I want you to hear a story because you love stories of This wonderful man's personal change and transformation, this is Bryce About ten years ago. I had an experience where I Had lost the power in my right hand side I was dizzy. I was generally not feeling very well so I went along to my GP or general practitioner in the UK and She had a chat with me and I went home a Short while later she Phoned the house and said could you come back in please? after the surgery's closed My partner Alison said that's not a good thing So I went into the surgery and the look in her face wasn't particularly good And I wasn't really expecting anything But when I sat down she said she looked at me with a rather serious face and she said I'm sorry to tell you you've got MS That seemed a bit of a shock as I wasn't really expecting that. I kind of went, Right I got referred to a neurologist and the neurologist without any testing interestingly Said yes, you've got MS and we'll send you for an MRI and do this sort of stuff and We'd like you to take some drugs that will mediate your symptoms and I said no. I don't have MS. That's not possible At which point he said you're in denial? And I said, no I don't have MS and deep down I actually did know The MS was just a label for a series of symptoms. My body was showing I Went home made a few minor changes in my life And they were very small and all the symptoms disappeared That's great I was right never the less And I mean I progressed on and Probably about five years ago. I started getting other symptoms and They seemed to get washed in it, but I think it yeah but five years ago I ended up falling down two flights of stairs Getting this ligaments in my ankle but That seemed to heal but my walking slowly deteriorated And I've done lots of things and the treatment takes it's toll. Okay. I'll try this. I'll try that and clear emotional stuff and lots of things made little differences But the whole time I thought I'm creating this But I really didn't know how and it was I Think I find that more stressful than anything else so S Monday we arrived and registration was like effortless. Thanks to our help here and I arrived and Allison pushed me in a wheelchair on Monday, I could I couldn't walk up a couple of steps and I couldn't have walked the back of the room. I was basically any distance over 10-15 meters I was Needing to be pushed in a wheelchair But with a great night on Monday night, um, and you can see, the first time. you can see my legs shaking everyone It's been doing that all week one time thing and So Tuesday morning we came in Tuesday was an amazing day At what time getting pushed around in a wheelchair and trying to walk a little bit Don't know what day the walking meditation was actually but the walking meditation... Thursday Thursday. Yeah, so I I didn't even know what today is So the first day I would sitting around in the wheelchair I noticed some changes Which was great. So the second day I managed to do quite A bit of walking around I was actually spending a lot walking walked downstairs to breakfast and things and It was like wow, that's amazing I took a decision on Tuesday that and The wheelchair was going to stay at the hotel And Because I wasn't going to need it and It felt true, and I didn't know how it was going to change so the next day I was For any who saw me around I was struggling a bit roundabout, but I kept my body kept changing as I was doing the meditation So I was getting different changes. I was feeling vibrations and I was feeling little bits of energy moving. I was coming up against myself quite a bit. and I Did the walking meditation I Got... I wanted to walk up to the place Unfortunately, I'm I wasn't quite able to do that yet. So I got the bus up. I took one look at the slope and went oooh no And I had this whole internal chatter going on what you slept what you call Whole story and I just went no I'm doing this, you know, whatever it takes. I'm doing it So I put my headphones on found a wee space at the sides got into the meditation and then started to walk And the whole way down it was Literally moment to moment. I do one step one step one step And I got right to the bottom of the hill and The meditation goes like stop close your eyes. I close my eyes and my whole body started to shake it was So intense, I didn't know if I could hold it I Started sobbing the tears were running down my face I heard myself make some noises Luckily I had noise-reduction headphones on so I didn't have to listen to myself And after it I looked at the hill and thought wow, but climb up that hill and I Put meditation back, you know kept a meditation running and walked all the way up the hill and came back here and It's since then, it's just kept changing Moment by moment Genes are up regulating others are down regulating my walking is changing really really quickly and Then it stopped and then it was back But yesterday I had probably the most profound Insights ever and I was sitting across here just after lunch and I was thinking about my Why is it sort of going back and forward? that doesn't make sense from and one minute. I'm walking ok the next minute I'm almost back in time and I was thinking about Having my... by the way, my intent for the week was to get over myself So I was sitting there and I made this realization this and what I heard from my mouth, was "I can't pick and choose what I keep". I Have to let the... Have to let her all go and add the tears running down my face again And anyway I thought I better go to toilet before we start. I went to the toilet and As I went in I moved into a different space and a trance of some sort and I was shown three pictures and three points in my life At the same time the first one was an incident when I was 18 and Scotland's got quite a drinking culture at times and I was having a drinking competition with some friends when I was 18 and That we started off with vodka and orange we ran out of orange. So we went on to vodka Fanta And for those of you who don't know what Fanta is. Um, it's a fizzy orange And I Was feeling a bit sick afterwards and I went through to toilets and interestingly the coincidences of the toilet And I thought I just gone into the toilet but I ain't come out again Apparently I was in the toilet for seven hours So, yeah So when I came out of the toilets, um There was quite a few angry friends by the fact. I had hogged the toilet the whole night I also was in a bit of shock because how could I lose six or seven hours of my life and I Then was promptly sick over their dog and I mean really over the dog. They have a lovely lovely collie and So the collie got got it and and I was in such a Emotional state they made a big decision that I would never let myself get out of control again ever and I would I Know I know it put limits on my life so that I would always be safe I thought wow the second time was I spent three weeks cycling around rural, Uganda and One of the things that people we were I was a charity and they said if you're on the road and A lorry is coming or a car get out of the way because in this country they will just take you out so you really need to look after yourself and It had been raining I was going down a steep hill about 30 miles an hour and at this point my bike slid from beneath me and All I can say was Has anybody seen those kung fu films where people jump through the air and I like doing supernatural things That happened to me. I Went into the air, my bike went skidding down underneath the lorry. I Landed running perfectly safe. I felt like somebody had lifted me up and gently put me down And that whole Experience was in the moment going with the flow unpredictable The third picture I was shown in together was when I went to Peru and I spent three months living in Peru and as I went through That that time when I arrived the person I'm supposed to meet wasn't there so I had three months unpredictable traveling with shamans Should people medicine women who said she'd met me before in an astral plane that freaked me out a bit and I Did amazing things in a country that You know, I didn't know I know the whole time I felt safe and what I realized was like wow I was a different person When I was in through and I was a different person When I was in Uganda because the environment was so different and then the voice said, "so You're safe when you let go and trust and you're not safe When you try to control And keep yourself safe So having got that insight in the toilet And I Stepped out the toilet the back there With the two sticks I was using at that point And just stood up with the sticks and held them like that and walked right across the back And for good three hours yesterday afternoon I was um vibrating like the whole, my legs were vibrating a very high frequency and I was so looked after yesterday went up to the garden and grounded and just Stepped into a new version myself on the way back for the afternoon meditation. I was walking from the garden to the left and I wasn't walking the sticks I was just holding Alison's shoulder just to keep me steady and asked her to speed up a bit Because I was walking too slow I Took three steps and on the fourth step my leg stopped working and I started to fall But I caught myself and Alison caught me so I didn't fall but the moment before it happened I caught the thoughts going through my head and It was a thought of me with the two sticks and That thought put me straight back into the past And in that moment I realized then How easy it would be to slip back asleep and go back into old patterns So Alison was kind enough to hide the sticks from me and (incomprehensible) But I start with that when how could a single thought have such a powerful impact and then I realized Because I thought like I'll need to get rid of the sticks altogether and oh be it.. They're quite useful And then I had insight it's not the sticks. That was the problem. Stick are just sticks The problem was the Association I had with the sticks and what it meant to me So I changed that and I can use the stick now just as it's a useful and I'm on one now But it so useful just a point stability while i'm certainly going up and down steps and things But I realized how powerful for me that predictable future is And then I had insight about But there's other people have a predictable future for me as well and if i'm going back How will they see me? I Thought right. I don't you think about their predictable futures for me and my predictable future. So to me and Then I thought actually Know I don't. the only thing I have to think about is me stepping into the unknown Because actually provided I do that I'm greater than my environment And it doesn't really matter I recognize I've got a way to go and I have been accused of being impatient in the past and I Feel I should be running already And I'm changing by the minute, I mean I can feel my body changing as I'm standing up here I Feel like I've been given the gift of some amazing insights for myself Which will help me make it sustainable Rather than slipping back into an old pattern. I Just don't know what's happening next and that's okay Because I don't need to set limits anymore. I don't need to control anymore and It's gonna be okay Now You came here in a wheelchair And pretty limited and You've noticed changes in your body that allow you to move easier that you feel like you've improved I I just don't want you to get caught up in the Analysis of this process the insights are important But you just got to keep going you got to keep in training that nervous system You got to keep surrendering to that frequency You got to become more of it and less of you and let your body catch up. It will catch up So the more you have those moments like you did in the walking meditation where you felt your heart open? it is, you know as those effects that are the most important for your body because now your body's chemically Responding to your mind your body's getting new information from your mind. Not from the experience, but from your mind It's that process Bryce that begins to select and instruct the proper genes and down regulate the other genes. So There's a change going on in your body and I want you to get caught up in the surrendering into that frequency into becoming and Mental rehearsing your walking mental rehearsing your standing mental rehearsing, you know, really? You know work on feeling what you feel and improving it all of those things add to it and by the same means if your body's tired and You've taken it to the limit our bodies get tired and you have to be respectful of your body at times too and let it rest and Let it repair and let it catch up and not push it and have it be about Forcing it into the future, but having it take you into the future You understand? Did he do beautifully or what?
