time I was born in Indiana with in Indianapolis and my grandmother was going to help my mother raised me basically was the situation at the time well my grandma nights and my mom were in a babysitting company out of her home at the time she went on to work and my grandmother ran a babysitting company they switched roles when I was five but up until I was five my mom worked from home and she hated it she was not me to be a stay-at-home mom she was wasn't whatever not everyone is um she honestly I don't think was I'm not gonna make that dig anyways all right so my mom had postpartum she didn't realize she had postpartum but the way she described it she was so depressed she wanted to kill herself see told you adult topics don't have kids in the room she wanted to kill herself and she prayed to God to make it easy for her to kill herself meanwhile me and my two cousins were napping in the other room a little background so her friend Sally we'll call her Sally cuz I'm horrible making up names and her name was generic anyway so it works so Sally knocked on my mom's door and said hey you want to study with us and read about the Bible and learn more about the Biola and my mom took it as God sent her this woman to save her life well one thing you should know about Chavez witnesses and high control groups is they like to prey upon those that are going through hard times or don't have complete faculty like if you're older they try to pray upon you if you just lost a loved one they try to pray upon you they love funerals um they love funerals in they respect that they can bring more people into their church because most people are more apt to listen to them once they've lost a loved one because you know you're preaching about the end of the world and how you know dead people will be resurrected and you can survive to see those dead people you're gonna get a lot of people who miss their family members you're also gonna get a lot of addicts who are like oh yeah I'm not gonna feel like this anymore you're also gonna get a lot of people with health problems my mother kicked off two of those boxes right then she was an addict and she had health problems she was also single mother and she was feeling like it was just too much pressure so she started stuffing with joy was witnesses well she studied with them for about a year year and a half I was about a year old when it happened um and then she stopped I don't know why she stopped shoots then tell me why she stopped that's her business whatever so I went on to have a semi-normal childhood um not really but for the sake of the story was like that fine lived mainly with my grandmother my mom I don't remember it looked like I remember living like once with just me and my mom as a young kid and then once again as a teenager but I mainly lived with my grandmother I didn't really have my own room I'm setting the stage okay um when we lived with my grandmother I didn't have my own room and it wasn't I shared with my cousins and was that my two cousins had a room they shared they were both boys my grandmother had her own room and then I shared with my mom and I didn't even have my own bed I had my mom's bed and they figured well my mom worked nights so you'll sleep in the bed during the night she'll sleep in the bed during the day that was the idea and my toys stayed in the laundry room because my grandmother hated him when I made a big mess with him so there's that so flash-forward I'm about ten ten huh it was fourth grade so I think I was about ten and a half almost eleven maybe I was just ten I think you turned ten and fourth grade so what's at the end fourth grade my mom gets sick and she goes into the hospital and that was the year at the end of fourth grade was the year that I went into fifth grade where my mom was mostly in the hospital I remember I don't remember seeing her for like six months it was a long time she was really sick I get it she was having some issues he had several surgeries whatever um my grandmother was the one who I saw um and up until that point my mom had was still battling an addiction so mind you I wasn't seen her on weekends when she was healthy I wasn't seeing her during the week when she was healthy because she was either working nights you know I would go to school I found out years later that she was getting off in time to see me before school but she wasn't coming home don't know what she was doing but she wasn't coming home so I would go to school get off of school she would get up and go to work so I didn't see my mom because she work nice and that's just how it was and then on the weekends she would go out partying with her friends excuse me I had the hiccups and the burps I'm sorry so anyways I'm 10 you know normal ten year old up to this point we've had holidays and birthdays no my birthday was never a big deal but we at least yeah you know it was it was there um so setting the stage you know whatever so my mom decides she wants to study with Jose witnesses again well she gets in contact with Sally and it's like I want to study with you Sal he's like all right I'm down and then she's like well she she did she came to visit and I was still 10 and a half was right before my 11th birthday she comes to visit and she's all like oh I didn't realize your daughter was so old you should be studying with her and you and at this point my mom had gone a couple times about me and I was like okay whatever and I was a people pleaser I still am like you I'm the type of person like you're sad I want to help you become happy or whatever so I was and I so crazy mommy's girls a little kid like I always wanted my mom to be happy my mom was sad was like how can I make her happy that's how I felt as a little kid I didn't get the reciprocation but I wanted to be that person and so I was like she was like you my mom was like you're going so I was like okay my mom told me to do it so I'm gonna do it so my grandma was mad I didn't realize how mad she was mad that we went and she was like why are you going and I'm like mom told me I was she's like and I'm like I'm sorry she told me to go so I'm going so I went and Sally when you study with your hopes witnesses I'm putting my cup there sorry so when you to study which office witnesses you just don't you the Bible they give you a book and it's whatever the latest greatest book by jehovah's witnesses written by their watchtower society that's took me in quotes that would sell watchtower society is the people who own dramas witnesses it's their business that one's job as witnesses not a non-profit just so you know anyways so whatever book is i don't even remember what we studied at the time it was so long ago it was so long ago I'm so old anyways so we would basically we would you don't read the Bible okay you read the book publication from watchtower society and you read the paragraph and then then the person studying with you asked the question and then you answer the question based on the book the good book not the Bible player book and it's not a Bible and they they think they like to cherry-pick cherry-picking in case you didn't know is picking little parts of the scriptures to make the point go across so that's what the book saw it's all cherry picked it's no and it's a freakin whatever anyways it's really boring at least it was for me cuz I was 11 but you go and you're basically brainwashing yourself and most people who if a good brainwashing happens they move along at a fast pace and they're in the kingdom hall within six months and then they're baptized within a year and then you don't ever see the person who you study with ever again my mom was not one of those people my mom studied for let's see she started studying again when I was 11 she got baptized when I was 13 almost 14 so she studied for like almost three years before she got baptized so it was a long drawn-out process for my mom um so we studied on and off for probably say six months maybe eight mo not consecutively but was on and off and then when I was in cuz I was yeah I was 11 when we finally actually started studying so that was like a whole year gone by my cuz my mother's health issues so fifth and say fourth and fifth grade were not good for me sixth grade started studying halfway through sixth grade because I was like oh I thought this went away and now it's back anyways we studied all the way through my sixth the rest of my sixth grade and into my seventh grade so like January of the following year started January it's like okay anyways January that year I turn 11 following year when I turned 12 we study it on and off right and then my mom's health and different things I'm always trying to get sober and that going out it's not party so my mom became really depressed during this time anyways um so sorry I didn't remember a long time I'm old anyways I so we're studying with these Jehovah's Witnesses and Sally would bring on different people to try to talk to us and things like that well January of seventh grade when I write before I turn 12 that's right before I turned 13 because sixth grade you turned 12 yeah it's good you turned 12 something great you turned 13 I know I'm old I don't remember anyways you think I'd know I have a 12 year old anyways so I study I'm so Sally was like well you should start coming to the king of all for those they don't know a Kingdom Hall is just Jehovah Jehovah's Witness church they're not fancy like regular churches they're kind of boring [Music] and that's what they call instead of Church they want to separate themselves as much as they can from mainstream Christianity should they call it the kingdom all so we were like alright we'll go to the kingdom hall on Sundays well the first Sunday is just so when you go yeah Sunday's is two meetings the first half is for the public and the second half is for Chavez witnesses and we stayed for the first half the first time we went which is what they normally do because they don't want you to hear the second half which is where they go over their publication called the watchtower which is the magazine they've been printing this entire time and they talk about stuff that they don't want the public to talk about Earth's listened to and she knew that specific meeting was not gonna go over well my mom so she's like let's leave which is something she never did after that but whatever um so we went and have almost like oh I want to go every Sunday so rude I was like do you want to stay the whole time or you won't I say half and I'm almost like not stay whole time so at this point my mom was pretty brainwashed and I didn't know what to think so but news flash best time to bring more people it's when they're kids just so you know because you'll believe anything your parents tell you and you don't question it especially if you love your parents and at that time I thought like I was like wow I really love my mom and she's paying more attention to me because I'm going with her to this Bible study and I'm going with her to this Kingdom Hall so obviously you know I should do more that's basically what happened and so we started going and back then when we were going there were three nights a week you went you went either Monday Wednesday Sunday or Tuesday Thursday Sunday and then Saturday you're supposed to go out in what they call service or the ministry which is just basically you go and proselytized now call people's doors go bother them different places and rack up time to turn in showing that you were trying to get other people to be Jehovah's Witnesses because and their religion God keeps track of time and if you don't get enough time in you're gonna die like I'm wishing we're kidding it's it's it's it's kind of creepy um especially considering it's all doomsday basically you go and every time you go you're talking about the end of the world that's all you talk about so I had people telling me you're amazing I'm so glad you're here I'd never had that told to me before like my mom ignored me for a lot of my childhood and my grandmother if she was not ignoring you you were trying to get her to ignore you because she she was not it she was it was a rough relationship my girl mother and I who am i can do a storytime about that more about my childhood later but you know I didn't have my own bed my toys had to say in the launch room and I was always trying to avoid my grandmother's wrath at that point and my mom likes that I was trying to avoid my grandmother's wrath because then that made me run to her more but she wasn't around most of that so you can see how I would have gotten sucked it I can see it I hope you could see it so there was a couple there um we'll call them Jesse and Alan okay Jesse and Alan had two kids um Brittany and Carter and they ran V Monday night study of the house that we went to so they were extra nice to me because that was our study group like I would go to their house and I would sit in the front and Jesse would always sit next to me and read to me and put her arm around me and tell me she wish she had she hopes that Brittany grows up to be just like me and bla bla at that time you know Brittany was only like five years younger than me so okay you spoke of my ego I'm good with them listening to you I'm sure she's really sweet though like I grew really close for this couple like I babysat their kids I stayed overnight at their house they gave they paid me for babysitting their kids the babies I you took care of their cats and they were out of town like I was super close I considered them my adoptive parents like I was always at their house I was always with them even when I wasn't babysitting like they were going at me from school they would take me like they took me to the doctor a couple of times they bought me presents like they done more for me than a lot of people like they had done one worth of me for the most people in my entire life like they I was I was sucked in like I was like I want to be part of your family and they wanted me they treat the me like a part of the family I considered Jesse to be my second mom and Alan to be like my dad figured because I didn't have a dad um I didn't know who my dad is I still don't know who my dad is I don't think I'll ever find out who my father is but at the time Alan and Jesse were filling that hole and my mom was so jealous and I'm like people you're never home and you don't pay attention to me when you are home and she was just she hated me talking about them but anyways um so Alan here's something you should know about your husband this is - um in a congregation after OVAs witnesses kids are basically ranked it's not like spoken it's an unspoken thing but you basically ranked by who your father is and where he's at the congregation if he's an elder no one touches you if he's a ministerial servant elders kids may tease you a little bit but they're not gonna mess with you I had no father okay didn't even know who he was my mother was an unwed mother who didn't know who the father of her children were and it goes basically goes elders kids which is the highest rank you can be in a congregation it's like deacon I guess in the normal church I don't know it goes elders ministerial servants and then it goes regular publishers which is what they call their baptized people and then that's where the dads are and or your dad's not in the church and then kids without dad I was thinking without dad I was the very low on the totem pole leaving that job was witnesses standards so after six months of us going to the king of all even though my mom hadn't my mom hadn't gotten baptized yet I didn't have a dad I was pretty much bottom of a totem pole I was a little I was the easy target the girl who people would say some mean crap to and not worry about well she doesn't have anybody to come back at me and yell at me because basically men are in charge when you're a woman and Jehovah's ordnances the best you're gonna do is you're going to take on the privilege it's not really privilege it's just you volunteering to go and bring more people in to be Jehovah's Witnesses and that's the best you're gonna do as a woman unless you're married then you might get to go to what they call Bethel and that's a whole nother thing that's like where you that's like the compound where you would love it I can do a whole video on that but again your marriage dictates where you are in the congregation as a woman because basically you're a girl and you base the fool from your parents property to your husband's property unless you don't get married and then you try to stay under the radar basically as a woman so I was I was an easy target like no joke like no shade no tea um girls felt like they could be mean to me and say things to me I am sisters which is their term for the women in the congregation and the congregation felt like they could tell me oh your skirts too short and just flat-out not even nice not even hey you know I just feel like your skirts too short sounds like okay or um like I told them I needed to watch how I was dressing so basically because Jessi and Alan had taken me under their wing it kind of slowed down a little bit cuz I think Jessi was taking a lot of the flack for that and um so anyways back to them so I Jesse and Alan would take me out in field service which again is just bringing more people into the congregation um with him and I would babysit for them and they would take me places and basically I was like I love these guys they're the best and then they weren't um Alan you're such a jerk it's an [ __ ] there's not I I can't say the words on YouTube that I want to say okay so we're just gonna say he was a horrible person um he he started to abuse me yes again don't watch this to work don't watch this in front of little kids because this is gonna be bad I won't get too graphic because it's you to but everything but he started to abuse me in the worst ways that and he was so blatant he would do this in front of other people like there were several instances people was like god I never notice anything but it's like how did you not and like he he would sit next to me in the van we would go out in field service and he would put his arm around me and his hand in my lap and basically that was my simple you're not moving um he used to drive me home I just him at night and he would always kiss me on the lips and at first you know it was just a peck on the cheek or that on the forehead but then he just kept giving me pecks on the lips and then it got more from there um I don't want to get in too much detail but he was here's a messed up person and the abuse with him lasted see it started when he started getting comfortable I was 13 and the fuse lasted till I was 15 to 2 years um and he was very blatant about it he almost got caught twice and then one night it was the worst night he drove me out to a place that I didn't even recognize I didn't know where I was or how to get home and it was awful and then when he was done with whatever he was doing he drove me home and said goodbye kiss my forehead said go on inside I'll watch you go inside my own inside and then I took a shower and I brushed my teeth and I just remember just not even being like I wasn't even I didn't feel like I was in my own body I just was we're somewhere else mentally like I didn't even know I don't even think I real I like I don't know sorry about that that was my youngest I don't want her hearing this um and yeah um so yeah it's starting to get dark because I don't like it anyways so anyways got ready for bed and my mom was at work my grandma was in bed and at this point my mom had bought a bunk bed set for us which big step up from not having anything of your own to having a bunk bed I think that was somebody else's giving her and the idea I didn't care I had my own bed I was excited and I started to get in bed and the phone rang I was like 10 o'clock at night and Daniel my cousin um hands me the phone he's like it's for you it's like okay cool so I pick up the phone and I'm like Hello and it was Jesse and she was yelling at me and telling me how could you do this to me and you ruined my life what is wrong with you I trusted you and almost like are you serious I'm like what the hell and she's going off on me she's like I want talk to your mother said she's at work she was like well I'm gonna call back in the morning I want to talk to your mother okay so hang up the phone and I'm just in tears and I didn't sleep at all that night and I got up the next day my mom came home from work and I'm guessing she called my mom at work or I don't even know and my mom was like well we'll talk about this when you get home from school I never saw my mom after school but okay so um where to school did not pay attention the whole day I can't tell you what happened still don't even remember like even slightly what happened that day um went home but one was like well I talked to the elders again that's the top guys in the congregation she's like they're gonna want to talk to you tomorrow night almost like oh okay and she was she didn't wanna talk to me she went to work I ate dinner did my homework went to bed cried myself to sleep I woke up the next day went to school repeated the whole thing and then I had to go to a meeting where I was basically told well he said this is this true and I was like I don't honor I was like partially and they were like okay well we're gonna meet with you the next thing so I was like okay so the next night there was like six of them which is the whole board of what they called a board of elders and they all made me come in and I had to give them details I didn't even want to get my mother it was awful it was absolutely awful they are asking me questions they're like where did he touch you how long did he touch you all this awful crap and I didn't want to talk to him about it I was completely uncomfortable and so they talked to me and then my mom told Alan she'd pray for him she saw him outside cuz he had to talk to them too and then we went home and then that was Friday at that point and then we went to the Sunday meeting because I was not going to go out on Saturday I said no and so Sunday we went to the meeting and it was announced that Alan was to sellotaped now for those don't know that aren't in the know I don't know how phrase that um Jehovah's Witnesses disfellowshipping is basically where they tell you you can't raise your hand and medians and you can't you can't talk to anyone at the meeting basically it's all of this you can't do that kind of stuff and then when they decide you can come and talk to other people at the meeting you can't talk to your friends or family who are not directly in your house if you're diligent as a punishment in general not a kind punishment because the way they deliver it to people who don't deserve it but as to a criminal that's not a punishment like not even close that's not a punishment for a criminal it's not just not I'm sorry it's a slap on the wrist it's like whatever they told my mom you don't need a call-out call the police you know and Leanne is responsible for her part in this so my mom was like you're right my mom's friend who she had blabbed everything that she knew about - told me you know you're responsible for this and he's a very respectable man and how dare you and all this bullcrap and then um which is all the crap that I got from everybody can no anyways and I was shattered my world was shattered um I ended up with severe anxiety after that and panic disorder and PTSD I had PTSD from other problems in my childhood it was that added to it and basically without them without me being under Jesse's wing I was ostracized from all the girls in the congregation and they didn't know why Jesse wasn't talking to me they just knew that she wasn't and therefore I was freaking to just ostracize and be completely just mean to plus added to the fact that I thought one girl was my friend and I was trying to confide in her as a friend she went and started a bunch of rumors about me to all the other girls in the congregation who then told their parents who then decided it was great idea to ostracize me and so much so there was the rumor that I got counseled which is just basically I pull you in the back room and talk to you whatever um and told I needed to apologize to the girl I had told what had happened to me because I was told under no circumstances are you to tell I also found out cuz at the time I thought they did just fellowship him because he hurt me I found out that no the reason why he was disfellowshipped is because he admitted to it which gives them two witnesses and he had prior offenses with actual adult women where he had attacked them so yeah that was interesting to find out I found out years later though when it first all went down I was just confused and didn't know what to do and so that started my process of researching Jehovah's Witness and you know soon after that here's another little background about me I am part of the LGBT community so I'm part of the LGBT community and basically what that means is I'm bisexual I thought it was lesbian until I was 14 and at the time because I hadn't had any crushes on any men I put at that point I know this is very all over the place and I'm sorry but I have to tell you everything in order for you an understanding sorry um so at the time up until I was about 14 I thought I was a lesbian I didn't know my mom had a bad attitude about gays and lesbians and the reason why I'm telling you guys this is because Jehovah's Witnesses aren't like most of Christianity were like oh what's this then they put this on the same level of being gay or being bisexual as being a murderer or just I mean you you treat the you know the child abuser better than you treat like really really um so I was coming to terms with that at the same time when all this had come down so when they're like oh you came on to this guy I was like I didn't wasn't even attracted to men at the time and I didn't realize until I was so I'd already started thinking about I don't want to be a jehovah's witness when I grow up because I knew that at the time I thought it was a lesbian I was like I'm gay so I'm bisexual and I realized after I got older I didn't start being attracted to men but it I had it's a whole soul search kind of thing um anyways so I knew that I didn't want to be at a whole was when his long term and this abuse that was going on sent it over the edge now that's just like new especially how its treated and how it went down so when I was 16 I decided I was going to fade fading is basically where you decide you're gonna slowly stopped going to meetings and hope that they don't know that's what a lot of people do because they don't wanna lose their family and I didn't want to lose my mom at the time I knew that if I cuz I did get baptized at 14 I didn't know the gravity of what I was doing I would just try to please my mother and then I realized how they felt about gay people like they don't introduce you to those things right out the gate you don't know that they hate gay people you don't know how disfellowshipping works in fact you don't know what disassociation is disassociation is where someone says they don't want to be a jobs doing this more but they treat them the same as they do disfellowshipped Auk to you if you just fellowship your sister your brother anyone who doesn't live in your house cannot talk to you as of your homes witness unless they're an elder if you're just fellowshipped know again like I said while that is a big punishment to someone who is not a criminal it just not a big punishment to criminals because they don't care they're gonna find a way to be a criminal um but anyways uh I didn't want to lose contact with my mom at the time so I was like if I fade it's just I'll I'll just be inactive and then I can live my life and still talk to my mom um anyways that's what I decided so I slowly I got jobs in the evening I always I've always worked so I had jobs in the evening so I'd be like oh I work alright we'd be like oh I gotta do this for school or I would find excuses not to go to meetings and I didn't want to go because I'm also going meant that my attacker was sitting at the back of the room while I was in the front of the room because I was told oh go make a good face go sit at the front and they would make me feel bad if I wanted to sit anywhere else and so nobody was talking to me except for my mom and her friend and then my attackers coming to the meeting when I'm coming to the meeting and then my panic disorder got really bad during this time um so yeah I was doing research and I found out but the feelings that I was having was called cognitive dissonance where I was realizing it was waking up I was realizing this is a cult and this is not healthy and that my story is not the only story so I decided I'm going to separate not back whatever I'm done um so by the time I was 18 I was completely faded and by the time I was 19 I moved to Florida and I left with my aunt and my mom honestly during that time was really angry with me like our relationship shattered as soon as I realized I was gonna fade she was mad at me every week because I was trying to fade and she didn't want me to and she honestly she was treating me like I had been some kind of criminal with the whole situation with Allen so it was just a very depressing just frustrating time in my life and I hadn't started making friends outside the job as witnesses again which helped the process but was still rough plus my grandmother was mad at me because basically when you would jump up come and Rove was witness you are supposed to let go of that whole past my mom will never let go of her mother no matter how jeez if her mother is but my grandmother who did not like me like still doesn't like me um basically took all of my mother's changes and took them out of me I was consoling it you know that um like life was a living hell I tried to be everywhere else but at my grandmother's house as a kid because like my mom when she announced my mom announced that we weren't doing Christmas anymore my grandmother lost her frickin top like this woman was angry and she made sure to make my life a living hell and my mom got to go to work and volunteer to go to work on Christmas Day and I had to be at home with everybody at my grandma's house and my great-uncle's mad at me and telling me I'm a horrible person because I don't feel a break Christmas not thinking her mother won't let her celebrate Christmas my aunts and uncles won't talk to me um my cousins who already treated me like crap were taking free rein because grandma's mad at me Anna um so that was one but uh so yeah it's just it is whatever so as well that all that stuff added up to where I was just ready to go and when I was 18 I saved up money I got a job full time job and they saved up money for a year and when I was 19 I moved to Florida and I was lucky because during that fading out period um my mom was going and she was making excuses for me apparently because nobody contacted me until I moved to Florida and then I started getting emails saying how dare you not tell us you moved to Florida there's kind of crap and I was just like I didn't or the emails because whatever I don't want do all that and because I had already started over and started a new life and that's where I met my husband and I started my life all over again um it was rough honestly it was really rough especially since I started my life and had to be an adult from before I was in the adults um my childhood was rough more than just those reasons but like I said you know what but that's how I left Jehovah's Witnesses and how I had become one for a couple of years um I know this video is really jumbled and really long but thank you if you stop towards the end please leave a comment with any questions that you guys have I can do a video more on Chavez witnesses and why they're crazy if you'd like but there's lots of resources I'll leave them in the description box and there's some awesome channels of some extra hobos witnesses who can explain better the organization than I can I was only in for a couple of years lots of people lose their entire lives I'm so grateful that I left when I did because I wouldn't have my kids I wouldn't have my husband I wouldn't have the life that I have um my mom was not the only way I mean jobs witnesses was not the only reason that my childhood was rough my mom had a lot to do with it my grandmother had a lot to do with it a lot of things that a lot to do with it but that was you know that was the last straw and that was why I left home so early it it's it's actually why I have kind of an obsession with cults nowadays I've done a lot of research on cults I can do a whole video on cults and craziness about them um but definitely you know don't take my word for it go look him up Cole look up everything about Donuts witnesses you will see some horror stories from there they also had they got sued back in 2016 for how many child abuse situations they covered up um but yeah I know this is a very demone video I feel my energy just falling as I'm talking to you guys right now a little sad but not as sad as they used to be when I would talk about it because I've processed the pain and the anger from this so I know if I look kind of detached while I'm telling this it's cuz I have to do that so I don't cry and so that I can motional I pick myself back up and go be with my family after filming this video if you liked this story time please get a thumbs up it does help the channel subscribe if you haven't already I'm gonna say goodbye because it's already been like 40 minutes thank you guys so much for watching yeah and hopefully we'll be back more regularly as time goes because if were getting more adjusted to this craziness that is this year please stay safe guys I know it's crazy out there it's scary out there and much love bye

Channel: This Side of the Nuthouse

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Id: BEpZDEW72HU

Length: 42min 57sec (2577 seconds)

Published: Tue May 05 2020