Alec Benjamin & BoyWithUke Playlist

girl i hope you understand i wanted to hold your hand but i can't wanted to be your man back then and you knew i fell for you but you just broke my heart into i was sad mad and broken on my bad hoping i got rid of all the voices in my head i was opening a packet of an undeveloped man when i was met with a prescription of a bullet made of ladder when i woke up in an hour in a pool of mine sweat i said i swear to god i'll never even try to sleep against started writing evidence and when i started making sense i found that i had reached the annual i'm upset i have no friends you wanna bet you just pretend you're just a packing five within the lines of writing i thought i stopped my psychopathic ways i swear i did i said i [Music] stuck in the past i said that girl i hope you understand i wanted to hold your hand but i can't want it to be your man back then and so far never held you with my arms so it's hard to be the one you aren't with instead filled with anxiety always was a part of me guess i'm not cut out somebody cuz it's not me i'm not used to all the talking wasn't introvert that had converted feelings since i'm writing used to cope with all my problems usually notes and lots of rhyming used to hope for better days whenever next would have been crying i'm not [Music] [Music] [Music] too bad i know i can't wake up because i've lost my way and you don't give a about me this could be a dream i can't see the things that you see so please so girl i hope you understand i wanted to hold your hand but i can't wanted to be your man back then and you had known and played along you were my home i wrote you songs now you're dead to me effectively remove yourself outside my dreams [Music] she told me that she loved me by the water fountain she told me that she loved me and she didn't love him and that was really lovely cause it was innocent but now she's got a cup with something else in it it's getting kind of blurry at a quarter past 10. and he was in a hurry to be touching her skin she's feeling kind of dirty when she's dancing with him [Music] and whispering in her ear and she knows that she shouldn't listen and that she should be with me by the water fountain she couldn't be at home in the nighttime because it made her feel alone but at that time [Music] the moment that she told me that she wasn't loved too young i watched [Music] you [Music] and if she ever goes back to the water fountain the handle will be broken and the rust set in but my hand it will be open and i'll try to fix it my heart it will be open and i'll try to give it now i'm grabbing her hips and pulling her in kissing her lips and whispering in her ear and i know [Music] to you [Music] but at that time she was too young [Music] the moment that she told me that she wasn't alive to you i watched [Music] the moment that she told me [Music] two [Music] [Music] this ain't good [Music] sorry please excuse me for my mess my heart's been pouring through my chest i fell through corridors of broken floors i'm sorry that i laughed [Music] [Music] huh [Music] i don't feel serene no i don't feel too clean [Music] and i don't want to be the one to make you cry i'll play inside i'll start a fight i'll tell your friends that i lost my mind it'll take a while but i start to smile broken with those broken toes [Music] sorry please excuse me for my mess my heart's been pouring through [Music] fell asleep [Music] [Music] left right my eyesight is diminishing my life sucks at night i try to finish it early pearly whites get blurry shortly i'll go bite the dirty dust cuts degrasse my head goes [Music] from hurting those around you yeah after all these years i found you i found you sorry please excuse me [Music] my door i'm left with love [Music] i built a friend with three pieces plastic and a pen i made him on the table in the den i gave him my old cell phone for a head for a head and we spent holidays in my house and we left presents in a stocking and we bought bolts and things and strings and that's what he got and we had so much fun together we knew we'd be friends forever and we had so much fun together we had so much fun then i left for college in september and we wept cause we can't be together so i kept pictures to remember my old friend my old friend then i met this girl at graduation and forget my oldest creation and i guess i'll see your next vacations and my best i send my best and we had so much we had so much fun together we had so much fun i came home to find him on the table with a note scribbled out in pencil and he wrote that he just wasn't stable all alone alone next to him an empty glass of water that he spilled all over the body that i built it fizzled and it popped and then it killed and then it killed and we had so much [Music] i built a friend you were caught in a lie you said it with your eyes set up on my homies that you weren't even mine you didn't think twice got a heart made of ice and that hit me timmy dirty i never asked why and i never did cry i never told another how i felt inside demons don't hide when i'm dreaming at night and i won't mislead you you'll miss me cause i don't give a about you no more give me bad melodies [Music] i don't mind if we speak again i don't wanna be cool i don't wanna be friends leave me half a live all my homies you was flirty fill me up with lies and you did me so dirty cause i don't give a about you no more left me bleeding with my heart on the floor you were never really mine i was never really yours you're the demon on my shoulder i'm just trying to ignore and i don't give a about your fake ass friends hollywood hills where we play pretend i don't wanna say i'm sorry i don't wanna make a mess i will never [Music] that's so funny [Music] [Music] behind your harmless pretty face and i know you're running out of other options live in your head wren free and neurotoxin and i wake up every morning with a smile on my face knowing full well you were put up for adoption oh yeah i went there but honestly i don't care you never try to play fair with me lefty broken with scars making all these remarks from now this is the part where i leave cause i don't give a about you no more give me bad bodies [Music] [Music] [Music] this night is cold in the kingdom i can feel you fade away from the kitchen to the bathroom sinking your steps keep me awake don't cut me down throw me out leave me here to waste i once was a man with dignity and grace now i'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace so please please could you find a way to let me down slowly a little sympathy i hope you can show me if you wanna go then i'll be so [Music] if you're leaving baby let me down slowly cool skin drag my feet on the tile as i'm walking down the corridor and i know we haven't talked in a while so i'm [Music] please baby let me down slowly let me down baby let me down slowly and i can't stop myself from [Music] [Music] from [Music] [Music] a little sympathy i hope you can show me if you wanna go then i'll be so lonely if you're leaving baby let me down slowly let me down down down baby let me down slowly all my friends are toxic or ambition they're so rude and always negative i need new friends but it's not that quick and easy i'm better you know [Music] don't want to admit it i'm running [Music] out for help but you never showed me when i was ringing your cell phone oh you don't know how it feels [Music] i fell into your river that's where you told me lies you said that i feel better but this is where good guys died he took my pride away but you [Music] though i'm feeling kinda [Music] [Music] but you never show for me when i was ringing your [Music] the devil doesn't bargain [Music] it's useless don't do this it's yours to try he's ruthless you knew this i told [Music] and just like before i can see that you're sure you can change [Applause] [Music] i don't need to meddle but the devil doesn't settle no the devil doesn't bother [Music] i just want what's best for you in the end i know you don't want to let go [Music] darling never gonna change [Music] [Music] [Music] but i [Music] he'll only break your heart again it isn't worth it darling he's never gonna change he'll never be prince charming he'll only do your harm again i don't mean to meddle but the devil doesn't know [Music] apple doesn't bargain [Music] [Applause] [Music] i still don't know how to let go [Music] sorry i don't mean i've been fights and feelings cause i know that i'm too shy to make looking at tutorials on youtube [Music] [Music] [Music] stay inside [Music] fight don't ask me how i spend my free time yet don't ask me why don't ask me hi hello i'm quite a shy fellow you're not [Music] benchmarks [Music] when i was younger now i'm driving down the street to see my friends and i've been fights and feelings cause i know that i'm too shy to make looking up tutorials on youtube [Music] well i shook hands with the devil down on the south side and he bought us both a drink with a pad and a pencil sat by his side i said tell me what you think i've been looking for my savior looking for my truth i even asked my shrink he brought me down to his level said son you're not special you won't find him where you think you won't find him down on sunset or at a party in the hills [Music] and it's a crying shame you came all this way cause you won't find jesus in the lake and it's a crying shame you came home this way cause you won't find jesus [Music] took a sip of this whiskey said now that you're with me while i think that you should stay yeah i know you've been busy searching through the city so let me share the weight i know i'm not your savior no i'm not your truth but i think we could be friends he said come down to my level hang out with the devil let me tell you in the end you won't find him down on sunset i wrote a party in the hills [Music] jesus in your life and it's a crunching you came all this way cause you won't find jesus [Music] you won't find him down on sunset or at a party in the hills at the bottom of the bottle oh when you're tripping on some pills [Music] and it's a crying shame you came all this way cause you won't find jesus in l.a i won't find him down on sunday in the hills [Music] [Music] i feel so lost i feel so proud you're poisoned through my thoughts boy you look amazing in your gown i'm feeling great i'm feeling down wishing i could see how you could end up in my arms i know that you're not perfect for me [Music] it makes me feel so tired it makes me rhyme so hard i see your lovely eyes they're hazel colored cloudy like the sky my own mind [Music] but i don't mind whoa [Music] i feel so far [Music] and [Music] am i just going insane i swear we've done this before i can't just relive this pain but i keep searching for more i see your lovely eyes they're hazel colored cloudy like the sky my own mind i think i might die inside [Music] it was 6 48 i was walking home stepped to the gate and i'm all alone i had chicken on the plate but the food was cold then i covered on my face so that no one knows i didn't want trouble i'm the boy in the bubble but then came trouble when my mom walked into the living room she said boy you gotta tell me what they did to you i said you don't wanna know the things i had to do she said son you gotta tell me why you're black and blue i said i didn't want trouble i'm the boy in the bubble but then came trouble and my heart was pumping just was screaming [Music] punch my face [Music] every time you curse my name i know you want the satisfaction [Music] [Music] him up left my chest expose he threw a quick left hook and it broke my nose i had thick red blood running down my clothes and a sick sick look cause i liked it though i said i didn't want trouble i'm the boy in the bubble but then came trouble and my heart was pumping chest was screaming [Music] punch my face [Music] i know you want the satisfaction [Music] he was walking home with the blood on his hands from a broken nose but like every other day he was scared to go back to his house because his pops was home drowning his troubles and whiskey bubbles just looking for trouble well there's no excuse for the things he did but there's a lot at home that he's dealing with because his dad's been drunk since he was a kid and i hope one day that'll say to him put down those bubbles in that belt buckle in this broken bubble [Music] punch my you face my name i know you want the satisfaction [Music] [Music] suffer [Music] i think we talked about a tv show that you liked something i forget because i was thinking whoa are her eyes real in a way she gonna be feeling what i feel but i guess i'm not a psychic cause she's sitting in my automobile right now singing that sister my wheel oh dear like how it's been well over a year i don't believe it when she says she misses me or when she kisses me there must be an alternative motive i miss so help me please to understand how and why you stuck around it's like you hopped the fence i said nobody is allowed back here i disregarded all of my fears and i remember when we first spoke words i'll see i'm here one two one [Music] like the sound of my voice it's a little squeaky i try to make it sound deeper for you my baby [Music] it's a little squeaky i try to make it sound deeper for you my baby [Music] i don't appreciate the foliage that blocks being in love with you falling on each other we catch l's but mostly w's worry about the lack of time another time forget her and forget about elements and limes and focus on our aptitude polyrhythmic notes upon a measure we're the only two lines in the stanza that don't rhyme but we somehow do [Music] i fell through the roof when i saw you [Music] [Music] my baby [Music] it's a little squeaky i try to make it sound deeper for you my baby [Music] [Music] my voice it's a little squeaky i try to make it sound deeper for you my baby [Music] please give me a reason to believe all the lies cause my teachers in the media are ghouls in disguise abusing their authority to proselytize but nothing they report to me could change my mind i need a vacation from the way things have been because i'm growing impatient yes more than my skin not enough manipulation can you just let me [Music] [Music] this is [Music] if [Music] i know that on the surface it might seem like i'm just fine but i can't eat i barely sleep sometimes i want to run and hide feel like i'm dying in this cage my soul is trapped i feel confined and i just wish they let me out so i could finally live my life i know that on the surface it might seem like i'm just fine but i can't eat i barely sleep sometimes i want to run and hide feel like i'm dying in this cage my soul is trapped i feel confined and i just wish they let me out so i could finally live my life [Music] if [Music] this is my alamo

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Length: 41min 15sec (2475 seconds)

Published: Wed Jun 08 2022