Atheist College Professor dies and sees hell and demons. It changed his life, part 1

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I was a 38 year old college professor and I taught art and I had taken a group of students and my wife and we had gone around Europe and we just done three-week tour and this was the next to the last day and we were in Paris and at 11 o'clock in the morning I had a perforation of my stomach when this happened the pain was the most acute pain had ever experienced my life and it just dropped me right down on the ground and so I'm twisting and kicking and mourning and screaming and yelling around on the floor and my wife called an emergency called the desk and they called an emergency service a doctor came and he called an ambulance because he knew what was wrong and they took me about eight miles across town to the public hospital to the General Hospital Paris where I was taken into emergency examined by two more doctors who knew exactly what was wrong and then they took me away to the surgery Hospital which was a couple of blocks away and I was parked there because there wasn't any surgeon available to do the surgery and so there I lay for eight to ten hours in that hospital with no medication no examination no attention whatsoever awaiting a surgeon to come to give me this operation that was critical and it's now 8:30 at night nurse came and said that they were very sorry they weren't able to get a doctor filling that get one the next day well when she said that I knew that it was over for me I knew that I was dead the only thing that was keeping me alive was I didn't want to die I was scared to death of dying because as far as I knew I was a atheist non-believer person who live for their gratification that could get out of the moment and I'm like dying to me was like the worst I mean next to the pain diamond was the worst thing that could happen to you because the end of life and there wasn't no more that wasn't anything else but when she said that the idea of trying to exist for another minute another hour in this pain it wasn't worth than anymore I'd been hanging on in the hopes that they told me that they'll get a doctor and do the surgery and opened me up and and fix the problem inside of me even when they said they couldn't get one so I said to my wife it's time for us to say goodbye cuz I'm gonna die now and she got up and she put her arms around me I'm lying on the bed and she tell me how much she loved me and I told her how much I loved her and this makes me really sad and you may not goodbyes yeah said those things that you'd say to that we've been married 20 years say all those kinds of things I can't take his just start crying but she finally sat down because she knew it was over and I knew and it's just so hard looking at her crying like that and I just closed my eyes just let it go I went unconscious I probably was unconscious for a very short while a few minutes of probably and I was conscious again and I looked opened my eyes and looked and I was standing up next to my bed and I knew exactly where I was and what the situation was I mean there was no confusion in my mind I felt more alive more real than I've ever felt in my life even people asked me you know we were ghosts I was the opposite I was just the opposite very aligned as I'm looking around the room I see that there's underneath the sheet on the bed there's something under the sheet a body and so I bent over the bed the head was turned away from me I looked at the face and it looked like me but that was impossible because I was standing there I'm alive I'm great you know I mean I'm more than great I'm like you know and so I tried to talk to my wife you know she couldn't hear me or see me but I thought but she just was ignoring me so I got very angry at her for ignoring me for not paying attention to me and I'm screaming in yelling at her what's going on here why why is this body in the bed that looks like me and how to get there and stuff like not a sneaking suspicion that the body in the bed was me but I didn't want to think about that because that was too scary so I'm getting really agitated and upset because this is all too weird you know this can't be happening it's impossible and I've got a hospital gown on it's like really everything's really real and I hear people calling me outside the room and they're saying to me and soft gentle voices Howard you got to come with us now come quickly come out here so I go over the doorway of the room and there's people out in the hallway in there um the hallways dank it's gray it's not it's not light or dark it's just gray and they're all in grayness and they're men and women and what they're wearing might possibly be Hospital uniforms and I asked them if they were from the doctor to take me to the operation I told him I said I'm really sick and I gotta have an operation and I'm gonna die if I don't get this operation I was supposed to have the operation eight hours ago and I tell him all this stuff they're going we you know we know we know we understand I left the wrong which was real clear bright and went into the hallway which was dank and hazy and followed these people we had a very long journey there's no there's no time and whenever I make a reference to time it's just an illusion because there was no timeless place but this journey if I were to recreate it I'd have to walk like from Nashville to Louisville or something to to recreate the the walk with these people and as we walked they stayed around me and kept moving me on and I kept getting darker and darker they were becoming more and more openly hostile to me first they were sort of syrupy sweet to get me to go with them and then let us go along with him it's like hurry up keep moving you know shut up stop asking quit you know it started getting more and so get into complete darkness I'm absolutely terrified as people are very hostile I don't know where I am I said I'm not gonna go with you any further they said you're almost there and we started to fight I just I was trying to get away from them they were pushing and pulling at me and they're now a lot of them what originally had been like a handful now was since it was darkness women made hundreds or thousands I don't have no idea and they're playing with me you know clearly who've just destroyed me if they wanted to they didn't want to destroy me what they wanted to do was they wanted to inflict pain on me because they derived pleasures in the right word but they'd to live derive satisfaction out of the pain that I experienced so what they were doing in the beginning part was it's real hard for me to talk about and I don't and I'm not going to tell you much about it just a little bit because it gets I mean it just gets to ugly but the initially they were at luck tearing and biting tearing with her females scratching gouging ripping biting [Music] try to defend myself trying to fight them off trying to get away from them with this it's like being beyond if they're just hundreds of them all over me and I eventually was just laying on the ground they're all ripped up pain everywhere inside outside and even harder to bear than the physical pain was the emotional pain of what it just happened to me the utter degradation that I just experienced you know I never once felt that it was unjust or wrong I heard my voice it wasn't somebody else's voice it wasn't a voice of God or anything was my voice and I heard it speak but I didn't speak it so whether it's the voice of my conscience sir I don't know what it was it was just but I distinctly heard my voice stay pretty cotton so I thought to myself I don't believe in God I'm pretty god thing even if I could pray don't know how to pray anymore haven't prayed and at that time I probably hadn't cried in 22 23 years it's something unlike one when I was a child and we said prayers in Sunday school and we said prayers in church what did we say and I'm trying to think of that I'm trying to think of it because that to me to pray was to recite something that I'd learned that's what that's what I thought a prayer was that so I'm let's say Laura's my shepherd give us this day our daily bread my country tis of thee no that's not a prayer as well let's see yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death four score and seven years ago our four foot you know I'm getting all mixed up I can't remember how to pray and then the people who around me if I every time I'd like mention God these people who had attacked me and beaten me hurts haven't mentioned one It was as if mentioning God was throwing boiling water on they would shriek they would scream they would yell and in worst profanity that than anything I've ever heard in this world the other thing that was happening was that they would they couldn't bear to be around me talking about God it was so it was so painful for them to hear about God that they kept backing away backing away backing away and so had a sense that I could push them away by talking about God and so I'm trying to remember prayers and I'm getting all confused and mixed up and it was just all I'm crazy and I'm lying there and eventually I realized that they're gone and I'm long now I was alone there for an eternity and what I mean by that was absolutely no sense of time but I thought about my life thought about what I'd done and what I hadn't done I thought about the situation is I miss the conclusion that I came to was is that I had lived an entirely my adult life I had lived a selfish life my only god in my adult life was myself I realized that I was in something terribly terribly wrong with my life and that the people that attacked me the same kind of people that I was they were not meat monsters they weren't demons there were people who had missed it the put the point of being born and being alive in this world they'd missed it and had lived lives of selfishness and cruelty and now we're in a world where there was nothing else nothing but selfishness and cruelty and they were doomed to inflict that upon each other and upon themselves probably forever and ever and ever and ever but on him and now I was a part of it and it seemed like although I didn't want to be there it seemed like probably the right place for me to be there was a sense of like this is what I deserve because this is what I lived you can't imagine how emotionally painful -

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Channel: JULIETT ZOYA

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Keywords: Atheism (Religion), Hell (Quotation Subject), Jesus Christ (Deity), Lord, God, Bible, Demon (Character Species), Salvation, Heaven, Death, Near-death Experience (Literature Subject), Truth, Light, Inspiration

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Length: 13min 27sec (807 seconds)

Published: Fri Oct 03 2014

Reddit Comments

“It took major brain damage for me to finally believe in god!”

Yikes.

👍︎︎ 31 👤︎︎ u/sour-eggs 📅︎︎ Jul 25 2019 🗫︎ replies

The brain malfunctioning when under stress and deprived of nutrients is not proof of magic.

And I'm sorry this man suffered from brain damage.

👍︎︎ 19 👤︎︎ u/CerebralBypass 📅︎︎ Jul 25 2019 🗫︎ replies

Is this supposed to scare me? Which God did he see out of the thousands that "exist"?

👍︎︎ 13 👤︎︎ u/Albernalz 📅︎︎ Jul 25 2019 🗫︎ replies

I don't think that's what 'dies' means.....

👍︎︎ 11 👤︎︎ u/SeoulGalmegi 📅︎︎ Jul 25 2019 🗫︎ replies

He didn’t die. He had a near death experience. If he was dead he’d be dead. Hallucinations are no proof that an afterlife exists.

👍︎︎ 8 👤︎︎ u/EddieAdams007 📅︎︎ Jul 25 2019 🗫︎ replies

Lmao.

What if I'm a Satanist and want to see that?

👍︎︎ 6 👤︎︎ u/Albernalz 📅︎︎ Jul 25 2019 🗫︎ replies

Well I'm convinced, where should i start sending my cheques?

👍︎︎ 4 👤︎︎ u/Loyal-North-Korean 📅︎︎ Jul 25 2019 🗫︎ replies