Farther Along-Legacy Five

we of me too why all day Wow Oh Oh Oh yes you you Oh when we see Jesus he'll be then we share right Oh yes Oh she yes Oh call me wonderful job man well I love the idea of we'll understand it all by him by toning somehow I had forgotten about that song and to be honest with you when you started singing it it brought back so many memories for me not only because of the words but the heart which you sing I just I just love to hear you sing did you really enjoy Tony Darmody one I thank you thanks for making me feel thanks for making him feel so welcome and all of the young guys Scott and I knew what to expect when we came here because we've been here so many times but we try to tell the new guys in our group what to expect when they came to shadow mountain and I don't think our words got it told you have been so wonderful to them and thank you for that I found that the older I get the less I really know I'm just being honestly you know a lot of people thinks with age comes a mantle of wisdom that's not necessarily the case I am just as confused and muddled at 41 as I was at 21 you know but I can tell you what I have learned I have learned that Jesus is faithful I have learned that God is sovereign and I have learned that nothing takes him by surprise I had a little tough week this week my dad Thursday of last week had to have a heart cath and he had had some chest pains and just as a fluke they found out that he needed to have this heart cath and Thursday afternoon about 4 o'clock my mom calls me and said your dad's going in for open-heart surgery in the morning and I know you're getting ready to leave for an 11-day California trip is there any way you can come and be with us I'm an only child and and my folks needed me really bad and so I called Scott it's God I need to stay and so the guys left without me and I drove through the night to Arkansas it took me I got there about after midnight and got there early the hospital just in time to see my dad for about 20 minutes before he went in for the surgery and we were joking around and everything was great and he went through the surgery fine and he came back out that evening and was in back in his rune which is an amazing thing to me the heart surgery seems so routine almost now and he was doing well and suddenly he started slipping away mentally physically he was fine the heart was perfect the sugar was perfect the the rate of the pulse was perfect but mentally all of a sudden it was like a thick curtain descended down over my dad's brain and between me and him he didn't know who I was that afternoon he didn't know anyone they said well this is called ICU psychosis men his age gets it and he'll be out of it by in the morning everything will be fine well he just kept getting worse and worse and he wasn't find in the morning and as of today it's been a week in a day and my dad is still basically unconscious and doesn't know where he is and I got to tell you I've been through a lot of tough times in my life I've had financial setbacks I thought were major at the time my wife and I had little Tiff's and arguments she finds it hard living with perfection and y'all need to put her on your prayer list but I've been diagnosed with cancer twice in my life and been through chemotherapy and all the negatives associated with cancer but I want to tell you my heart has never been broken in my life like it was this last week and I said over the bed with my dad and my hero the man that I look up most to in my life and he looked at me with a blank stare who are you I want to go home he was living in things that happened 3540 years ago in his life he wanted to go see his mom and dad he said there in the other room and you're keeping me from going there they've been dead for 30 years and my heart was just broken in my chest and I stayed in his room with him around the clock for three days and it was my job to put the oxygen back on him when he would pull the tubes off him and I got to be honest with you about 1 or 2 o'clock in the morning every night that was the loneliest time that I've ever spent sleep evaded me and he was so not my dad

Channel: Michael Whitsell

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Length: 10min 0sec (600 seconds)

Published: Wed Dec 31 2008