Explaining the Faith - St. Faustina: Her Life and Spirituality

well thank you everybody for joining us again for our series of talks uh today we're going to be covering saint faustina her life and her spirituality and this is an exciting opportunity for me to talk about a saint near and dear to our heart st faustina and again i'm father chris aylar one of the marian priests of the immaculate conception here at the national shrine of the divine mercy in stockbridge we have another beautiful day here september 12th at 11 a.m and i apologize if i'm out of breath and also if you've been waiting on your candles if you ordered candles i have blessed them and we've been trying to pack them but we're very worried about the heat and shipping if some of that wax melts and then reforms in an improper shape is please contact us if that happens and we'll try to see how we can rectify it for you um but again we are continuing now the explaining the faith series as you see on your screen now this talk is not on the dvd but it's continuing the series of talks that i do i'm doing called explaining the faith and you can get this at shopmercy.org or call 1-800-462-7426 or stream it live at thedivinemercy.org explaining the faith and those are my first 13 talks that i did and we have more coming so god bless you we are happy you are with us um as we uh as we start this um awesome topic of saint faustina her life and spirituality all right what we got to do is i got to take about five minutes or less to go back to the beginning one of the earliest talks i did on this series was called divine mercy 101 and i need to re-summarize some of that for you to lay the groundwork for who saint faustina is all right we asked in that dvd what was adam and eve's great sin and excuse me i just gave the answer what was the problem with what adam and eve did and everybody says the answer is they sinned actually that is just the beginning of the problem let's look you see adam and eve in the garden right we see the serpent come down what happened was adam and eve fell and it began the brokenness of our human nature but here's the issue it's not so much that they sinned it's what happened afterwards and um we we know that what happened afterwards was a bigger problem let's look at our next slide the abcs all right now these abcs of mercy are what i want to go through so we're going to hold this on the screen for a minute as i talk my way through it all right first a did adam and eve ask for god's mercy and forgiveness after the fall no the problem is the bible tells us unless we repent and ask for god's forgiveness we can't enter the kingdom of god so that was a bigger problem than the sin itself was they didn't ask for mercy and forgiveness be be merciful to each other did adam and eve be merciful to each other no they blamed each other adam says lord it's the woman you gave me and they didn't support each other they blamed each other they turned on each other the bible tells us that we must be merciful to each other matthew 25 chapter 25 the sheep and the goats tell us that we must be merciful to each other treating each other with dignity and respect and then finally the big one the big one c did adam and eve completely trust in god's mercy saint faustina said jesus told her trust is the vessel by which all grace is received you want to get to heaven you need grace you want grace trust is absolutely mandatory trust is the vessel by which all grace is received so did they completely trust in god's mercy see no what did they do they ran and they hid okay so we can take that slide down now now this is what we call the abcs the message of divine mercy and since divine mercy is misunderstood many times people say father we don't need another devotion and devotions are optional we don't need this divine mercy thing actually we do because divine mercy is not just a devotion yes devotions are optional in the catholic church devotions to saint therese or praying the chaplet of saint michael these are beautiful but they're not mandatory to get to heaven what is is the nucleus of the gospel and pope benedict the 16th said divine mercy is the nucleus of the gospel in other words you reject divine mercy you reject the gospel and so what we have here are in those abcs the message of the gospel you've got to ask for god's mercy be merciful to each other and completely trust in god's mercy now this message is so important that god has been trying to give it to the world for centuries he's been given it through saints and prophets and we don't listen we've been stiff-necked and stubborn finally our lord gets to this little person let's look at our next slide this is the famous picture painting of saint faustina you've probably seen this it's a painting but i want to show you the next slide you know what that painting's based off of look at the next slide that's an actual photograph of saint faustina it's beautiful isn't it that's the picture that we see all over the place it's a painting but yet it comes from a real picture all right so basically our lord trying to give this message of mercy from the garden of adam and eve to the world finally says that's it i'm done i'm done here i i'm now he didn't use those words but in essence that's what he meant because he says you saint faustina will help prepare the world for my final coming and he picked this little saint named saint faustina nobody from nowhere and he gave her the next slide five new channels of grace these five new channels of grace we call the devotion of divine mercy and why do we have them if devotions are optional because they help us live a deeper message of divine mercy the abcs so this devotion which we know from the acronym finch the feast the image the novena the chaplet and the hour of divine mercy are what's faustina five new channels of grace she gave to the world to tell us what we need to know so if you want to go back on this my divine mercy 101 part 1 and 2 explain all this but now we have to move on because that's why she was chosen by the world to to bring this message from the garden back to the world this abc's ask for mercy be merciful completely trust back to the world through five new channels of grace called the devotion of divine mercy the feast the image the novena the chaplet and the hour you see that's why divine mercy is both a message and a devotion all right now let's go to our next slide who was saint faustina you know a passport usually tells who you are right your height your weight your hair color your date of birth your citizenship here's st faustina's paperwork visa or passport and so we asked the question who was saint faustina and that's that's one of her legal documents that we have there a picture of now let's go to the next picture the next slide is her house can you imagine this little house this is saint faustina's actual house where she was born with ten excuse me as the third of ten siblings they lived in this little farmhouse which was on 12 acres in rural poland she was born on august 25th 1905 as helena kovalska in polish the w sounds like a v it's kowalska as we would say but kovolska in polish she was born there and her father was a peasant carpenter and her family was very poor but very religious as i said she was the third of ten children and you know what her job was on the farm god bless sister faustina saint faustina her job as a little girl growing up was a dirt clawed breaker upper her job on the farm as a little girl was to go through the the field and squish the dirt cloths to make it better for planning so anyway they were very poor the sisters her and her sisters had to share one dress so only one could go to mass at a time on sundays and so this was very sad to saint faustina she first had a call she felt to the religious life when she was only seven and these mystical experiences continued in fact when she was seven she felt our lord in adoration and then she had actual visions of him at 13 and picture this when she was 13 jesus appeared to her and explained to her the entire mass can you imagine a 13 year old and you have jesus himself teaching you the mass all right so then in 1924 when she was 19 this is really where it all begins she and her sister natalia went to a dance at a park in poland and there in the middle of the dance she had a vision of a suffering jesus and he asked her how much longer are you going to make me wait she saw him as christ crucified not as christ resurrected yet that would come later so she took that to mean she was to enter to religious life so she raced off to the cathedral and was told by jesus to leave for warsaw at once to join a convent so she packed a small bag that very night and she took a train the next morning for warsaw which was 85 miles away now here's what's interesting she did this without the permission of her parents now this was very rare at that time because everything was done with the permission of your parents she didn't know anyone in warsaw so this was the ultimate trust then when she got to warsaw she um entered the first church she saw i was there a couple years ago it's called saint james and she went there and the first thing she did was attend mass isn't that awesome you know when we're lost or scared one of the last things we think about is attending mass and it should be the first thing we take uh think about all right so faustina approached several convents when she got to warsaw but she was turned down every time basically every comment sorry convent told her that we do not accept maids here and that's something referring to her poverty and her lack of education you know she only had three formal winters of education she did not have a long education track record she could barely read and write well anyway after several weeks the mother superior at the sisters of our lady of mercy which was their congregation gave her a chance now funny st faustina didn't know anything about the convent or the religious community that she was joining she just know that jesus led her there some people would call that blind faith no this is trust because she was listening in her heart to what god was doing and how he was leading her so she conditionally accepted saint faustina the mother superior provided that she could pay for her religious habit so in 1925 saint faustina worked as a housemaid to try to save money working with local families but when she came back to the convent can you remember can you imagine this the the mother superior tells you okay if you go away and make money and come back we'll give you a chance when faustina came back the mother superior didn't remember her could you imagine you go away for almost a year and you're working and and you're saving money and you come back and the mother superior doesn't remember her i mean i can't even imagine how frustrating that would be but she finally was allowed acceptance conditionally all right so in april of 1926 when she was 20 years old she received was entered in and then i'm sorry she was entered in earlier and then in 1926 april she received her habit now helena kovalska took the religious name sister maria faustina of the blessed sacrament faustina what a beautiful name huh and it means fortunate or blessed one and many believe it's from the feminine form of faustinus which was a martyr in the early centuries of the church all right so let's take a look at our next slide this is a picture i took um that was one of her comments i think this was wad give nicki when i was up there but anyway she then entered the community so let's look at this the you know you could see the the grounds there and and the old building but she had duties such as cook gardener and fortress which means you attended the door she lived between eight different convents between poland and lithuania and um she knew you know she got to know the sisters as she traveled well here was the problem a lot of the sisters mocked her they um they thought that she's trying to get out of work and and most did not like her this is surprising but jesus said right that they don't like me they won't like you either and don't get discouraged when that happens um you know some though did take her advice and came to her so anyway on february 22nd 1931 it's a very important date february 22 1931 when she was in her cell in poatsk in poland jesus appeared to her as the king of divine mercy and this was the image saint faustina saw so on the screen we see that this was how jesus appeared to her in person and wearing the white garment with the red and the pale rays emanating from his heart i do a whole talk on the meaning of the image again i can't do it now but if you want to go back to the divine mercy 101 series on my explaining the faith it's all there well anyway he was this would be the image that faustina would paint later he asked her in the first visit to you know he appeared as this and then later she would paint it the image she saw before her so anyway jesus told saint faustina that divine mercy is mankind's last hope of salvation and he said it was now a time of mercy but woe to those who miss it he said if you don't pass through the doors of my mercy you must pass through the doors of my justice and he told her to work with her confessor he said if you hide anything from your confessor i'll hide from you let's ask ourselves are we hiding anything from our confessor all right next i want to show you a quick video that tells us a little bit of who saint faustina was go ahead assured of what she must do faustina left for warsaw at once there she was rejected at every convent door except one the congregation of the sisters of our lady of mercy a religious order dedicated to helping prostitutes reform their lives after faustina entered the sisters of mercy her superior in her notes assessed the new novice as no one special and put faustina to work to pay for her religious clothing she was a simple uneducated nun with just three grades of elementary schooling she rarely left the convent and performed the most mundane tasks her life appeared so ordinary on the outside she was busy working and spent part of her time in the chapel every day she met the same people her day had the same rhythm so on the outside she led a dull humdrum existence beneath her perceived dull existence faustina's deep inner life overflowed with extraordinary mystical graces divine revelations and heavenly visitations christ began appearing frequently to her in visions sometimes as the king of mercy resplendent in light and majesty at other times he appeared as the tortured crucified christ at the request of her spiritual director faustina began privately to record these mystical experiences in a diary okay so isn't that a great little quick clip basically saint faustina was having these visions now and she told her confessor about it and he insisted that she have a complete psychiatric evaluation now this confessor let's go let's go actually let's go to our next slide which is the the diary as the end of the video shows he um her confessor instructed saint faustina to write down what jesus told her in a diary so you see this is the diary that we have now today published by us the marian fathers here at the national shrine and in that diary jesus tells saint faustina what to write down now she then told her confessor and he wanted a complete psychiatric evaluation this confessor let's go to our next slide is blessed michael sapochco and oh my i think i'm going to do a whole talk one of these days on just blessed michael cepocho an incredible priest a priest jesus said after his own heart now he advised faustina to begin writing a diary and to record all these conversations but what happened was a demon played on the issue of pride and told saint faustina who do you think you are this is prideful and saint faustina fell for it even saints can fall for the trick of the evil one if we're not careful and she burned it now after she burned the diary the original diary father or blessed michael sappocho who i just showed you on the screen told her to write it rewrite it the problem was she was having current visions and then she starts writing down old memories of old visions and the problem is they got mixed that's why if you read the diary today it might be a little confusing because it's not in chronological order necessarily and so this is what confuses some people about the diary all right so he told her to write it down that is why she is now known as the secretary and apostle of divine mercy all right so in 1934 blessed michael cepochko introduced her to the artist eugene kasmarowski who actually lived in blessed michael sappocho's house and he was the artist who began to paint the image of divine mercy they worked together and what jesus said is the pattern that you see before you now faustina wasn't happy with the image uh she made him redo it multiple times finally jesus says you know what it's good enough you know you can see you can see our poor lord frustrated you know it's good enough just just go with that one so anyway there's many promises that you can see on our website that are made about the image for those who venerate it it's a beautiful gift from our lord all right then on good friday 1935 jesus told saint faustina that he wanted this image of divine mercy publicly honored so that year during lent and then going into holy week sapochko started to bring this image out and he gave a sermon on divine mercy and saint faustina attended it on divine mercy sunday or i should say the sunday after easter 1935. so if anybody asks you when it really began the real first divine mercy sunday even though 2000 it was instituted was 1935. he gave also later some other things to saint faustina such as a chaplet of divine mercy we know that he gave her that to pray we have that on the other talk as well and he really started to give her mystical experiences saint faustina visited heaven hell and purgatory which is all accounted in the diary she was visited by satan multiple times as himself but even once disguised as an angel and so again satan can trick us if we're not careful remain in a state of grace she was given the ability to buy locate and she could read souls wow that's that's quite a person isn't it you think of all those things she was already given by our lord and you know and basically she just she always remembered that prayer in her heart lord jesus christ son of the living god have mercy on me a poor sinner let's make that prayer ourselves right so anyway what jesus was preparing her for was coming suffering and he gave her a choice really he does this with us too to either accept our suffering or not and he said because if she did not freely accept it it would be meaningless think about that in our own suffering if we don't accept it it's meaningless but she always said yes does that mean that we should say bring me on suffering lord i want suffering bring it on no but we got to do what jesus did in the garden lord let this suffering cup pass me by but then he said not my will be done your will be done so anyway she suffered tremendously the sisters thought she was faking it at god's request though she offered these sufferings in union with him on his cross to atone for the sins of others she shared in a special part of christ's cross so i ask you are you being asked by jesus to share in a part of his cross i think in some way all of us are some of us may be slivers others might be complete beams right but he's asking us right and he remember he won't give us more than we can handle although i know it doesn't seem that way sometimes but anyway he gives more to those special souls so if you have a lot of suffering it may really be in fact i may not i'm not even say the word may it is because you're a special soul to jesus wow it seems paradoxical doesn't it well anyway here was god's plan this suffering she would go through and the doubt would perfect her in trust and obedience for her mission she received a lot of internal or invisible stigmatas spiritual stigmatas we call them like saint catherine of siena she suffered the pains and symptoms of abortion three times and she lost consciousness that's how bad the pain was and she said it was to offer reparation to god for the souls murdered in the womb by their mothers and this is very very hard right um so anyway but in the midst of all this god did give consolations remember she was only one of three humans ever that we know of in human history to see a seraphim angel the first was isaiah the old testament when the seraphim held the burning coal to his lips to purify his speech saint francis saw sarah from angel right before his stigmata and saint faustina had a seraphim angel bring her holy communion this is amazing now here's another amazing story look at our next slide this is the rome at the canonization of saint faustina right this is awesome she saint faustina actually had a vision of this in fact she even had visions of divine mercy sunday celebrated in her chapel and in rome and here she saw her canonization now this was awesome because there's a part in the diary that's very interesting she saw saint peter whisper in pope john paul's ear can you imagine saint faustina before john paul was even you know even thought about for being a cardinal or the pope saw him at this moment of her canonization and she saw saint peter this is in her diary whisper into his ear and right after that saint or john paul 2 announced that divine mercy sunday was going to be placed on the universal calendar and was going to be an official feast of the church and it shocked everybody especially his close confidants because they didn't know this was coming and so i believe that that he didn't plan on it but st peter told him to do it is that not incredible that's amazing so anyway this was to announce divine mercy sunday that wasn't planned well now let's go back to saint faustina's time now let's fast forward or rewind back so saint faustina during her time this word started getting out about these visions um under pious the 11th and 12th imprimaturs were given on the writings about divine mercy that that had gotten out and divine mercy was supported now by some bishops who made it an approved devotion now before she died she predicted that there would be a great war a terrible war and we know that this happened world war ii right happened one year in poland after saint faustina died she died in october 5th 1938 and world war ii in poland started september 1st 1939 so less than one year well anyway when she knew about this this great war coming she asked the nuns in her comment to pray for poland and they did so you know what use this to pray for your country jesus didn't say pray for all the nations or the european union which didn't exist but pray for your country please pray for your country wherever you're watching from americans please pray for the u.s so she died of tuberculosis on october 5th 1938 but then in 1939 as the war began a bishop noticed that what she predicted about the war came true so he allowed this public access to the divine mercy image and that began the spread of divine mercy let's take a look at the next picture the next slide this is one of our articles online called america's great import this is on our website it's a picture of father joseph yarembowski a mirian of the immaculate conception and this is the key guy this marian who knew blessed michael cepochko took some of the literature the novena and the image and the little prayer card and different things and gave it to um uh said blessed michael sopochko gave it to our priest father joseph and father joseph said i'm going to take it to the united states and he made a prayer to the lord that if i arrive safely in the united states i will dedicate my life to spreading this message of divine mercy well his story that's a whole nother talk was miraculous he couldn't go west because of the war he had to travel east through siberia and russia and japan and across the pacific ocean with expired visas and improper paperwork and in fact he had material and bags and in one checkpoint the um the soldiers uh passed right over his bag miraculously didn't even look in the bag and and if he would they would have saw the divine mercy material probably would have been executed this is the amazing story of father joseph yarchambowski well what happened was he brought this material and arrived in the us in the spring of 1941. now this is just before world war ii in america or for america by the end of 1941 millions of divine mercy prayer cards with the help of the felician sisters out of detroit go detroit and connecticut enfield connecticut helped us start printing these then some of the soldiers american soldiers even took these to the philippines god bless the philippines because this is where they launched a huge movement of spreading this message and it's still so popular over there in the philippines so in world war ii this is what happened but the key was the association of marian helpers after josembowski brought it to the united states the marian fathers picked it up and we said we're going to spread this and one of our priests father paul chinsky started the association of marian helpers in 1944 here in stockbridge which i have the honor of now being the director and this association now does the work of saint faustina blessed michael cepocho and father joseph jarzhinbowsky you want to be a part of that mission you don't have to get on a plane and fly to africa if you can that's great but if you want to be part of the mission as brother mark always says the hands and the feet of god's divine mercy you can through the miriams and this next slide is how you do it go to mic prayers dot com and become it's no charge it takes 10 seconds to sign up there's no charge and you can see how to sign up for the association of marian helpers again go to mic prayers dot com and sign up because it's no charge it's free it takes 10 seconds but you can become the hands and feet of god's divine mercy by spreading and sharing in this mission with us and then you can share in all the graces just like you were a mirian of the immaculate conception our masses our prayers our rosaries what a deal it's god's grace so full beautiful all right so now let's go back to saint faustina as the association started there was a bombshell in 1959 rome banned it and the images and the writings that were given about this were banned well you know st faustina saw this she talked about this in her diary she said this would happen she predicted it but praise god in 1978 the band was lifted because of a faulty translation the um italian nun that put it into or excuse me the trans uh what he called translated it into italian there were several confusing passages like in one place saint faustina supposedly said i am divine mercy well you know what if you're the church and you read that you should ban it so when people say oh father i can't follow this it was banned by the church it was because the church had wrong information and she should ban it based on that information once that was clarified the ban was lifted in 1978 shortly before john paul ii became pope and then when he became pope he spearheaded a new effort to study this and to bring it to the masses of catholic faithful then shortly after in the late 70s our own very own father seraphim mekhalenko smuggled from communist poland pictures of the diary passages and he brought it to the united states and had them translated this is incredible happy 90th birthday saint father i just canonized him father seraphim because what you did was truly amazing so this exclusive mission of the life of saint faustina was this glorify the mercy of god and plead mercy for the whole world we too are called to do that her mission is our mission and if you become a member of the association of marine helpers you share in that mission glorify the mercy of god and plead mercy for the whole world so the spirituality of saint faustina i just described her life now her spirituality was trust and mercy she had total trust why because jesus asked her to do something a lot of things she couldn't do he asked her to paint but she wasn't an artist she asked her he asked her to spread this around the world but she had no money he asked her to make it a feast but she had no influence in the church so jesus asked her to do things she can't do she was not an artist she had no money she had no influence he gave her no real help well maybe in sapochko but he then held her accountable for the souls if she didn't do it i mean wow you talk about trust our lord was testing her here but he was with her the whole way so saint faustina as saint father serif and i keep calling him saint as father seraphim started to study this there was the cause for her beatification came up and she was beatified with the miracle of our very own friend marine diagon right here from this area she comes to the shrine all the time you can see information on her she was cured of lymphedemia lymphedema which was is basically a can a cure or a disease that doesn't go into remission there was no cure and she was cured then for the canonization father ryan patel ron patel was cured of heart disease unincurable heart disease so basically she's been canonized now we pray that she'll become the fifth woman doctor of the church right and this is powerful stuff so anyway she wrote about mercy and encouraged others to trust in jesus preparing the world for his final coming that was the message here so john paul ii said quote it was precisely to this poor girl this little girl from nowhere that god entrusted the mission of announcing to the whole world the most important message of the 20th century are you kidding me is that not important oh wow so anyway let's look at our next slide i've shown this before but as father seraphim says it's the greatest grassroots movement in the history of the catholic church there you see divine mercy sunday a couple years ago right here from stockbridge it is a powerful beautiful grace from god now this entire message that saint faustina wrote about is about trust and you know what else so is the bible if you want to summarize the entire bible it's a love story and in that love story is the need to trust to trust god trust is the key let's look at our next slide it tells you right there it's the link it's the key trust trust is the key be not afraid those were the first words when john paul was elected pope and it said 365 times in the bible be not afraid we are not talking about servile fear here satan's second greatest tool or not fear of the lord i'm sorry we are talking about servile fear be not afraid we're not talking about fear of the lord which can be good the entire diary and bible are about trust returning to him as our spouse overcoming fear this is it faustina she stated one act of trust gives greater glory to god than whole hours passed in prayer filled with consolations actually it gives the greatest glory to god trust is the expectation of someone's help and then using that help when it's given to you you know what i think of mary you want to trust in god trust means that you accept someone's help that they offer you okay if you want to trust in god that means you accept his help how did god help us by giving us the gift in the garden of mary a mother and then the promise of a savior you know and adam and eve let's go back to them sin as i said wasn't the problem it was not trusting they didn't believe god the serpent gave them this distorted image the oh he's this rule maker and and you should be fearful satan is about distrust you can only trust yourself satan wants to tell us you know that do it your own way frank sinatra right i did it my way that's what satan wants to tell us this brings slavery not freedom and we have to understand that um we become slaves of the things that we want to fulfill us our our appetites our sexuality our our weak wills this brings unhappiness in fear and you know what's interesting did you know that fear is the number one reason people said in a pew study that they don't go to church fear is the number one reason why people don't go to church they're afraid of this god who sets the rules well you know where we we we see that father mike gately calls it the school of trust now i want to show you a quick this is a three minute video so it's not long but let's watch it stay with me when adam and eve hear god walking in the garden rather than run to him they run away rather than acknowledge their sin confess it and jump into the embrace of god's love they hide rather than trust in our infinitely good and merciful god they're afraid of him now the catechism of the catholic church tells us exactly what's going on here it says man tempted by the devil let his trust in his creator die in his heart and abusing his freedom disobeyed god's command this is what man's first sin consisted of all subsequent sin would be disobedience toward god and lack of trust in his goodness now notice that the key word here is trust the first sin begins with a lack of trust it says man let his trust in his creator die in his heart and this root of sin applies not only to the first sin but as the catechism says to all subsequent sin indeed every one of our sins involves lack of trust in god's goodness the catechism goes on to include this lack of trust as one of the tragic consequences of sin getting even more specific it says that adam and eve become afraid of the god of whom they have conceived a distorted image and that right there that part about the distorted image that explains a lot and why does it explain a lot well because that wound of having a distorted image of god has been passed on to us i mean every single one of us tends to fear god and to lack trust in him we tend to see him as one who just wants to ruin our fun one who's always ready to give us the divine smackdown one who's jealous to hold on to his power over us but is that true is god some kind of spiteful and vindictive being who just likes to establish rules that no one can follow and then punish us for not following them no that's not who god is here's the reality our god is a father who burns with love for us and longs to make us happy he shows infinite mercy towards us not because he has to but because he wants to and if we really understood that in our hearts then wouldn't it make sense to give him all of our trust yet we don't we need to get back to the kind of childlike innocence where we trust our heavenly father now unfortunately we often don't have that kind of trust we don't let ourselves fall into the loving arms of the lord i know that trusting in the lord is not easy the distorted image of him that we all have to one degree or another can be difficult to overcome yet god works so hard to heal this wound in us in fact i'd say that all of salvation history can be summarized as god's great effort of trying to get us skittish fearful creatures to give up our fear of him and trust in his love and goodness you know in salvation history in the story of sacred scripture god is trying to teach us trying to convince us to trust in him so he can heal us and save us and that's why i think the whole of the bible can really be summarized as one long school of trust one great effort on god's part to heal the distorted image of him that each one of us has and he wants to heal that wound in us so we'll begin to trust in him again so he can save us okay so as father mike gately just told us the key is trust now okay father you can say it's trust but how do i apply it well the best way to learn is we when we learn from someone's example any athlete watches a great athlete to learn by example a student tries to imitate the the master and in the way they think and turn to be a great mathematician now who's the ultimate mother of trust obviously mary let's look at our next slide isn't that a beautiful beautiful painting look at the angel there and our blessed mother right we obtain trust through mary because she is the new eve all right she's the opposite of the original eve because she was the mother of distrust mary did not fear she gave her fiat her yes when she only had trust in what the lord was telling her what happened so she's this gift that god gave to us as a mother a creature like us because he knew we would be afraid you know when i was afraid that i did something or my dad would be disappointed in me or i did something wrong i ran to my mom why because it was you know it was common i um i was afraid that my dad would think i wasn't tough and that i wouldn't be happy um or that sorry he wouldn't be happy with me and so i would run to my mom but you know what my mom did she would assure me that dad wouldn't think that of me that i had no reason to fear this is what mary can do for us this is truly who she is mary truly is the new eve right because she brings to us the new adam so mary's the new eve she brings to us the new adam jesus on the new tree of life the cross so the old eve the old adam and the old tree of life are all undone with the new eve mary the new adam jesus and the new tree of life the wood cross so this let's look at our next slide is what marian consecration is all about this entrustment trusting our guide mary is that guide to get us to jesus the goal to jesus through mary so ask her to help you to know god's will because she always did god's will perfectly so if you want to know god's will perfectly she can help you because she did it perfectly there's nothing wrong asking for other people's help if you saw somebody get a hundred percent on their exam you're gonna ask their help for the next exam you did it perfectly can you show me how to do it what's wrong with that nothing it's a gift okay right so how do we know god's will your everyday life the church teaches us what is within god's commands and then your duties as your state in life as a mother a wife a husband a father those are how you know god's will is just persevering in your daily duties you know father there's got to be more to life than cooking and cleaning and helping my children with their homework and going to work and fighting the traffic and coming home and then doing it all over again actually that's how we're sanctified in our duties just as saint joseph the worker right father don calloway's new saint joseph book great all right now sometimes though in our daily life we encounter evil let's look at the next slide in the midst of that teacher and those students going through their daily day of duties like you just said father chris we incur evil but remember did god create evil god created everything father but did he create evil no god can't create evil it's contrary to his nature well then father how do you explain it all right evil is not a real thing evil is simply a privation or lack of the good who's goodness itself god so when you take god out of the courts out of the family out of society out of school you're taking goodness itself out and what's left is evil you know it's it's that's what we call a privation of the good this is why i saw i always tell the story i saw a t-shirt in the airport once and it said columbine sandy hook you know these are the school shootings and it said god how can you let this happen in our schools question mark and then below it it responded and it said god quote i'm not allowed in your schools wow that's what's happening so when we pull god out we wonder why we're stricken with fear because you've pulled god out now we're petrified to go into schools we're petrified to go to big events for for shootings and all this other stuff we fear others we fear that evil has the last word but it doesn't evil doesn't have the last word fear is causing us to lose our freedoms fear of being offended seriously no come on we we we have freedom of speech in the press but now it's being taken away we have religious freedom to practice our faith our christian faith that marriage is between a man and a woman and life in the womb is sacred but we're being told now we can't religious freedoms are being stripped human interaction is being stripped we're not allowed to stand next to each other now i know we got to be prudent please understand i know that but yet to take away an opportunity for more than 10 people to worship outside when there's room for a thousand i'm sorry that's fear unfounded and so that's what's happening so anyway our trust needs to be strong because you know what let's look at our next slide here's a beautiful picture of arlington national cemetery i come from a military family so i always think of the military families our trust needs to be strong enough to hand everything over to god before we get to this point when we have that trust we have nothing to fear we will all die someday but we need not fear storms or or satan or death even death let's look at satan who can kill only the body but not the soul god so god is the only one we should fear in a good way not a servile fear and a love of god man none of this other stuff can harm us unless we let it if we are fearful of death this means that our hearts love the world more than the father and we need to pray for our brothers and sisters who are fearful yes we will miss them but we must not mourn like we have no hope this is first thessalonians 4 13. all right let's go to our next slide i love these slides all right our next slide says pray as much as you can for the dying by your entreaties obtain for them trust in my mercy because they have most need of trust and have it the least that's exactly what i'm saying here be assured that the grace of eternal salvation for certain souls in their final moment depends on your prayer that was jesus talking to saint faustina okay this is why it's important now some of the mystics and i know this is not official doctrine but these are some of the mystics teachings maria simma said that tears at funerals are only for ourselves if you really want to help the one in the casket prayer is the way for those who are weak and trust obviously death can be occasion of worry anxiety or fear but it shouldn't be heaven is in store heaven is the place where there is going to be an eternal love an exchange of love giving and receiving and for this reason to get to that point of ultimate resurrection we have a situation where we must go through first the crucifixion so the crucifixion and death is the first step before the resurrection so before we enter into heaven we've got to go through the crucifixion of suffering in life and then death itself this way we imitate our savior now i know it's easy to say for me up here but trust me my heart goes out i'm i faced it was three of my best friends that i ever knew in my life growing up steve middleton nick rafko and bob brandt god rest all of their souls the three best friends i had grown up are all passed away so i can't even imagine the horror and the terror and the feelings of emotion that their families went through so i'm not trying to minimize it i'm just saying that this is death is not an end it's a transition into a new life all right we will be judged how we gave ourselves to others on the cross like jesus did all right so that is why god will not always say yes to our prayers when we ask him to spare us the cross all right this is why jesus said to saint faustina look at the next slide my child know that the greatest obstacles to holiness are discouragement and exaggerated anxiety these will deprive you of the ability to practice virtue wow that's a powerful statement so here's the point everybody our worries can't change anything now in some sense worry is not bad if it gets us to pray because prayer can change things but worry by itself without prayer can't change anything if we worry excessively we show that we are not fully at peace with god's will i know that's easy for me to say up here to you i get that i worry myself i worry every night i go to bed that are we going to be able to keep our doors open at the association are we going to be able to meet the ministerial needs i think of all the people who have contacted me whose sons and daughters have taken their own lives and and i've got literally hundreds of people to call back thousands of letters to respond to and i worry sick that people are going to think that i don't care about them if you're one of the ones waiting for my response i promise you i will get to you i want to i don't know exactly when but but i'm giving my my absolute best shot brother mark and i are over at the association of midnight every night getting our work done so please pray for us as we pray for you now doing god's will and not our own will brings ultimate happiness because it brings salvation sin is nothing other than independence from god's will for our life did you ever think about that sin is nothing more than independence from god's will in your life in other words not trusting i'm going to do it my way lord not your way do we consult with god before we take a new job or before we move to a new city or before we enroll in a new degree program if we if if we don't we're cutting ourselves off we we're we're in making ourselves independent from god's will and when we do that if we separate ourselves from god's will we often fall into sin and when we do that we cut ourselves off from god's grace now here's where i'm getting into the key when we do that what are we when we cut ourselves off from god's grace what are we the answer misery we are nothing but misery but don't despair jesus told us there's a huge opportunity here faustina said that the secret to happiness is to always be aware of one's own misery what saint faustina said the secret to happiness is to always be aware of one's own misery wow yes because only then will you recognize your need for god's mercy and many times that's why he allows our suffering you see when we can turn to him in misery we then receive god's mercy that's why the image of divine mercy is the face of the father's mercy god the father sending his mercy incarnate in the face of jesus all right let's read our next slide your misery does not hinder my mercy my daughter write that the greater the misery of a soul the greater its right to my mercy i think that's one of my favorite passages in the entire diary of saint faustina if that doesn't give you hope i don't know what does my daughter write that the greater the misery of a soul the greater its right to my mercy urge all souls to trust in the unfathomable abyss of my mercy because i want to save them all so everybody here's the key the key to happiness is an awareness of both our misery and god's mercy and i'm going to tell you how if we do not accept the truth of our own limitations and our misery we can't trust if we only seek temporal happiness in the flesh and and in money and sex and power that's why we consecrated religious take the three vows of poverty chastity and obedience the vow of poverty overcomes the god of the world of money the vow of chastity overcomes the god of the world as sex the vow of obedience overcomes the god of the world of power so you see in that we're miserable both the world thinks most of the world thinks you have no money you have no sex you have no power you must be miserable actually it's the key to happiness because you're fully dedicated to the will of god so if we seek only temporal happiness this is what god never promised us we will not trust jesus this is why don't fall for that crazy gospel of prosperity you believe in jesus you'll get that new car you believe in jesus you'll get that new house you believe in jesus you'll be promoted to be the boss at work because jesus is on your side yeah that's true but that's not what jesus promises jesus never promises those things what he promises is to follow him deny your cross or pick up your cross follow him deny yourself and follow him so be careful that gospel of prosperity all right now let's look at our next slide many people came to jesus because they knew their misery and their inability to help themselves their suffering and misery brought them to their knees in a cry for mercy only then could jesus help them that's the key only then can jesus help us you know the only unforgivable sin everybody asked me father are there any sins unforgivable lying stealing murder cheating abortion are they are they forgivable every single sin is forgivable except one the sin against the holy spirit which basically means final and penitence which basically is you know what i don't need the mercy of god i'm fine don't fall into that trap well god can't love me god loves everybody who wouldn't have created you father you never know what sin i've committed i've committed these horrible sins jesus said if you take all the sins ever committed in the history of the world and put them together there's but a drop compared to his ocean of mercy all right you go ask for god's forgiveness faustina said to jesus i love this she said lord i've given you everything he says no you haven't she says yes i have he goes no you haven't she says yes i have jesus i've given you everything he says no you haven't you haven't given me your misery that's the meaning of surrender lord i give it to you i can't do this anymore i trust that somehow some way you will find a greater good out of this i don't see it but i trust you will make it happen now that doesn't mean that you're gonna all of a sudden win the lottery to be able to pay all your bills that's not what we're talking about here we're talking about surrendering to the will of god in your life you see the temptation is to think that mercy means being saved from the cross rather than being saved through the cross you know who made that huge mistake it can happen to the best of us everybody saint peter you remember when peter said no way lord i'm not letting you go to jerusalem to be nailed to a cross what did jesus say get behind me satan so basically don't think that mercy means being saved from the cross rather than being saved through the cross that's what peter learned all right let's look at our next slide even satan here's a slide even satan plays a key part in god's plan what yes say why would god allow satan to exist father satan actually plays a key plan and got a part in god's plan because he's used to test us just like peter just like peter god actually tricks satan because why this is fascinating god tricks satan because he knows the devil will expose our misery our poverty and our mystery wants to tell you you you got nothing so the devil wants to expose your poverty and your misery he wants to show you how weak and broken you are you got nothing i remember when we were playing high school football we had this great rivalry and i remember getting in a jam pile or block piled a bunch of my buddies were there in the pile and the other players got up and one of the players looked at our star player and he says you ain't got nothing he was trying to intimidate that's what satan does but remember this is a good thing when satan does that if he exposes your poverty and misery it's actually ironically a good thing because that is what is needed to happen to make us beg for mercy you know what true i don't have anything saint therese says we'll go naked before god god i have nothing i go completely naked before you except for your mercy all right next slide let's look at this saint faustina wrote i do not ask lord that you take me down from the cross but i implore you to give me the strength to remain steadfast upon it powerful stuff god often may seem silent i admit in my life too in our trials it may seem like god is silent and he's not there but the cross is never god's last word as father thaddeus says in his book stepping on the serpent the cross is not the last word the resurrection is god does this when what we ask for is not for our best use james chapter 4 verse 3 says a lot of times we ask with wrong motives and that's why god doesn't always give us what we ask for one might be somebody at the end of their life who were praying not to die and this is true this is a good thing this is what god tells us to do but to live indefinitely in this world full of sin and suffering to live forever in this world wouldn't be a blessing to live in this world of brokenness where the prince of darkness still has its his claws on us wouldn't be a blessing the fact that the father allows us to suffer is one of the greatest mercies why because a greater good can come out of it the resurrection came after the cross and we can atone for our sins and the sins of the whole world that's the prayer of the chaplet do you know the angels jesus said to saint faustina that the angels were capable of envy they would only envy us for two reasons that one we can receive holy communion they can't they're pure spirit and that we can suffer they can't either in those two ways we imitate our lord that's why they would be envy of us envious of us now as i said keep in mind we will never be able to accept suffering if we don't understand its value i'm not saying ask for it bring it on lord give me more only special souls can do that like john b and the confessional would ask to bear the sufferings owed to his penitence so suffering in those cases has to be accepted now that doesn't mean again that you want it you just ask the lord to take it away but his will be done so suffering can lead to either distrust and bitterness like a lot of people who get really sick why would you let this happen lord or to trust that lord now i need you more than ever see this is the key all right let's go on one more i showed this slide in one of my past talks i'm going to show it again saint sebastian val free said when it is all over you will not regret having suffered rather you will regret having suffered so little and suffered that little so badly all right i said but we don't ignore suffering you can and should complain there are psalms called the psalms of lament i'm sad the psalm's a complaint i'm mad lord hears you we can complain to a point that shows that you trust god is listening if you didn't complain to god it would mean you don't believe he's even listening don't be afraid to complain to him this is powerful stuff jesus says that he uses worldly people for his glory sinners people keep saying how could this person be such an annoyance god can't be with this person i don't see christ in him at all he's nothing but an annoyance i'm sure on monday mornings in my production meetings my staff says the same thing about me because he allows sometimes these people with annoyances for his glory why because he makes others grow in virtue by causing them to suffer so in other words if i annoy somebody that causes their suffering but they can grow in virtue because they can pray for me and then that prayer for me ends up happening in my salvation so it's a win-win being an annoying person can have you the opportunity to grow in virtue you then pray for that annoying person and the prayers can help that person to conversion only god could come up with such a masterful plan like that it's really fascinating all right do you know who you will be the most grateful for at your death let's go to the next slide annoying people this is who he says annoying people will be the most grateful for at our death without the crosses they give us we wouldn't be able to enter heaven the worst cross is no cross at all so loving those who cause us to suffer is very difficult god said you know if you just love those who love you even the sinners do that loving those like we talked about yesterday in 9 11 how could we possibly love somebody who hates us so bad that they would fly two planes into the world trade center to harm us yet that story i told in yesterday's homily of that priest who said that their souls are most need of prayer pray for them that's the ultimate call of a christian loving those who cause the suffering though doesn't mean that we have to feel a bunch of love i don't feel the emotions of love when i pray for the terrorists that's okay love is not an emotion last page love is not an emotion it's an act of the will i don't have this great feeling of emotion every time i see a friend sometimes i'm aggravated they're aggravated with me and so we really have to understand this love is an act of the will i choose to love you even when i'm angry or upset emotions go up and down like a seismograph love is steady it's a vow you know look at the next slide this is a picture of myself as a little whipper snapper i think it was age four they're guiding the whole tour guide of the whole group there there's my grandma god bless my grandma i use this slide in my talks that's my grandma who took her own life this week is national suicide prevention week so please pray for all those who have taken their own lives there i am guiding the tour you know there's my mom don't you love her hair i always laugh she says that was the style back then and there's my sister i wanted to point this slide out because of my sister you can see my sister there and she adorable finger in her mouth there well anyway that that's my sister pam and you know my pam was a victim of a divorce her husband announced one day that after 24 years of marriage he doesn't feel in love with her anymore he doesn't feel the fireworks when she walks into the room well if you see fireworks every time someone walks in the room for 24 straight years you could be a case study seriously emotions are gonna go up and down what has to stay steady because love is not an emotion love is an act of the will no parent feels like getting up at two in the morning to change a dirty diaper no parent jumps up and down and says goody i get to change a dirty bottom they do it as an act of the will because they love that baby i'm not doing it because i feel like it i'm doing it because i made a choice to love this child you know anyway my sister whose husband walked out on her ended up having an extra marital affair and the woman that he was having an affair with was a troubled lady and one day they were at a stop sign for a train and they were waiting for the train to pass by as the train was approaching at the last second this poor troubled soul jumped out in front of the train and it killed her instantly now this was the same woman that ended my sister's marriage the reason why her husband left her was because of this woman he was having an affair with for three years before the divorce he was having this relationship with this woman this woman was the cause of the reason of the end of my sister's marriage now in an earthly sense my sister had a lot of right to dislike greatly this woman instead upon one conversation with my sister who someday i hope i could be half the christian she is my sister says i pray for her every day because i asked one day about her my sister didn't even volunteer and i just asked something about the family or whatnot and she said i pray for her every day and she says i don't feel like it but i know it's the right thing to do because any soul that would be that troubled needs our prayers and so to me here's my sister who suffered greatly but prays for this woman's soul every day without feeling like it that's incredible but that's what it is to be christian you know the more valuable something is the more we must pay to obtain it this is standard and the most valuable thing in the world is the human soul which are all purchased at a price jesus said this saint faustine and the diary 961 said every conversion of a sinful soul demands sacrifice a price as souls are precious to us there will be no price too high to pay for them if souls are not precious to us then we will consider the cross too heavy a price to pay the bottom line is my sister had a choice if she didn't care about a soul she could have just said you know what i'm glad this lady is out of his life now she did it to herself the pain and the misery she went through she did it to herself my sister never said that my sister prayed for her soul because she knew a soul is precious and no cross even praying for this woman was too heavy so in return for something that causes us pain and suffering which will eventually end we can gain for ourselves and others life that never ends fascinating all right just a couple more slides to go in the next slide jesus said i desire trust from my creatures let the weak sinful soul have no fear to approach me boy that gives me hope for even if it had more sins than there are grains of sand in the world wow do you know how many quinzillions of grains of sand there are in the world in one handful there's millions right even if it had more sins than there are grains of sand in the world all would be drowned in the unmeasurable depths of my mercy wow since god cannot change now sometimes we anthropomorphize god and we say he repented of creating man and and this and that that's because we're making him like us but god can't change and even our sins cannot change his love for us that he has for each and every one of us so if you're feeling unloved it's impossible that you're unloved because god wouldn't have created you god created you out of love so to heal sin we need not it's not about doing more i always think of sin as doing more i got to do this i got to be more charitable i got to do more prayer rather we need to receive more this is why god always compares us to a child our misery will never stop the father from loving us shall receive that love it's kind of like when you pull the shade down on your window the love of god is like the sun it constantly shines in and we have the control of the shade either we pull it down and block that love or we lift it up but that sun is always shining even when it's a rainy day do you know that above the clouds the sun is shining all right that's obvious but it's i think it's it's it's it's wise and the more misery we have the more mercy we can receive from god that's incredible he just said the more miserable the soul the greater the right it has to my mercy remember jesus told saint faustina our trust is to manifest itself through works of love and mercy in reality i think this is awesome because we always think about when we help the poor that the poor are benefiting do you know who actually benefits more when the poor are helped you and me in reality the poor are the ones helping the rich because the poor open the hearts of the wealthy and give them a chance to be charitable this is really powerful love is about giving and receiving we give to become empty so then we can receive think about that why do we give we give to become empty so then we can receive and be filled with god in that emptiness that we created by giving ourselves out so we constantly receive god's mercy we give god's mercy the more we give god's mercy and empty ourselves the more of god's mercy we can receive this is so powerful and in fact this is this is the message um love if okay here's the point if we are filled with this world sex money and power here's the rich here's here's the thing god can't fill us with the riches of the world to come next slide please we only got two more left or three more i'm sorry um this is what the wedding feast of canaan is all about the wedding feast of cana is all about this mary does not expose the couple of the wedding to shame or make public their empty jars you have no wine you're empty she doesn't make it public mary in the same way mary brings our lack or our emptiness or our misery to jesus in the same way quietly satan would be there pointing to our lack or our misery and scream give up you don't have anything good in you your emptiness your barren yeah that's because god want god to fill me and then when god fills me i give that away and then when god fills me again i give that away this is incredible so give up you have no good in you satan screams he would make it public but mary didn't she went to jesus quietly and she does the same for us she doesn't expose us she takes us to jesus to jesus through mary jesus desires to fill the emptiness in us our jars like the wedding feast of cana with his divine wine that divine wine the holy spirit very powerful but our trust and obedience are necessary for this to happen we need a vessel to receive all that we need to have that jar if god's gonna fill us and and we have an empty jar that's the first part we have to get the jar to be empty but what is that jar what vessel do we have for god to fill us well that's your soul father chris okay but what makes up it let's read the next slide because we have our answer the grace the graces of my mercy are drawn by means of one vessel only and that vessel is you guessed it trust the more a soul trust the more it will receive i rejoice that they ask for much because it is my desire to give much very much on the other hand i am sad when souls ask for little when they narrow their hearts so at cana mary did this she said fill him lord and she does the same for us fill my child lord she didn't say how to do it she waited with trust but mary took us to be filled mary invites us to allow the emptiness of our spiritual jars our hearts to be filled this is what's going on at cana nobody knows what cana is about all right do you know that also this is where i want to finish i'm done here but this is a incredible concept do you know that god allows excuse me god also trusts us man if i was god i wouldn't trust me as far as i could throw me what was uh was it saint philip neary that said look out today for for philip today lord because he'll betray you so but do you know that god trusts us look at the next slide in marriage i've shown this slide before in marriage he entrusts your spouse to you as well as your children there's your spouse and there's your child that's a huge responsibility that god has entrusted you if god is gonna entrust you you need to trust him marrying someone means that you have each decided to become a bridge builder between yourself and your misery and your spouse and their misery and the father's mercy you know we're going to work together in our brokenness and we're going to call in god's mercy to fill our jars and we're going to work together at this god entrust you with that spouse and children he super trusts you so we should trust him too their failings and annoyances of you oh my gosh my husband drives me up the wall those are opportunities for you to grow in virtue saint faustina saint therese talked about the sisters in the combat that drove them bonkers but they knew it was a way to grow in virtue jesus entrusts all of us and you know the biggest way he trusts us with his very self in the eucharist with god's very self in the eucharist he trusts us that's why divine mercy is not just about our devotion to god divine mercy is also god's devotion to us so next slide is awesome blessed save francis xavier ceelo said none and i love this quote none of the damned was ever lost because his sin was too great but because his trust was too small wow none of the damned was ever lost because his sin was too great because his trust was too small jesus i trust in you wow please take this message of trust to the heart this is what is the key to heaven and you know what i think i do have time to show a one minute video to wrap up the day that kind of summarizes jesus's divine mercy because that at its heart is about trust let's play that one minute video it was to this novice considered no one special by her superior that jesus christ would quietly entrust a great mission christ instructed faustina to remind the world about god's unfathomable mercy she was to accomplish this by introducing new devotional practices to honor mercy and by establishing a worldwide movement of souls dedicated to spreading divine mercy jesus directed faustina to proclaim to the world that even the worst and most hopeless sinner was deserving of god's infinite mercy it is divine mercy he said that will determine the future destiny of the world speak to the world about my mercy let all mankind recognize my unfathomable mercy it is a sign for the end times after it will come the day of justice while there is still time let them have recourse to the fount of my mercy so that is the message of divine mercy which we can simply receive through one vessel trust trust is the vessel by which you receive all the grace of divine mercy so god bless all of you and you know what i do want to throw one last thing up there because if you would like to see a wonderful movie that was produced by a good friend of ours michael condratt that really summarizes today's talk was about the life and spirituality of saint faustina you want to get a great docudrama that puts it all together look on your screen it's called love and mercy movie and you can get it at shopmercy.org saturday and on there you will be able to get that dvd the full-length movie it's a great resource so any everybody have a great rest of your weekend god bless you we hope you'll join us next week as we say trust jesus i trust in you and may almighty god bless you the father the son and the holy spirit amen why be a marian helper because we mary and father celebrate a mass for you and all our members each and every day you can share in all the prayers good works and merits of all the miriam priests and brothers around the world and now you can share the graces just as if you were a marian priest or brother every all souls day we see a mass for all the deceased members of the association of marian helpers again there's no way that after we die we can help ourselves but we have to rely on the prayers of those here on earth and we members of the marian fathers will be praying for you as a deceased member of our association you can share in the graces of the perpetual novena to the divine mercy remember jesus told saint faustina that the chaplet of divine mercy is one of the most powerful prayers we can make and every day here at the shrine of divine mercy we pray it and you can share in those graces so if you have any questions or you want to learn more how to be a marian helper please visit micprayers.com or call 1-800-462-7 and let me personally pray for you and your loved ones thank you and may almighty god bless you the father the son and the holy spirit amen you

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