Day in My Life + Finally Addressing Your Comments...

[Music] [Music] good morning today is thursday it is currently almost eight which is perfect timing i woke up at six did my little morning routine some journaling visualization um what else did i do yoga meditation and now it's time for my workout of the day which is just going to be hands and drills against the wall uh one of my goals for 2021 is to be able to do really cool handstands and to practice yoga regularly so i've been making that happen and i'm getting so much better at handstands i'm like figuring out how to balance um so i'm gonna do that right now also by the way i am fully aware you can see my underwear um under these pants i'm just way too lazy to change it so you're just gonna have to bear with me let's go okay so i start with just like k-cups on different legs so i start with my not so good leg oops oh my okay that was really good i look so excited [Music] so as you can tell it's a different day today's saturday uh you didn't miss much i think i vlogged on thursday and i just cried listening to a mumfords and sons like live performance i'm literally crying [Music] this song i'm having a moment i don't know jesus christ oh these are tears of gratitude and happiness and this life is so beautiful and people and music and everything and then i got sick so um i'm feeling a little bit better today i just made some lemon tea and i've been just trying to have as much of like vitamins and ginger and lemon and tumeric and water all that good stuff so yeah i still feel a little congested it's nothing serious but i'm just feeling but i did want to have a chat with you guys um so okay so here's the thing um i've been getting a couple of comments here and there most of you guys are lovely and i don't take this comment as like hate um but i've been getting a couple of comments that my content has been very repetitive and at first i was like you know that initial reaction you get when someone criticizes you or just like but um then i thought about it and i was like no i feel it i know um and it feels repetitive to me as well and i think that's why i kind of slacking a little bit um and here's the thing so um obviously i love health and self development and just mindful chill living like that's just that those are my interests those are always going to be my interests i feel like and that's just how i live and that's who i am um like i'm not a super like i'm not an entertainer you know i'm like never going to be that type of a content creator because that's just not who i am and that's also not the type of content i like to watch um and so that's not changing like the you know the style of my videos and i guess the themes are not never gonna change i feel like because that's just who i am it took a while to find out who i am back here we are and um but i do want to kind of open up a little bit i'm in a really really good place in my life and i feel like the better i've gotten like mentally and emotionally the more distant i've become on youtube and i will explain why and like i really want to reconnect with you guys and just like share my life and myself and my interests like unfiltered because you know when i started youtube youtube was very filtered like i was in the like beauty guru community where everything everything was like perfect and yay we're all super happy all the time and obviously um i didn't fit really well into that because i shared like my mental health journey um if you don't know i'm thinking of doing like a whole video about my mental health um journey and just my story because i shared it when i was like 16 i'm 22 now almost 23 so it's been a really long time and that video is no longer up so i feel like a lot of you guys haven't seen it um which thank you because it's embarrassing and i do want to share that just to kind of um i don't know i feel like a lot of who i am and my interest and everything comes from that like that experience has made me who i am today and i have no idea who i would be if i didn't go through that i genuinely i don't know so when i was going through that i was very vulnerable i shared everything the amount of times i've cried on camera is so embarrassing for my soul and like i just i just shared everything like i used my youtube channel as a therapy session genuinely and it that is not healthy like you need to have some boundaries i don't regret sharing that and i will continue to share that experience of mine but just like the amount of like emotional vomit i shared is like ridiculous and i feel like you know my life was pretty terrible at that time and so i used my youtube channel as a source of connection i didn't feel like i had good relationships in my life when i went to a mental hospital literally just one of my friends continued talking to me and visited me i lost everything and everyone i mean that's a little bit dramatic i didn't lose everything and everyone but like you know i was very miserable and alone and thankfully those people are no longer in my life because that's like the crappiest thing you can do to someone that's going through a hard time um but yeah i kind of you know had like a horrible time in my life and then i had this community and this hobby and i just came on here and felt like these are my people and like i get to connect with these people and you know i over shared and then once i started getting better and i focused all of my energy and time on getting better and healing and figuring out who i am and like cultivating beautiful relationships and my life started to feel like my life you know and like i've never felt especially now like i've never held i've never felt as happy and as myself and like free and at peace i've never felt like that in my life and so the more i started feeling like that the less i needed that like connection through here um just like emotionally speaking um and i started to feel really overwhelmed and like overexposed with everything that i shared emotionally it felt like you know walking through a crowded street wearing nothing like you know it was just too much and i was doing you know at the time my youtube channel was thriving these questions about my mental health and stuff were like the main topic and it was just like i don't know i feel like i've you know changed quite a bit in like my personal life and then my youtube in my like career youtube social media world i kind of stayed very like reserved and like afraid to connect again i just like i am in such a great place now and i want to connect with you guys on like a personal level that's you know healthy i know what that means now because in the past i didn't like i over shared with everyone um and you know i obviously will keep some things private and i have my own boundaries but i do want to share with you guys my like life and my interests and what i'm thinking about i'm feeling and what i'm loving and you know eventually like my friends and my family and my relationships i love watching vlogs so much they're my favorite videos ever especially those people that like have the same interests as me and are a little bit more like chill and not like you know crazy and out there because that's just not who i am this is obviously a very minor problem compared to what's going on at the door it's not even a problem i just wanted to share this to start this whole reconnection process and like i feel like that's when it usually starts when you're able to be vulnerable and share where you're at and how you're feeling in a relationship or in general and this is how i'm feeling about our relationship i feel like we just need to connect a little bit more and that's like totally my fault that we haven't been because i've been so reserved and like the thing is anytime i go to film i'm just like oh this is gonna be boring or i can't say this people are gonna take it the wrong way or i can't do that or can't do this and i just need to like um get that out of my head basically and that's gonna be a little bit of a process and a journey for me so i'm hoping that as you know i do these daily weekly type of vlogs um and share a little bit more of my personality and my life and just kind of what i'm into and everything i'm gonna get more comfortable and hopefully these vlogs are gonna get better so um yeah if you're interested in like health and mindfulness and chill beautiful living and self-development then this is your spot i wrote down so many ideas of like what i want to share and i want to give you guys little apartment updates and what i'm eating some recipes um some self development things my work life like most of you don't even know what i do for a living besides youtube which is you know like stuff like this you don't know so uh yeah i think in the next vlog i'm gonna be answering a couple of questions um that i get asked all the time like what do you do for a living um and so if you have any additional ones please let me know in the comments um because i would love to um open up and just share so anything you know personal or anything you've been wanting to know for years or at the moment let me know in the comments and i will um do a little q a section in the next vlog and i'm hoping that the next vlog is gonna be a little bit more interesting so that i'm not sick and we can actually you know do stuff and go somewhere and of course when covet is over i'm hoping to show you a little bit more of ljubljana and like my favorite spots and cafes i miss that so much i can't even tell you but it is what it is so yeah i guess that's it that's what i wanted to share um so thank you guys for listening let me know your thoughts let me know if there's anything you want to see moving forward your questions of course and i'm wishing you all a gorgeous beautiful day i'm gonna see you soon [Music]

Channel: Nika Nikita

Views: 15,331

Rating: 4.9759903 out of 5

Keywords: nika erculj, nika, lifestyle, health, daily vlog, daily vlogs, day in my life, vlog, vlogs

Id: XfP-OQKZTlM

Length: 13min 46sec (826 seconds)

Published: Sat Jan 30 2021