HOW i FOUND LiLEE.. | ADOPTiON Story!

okay i have to pop in here really fast by myself to update you mommy makeover fans really quick and she sat by me and she was so cute and mature she crossed her legs like she was so big and she's looking up at me and telling me all these things about herself and i was looking at her and i noticed these beautiful green eyes and she just melted my heart and as she was talking to me i remember thinking in my dream she doesn't even know that she's gonna be my little girl oh my gosh it's gonna make me cry yeah get busy get busy everybody if you get busy i need y'all to report to the dance floor right this minute [Music] hey guys welcome back to not enough nelson's so today we are excited but also i don't know this is just kind of tough so and here's why we'll explain more but before we get started make sure you subscribe down below hit the notification bell so that you can be alerted when we post give this video a big thumbs up follow us on instagram and facebook okay now let me explain why this is a little bit tricky because these memories and these experiences that i had in finding my all of my kids but for today's lily are super dear to my heart and they are very little special treasures that i carry in my heart and to tell all of you about these treasures is like kind of putting my little heart right here in front of you see my heart there it is so i have to ask all of you to not crush my heart because it's just gonna be out there for you so be nice to me does that make any sense hopefully that makes sense all right we are going to talk about today how i found lily and this is part one because at the same time as i found you who else i find city and luke and luke so this is kind of like part one i think i'll have a part two of this so i have to back up a little bit first of all i just need to tell you guys that when i was a little bit younger than lily i had the opportunity to have a foster child a little girl named jenny come and live in our home my mom was fostering her she didn't stay with us for very long it was just a few weeks and a few weeks i got really close to her and i just knew that i wanted to adopt and i told you more about that story and the q a that i did with benji at the end of that in that moment i just knew that i wanted to adopt that that would kind of be my mission in life and so fast forward and at this point i had kennedy was two and cassidy was a little baby and i won't tell you everything about this experience because like i said sometimes experiences are actually sacred to me i hold them sacred and so i won't go into detail but at that time i had a really cool experience so i knew that i needed to find a three-year-old little girl after i had this cool experience and so i just kept my heart open kept my mind open thought you know when it's the lord's timing i will find her and so fast forward about literally eight years had passed and we were living where we're kind of in the city that we're living in now we had just kind of moved from where we were living and so i got a phone call and it was social services and they asked me if i wanted to still foster and i said i don't know we just moved i had just adopted bridger and journey and i'll tell you how i found them later but we had just adopted bridger and journey i had six kids was very busy and so i told him on the phone nope i think i'm good i think i'm gonna wait a little while until i foster well that night i had a dream and in the dream it was just a very interesting dream one of those dreams that you when you wake up you really remember every part of it and so in the dream i was walking through this big kind of like a hotel and i was kind of being tempted with different things like the first temptation was someone asked me if i wanted a baby and i said no no i'm i'm looking for a three-year-old little girl and this baby was so cute but i was like no no i'm looking for a three-year-old and i kept walking and other temptations would come like other things i was busy with that someone wanted me to start decorating some christmas trees with the time i was decorating christmas trees for a living like um for people anyway so i kept going and kept being tempted to do different things and find this little girl and i kept saying no no i gotta find her and so eventually i made my way down this hallway of the hotel and i got to the door and i opened the door and i went into this room and there was a lady and she had gray hair and glasses and she seemed kind of like intimidating to me and this other little girl who was three was sitting on her lap and i walked in and she said now you don't want a baby do you and i'm like no no i told them that i don't want a baby and she said okay we'll meet this little girl and so i met this little girl in my dream and she came and sat by me there was like a little couch in this hotel room and she sat by me and she was so cute and mature she crossed her legs like she was so big and she's looking up at me and telling me all these things about herself and i was looking at her and i noticed these beautiful green eyes and she just melted my heart and as she was talking to me i remember thinking in my dream she doesn't even know that she's gonna be my little girl oh my gosh it's gonna make me cry anyway and i just sat there and looked at her and thought she's gonna be my little girl and then i woke up from that dream and that morning i called back that social service worker and said yes i actually want to foster and i am still open to that and so fast forward and you'll see what happened during that time when i talked to you about navy but that was emotional even just time out that so fast forward and i was going in to speak with all of the people in the foster care kind of like their board that decides who what kids go where and so i'm sitting out there and feeling very emotional me and benji are like talking to each other we're holding hands we're feeling very emotional because we're going to go in and talk to them about why we're still wanting to even foster an adult and then we had six kids and we're thinking they're going to be like get out of here you already have enough and so our hearts were really like oh pounding and a lady came out to get us and this was the lady that was kind of that kind of the supervisor of this group that we would be talking to she had short gray hair and glasses yes and also very intimidating and i about died i i started crying right there she's like are you okay and i'm like yes i'm fine and i walk in and they ask me this question they said we see that you already have six children that you've adopted two from russia what makes you want to adopt i could have said a million different reasons why and you know what i said i told him the truth i said well you know what i had a dream and i'm looking for a three-year-old little girl and you're gonna think i'm crazy for saying that but i'm just gonna say it like it is i'm supposed to find a three-year-old little girl and they all kind of looked at each other and i don't know some of them might have chuckled a little bit and some of them like their jaw drops around like i cannot believe you're being so honest right now but the lady who was in charge the same lady from my dream she said you know what you would be surprised how often people come in here and they've had really neat experiences or things that have let them know that they have a specific child or a child that they need to find through foster care so we understand and i was blown away that's part number one of what happened okay so the same sweet lady i'm not gonna say her name but the same sweet lady she would prove to be exactly how i found my lily so i have to kind of like in between here there was some sad and hard things that happened and during that sad and hard things that happened i was kind of at my wit's end and i was basically on my knees asking heavenly father to help me to find this little girl he allowed me to have these experiences to know i needed to find her and i was just really tired of waiting to be honest and as i was sitting there pouring out my heart to heavenly father and crying this song was playing on our speakers and so i got up and wiped away some tears and i just had the feeling i needed to listen to this song so this song that came on the speakers was actually the song called helt by natalie grant and it said this part this is what it means to be held how it feels when the sacred is torn from your life and you survive this is what it is to be loved and to know that the promise was when everything fell we'd be held and in that moment i felt like i was being held to be honest i was really at a sad place waiting to find my cute lily and then it said this hand is bitterness we want to taste it and let the hatred numb our sorrow the wise hands open slowly to lilies of the valley and to tomorrow and in that moment i knew that the little girl that i was looking for that i would find her and that heavenly father was holding this whole situation in his hands and he was holding her and holding me and i knew her name would be lily crazy cry anyway if i could go back and give myself a big hug in that moment because boy did i feel low but that just lifted me up and i could wait i said can you not wait just one hour and i was like okay i just need to wait a little bit longer so fast forward a little bit and i decided to let that cute lady that had kind of gray hair and glasses i kind of let her know this is hard to tell people these really important and kind of sacred things that you learn i think through the spirit if i let her know i she was calling about a different placement and i said here's the thing i even know she's gonna be three i know she's gonna have green eyes and now i even know her name and i completely expected her to be like you're crazy what are you thinking but instead this lady who was very intimidating i respected very much said you would not believe how many parents even know the name of the child that they are looking for and i was like okay and i said but i'm not gonna tell you i said i don't want you to just find me only girls whose names are this name i didn't tell her the name was lily i said so just know i know i'm looking for a three-year-old little girl but i'm open to whatever i don't want to tell you even like the color of eyes i don't want to tell her name because i just thought i'm just gonna keep it a little bit more open partly because i was doubting i was having a little bit of like lack of faith that you're gonna be able to find a three-year-old with green eyes whose name is lily like i thought okay maybe i'll just have to name her lily when i find her i don't anyway so she knew the experiences i had had so in part two i'm gonna tell you exactly how this happened but i do have to just tell you one thing it happens to have happened because i decided to call that lady at a certain time certain day [Music] yeah she's just gonna have to wait i'm gonna have to wait till part two part two and then guess who's gonna be sitting on the other side of me here sadie sadie all right guys that was a lot to get off my like i said those are all very special things to me so please appreciate him and honor him for the cool experiences i've had which has been amazing and i will let you know more and you will literally die at how this all came together it's a miracle like every single adoption and birth is a miracle this was a complete and total miracle i'm telling you all right love you all thank you so much for watching okay i have to pop in here really fast by myself to update you mommy makeover fans really quick i just wanted to let you guys know where i'm at and what i've been doing so as you know i had to have a second surgery just to correct more of the things in my back and things but i'm doing really good i'm feeling really good and i am super grateful for doctors who are able to do that and so i'm doing really good but during that time it's put a little bit of a glitch in my walking routine and just a little bit of glitch even in my mental being able to really visualize in things as i've had some little down moments but in those moments i have thought of you to be honest like i think you know what i've got all these amazing women who are writing their amazing stories to me i need to buck up and get with that i'm gonna be okay and i need to look at the brighter side it all starts up here what you're gonna focus on and i've been trying to focus on the good things and so one really cool thing that's happened during all of this is my kids have also started like paying attention to you know just being a little bit more healthy a little bit more active drinking lots of water and all of those things which has been huge and my husband also who has been a dr pepper like addicted to dr pepper to be honest for years and years and years and always wants to get off of it but can't because he gets these headaches he's really addicted to it he has been off of it now for several weeks and that is so great because diabetes and all the other things you can get from having too much soda so i'm so proud of him that's been a huge help number two that's been awesome for me is i have lost 12 pounds which is awesome i know it's not a ton but for me it just feels really great sometimes i'm even less to 14 and sometimes you know it goes down to 12 between 12 and 14 pounds because the scales kind of do this so it's okay if your skills are doing this i feel good i'm feeling better in my body i feel a little bit more energy my surgeries like i said i put a little bit of kink in it but i'm still doing really good so i just want to quickly tell anybody out there if you still want to be involved in this this is how you do it number one you make yourself a vision for your life and watch the vision board video to learn more about that number two start having some kind of daily workout and breathing either even if you can't get outside even if you have to open up a window and breathe in four and out four and visualize during that time so first of all i thank heavenly father for everything that i'm grateful for starting with inside of me and spiraling out to kids and experiences and the world we live in all of those things flood yourself with things that you are grateful for number four you start to visualize visualize all the things that are on your vision board as if they've already happened like visualize them clearly how it will feel when you walk into your house and when you look around and see the people that you love and smiling back and forth i visualize experiences moments meetings i visualize what my life will look like and i do that at the end of my walk i stretch i tell heavenly father again i'm so grateful for everything that you've given me and please accept my faith and i'm having for this vision i have for myself and lead me where you need me to go and i end it there those few things of doing that will help you immensely so if you are willing to take this mommy makeover challenge with me there's still a few more weeks left i will let you know when that's up and done but for now continue with that even if you're only involved for three or four weeks let me know by emailing nenfamwith2mnenfammm gmail.com and tell me about your experience and how it's helped you and where your heart has changed or your body's changed or your mindset has changed or anything that you've done for the better for yourself and then you can be entered to win the 1 000 wardrobe giveaway

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Length: 15min 27sec (927 seconds)

Published: Fri Sep 11 2020