Chit Chat GRWM | True Life Update | Natashia Pickett

britney hey girl hey knowledge yourself hey miss wes hey samuel how you doing so i'm a little early i was trying to set up and what i did i did the live on my computer oh brittany i miss you too um hold on let me see okay so that's gonna be uh that's actually not bad lighting hold on i have like a little ring light that i'm trying to use that's not bad either hey marie hey maria how are you uh miss west now girl you have been missing out okay i don't know how to oh i don't like that one i don't like the blue that doesn't look bad i'm doing great how are you this is so i'm like shaking because i have not been okay i think that might be like too bright hold on okay i might just keep my um vanity light off and just use this light because if i keep my vanity light on this is how bright it is and even if i turn it down i look a little red so here let me try to change i don't think that goes any brighter no i want to say this was super bright yesterday i think i like this one oh and that's with it off so thank you thank you yeah i had to um i've been dyeing my hair since quarantine started like literally since everything kind of just happened um i've been dyeing my hair and i've been waiting for it to just lift because you don't want to dye your hair hey tracy um you don't just want to dye your hair and then like bleach it and all that stuff so let me just let me just turn on one other light because my light up here is on hold on i think i'm going to keep my okay that's not too bad i just want to make sure you guys can like see me and i don't think oh crap okay i think this might be good like i said i just want i just want everything to be as bright as possible especially since i'm doing my makeup okay so yeah i've um kind of just been dying my hair throughout the whole quarantine process first off how is everybody doing as far as like being quarantined and having to stay at home and all of this craziness that has happened um is everybody still working [Music] because i know they said high knowledge of self good i'm happy you're doing well um i've been working through the whole pandemic like i haven't stopped um i probably work probably like a hundred i think i got like 110 hours but every two weeks that is how much i work and it is crazy so i'm just like i need a break and there's times where i want to log in and i'm like no no no no i don't have time or i'm just like i haven't been online for so long they're gonna be like where's this girl been at like what is she doing you're doing unemployment whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa miss west you just caught me off guard hold on you said okay you put in the chat so it's okay that we discuss this right so you're saying that you're in a middle of a divorce wow wow how i don't i don't want to be in like everybody's business but like how is that going like especially during this time because i have heard divorce rates are a lot higher because i mean the world is literally like i don't want to say going down the drain but there is just so much going on like i can't even like every time i open up social media sometimes i'm just like i pray that nobody has passed i pray everybody is well and it's just like it's just so much going on like it is it is so much going on and you're just proving my point everybody has a story and everybody has stuff that they're dealing with so let's see let me just go ahead and start trying to get ready i'm happy that you guys are talking in the chat too because that's helpful i'm just going to show you guys kind of like the products that i'm using but i'm just running a few errands today so and i haven't got dressed i barely within like the last six months i think i just recently started getting dressed it finalized in december but our situation was pre okay okay so you already kind of knew that this was gonna happen it was just like it's about time now whoo girlfriend i am sorry to hear that how's school going how are your kids um anybody else who has kids how is um the online school going and what i'm using is the slate all day this is in the scent peach this is a setting spray i'm just going to spray my face yes i did do my brows already because you know your girl ain't got no brows if you guys want a tutorial because one thing i started using with my brows is soap this is the pear soap that you can get from the dollar tree it's only one dollar um and then i spray it with some setting spray and i take my spoolie and i kind of just dip it in the soap and i brush up my brows if you guys want that i don't want to call them i'm not going to call them like bushy brows but if you want that type of look this is what people are using so get you some soap that virtual school is my thing is you guys know it was crazy so you guys know i work in hr and um at my job you guys know how like your job gives you like calendars and stuff like you have like your calendar of the year and every year i mean not every year every month there's a different photo why in the september photos and i can't show you guys the calendar because it shows where i work at and you know there's some crazy people oh yay i got you i got you uh maria i got you i'm gonna keep doing my makeup hey girl kanesha how you doing um but in our calendar for the month of september the kids have face masks on this is this just happened this year why in these photos are kids wearing face masks but that's a whole nother story i'm not even gonna go there isn't that crazy though like what was going on that we didn't know about so yeah those were calendars that were made a year ago okay so brittany exactly like i literally was like what is this and why are the kids like they literally have face masks they didn't have them on they had them hanging off and it's like where did this come from okay so let me go ahead and spray my face really quick okay you guys gonna see like the real deal scary scary like what is this and like i said these were these had to be made a year ago so it wasn't just these calendars are given to all of the employees so somebody knew something prior and i just have a beauty blender um okay i was about to grab my foundation what am i doing so i do have the pixie if you guys didn't know [Laughter] if you guys didn't know i did win a giveaway isn't that crazy so pixie ended up sending me a big box of stuff that they have and um this is the glow tonic serum i'm not going to lie i had i've only used a couple of their products because they're kind of expensive but i like them and i couldn't believe i actually won their giveaway it's so crazy when people who have millions of followers on instagram and then you end up winning i think in 2018 i don't know if you guys remember i won two giveaways i won the wet and wild giveaway and i will and i will okay and i won um like a glow i don't know like glow girl giveaway and i got a ton of stuff from there too so i'm just gonna shake this up and put this all over my face you remember the pixy went girl i was so shocked i was like wait a minute like that is crazy so yeah so um keep going you guys hey crystal how are you um so i guess i can kind of like tell you guys what's been going on with me because i typically don't go sorry i typically don't go m.i.a i know i'm sorry um now one place you can find me though is tick-tock if anybody is anywhere your girl you know how you just need like in the midst of all this chaos you know how you either need a friend you need i'm not gonna say you need like a spouse you need somebody to kind of like go through this with oh my goodness like i'm you guys know i'm very much an introvert i'm not gonna lie to you guys being at home for me is not horrible because your girl be at home all the time but wait i am like missing okay brittany brittany what happened she said yay to crystal crystal what's going on can you tell me one more time um so like i said being an introvert oh my god 17 weeks oh my god congratulations crystal congratulations oh that is awesome i need to i'm going to turn more towards this way so i can kind of see the comments oh my goodness congratulations i am so happy but yeah so like i said being at home doesn't really bother me this is the wet and wild primer serum this is going to be the primer that i use on my face today but yeah so the only thing that i would say was a problem was of course getting tissue paper uh so toilet paper any type of paper towels all of that craziness um i think just seeing the panic on everybody's face when quarantined started really threw me off like i was in so much shock because i remember if you guys listen to lovely tea she's like a uh i i don't want to call her like a vlogger but she talks about like stuff going on in the world and then she talks about celebrities so like she covers a lot of celebrity topics but she keeps like she keeps me up on everything that's going on and she was talking about and i can't say 19. i'm going to say is 19 and the reason why i'm gonna say that is because youtube starts to censor you if you talk about the c word so c19 if you talk about that you will get censored i watch a lot of her videos so um she was talking about c19 way before people even like got on like the bandwagon about it and um she kept saying like go get tissue paper go like just stock up on all your stuff and this is the foundation i'm using el machage this stuff is amazing my friend japrise gave this to me because it wasn't her shade and this is actually my perfect shade so um i didn't have to pay for it thank goodness but and it's a little on the pricey side i'm not going to lie to you but el machage this stuff is great so this is the foundation i'm using but yeah like i said lovely tea kind of keeps me up again i mean she keeps me up on like a lot of stuff and i love watching her videos because she just talks about just everything that's going on and like i said just going out to the stores you guys know i live in colorado if you weren't at the grocery store all you saw was people at the gun at the gun range buying guns it was like the stuff that i have seen i'm just like whoa what are we gearing up for you get what i'm saying so kovit and also as a reminder you guys know i started working for this company in february so i got into another hr job but i got in february third and when i started we already had two snow days like two big snow days um so they sent us home and then um i know babies are such a blessing i love it but yeah they sent us home and then what was it like march 16th um i can't say the word c19 happened and they kicked us out of the office so they well they didn't kick us they closed down the office and i actually worked downtown and so once they close the office a lot of the stuff that i work on is in the office of course so you work on other projects to kind of get you by until the office opened back up and then of course they were only opening the office to essential workers so since i helped out with payroll um that is why you know i needed to be in the office hold on let me unplug my phone okay there we go so i help out with payroll i do checks on thursdays so i need to be in the office so i can make sure that people get their manual checks and if anybody gets terminated especially in california if you live in california every company not just mine has to pay you if they terminate you they have to pay you that day else we get fined and we get fined every day we don't pay you so i go to the office every thursday it depends because like now i go to the office probably like two to three days out the week um but there's only like six people like six people out of 175 that go into the office so like accounts payable who makes the checks i have to get the checks from them they have to go in so they have two people that come in and also any mail that comes into our office i got to scan it to like the right people because they're not coming into the office and it's crazy like it's like a ghost town downtown i mean it's picked up it's probably picked up a little bit but it was definitely a ghost town downtown so yeah that's kind of what i do um and then a lot of the projects that i work on they just take time like literally take time and if you guys watch my video on when i talked about how to get into hr without like a degree and all that stuff if you watch that video i talked about how i was dealing with some challenges at this company and i said that there were good challenges which okay i can't go too deep because i still work for the company but just imagine being behind and i don't mean like i'm trying to be nice i don't mean behind like a couple months or i know i need to do i need to do um a cooking life i'm talking about like years behind sorry i have to get my neck everything has to blend you see how perfect this color is though i know my lighting is not the best but i promise you this color is perfect and then ladies always get your jawline okay so like i was saying there's a difference in being behind thank you thank you yeah this foundation is like the bomb but like i said there's a difference in being behind and then being a year behind just doesn't like some stuff just does not make sense to me and i've been in hr for about five years now and some of the stuff that i just see i'm just like yeah so um and like i said there's a certain level of confidentiality that you do have to keep of course and i'm about to use my instant age rewind um eraser this is from maybelline don't judge i look tired so i'm using a lot and this is literally if i was going to work this is how i do my makeup but yeah so it's kind of it's been more of a challenge because when a company is so behind and then you're more like in crunch time now because budgets are due um just a lot is due at the end of the month you got to start getting prepared for merits pay increases you got um performance reviews that need to get done it's crunch time and so like i said when you're behind like already it's like you're pushing people to their limits like you're you're you're pushing people and like some of the tasks that i be that i'm like asked to do i'm just like what what like what what is this like like some stuff i get i'm like that's i.t like oh crap hold on i'm like should probably be working on that um and i'm not one of those people to be like that's not my job that's not my job but that's not my job but there are certain things that i'm just like whoa that's really like not something that hr should even be covering so what i it's even hard to explain without like saying all the stuff that's going on so um yeah like i said there are some challenges that i am just like but then on the flip side you got to think you know i can't complain because i'm one of the people who do have a job like i am working um and i've been working through c19 uh and a lot of what i do now i don't i don't handle leave of absence that's more of like benefit so fmla um all that good stuff i don't handle that i'm not familiar um and then of course you have like covid leave net or i can't say that word um they have you know c19 leave especially if someone at your job gets c19 of course they have to quarantine for um 14 days or whatever so i shouldn't say or whatever because that's like still scary but yeah so whoever was exposed to it also has to uh quarantine for 14 days so you have people that are out but your company should have insurance that like covers this stuff and i can't even like go into that because i don't know everything about it but i'm helping this girl who does leave of absence and she does the c19 because that's like a whole different pay and like i said since we're so behind on just like technology and stuff it's like everything's like a manual entry and as humans manual entries you can mess up on stuff so um i was kind of going through her stuff and i'm like okay this person got paid for c19 but they're actually on a leave of absence so they shouldn't be paid for this and they should be paid for this and it's like you're catching so many errors but you just keep going so that's another thing and then also too i do handle unemployment claims and i told you guys i don't go deep into unemployment because i'm not the judge i do not make the decisions on who gets unemployment um and who does not so i'm very neutral in that sense i don't have i don't have nothing to say um the only time i would say anything is if like you violated policy and what i mean by that if you violate policy as far as like you stole from the company of course we're gonna fight that you again i'm saying like you violated policy you stole something so that's like a different story but between this time i have seen a lot of people quit due to c19 like they resign because they don't feel safe but also you have to think if your job is giving you the option to work home or you're in your safe environment that's what i would think so for me like i work at home like i i can go in i have to go in one day for sure but i work from home so i don't know if i can technically say i'm scared to go into the office unless there was like an outbreak and somebody was exposed you know and then at that point i would have to quarantine for 14 days so i oh i can't even i i can't even imagine but i guess my only i guess i guess this is just my real only issue as far as my job um we have about probably like 1800 employees and that's not a lot that is not that's not a lot at all i've worked at companies hr companies where it was only seven people in hr i would give you the most as 10 and that's like pushing it we've had probably like 30 different locations i've dealt with union non-union employees and with those locations or just dealing with stuff in hr we had 42 plus employees so 4 200 employees um i can say at one place we had over 5 000 employees in different locations and with that being said at my company we have 1800 employees but we have 20 people working in hr that's all i'm going to say about and what i mean by that is 20 people and even though we have an intern so let me just break it down to 19 people things should not be all over the place like to be honest things should be a breeze like i shouldn't even be on here like you've been talking about this thing should be a freaking breeze but everything is discombobulated everything everything everything everything oh sorry um this is my wet and wild contour palette oh hold on one thing the ladies in the building c19 i had to clean the entire wow because i work in me yep yep see and that's another thing i know exactly what you're talking about um they have to make it safe enough for you to go to work and if they don't people can't complain and i told i totally get that because like i said i'm not i'm in a office setting that gets cleaned but it's only six of us like literally six of us and one of the ladies if um anybody tries to come into the building like say if they're coming to get like their stuff like a keyboard or something she'll be like i'm gonna bring it outside because i don't want you to contaminate the building i'm like girl chill like she doesn't need to come inside like we'll go take it to them like any employees if you need anything we will literally go drop it off to you or i'll mail it to you like i'll just fedex it to you two days shipping will fedex will fedex it or i'll just send it in regular mail if it's like not too big oh no see that's not good yeah that's britney that's not good that's not good uh that's yeah that's not good at all so yeah a lot of this stuff like i said covet messed up or let me not say that c19 has disrupt a lot of things and it's like and i don't think any company i'm gonna put it this way brittany i don't think any company was ready for this i don't i don't think i've ever worked through a pandemic like i don't think like even my mom growing up i'm trying to think of like stuff that has happened i don't think um right brittany right i don't think i've ever seen anything like this in my time i think the only other thing that the only other situation that has happened that has been huge of course was like 9 11 but that wasn't like a pandemic that was i mean that still shocked the entire world but like this is taking on like a whole nother set of legs that i don't think any of us were prepared for but with that being said i get that none of us were prepared for this but at the same time when a company is behind this just exposed how behind we were if that makes sense so yeah um i'm basically just working as like the cleanup person trying to clean up as much stuff as possible and brittany i'm not going to say that it's hard to get a job out here because a lot of people are resigning and that opens up so many job options for people like even for me i look for other jobs as well and i don't technically have to work at home like it doesn't bother me to go to work like i i don't care i don't i don't mind going um i do want safety precautions though and i do want everybody to practice um wearing a mask or what is it wearing a shield um also i need you to wear gloves if you're going to be touching everything i need you to wipe down everything like we have clorox wipes disinfectant wipes um some type of clorox and i'm not going to call it clorox it's some type of spray that we use so anything i touch like the printers i literally go and spray it after i walk away and then of course my desk but like i said it's only six of us that work in the office and in hr i'm the only person besides my manager that goes in and she goes in on tuesdays and i'm there on thursdays so it's everything is alternate but yeah i just this has i i just can't believe how quickly this escalated and like i said me listening to lovely tea she was talking about this and she actually had a girl that lived in um gosh i can't even think of work where all this happened like where it started i could see it i just can't say it um where all this started the girl uh i think china controls their social media and they know what goes out and what comes in on social media so they're very protective of that and this girl was basically recording stuff sending it to lovely tea and showing like people dropping due to c19 and this was going on back in november and like i said it got legs and finally made it here and you guys know what's crazy my mom ended up getting really really really sick and i stayed in the hospital with her and my sisters we all we did like alternate but um i ended up staying in the hospital with her and she was sick and i've never seen i've never seen this type of illness and sorry i'm like let me let me keep it going this blush is old this is okay romantic rose by milani they have like the best blushes and it's a very pretty pink i love i love this blush hold on let me just do this i hope everything's blending because i'm talking so i hope everything looks good by the time i'm done but i felt this would be the best way to talk to you guys because videos i have to edit and then go back and you know try to censor some stuff and this way i i'm not censoring anything except for some words because you can't you just can't say anything my neighbors are being loud like what is going on outside so yeah um i just don't think that just just the united states just in general was ready for this and to hear that it wasn't that serious and it now you know it really is but like i said my mom was sick and she was in the hospital for two weeks and um now my mom does have asthma but this was not an asthma attack and she could not breathe what was crazy was they never told her what she had they just said she had a virus they never told us what she had i think she had c19 but who am i i'm you know i'm not a doctor uh and then they also had like gear on in the hospital too like i said you just certain things you just don't pay attention to because you're just like okay this is their job they're trying to protect themselves no there's always something going on in the background always okay i'm sorry this is what i was looking for in my eyeliner and i if you guys seen this drawer this is like my everyday drawer there's a lot going on in here so let me go ahead and do my water line this is from l'oreal this is the infallible never fill eyeliner so i'm going to put this in my waterline i can see my fingerprint right there so yeah let me just keep going and let me just tight line really quick and if you have any problems tightlining i just go with my ring finger i go like this you guys know what's crazy i actually have a gray hair i have a gray lash hair and it's on both sides yeah it's right here i have one right here and then a small one i love it i think it's cute but yeah so like i said my mom was sick i think she did have i think she did have c19 but i don't know and then what else has happened between this time because my last video was filmed i want to say it was my sister passed because they actually had it heart conditions oh my goodness i am so sorry brittany that's another thing and i'm happy you just said that brittany so another thing that i've dealt with in 2020 and i'm pretty sure um maria she's been okay uh right now now we're just focusing back on her eyes because her eyes are like she's had a cornea transplant a lens transfer on both her eyes and that's just like a whole nother process now her right eye i think she can see out of a little bit better but her left eye is the cornea transplant did not take and so when you look at her you could see like just like a gray eye like you could tell it failed so um october 12th she goes in for another one and y'all like this stuff is expensive like what i just said was she got a brand new lens i didn't even know that you could do that so um yeah she's she's been okay um another thing that we've all been dealing with are for our not forest fires but the fires so colorado has had a few fires out here just like california has been having a ton of fires it's like i can't even like build everything together thank you so much um i can't even i can't even put everything together in one video of just everything that literally has happened even if i take it back to january just all nine people who died in the kobe flight like that was still like what i don't even think you guys have had time to even process that and then what is it pop smoke if you're not if you're not into wrap pop smoke past um i don't i still don't think people have thought about girl it is so complicated i can't even like i can't even keep up and i'm there like if you look at her file her file is like this big of just stuff like everything that's wrong with her eyes and what they've been doing but she's been losing her vision since she was 30. chadwick boseman another man who passed and what was crazy he never said that he had cancer which is just incredible um i'm shocked in 2020 right i'm shocked in 2020 oh what is it naya rivera absolutely prayers to brit definitely naya rivera drowning in that river all of the people who have drowned in the freakin lake lanier in georgia i i am just like and a lot of um between what was it may june july august what september oh yep september you know how many suicides that i've heard about suicides that i've heard about people just taking themselves out because they can't i'm not saying you can't deal with everything that's going on and i definitely understand there was a girl who went to my high school her boyfriend i can't say the word the k word so he her and then kade himself if that makes sense um and that was all over the news he and one of their daughters witnessed the whole thing of him k or that this her and then he did himself all right so she left behind oh my oh no no but do you see the kind of so me saying this and then now we got brittany saying you know she's seeing stuff too you see how much is going on do y'all just like like this is like mentally and i you know what's crazy things have happened so quickly it's almost like we're desensitized to it because it's like we have to keep going like this we have to keep going we have to keep going we have to keep going girl i can't even i can't even say the words for 2020. i can't even i can't i there's not one word i can use to describe 2020 right now somebody said i read a meme somebody said um i have to read the terms and conditions of 2021 before we go into it and i am just like i i don't know and and brittany it's this is this is you can tell it's bad because suicide happened oh i can't say that word the s word happened all the time and i'm not trying to say this is not important or yeah i'm not trying to say that this is not i don't even know what to say it's it's too much it's too much going on sorry um i i did get the anastasia beverly hills this is the loose setting powder in deep peach i got this from i want to say i got this from either no tj maxx i got this for tj maxx for 12.99 this powder retails for 38 and i got it for 12.99 so y'all know i got two but yes so it's in the shade deep peach uh but yeah it's britney i couldn't imagine i that i guess that's the only words i can say i just can't imagine and like i said with all the people hey ashley how are you so ashley i used to work with her at adt when i worked at adt i actually trained her um in the billing department go to work to a fire yep brittany it is like beyond exhausting it it's something all the time and it's like can we get a break can we get a break sorry i'm just let me set my face really quick and i guess you know when i come to youtube hello hi legend oh thank you ashley when i come to youtube i don't want to come to you guys like with all this stuff oh thank you ashley i appreciate it i want to come happy and tell you guys good stories and stories from the past and things i want to work on and it's like it's so hard to be super positive exactly exactly maria we definitely like my sister she's like doing pilates which is smart because that just relaxes the mind relaxes the body you know i think everyone has to oh that's i believe it you guys cannot be in you guys were so close together uh when you guys worked in the office at adt so i get it like you guys should be working from home which is awesome i'm shocked because adt didn't work like that um you you had to come to work but yeah no that's awesome i'm glad to hear that that's like positive steps moving forward especially for them but yeah it's just i think you know i still have to show you guys the other side of things just not going well you know and i don't what i mean by like when i censor myself it's not like i said i i'm not gonna say i've been through the world like i've been through some things but that stuff will come out later like on different story times but i would say 2020. oh wow see did you guys not just read what kanisha said she's been living in a hotel due to her hurricane laura like this is i'm happy that you guys are sharing this because like i said i mean i can just go to social media and see that everything's going wrong but then they hear you guys talk about it too it's like people's lives are really being affected exactly ashley exactly and i think another thing that is being heavily and when i say heavily exposed these um a lot of these celebrities are being exposed i don't know if you guys have caught that too a lot of stuff with celebrities has been exposed and i'm gonna put it to you like this me and you well all of us that are in here and even just people we're all real people at the end of the day you know like we have bills we have real things we're going through when i was told that spotify i think it was spotify was doing like uh like you can give donations to your favorite artist i'm like there are real people out here girl 2020 has exposed many you got that you said it exactly when you're telling me i need to donate to my favorite celebrity or artist these are the same artists that i have went to concerts and waited three hours four hours to see them and they show up super late and now due to this pandemic you want me to donate to them when i'm barely making it like marie said you know this is the 2020 is just like pulling people's cards left and right and i know a lot of people i'm hoping that more people see it now yes ashley i'm hoping that a lot of people see it now because a lot of people get depressed off social media and yes social media can be a depressing place you think you see people living the best life because of course remember we're gonna only show you what we want you to see meaning i'm only gonna show you my happy times you know me making money which i never show videos like that me holding up a stack of money that's not me because that's how you're trying to get robbed first of all and then secondly nobody needs to see what i'm making if that makes sense or flexing on people because as quickly as you got that money is as quickly as somebody could take it from you so that's one thing that's one thing i don't do like you'll you'll nev you will never see me flex with my my husband would check me way before that you again i'm saying but um a lot of these social media can be depressing also showing us things that would be kept hidden if not exposed on social media i know that's right um social media it has brought so much stuff to like the forefront and a lot of these artists that stuff has been hidden because you know we didn't have the internet we weren't able to search things the way that we can search them now things are just and even with like i said there are social media gurus who make money don't get me wrong they really are um on top of that i do believe that there's a lot of money to be made in social media because you got to think it's a very small group who's getting it and of course nobody's going to ever give you the full secret unless you help them get somewhere and what i mean by that is it's in exchange for an exchange so you know if i show you to my audience what are you gonna do for me that's how social media works and like i said that circle's very small if you kind of look at you know who hangs out with who you can see that like the circles are very small and it's hard to get in and then once you get in what do you have to do you get what i'm saying um but yeah like i said there are beauty gurus who do or just social media who do make a ton of money so i'm not knocking them but also too there are people who front on social media and they pretend like they have something like on tick tock i was watching these girls videos get on a private jet come to find out that is just a cloud ain't free i know that's right um they they get on a jet just to take photos and then you get right off like what okay if i'm not going nowhere i'm not getting on no jet just to pretend like i'm going somewhere just to get a picture girl a rental jet for real i'm just call me weird i guess i'm not doing that like get me on freaking southwest and get me where i need to go like i don't care about all that um i don't i don't know i guess a lot of stuff i am just going back to reflect on and then also too and i'm sorry you guys i'm sorry i'm just like rambling i just have a lot to get off my chest apparently um what was i going to say my memory be bad sometime hold on and i don't smoke what was i going to say bless my little heart let me put my eyeliner on and maybe it'll come back to me this is the elf i want to say it's just black yeah no yeah i want to say it's just black it's a jet black eyeliner let me slap this bad boy on really quick i was gonna i was legit oh so they were clowning them on on a tick tock for going on that jet and they're like so i get paid to do this and stuff like that there's only certain things i want to get paid for making great content you know like i said i always wanted to make youtube a full-time job to where i can make great content you know work with my supporters and you know do meet and greets that kind of stuff i've always been into that uh some of the other stuff oh and like do like campaigns for like fenty or l'oreal you guys know how i feel about l'oreal l'oreal is like one of my favorite companies but some of this extra stuff just is not worth it and also too i have the conversation with my husband having nice things is great like even just the stuff that i've purchased in my beauty room i'm not gonna say everything is just overly expensive and you can't afford it you know um i'm not going to say i am the most materialistic girl because if y'all ever catch me at ross i be there all the time ross burlington tj maxx i'm very simple um i just bought like i literally just bought this burberry perfume from i want to say ross i think was like 24.99 i was so excited uh i did get now this is i would spend a pretty penny on this i'm not gonna lie this is the marc jacobs this is decadence this stuff smells like heaven um i think it originally retails for like 90 something dollars but i got it for 24.99 at ross i'm not going to say like i need givenchy and you know i can't even think of like any expensive stuff because i really don't care i don't need a rolex because if you go to target target has a pretty great selection on watches that look very beautiful i don't know like i'm just not i would say the only thing that i probably look at that's high-end purses i'm not gonna lie a purse there's some good purses out there um in shoes i do like high heels but let me remind you guys target is a great place you guys know how i feel about target to buy heels uh i don't know like i said i just can't like you kind of have to know your demographic hey monique how are you [Music] girl okay maria said it facts uh yeah it's it's certain things but like i said i don't flaunt a lot of stuff because it's it's not worth it and when i say people flaunt stuff remember girl the cell girl girl when you flaunt stuff like that that brings a different type of attention remember when kim kardashian flaunt her wedding ring and she ended up getting robbed in paris like held i can't remember if she was held at g point but it's like people you got to think people are losing their jobs right now to c19 people are hungry people need to feed their families and you're out here stunting on social media if you think remember how pop smoke passed and if you don't know pop smoke's a rapper i wasn't really familiar with his music i'm more familiar with his music now after he passed which is crazy but remember he showed an item that he received from pr and his address was on that item and they found him that day google google mapped his place did not rob anything exactly people are always watching you so like i said with us dealing with c19 you got to think of all the people who have lost their jobs resigned from their jobs you know people are out here hungry and they want what you have so i'm very careful about what i post and i think i'm even more careful now because of how things are oh he really messed up yeah and like i said gps is real i can gps anywhere i can go anywhere if i have your address i can find you you can i'm saying so i don't know like i said 2019 2019 should teach us all a lesson and if you have not received a lesson from this year i don't know what cloud you live under or cloud i don't know what rock you live under it's just it's a lot it's a lot and like i'm still not even like all this stuff what is it okay so we had all the drownings and then we had the fires we have the fires going on you know people just passing left and right even if they do it by the s word people are still passing big time the biggest wake-up call this should be if a girl i was shook like oh let me let me get my entire life halfway together shook so yeah um also too i've been going through i've had braces i've had my invisalign literally i've been doing the most girl crazy scary everything so yeah i've been going to the dentist because um i actually had like a really really bad overbite and growing up i've had like big teeth like my teeth are just big i mean it is what it is um but i've been having really really really bad sinus pressure in my face and if you've ever experienced any type of sinus pressure it hurts like it hurts and sometimes it can cause you to look tired because you know there's so much pressure in your face also to your face tends to swell up so also this year i just been in the dentist's office and i will also tell you guys just an fyi if and i'm happy um i haven't heard anybody in the chat say like they're they're really really sick or anything a lot of these offices are not accepting you unless you have covet it's and what i what people fail to realize is people have other cond oh i said the word people have other conditions besides c19 that need attention but try going to the doctor's office and see how they respond they will try to set you up with a zoom meeting which i don't feel like you can properly diagnose me on zoom i feel like if i have an issue you need to see me in person but a lot of these offices don't want to see you unless you have city 19. so that's another crazy thing hold on let me do my eyeliner really quick and let me see what time it is okay it's 11 56 here and i'm just gonna do my other eye really quick my husband's doing good um he's he works in the pharmacy so same with him he was working around like 30 people at a time and this is before mass were required and he never got sick thank goodness like i haven't even i haven't got sick he hasn't got sick um and his pharmacy you know customers will come in tested positive for c19 and although i think you know a family member should probably pick up your prescription you know the people be in the building so i think they've taken well i'm not gonna say great protocol because to have like 30 people back in the pharmacy like that's crazy to me um but then also too it's also crazy that nobody got sick like nobody caught c19 back there which is great and they weren't wearing masks but yeah he still works a lot uh i don't think i don't think he could get overtime but the hours that i've worked like if you guys didn't know so i do work from uh for real exactly um they have not put shields on no they now they have did the um what are those things like the shield at the registers they do have that now but just to be with your co-workers walking around that's a little crazy and this was prior to them having like before everything became mandatory to wear face mask everybody was just walking around back there so i think they've taken better precaution now everybody does have to wear a face mask in the pharmacy now but when all this was going on oh you guys know what i didn't even talk about like the riots and stuff all of the riots that have went on and we've had some out here the building that i work in is actually boarded up right now due to brianna taylor i think so we had so brianna taylor passed and then we also had in colorado a young man named elijah mcclain he passed as well due to the police using um well they used a lot of force on him but i think they ended up injecting him with like some type of drug that basically shocked his body and killed him oh i can't say those words sorry see this is why i'm saying i need to like filter it uh and so people have been protesting about him as well because the police were never arrested you guys i just i i i don't know what to say like i just don't know what to say so yeah all of the protests what was it a mini app okay i can't even say it minneapolis there has just been [Music] like my brain is like trying to filter through everything sorry i have to be quiet to do this sorry sorry um also what is it movie productions like everything in production had to stop due to c19 so like i said a lot of people a lot of celebrities weren't working because you know you can't make a movie with 100 people on set because you can only have a certain amount of people on set so you got to think if they're not working then the makeup artist and all of the production people are not working i guess 2020 has also taught me just to save money because you never know when things can change so that would be another thing that i would recommend to anyone is to if anything now save your money like this isn't the time to just be out here like partying and i know i know you're trying to use certain things as a distraction but i'll just say like 2020 is just not the time to just be playing like games i would say if you're in debt in any way pay it off just do what you can to pay that off because you got to also think a lot of people are trying to survive if you are in with a collection agency call them and be like hey can we settle because you gotta think a lot of people can't pay their debt right now so they're gonna settle with you just because they're just like okay somebody wants to pay something let me go ahead you know and work with them so i would say just manage money now um yeah i would say manage your money just try to get yourself into a better situation than what you were in last year because like i said nobody was ready for 2020 nobody or if you were i mean kudos to you but i wasn't ready and you guys remember all the memes like we're ready for 2020 like me walking into 2020 man 2020 is just like oh and this mascara is from l'oreal this is the telescopic mascara i love it because the brush is very small uh no i'm not going now i'm just running errands but i feel like since i've i don't think i've gotten dressed like last week was probably the first week i've gotten dressed in the last six months um no no no i got dressed for my mom's birthday which was in august but i feel like i always look like a bum and i'm like let me go ahead and try to look cute which wearing a mask oh girl yes i always wear a mask anywhere i go i wear a mask so nobody's going to really see anything except for my eyes and you know what the good thing about wearing a mask is girl let me tell y'all i be looking rough tough and dangerous out here okay but the beauty is i get to wear a mask so i can hide pretty much all the way up to here so i'd be looking crazy but i'll say my skin is clear i'm a little red but my skin is clear my hair is healthy due to covet because i braid my hair i actually braid my hair a lot and then also too i try to avoid putting myself since i do go into the office i try to quarantine correctly i don't know if it's like correctly but i try to make sure that i stay safe since i do go into the office and i'm working with um other people the only place i'm probably gonna go we have king supers out here i don't know what you guys grocery store i have to go to king supers to go get if you didn't know i have a guinea pig his name is nugget i need to go pick him up some food and all he eats is his pellets he eats hay and he also eats fresh veggies so i gotta go pick him up oh and i gotta go to petsmart to go get him some hay so that's two different places so petsmart and king supers and then i don't know about you guys i don't i don't i don't know if you guys have this um sorry i'm like looking for my lash glue hold on and yeah i know i'm not technically dressed this is like my little towel but uh i don't know if you guys have a trader joe oh no no no no you're not no no no you're not being nosy not at all i don't know if you guys have like trader joe's where you live but trader joe's is like the best place you can ever go to they have like organic like vegan slash organic foods like vegetarian food that kind of stuff and this place is amazing we usually like prior to c19 sorry i'm looking for i'm looking for these my tweezers prior to c19 i never kept my fridge stock because i'll say like we did eat out a lot prior to all this now not so much but we would uh eat this stuff called this like stouffer's meatloaf and we started going to trader joe's and we got some lasagna from trader joe's we got um meatloaf from trader joe's and it is so much better so sorry i'm like trying to focus on these lashes and i think these lashes might be a little too natural i might want to go with something a little bit bolder hold on i don't know where my lashes are so yeah i might need to stop in trader joe's because i need to get some expresso coffee from there they have some really good espresso they also have like a wine now people due to c19 please do not become an alcoholic i know it's crazy out here but a lot of people are turning to liquor i probably drink wine not so much now due to me going to the dentist so much and being so congested but trader joe's has wine there as well which is really good but i think the last time i think the last time i had a shot i had wine oh no my sisters so my mom and my two younger sisters britney and melanie we had a dinner date at my sister's house and we made crab we made crab legs shrimp fettuccine pasta with some bread and a salad on the side and my sister brought some really good wine so we did have wine that day and another thing spend more time with your family during this time because like i said things are just crazy so yeah we're trying to make a point to like spend more time together and not just spend time together like do stuff like play games like that night we played uno um going to go get more board games because if you live in a state that snows like gets like a lot of weather changes it snows here so once it starts knowing a lot of people won't be doing anything so i'm just trying to spend it spend as much time with my nieces my nephews my mom's getting older definitely check in on your friends because like i said with all this s the s word going on check in with your friends but yeah so i'm just trying to make sure you know they're okay and they actually work from home my mom does not work anymore due to her eyes but one of my sisters does live with her which is great right now because she can help her out a lot which she does so that's awesome so yeah just spend time with your friends and family i know this year i i did like a huge birthday for my mom um we went all out for her birthday this year uh because like i said the way 2020 is going i just don't ever want to be like what if or i could have did more you know so yeah i'm trying to do the best i can so anytime you know a holiday comes around let's just celebrate let's just enjoy each other let's have some friends over like i said still practice you know wearing a mask even when you're with them um do what you can to protect yourself but yeah spend time with your families let them know friends let them know that you're there for them especially the ones who live by themselves like i said i'm very introverted and i can stay at home and be okay stuff doesn't bother me because i'm used to being at home my husband is very introverted as well and so that's i think that's another reason why we get along so well i know when you need your space you know when i need my space and it is what it is but yeah a lot of people what i'm realizing is especially a lot of people at my job they're like i need to get out the house i need to come into the office and it's like no you can't come to the office like you can't i will also say and like i said i am not going nowhere and i shouldn't even be this dress like to be honest like i said i don't wear makeup when i do i'm either going somewhere like important and this isn't important i literally did not have to do my makeup but at least i know i still have the skill to do it at least i still know how to i didn't forget um another thing i want to touch on is like i we already talked about social media but i will also say as far as social media so i get a lot of people and i mean like a lot of people that come to my page and they'll be like like they'll follow me and of course i follow them back um unless they don't have a profile that's when things get a little sketchy uh but yeah so i will follow people back hold on let me see what time it is 12 13. okay i will follow people back and then they will immediately dm me and be like so what do you do to get more followers i'm not trying to be mean i'm not trying to be mean for one you don't know me secondly what a question do you get what i'm saying like you don't know me third i've made a video of how to do how to get started with youtube but you didn't even not you guys this is to the person you didn't even take the time to even go look at my videos see my youtube it's not like i spam you with my youtube channel i can't even tell you the last time i posted saying go subscribe to my youtube channel i i probably say the last time i filmed was in july i don't really talk about youtube like that i don't like all my social media i literally post if you follow me on instagram i literally post tic tocs non-stop and these are other people's tick tocks to where you know they can probably gain more subscribers because i'm posting you know their tick tock but if i think if i think it's funny i'm definitely going to post it but yeah they'll dm me and be like okay so what do you do to get more followers and i just be like is that the only reason you like follow me is because i have a smaller following so i can see a lot more comments and you know interact a little bit more because did you go ask the people who actually really have the following and they probably didn't respond and i get it but it's like and then if i don't respond and remember i told you guys i work like 110 hours every two weeks people your average hours in two weeks is 80. so of course i'm not going to be the most like let me jump on this conversation right away because i can't i go to work on when i'm in the office i go to work at 3 30 in the morning 3 30 in the morning there are times i don't leave the office until 5 30 at night so can i always respond to everything no but then i respond to say if i'm like hey you know because to me i don't i don't i've never reached out to anybody even bigger than me and said hey so how'd you get a following like i've never done that ever like for small people big people i've never never never have sent a email nothing like how do you get more subscribers what do you do what are you doing differently that i'm doing i've never done that um and like i said i get people want to know the answer but also too you need to do the work there is a thing called google that i have to google too like i have to research stuff too and it's like people want that quick answer like this and when you don't give it to them it's like oh i'm unsubscribing to you or i'm not following you no more do you guys know how much like i get that and you know what's crazy there was one girl i forgot because i don't i don't have her little um like message but i think i probably have it like on my computer but basically she just like kind of like broke down you know what you need to do so she said film three times a week if you work a full-time job thank you monique i appreciate it take girl take your vitamins i take vitamin c echinacea and zinc oh and garlic uh but if you oh so she put um film three times a week like upload three times a week a week because youtube has to put you in the algorithm and if you don't know the algorithm then you you're not going to understand your analytics put it that way so you have to understand that the more that you put content on youtube the more that youtube is going to expose you to another audience that's one tip you get what i'm saying so her saying three times a week that's a lot and if you like me work a full-time job how do you how are you able to film and then upload three times a week for people who have kids i feel lazy that could do it because i'm like i work beyond overtime but i don't have kids you get what i'm saying so how come i can't do that but yeah so i would send them the girl's message of what she said to do because she basically gave this to her supporters um and then also she said you know respond to comments that kind of stuff um interact with your subscribers of course and she said good have good quality content have um make sure everybody can hear you so like sound quality and all that good stuff is great and it's like i can tell you this like i can tell you this but you have to want to go and do this if that makes sense like i can give you all the knowledge in the world but if you don't apply it that's the reason why you're not growing but yeah so i've had like a lot of people come through my instagram and be like oh how do i do this how do i do that and to be honest some stuff i'm like i really don't know how to do it like i'm still trying to do the research myself and i don't know how to do it so and and then also too i almost get offended so i'm like do you not see my subscriber count and i'm not saying i should be bigger than what i am smaller than what i am anything it's like it takes time like people have to trust you you got to have a personality i'm not going to say have to have a personality for this but people have to know that you're genuine and that you're real and that you're not feeding them a dream and this is who i am on camera and this is who i am off camera some people can't do that so and then one girl was like yeah i have a few ideas of how to get bigger on youtube and see that's another thing i don't want to hear your ideas and what i mean by that is if you see me doing something i don't want you to come back you took my idea no i was already working on this and then you told me your idea but i've already been doing this do you get what i'm saying like i just don't want to know more because that's when people be like oh you stole from me you did this no so like i said i don't i don't mind helping people but at the same time you gotta understand i work a full-time job i also am trying to make it as well i don't know all the answers google is your best friend i want to work for the same companies you want to work for as well and it's hard also too with i i don't know if you guys have noticed this on instagram every girl right now is getting a brazilian butt lift every girl and they even talk about this on tick tock as well every girl is getting a brazilian butt lift who is telling you to do this what are you seeing that's saying your body is not good enough do you get what i'm saying i'm not gonna blame social media because also you have to you have to go deeper into what you're looking at on social media and i know social media advertises a certain body type i see it too i see it do i have that body shape no no not at all so i get where this is stemming from but also and i'm and i'm not saying uh i'm not saying that you can't go get plastic surgery because let me tell you if i see something here that i don't like i'm gonna fix it i'm not saying that you can't do that what i'm saying is just be careful what you're watching because i when i say everybody i've seen and these are people like some big youtubers that i'm like i would have never thought that you would do that and not judging them hello how are you i'm not judging them but i am just like wow it's very rare to see anybody with the real body type girl it is the truth i see i'm like it's very rare rare and i'm not saying that you can't build your body by working out you can you really can it just takes work you know like like anything it takes work but what i see online is and i can already tell you what pages people are going to because i've seen them too i'm not but thank you i wish but no i'm not um i would just say be careful especially in the time of being at home just kind of filter what you're watching because i think that may have an impact on how you view yourself and don't worry i'm preaching to the choir anything i'm saying to you i'm preaching this to myself because i see the same thing like if you're on social media you see exactly what i'm seeing and it's fed to you non-stop and it's like you guys know okay so i've reached out to i'll be i'll be transparent i reached out to fashion nova like hey you know i want to wear some of you guys clothes and model them and they said they responded and they were like oh well you know we're not interested in getting any girls at this time it was like something like that and if you guys want in if you're interested you guys can go to their um i want to say they're fashion nova page and basically you know i think it was their the website like fashionable website and if you scroll to the bottom where it says contact them they have like a contact email for like social media influencers it still should be on there if not then i don't know but remember i google stuff so um yeah that's how i got the email to like email them saying i'm an influencer and i wouldn't mind you know modeling your clothes and like i said they said no and don't worry i wasn't hurt but um i don't have the body type that they advertise for and i'm not saying that's the reason why they didn't accept me or you know put me a part of their program but that could be you know also too i don't have a following like most of the girls who do wear fashion nova that's another thing but you guys got to understand like some of these companies are willing to work with smaller people especially like smaller youtubers smaller influencers because they know your audience is real and that they're willing to support you sometimes when you have these bigger influencers they may have the support but if you go back and look at their analytics and like what are they selling and how much how many people have come to their channel and all that good stuff sometimes that stuff doesn't add up and also too people do have fake followers and that actually shows in your analytics so yeah like stuff gets crazy okay like things get crazy and another thing people do they will sell their like say my instagram say if my instagram had 10 000 people you can get somebody that will come and be like hey can i buy your instagram for three thousand dollars you'll sell your instagram they'll change the name and now they got all of those followers do you get what i'm saying but they paid for it but now now you're on somebody else's page you're like who is this like how did i end up following this person yeah social media gets deep and i read about this online all the time and i see it all the time like i can name like four people right now that i've seen this done and i'm like okay i don't judge you on how you make your money but that's a little crazy but yeah so they said no and then i'll tell you guys i reached out to profusion and you guys know i have like a ton of profusion products that i've purchased myself um because i actually i really do like love their products i love their palettes they're very pigmented they're long lasting and i've used a lot of their stuff on my channel sorry i thought my lash was trying to move look hold on let me see what time it is because i am just rambling okay it's almost 12 30. um but yeah i actually like use these products like the the places that i reach out to are stuff that i've used so it's not like i'm just like throwing you know mud at a wall and just seeing what falls down like i'm literally like going to places that i actually like support and they came back and said we are not um doing pr at this time come back and i want to say the spring i said they said try to apply again in the spring and once again i found their email i found their email on the profusion website and if you go to contact us they have like a separate thing for if you see anything that says like pr like social media like a lot of companies now um basically say like this is our pr email like contact us here if you're an influencer a lot of people like sorry i have like a piece of hair on me a lot of people like have that on their site which is pretty good so that's why i get kind of confused when like people ask me how did i get in contact with these people it's just like if you go like seriously google the page and just like go around the page and look for stuff like contact me that's how you find it now some emails some emails to companies i think you have to directly dm them on instagram so they can see your content how often you upload and of course that plays a factor as well if you are somebody that's very sporadic and you don't upload a lot you know instagram that algorithm is different if you don't upload a lot you're not going to get your content is not going to be seen by a ton of people i'll just put it that way so with any social media website you have to take that into consideration how active are you um how active are you on social media huh huh hold on two seconds i'll be right back i see the whole thing sorry we good i'm here sorry two seconds okay oh he scared me um he thought that we could only see a certain portion of my face and i was like um i think somebody would have told me by now if you guys didn't see me so he's like come here come here um hold on let me get back to my husband said my bad sorry i like totally forgot now what i was talking about um hold on let me grab my let me grab because i have to re-curl my beans let me grab this palette this is my old pro fusion palette that i love oh that's what i was talking about so yeah a lot of these companies of course like i said they don't mind working with smaller people you just have to have content flowing like this and if you don't have time to have content flowing like this of course they're not gonna work with you so like i said you have to take a lot of stuff into consideration and just because one person told you no or five people told you no you never know who's gonna work with you next um maria if you turn your phone i had i clicked his phone if you turn it if you make the screen bigger then it shows my whole face um i had to make i had to make the screen bigger for him if you turn your phone so if you keep it straight up um it's only going to show this portion of my face but if you click the and you still only see my forehead if you make it bigger i think you could see my face let me know okay perfect thank you monique oh you see me now okay perfect you guys i've been wanting one of these brushes um these little fluffy brushes i've been wanting these so bad this is a highlighter brush i always use those fan brushes but this just precisely does everything right oh thank you brittany thank you monique for helping out i appreciate it so i'm gonna spray my brush really quick um and then i'm gonna start to highlight but yeah so just know like i said i get no two like to be honest lately a lot of companies a lot of smaller companies have definitely reached out to me um during all this and i did actually have a really a really big company reach out to me i would probably say like they had like a million subscribers okay that seems pretty bold they had about a million subscriber followers on instagram they did reach out to me and actually they reached out to me i want to say four times to do something with them but the only problem was it's not a product that i use so i just i honestly didn't respond um because it's not something i use and if i'm gonna bring you guys something on my channel it's gonna be stuff that i actually use so i don't know but like i said you know you just have to stay focused in this business you always have to produce content and then the last thing i would probably say about that is you almost have to know someone that's a little bit that's kind of like known in the industry that you're trying to get into i'm not going to say that you need a cosigner but a cosign would definitely help because if you get a cosigner on so if like somebody brings you to their audience uh thank you i mean you have to be i don't get remember what we said 2020 has exposed so many people and it's not gonna stop i think things have to get worse before they can get better and if i'm out here flaunting stuff that i don't really have and stuff's not paid for like like like like i don't know if you guys hear the stories like people say you know a lot of these instagrammers they have you know louis purses they have chanel they have all this stuff but they live with a friend on their couch or they don't have a bed like i actually live in my place like i live in a town home you know um i have a car and the car is paid like my car is paid off uh i have a student loan in like i have a student loan debt that i need to pay off working on it but you got to be real to people and you got to be able to relate to people that's another thing you got to be able to relate but uh yeah i mean if gosh i would be exposed like you're not really living that life like my my wedding ring is paid off you know like we literally we literally like my husband he doesn't play with debt like he does not play with debt and i'm the only person that has the debt he does not have no debt he has no debt but uh yeah i mean we have to pay off my student loan uh what else do we have to pay off oh my dental like i said i you know i was dealing with some dental issues and that's something like that's still considered like a debt and i mean you have insurance but your insurance isn't going to pay for everything i think like my deductible was like 1500 that didn't even nearly cover all the stuff that i had done so it's like i don't know like i said 2020 is just if it's not taking you out it's literally like humbling you a lot if that makes sense so i want to move more towards like a positive note because i'm almost done and like i said ain't nobody gonna see this and honestly i might have to wipe this off when i'm done because this um uh this lip gloss is very like thick on your lips so let me go ahead and line my lips but i want to i want to end on more of a positive note because we could talk about negative stuff literally all day long um and i don't want to do that and you know what to be honest i have never said um this much in my life like i i was honestly like extremely nervous to get on this live because i'm like my supporters are like what is wrong with you like where have you been how come you don't say anything so i was nervous okay let me line my lips really quick let me take a sip of my rockstar this hasn't changed i still live the rockstar life meaning drinking rock stars every time i line my lips facts exactly monique let me just i'll line it on camera but every time if you guys listen to tick tock you know how girls like over line their lips and they're like there's like a um voice like us like i don't know i don't even know what to call it but he's like they're gonna know and she's like who's gonna know and they're like they're gonna know but they think people can't notice that they over line their lips which nothing's wrong with that like i said a lot of this cosmetic like even just having a sinus issue that's dental they're saying this is cosmetic trust me things get expensive okay and this is jordana lip liner and cabernet that's the color okay taking some lip gloss i'd say this lip gloss is thick oh you guys know what i forgot to do to put mascara on my lower lash line let's see my flat iron's right here and i don't want it to fall over because then it's going to burn my desk okay let me put some mascara on my lower lash line i said i haven't seen myself dolled up in a while okay let's just fix oh flat irons almost fell again let me just fix my bangs please please don't fall let me just bring you guys down here like i said i am literally just going to the grocery store the pet store trader joe's which is another grocery store oh thank you right yeah i'm like and to be honest i think to be honest like i really just want to go put my sweatpants on like like i said this lipstick isn't going to last because my mask my mask is literally going to take it right off and then when i take my mask off when i get into the car all of my lipstick is going to be up here which is going to be even funnier so you know what why do i i don't even care i don't care okay let me just spray my face once again um i will in this in this live i'll put like everything in the description i will literally um put all the makeup down that i used so yeah that's it um like i said hold on let me see because i don't want to keep you guys too long so i say i would say on a positive note of kind of just everything going on one thing i will say that i've done it differently this year that i probably haven't really focused on as much oh thank you nicole uh i've prayed a lot this year that i probably i've probably haven't did i probably haven't prayed as much as i ever have um this year i think it's been nothing but prayers for myself my family my friends the world just kind of just with everything going on i would honestly say i've prayed a lot this year um another thing like i said my husband and i were still going strong even in the midst of you know being quarantined together and i think you know what for some people due to quarantine as we said it's kind of just exposed a lot of stuff and i think you got to think we work eight hours a day if not more exactly money you're usually not around your spouse all day long because you're at work for eight hours and now due to quarantine a lot of people work from home the prayers do work you are so right and right today girl uh but yeah i think a lot of family members i mean not family members i think a lot of people don't know how to i'm gonna say don't know how to you just haven't had to be around your spouse that long because you're always at work and now that people are working from home and doing more stuff at home you didn't realize how much space you needed or maybe your house is just not giving you the space that you need inside and the beauty is at least for me i do have a beauty room that i can come down here i can record i can do my makeup down here i can you know get online on on you know on the internet down here oh girl you're at work oh my goodness peace and hair grease why don't i used to say that all the time britney peace and hair grease i love it but yeah he has a man cave that he can go to and actually shut the door um and i'm happy about that i'm happy that a lot of i'm happy that a lot of us and a lot of people that i come into contact with like they told me their stories a lot of people which is good have not been sick and not and have been quarantining quarantining have quarantined um i just want i just want everyone to be well i'm always sending out positive vibes because as we even just heard in this chat there's so much stuff going on just with everybody not just celebrities real life people are going through it as well and i just want to continue to do stuff that uplifts me and i and maria definitely said you know find stuff that makes you happy um think about stuff from like like for me i try to think of stuff that i used to do like when i was younger and try to incorporate that into now another thing that i've done hold on let me go get it let me go get it sorry one thing that has definitely helped me during during quarantine is i've always been someone that likes to journal so i try to journal kind of how i feel what is going on and that kind of stuff so and then if you guys can tell i have like stickers that i add to it just to kind of make it fun and to bring out my personality some of this is like filming notes so i can go back to oh that must have been a long day but yeah i have like my filming notes and how i filmed how long it took for me i have like video ideas i kind of just like write my stuff down um this was like a skincare video i made so i have like the notes from that this is like editing numbers that i have to like go back to uh let's see that was april 11th oh i i was basically seeing all the stuff i needed to go by for this video i had to talk to the universe about the world you know like it's certain things that you have to do to help yourself and only you know what you can do to help yourself especially during this time another thing that i really enjoy are like the word search or word finds i have the jumbo one but these are pretty cool i do like to do word searches in my spare time and sometimes this actually helps me with focusing at work especially since um three days out of the week or i'm sorry four days out of the week i can work from home and so sometimes when i get too stressed and we just have so much stuff going on i just pull out my word search and this kind of helps me with like my anxiety and just trying to get like certain projects done in like a timely manner so i definitely recommend you getting some type of word search sudoku is also good um i at one point and this was like two years ago i really wanted to write a book and i was in the process of writing a book so yeah it's just i don't know i oh i got this from the dollar tree yeah keep yourself busy um yeah definitely just find stuff that makes you happy and then i also keep this stuff hold on i also try to keep just natural stuff at home so this is peppermint and you can roll peppermint like on your temples if you're starting to get a headache you can roll it here it just helps you focus and at least you're focusing on something positive then you know stressing so much like i said a lot of stuff especially with my job is like needs to be done like this and that could be stressful so sometimes i just have to like take a break and walk away i also have tea tree oil as well oh that smells so good but this actually helps relax me too so i'm not like going crazy and then muscle ease now i did get these from the dollar tree and they were probably like the best one dollar investment i ever oh i oh okay i like dropped it all the way but yeah these are amazing hold on i'm like trying to pick it up with my toe yeah so these are pretty amazing as well so the muscle ease so like if my hands start to cramp up i just roll this on my hands because i do a lot of typing and i do wear glasses as well because those screens get so bright and i'm always looking at spreadsheets i'm always doing something in excel so i have to make sure that my eyes are good that my eyes are being protected but yeah this is the stuff that honestly makes me happy and one day my kids can go back and look at this and like girl what were you going through like what is going on with you you know or what was the world like at this time because i'm talking about you know we're in quarantine and we can't leave our houses and that kind of stuff so of course this is going to be in books because this is crazy like this is 2020 has definitely outdone themselves out 2020. okay 2020 has definitely outdone itself so yeah i just want to remind you guys that you're not the only person going through it and i'm i'm like a perfect example and there is so much going on just continue to focus on what's positive and sometimes you do have to stop watching the shows that you were probably watching prior to c19 because like i said just being in the house for some people who are extroverts um and some introverts this is a lot this is taking a toll on you you like to be out with your friends you like to hang out with families you guys like to go out to eat all the time and it's like you can't do that right now or it's very limited or you live at home by yourself and it's just like all this stuff is getting to you so one thing i would say is kind of filter the content that you watch and that what and what you're feeding to yourself because like i said just the example of every girl that got a bbl i was like i said i'm like in shock but don't think this stuff hasn't been you know ingrained in my head too i'm seeing the same exact content you're seeing and you're just like should i look like this everybody else looks like this why am i not doing this you know so don't be so hard on yourself and don't think you have to look like everyone else and like i said i'm i'm preaching to the choir i'm everything i'm saying to you i have to tell myself the same thing so yeah that is my this is literally i'm going to keep this video up i don't know how long but i'm going to try if i'm not going to film i think i'm just going to do i don't i don't want to sit down and do like depressing videos i can't like my my my like brain won't even like allow me to do it because i want to bring joy to you i don't this one has just been intense because i haven't talked to you guys since july and there was so much stuff just going on it was it's so hard to keep up with but um yeah i'm gonna start doing if i don't film a video because lives are so much easier to do and i basically just did my makeup and talked to you guys so if i don't film videos um i think i'm just gonna do like more lives than just getting on here and talking to you guys or doing food lives because i know you guys like when i cook and i i do enjoy i actually really enjoy those and all that good food so um and somebody said on tick tock if you gain weight during covet you're excused because you have an excuse we've been at home and i put agreed because i totally agree i've gained weight during covid so uh yeah i just want everybody to stay focused handle the business that has been that you haven't wanted to deal with kind of get that out the way so 2020 you start fresh like everything is a lot more fresh and although like i said i don't see things getting better yet all things the universe is just talking the universe is like what in the world so keep your head up continue to shine continue to spread positivity to everyone i'm just like my brain can only replay just everything i'm so sorry like i just oh if you guys want me to put the pants on that i was gonna wear it now i think after this i'm not gonna wear this stuff because i don't feel like being i don't feel like being cute hold on let me go get these pants really quick i'll be right back they're just right up here i'm right back huh oh i'm almost done i know hold on okay so this is what i was going to wear and these are like bell bottoms with this cute purse but your girl is too tired to look cute oh say hi man oh you're okay you're okay say hi say hi so this is my chicken oh oh okay so this is my chicken nugget he was dealing with i don't know if he had might it's something that guinea pigs can get so i had to spray him and the stuff that like the itch spray is purple so i'm like and this stuff is so hard to get out oh my goodness so i've already given him a bath to spray it's super hard to get out say hi man they want to say hi oh they want to say oh it's okay it's okay it's okay they want to say hi to you say hi i know he's a lot bigger than most guinea pigs look at this hi man girl nugget is beyond spoiled beyond sir it is okay okay okay here here oh oh he's trying to bite me nugget sir yeah he this he's pretty big and we went to go look at more guinea pigs yesterday and just to see the size of him he is that's okay man so this is how big he is you're okay i don't have your snacks down here i'm sorry but yeah so like i said i will be back with another live i don't want to tell you guys when oh your daughter likes him here i'll turn nugget they want to say hi to you they like you say hi say hi friends say hi so i was upstairs just eating away um yeah they're not supposed to be this big nugget is beyond spoiled nugget i i gotta hold you a certain way so you don't fall sir i know i know i know so yeah i'm not gonna make any promises but i will try to do more lives and like i said this one was just long because i just had to get a lot of stuff off my chest and i wanted to make sure you guys were okay especially during quarantine um and flu season is around well actually no it's flu season now so there's still a lot going on at this time so i want everybody to be well take care of your friends take care of your families if you guys have little small animals take care of them as well nugget you why are you looking come here he is looking crazy uh take care of your friends your families your pets uh check on everybody especially during this time and i will probably be answering questions in the comments i will stay online for about 20 minutes and then i'm gonna get out of here i'm gonna go upstairs and change really quick and then i'm to jump online just answer some questions and then we'll come back um and then i'll come back and do a live uh sometime soon so yes thank you monique everybody take care nugget says bye-bye and i will talk to you all soon bye have a good evening don't be out here in these streets partying i know atlanta is crazy right now thank you maria thank you so much i really appreciate it you guys have a wonderful evening and i will talk to you guys soon

Channel: Natashia Pickett

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Id: 5VtZ8M712OQ

Length: 126min 14sec (7574 seconds)

Published: Sun Oct 04 2020