hi beautiful people it's Jacy. no it's not a joke
i actually am in fact a beauty school dropout, and today i'm gonna cut my hair. i've
been wanting to cut my hair for so long i have like, if you can't tell, which i'm sure
you can, there's a bit of a difference between this and this this. this is all my healthy like
grown out hair and then this is all of the dead, has been bleached before. i used to be blonde.
back in the day. wasn't my decision. some moments it was fun some moments it wasn't, but i had
to do it because i used to be in like plays and stuff and after the third time that i got my hair
bleached, i decided i was absolutely never going to go blonde again. now i mean you never know
what the future holds, but the last time i did it, my scalp was burning so much that I cried. cried
silently don't worry, didn't cause a big scene, but oh my god it felt like acid, cause it kind of
was, is on my head. so before you bleach your hair just think about it again, and then maybe don't
do it. or maybe do it because like you know what life's short so just have fun. i've been needing
to trim it because now when it goes to like here down i mean honestly more up too but here down
especially it is dead. so dead. and i want to have long hair like i want to grow my hair out
again, but i kind of like can't take it anymore so i'm going to cut it. i'm going to do it.
it's going to be fine. i'm here in my bathroom. i'm a little bit nervous. i've been cutting
my hair for a really long time though, i for some reason don't really like going to salons.
which I mean, should have been my first red flag. and also i don't want to pay for it, if i could
do it by myself. i really don't care about my hair either i never do my hair. i have my hair in
kind of a like a v ish,, or kind of i don't know, it wasn't intentional, and then it was. we're
gonna probably go along with that same thing because i kind of like it i kind of like
having it like a little bit shorter in the front and like a little bit longer in the
back. so i'm just gonna take my little brush why is this the hardest part for me is just to get
the freaking part to be even? and i'm gonna do the left side first. thankfully because i did go to
cosmetology school i have scissors. real, actual cosmetology scissors, I know. hopefully
you can see what i'm doing sorry if you can't. i mean like i was pretty good i guess
like at the whole cosmetology thing i just i just didn't feel like it was my thing, i
didn't feel like it was my path, i didn't feel like it was where i was supposed to be in
life. i just wanted to follow my little heart, i wanted to do what my instincts were telling me
to do. so then i won't regret it later in life. if you're thinking of doing something right now
or currently doing something right now and it's not really what you feel like you should be doing
this is your sign to do the thing that you think that you should be doing even if it's what people
don't think that you should be doing. you should do what you feel is right for you because
at the end of the day all you have is you, so you should follow your own heart. all right.
okay, i'm gonna do this. were gonna do this. so dead. this is so dead. do you see that versus
that? it's not right my friend. first chop. oh my god. do y'all cut y'all's own hair? if so, what's the
worst haircut you've ever gotten, and what's the best? you don't even have to tell me just think
about it it might make you laugh a little bit, you know, might make ya giggle. one time i shaved
this little uh widow's peak thing that I have, it's like a mini one. people go through random
phases where they just hate something about themselves and, it's so random and strange
and then they change it and then they regret changing it because they realize that changing it
made it worse than whenever it was already there just the way it was in the first place and then
you're like, oh man. and then you have to wait like a couple months for it to grow back and you
have to put this these little hairs in a little twist. put them in a bobby pin every single day.
i didn't have very much variation on how i did my hair when i was younger i kind of just threw my
hair in a ponytail or yeah pretty much that's it. oh! it's so satisfying. oh i'm gonna have such a
mess to clean up. why does my hand already hurt? i mean it's not gonna be that good but you all
already know that because duh. but i mean it's not gonna be the worst. you may be asking, Jacy,
why would you even go to cosmetology school in the first place? what is it that made you want to
go? and i will tell you. i used to be obsessed with makeup. i used to love doing people's makeup
especially other people's makeup. i'm pretty lazy with how I look, and i mean i'm sure that's pretty
apparent because i pretty much wear sweats every day. i'm not that good at makeup though, like
i'm good at like making people's face look like natural, more natural, than more like glammed up.
but then i was like maybe i'll be good at hair, but i was like really nervous about it because i
was like maybe i'm not gonna like it, and i ended up being pretty good at it, and i kind of liked it
was pretty therapeutic. it's just i was like this is not right. like something doesn't feel right.
i didn't really fit in in the environment, i feel like i was really quiet which is really strange
because i'm usually pretty outgoing. i mean i do have a lot of social anxieties. but those are
more so like with people at like random strangers at gas stations or something like that like that
type of stuff is what freaks me out. going to the grocery store really scares me actually. i was
trying to go to the grocery store for like two freaking weeks but i was just so scared to go i
just didn't want to see anyone because i am scared to go places alone as i have said probably 20
000 times on this channel i finally went and i um almost started crying as i was leaving because my
heart was going crazy. i have like unintentional bangs, little tiny like pieces of hair that always
come out of my ponytails and stuff because when i bleached my hair it just like fell off. so much
of my hair fell off the lady was brushing my hair, and hair was literally just falling off so much i
was like girl can you just stop brushing. because when you bleach your hair and then you wet it
it's weak as hell. i'm almost done with this side. i went to the grocery store this morning actually
super early so nobody was there when I went. the power went out at the grocery store, because
there's been like winter issues. and so all of the frozen food apparently was spoiled and
all of the dairy was spoiled which made me so sad. like all that food went to waste, and it
genuinely bothered me for like a really long time. and i felt very bad for all of the work and all
the animals that went into all of that food and it all just went to waste, and i'm just like damn.
i hope you're doing good i hope everybody is okay everybody's safe i've been doing okay lately. oh
my god honestly so far this is not going bad at all. why do we take hair so seriously also, why do
we take that super super seriously? should be fun, we should just be able to cut our own hair
randomly whenever we feel like it like it's my hair mom, if i want to cut my hair i'm going to
cut my hair. not that made my mom argue about that i know some people's moms do get on them about
that if your mom gets on you about that I'm sorry. you're beautiful and perfect the way you are she
doesn't even be doing that you're wonderful your hair is fabulous and you can wear it however
you want it's your choice buddy, your choice. i'm cutting my hair off and it doesn't even look
bad. look at that it looks so much healthier than the other part. wow i kind of cut off a good
amount but i cut off as much as i wanted to. it's fine. do you like this look?
should i do this from now on? cheers. why do i feel like this side is gonna
be harder? okay so this is how it turned out. this is what it looks like. i have no
idea what it looks like from the back do not judge me do not cry do not laugh, okay,
all right. how does it look? does it look bad? you can tell me. does it look bad? so i'm just
gonna take the front section. let's do this. that did not go as planned. okay, uh.
didn't exactly go how i wanted it to go but now we're here. it's oh... no... so this side
is just never going to turn out the way that I want it to. all right so that's something that's
interesting. sorry to tell you cosmetologists that have to see this. all right so that's the
finished look i don't hate it i don't love it honestly don't really care that much it kind of
looks kind of interesting kind of fun kind of strange kind of. it's fine, i have hair on my
feet. that's so gross. look at all that hair i chopped all that off my head. thank you so much
for watching, i really appreciate it. thank you for putting up with me, could be better. uh could
be a lot better, actually. one day i'll go to a hairstylist, i'll get my hair professionally
done. so this is how i'm gonna look in the next videos. hopefully that doesn't deter you away from
watching my videos. if you're watching this video right now i really really appreciate you and i
really really really think you are special and i'm very thankful for you and i hope that you
have a wonderful day and i hope that you have a fabulous day and i hope that your family is doing
okay and i hope that your friends are doing okay. i will see you in the next one, bye.
