A couple of quick things. I just want to ask
you all what are you mainly looking for today, topic-wise? What's going on in
your life, what's going on in the world, what do you see people struggling with?
What would you like us to cover sometime today? Peace. Good, good, yes..
Surrender, okay peace, trust ,surrender. Now, here's what you're supposed to do when something like this happens and people are asking you to do something
like that. You're supposed to roll your eyes up into your head...the presence is now coming in, a being from the planet Xerox. it's about to speak through me. We can do that for special effects, so that people go, "Wow! That was amazing. He
channeled! We don't have to. We just choose it, and it happens, to be honest.
You just, you just choose it - how you parent, how you partner, how we do
everything. It can just be, we get in the habit of just knowing how to pause for a
moment in our minds, just say, "Here I am," and then the rest happens. I don't think
it's necessarily easy for everyone to believe that, but that's inevitable for
us all. We don't all have to go into trances. We don't all have to stand
on one foot and do pranayama breathing. We don't all have to have specific
herbal formulas before we teach, or parent, or whatever we do. Instead we can
realize there is no separation between myself and God. That means God is right
here, and all I have to do is let go and let God. A bit of that question of
surrender, I'm talking about, surrender, forgiveness, peace, so yes. Yeah, there's no doubt in my mind the
last question is dealing with changes in the world, country, and so on. There's no
doubt every time you have a different leadership, even if it's a
stepparent entering in where there was a parent in the household, changes take
place. Mainly our job is that, no matter what happens on the outside, we have to
maintain our inside and not have anything contingent on the outside.I'm
not going to spend time obviously prophesying about the bizarre things
that are going to be happening what I do know is is is trust let God be your
guide the Israelites understood the importance of God being the guide
gradually then learning the humanity learned instead of God being our guide
we start supplementing God with a ruler monarchies and well you know tyrants and
all this kind of craziness there will come a time where we don't need people
to tell us how to be think and behave once we know how as soon as we start
letting our hearts be our guide there's just an inner knowingness there's
there's a great movie if you've ever seen it I brought it up a few months ago
I think k-pax and it's Kevin Spacey playing this being that seems to have
come from another world and is on earth gradually is being interviewed by people
about who he is aminos what he knows but I'm just getting to the point where the
sarcastic psychiatrist psychologist is saying to him you know so what are
things like on your planet and so on and so on Denise and the alien is saying we
don't we don't have rules and laws and then he says wait you're saying that
people can just act any way they want they can cause harm that how do they
know what's right if there's no rules and laws and k-pax responds and says
every being in the universe knows right from wrong inside themselves and that's
sort of what I'm we all have it but the truth is we don't
want to know because we have convenience I know it's right but I want what I want
right I know that if I'm leaning towards addiction it's probably not a good idea
for me to engage in indulge in that addiction but right now I'm going to
just put that aside because I have some issues to cover up or mask or to numb
myself with and you know so we go for it it's all about ego convenience but when
when the voice of God grows so much within a sweet by nurturing it in us
it's there perfectly but it's we're in the way as we learn to tip the scales
where the voice of God is not down you know in that place of low priority
there's a point where it tips the scales God rather than ego self when we want it
badly enough it happens it's the choice for that a metaphor I've also shared
many times over my many years of teaching the old image of the the monk
who has a Buddhist monk who has this disciple or this student come to him and
says show me God how can I find God and he's persistent I want to know God I
want to find God so the monk takes him as though he's gonna baptize and takes
him off to this little lake or Bay or water whatever takes him into the water
submerges him and the you know the guy kind of okay it's a baptism I'm gonna be
blessing them to someone else he got this is great goes underwater and the
guy sits and you know at first baptism and he's held under there a little
longer the guys starting immediately to think okay where's God where's no this
is getting annoying where's where's God I see fish but no
God so you know then the guys thinking well this is ridiculous and he goes to
get up in the monks holding him under holding him under longer he's trying to
get up holding him under longer he's trying to get pretty soon the guys
needing to get up the guy holds him under longer and longer longer only at
that very last second does he allow him up when the guys just about to loot you
know die he lets him up the guy comes out of the water you know gasping for
air and the guy says when you that badly you'll find him meaning when
you want nothing else see there was in that moment the guy wanted nothing but
air when you want nothing but God that's when we find God and I'm not trying to
give you an insurmountable task or a daunting you think of you know you have
to be that desperate it you know I don't mean to turn you off but it's an actual
it's a gentle thing it doesn't have to be harsh and studious and seem so so big
the truth is when we want love that much then we start to find love you know but
there's this process that has to happen as I shared earlier today we have to
empty our cup the old same what would you like to learn but I want to learn
this this this this oh the master says wait your cups already full you already
think you know what you want to learn you already think you've already learned
it so the students and that's all of us not once every day of our lives we have
to be willing to say I don't know show me that humility and I've said this many
times in my years that I do not know show me is the prayer of the Divine
Feminine the prayer of the Divine Feminine is not as follows thank
goodness and goddess that we females are finally going to rise up and destroy all
males and be powerful and rule the world because that now you're just men that's
what you are now you're just guys again different Anatomy which are being male she's winning erred think we knew what
God as badly as right now you need air we never know what I'm going to say do
but that's it it's that's the prayer of the Divine Feminine so listen carefully
we talked about the coming let's help the coming Messiah
let's have met Raya or whatever name you want to give it from any culture the
Christ the Second Coming whatever that thing cannot be birthed into the world
without a a woman it can't be birth so and people always you know they say oh
the Dalai Lama and this master that says you know women are the key to they're
all misunderstanding it doesn't mean female women
it means female in every one of us we will never know God without knowing
first our feminine nature spiritual feminine and the spiritual feminine is
to be able to say instead of I know the guys let's rule let's conquer it's in
all of us we have to learn to say I'm willing to be shown I'm open that that
open-mindedness creates our perfection the last shall be first Jesus said and
the first shall be last is that that's what that means learn to set aside the
little ego self which is commonly manifested in a dominant male energy and
instead allow this perfect brilliant soul this bright light inside that says
the last shall be first the first shall be last so the last first when I say I
don't know I'm bowing my ego humbly to the ground so I can rise in the new self
but if you want to birth a messiah a Christ of matreya whatever if you want
to birth this you've got to have a woman cuz they give birth metaphorically so
where's the woman at we have a Mary 2,000 years ago for
Jesus where's your woman mom didn't get it apparently she missed the memo on how
to be a Christ and woman and give birth to a Christ in China so now what are we
gonna do who's going to give birth the divine woman feminine in me is going to
birth the Christ child at this Christmas holiday
please remember the birth of Jesus is a commemoration it's not a one-and-only
story it's a commemoration of the birth of
Christ when we were all created L that is as a commemoration we celebrate the
birth of Jesus but that's not what we need to be celebrating we're supposed to
be recognizing that the birth of this individual was to remind us that we're
also that same perfect child that was birthed by God in the beginning of our
creation so then what's the second coming the second coming is when we
remember who we are and start bringing it forward through acts of love and
forgiveness that's the message it's not about how do
we awaken and you know how we're gonna change the world they're the right
candidate the right Omani padmi and boom Shakalaka and all these kinds of things
is going to change the world that we're all heading there pretty soon I promise
you eleven eleven twelve twelve eighty eighty twenty twenty whatever dates it's
all happening in planetary alignments and soon there will be a UFO and every
car garage genomic the whole world's going to change that's not how it's
happening right in here in here consciousness we change consciousness
not the world so that we have a different consciousness we change the
consciousness so that we see a different world and it's a day at a time it won't
be the candidate it won't be that it will not be through religion you know
and I've been firm about that lately but I'm still being firm about
it's not gonna happen and I enjoy saying that to people huh all over the planet I
think it's fine if you like religion or addiction or abuse or if that's what
your life I'm not equating the two I'm channeling
it isn't me it's not my fault but you guys we cannot birth yes now it's not we
you don't have the christ without the Divine Mother you will not have
spirituality without bidding farewell to the old the past and that includes
religions and such as we know religion it will not make the transition
structure laws rules opinions will not be able to make the transition into the
light I've tried a lot of my life a lot of my years and you guys know if you
know me at all you know that I'm all about bridging and looking for the
common good and so on but I am saying I'm very it's becoming very clear to me
I've done what I can to pitch in and help out and you know and I think
there's goodness in all people there's goodness in all religions but I'm also
seeing the religions are not going to let go and ascend into spiritualities
they don't know how they're not made to do that they're made to have still been
about fear fear doesn't know how to become love and some people won't like
hearing that they'll go yes it can't no fear is they're mutually exclusive you
can't have love and fear at the same time so the very presence of fear means
you don't have love the presence of love cast out fear according to the Bible so
we can't have the two so the organizations that want to drive it home
that you know that things called religions this is how it's going to
happen they're going to some they're just going to sink you know it's a rock
the waters come of a new life the rock doesn't ascend with the waters the rock
just sits at the bottom and the waters rise and we're hoping come on you can do
oh wait weird religion it's not there and you and I have to
write those new waters we have to ascend how you have to be lighter than water
that's how you do it if you're lighter than water you lift and that's where
we're going and that makes spirituality is about it's about rising and new
consciousness and most of all through love through forgiveness it's not going
to be through that all the exercises techniques and demands that you know
don't eat fish on this day and be sure you do this and the church said this but
next year it changed its mind and it's like wow this is you know it's like
bizarre how do I keep up with the rules by not listening to men anymore we
learned to be the presence we learn to be the great masters ourselves look at
how masters taught become the ascended master Moses have the same courage Moses
has have the same courage Christ had the same courage mother tracer or whomever
you Reber or respect for being in their power
this person Moses somebody brought that up in the first service but this person
Moses that the whole idea going up the mountain talking to God tablets you know
card with with the laws for that time it's perfect but in reality everything
we ever learn or hear about we're supposed to become it not not have it as
a ritual externally but it has to become a ritual internally let's say for
example you go and participate in a ceremony out in the rocks here or
wherever it happens to be in any country in any place you go engage in these
things now let's say you a break a leg darn it I can't go and do my ritual so
now I don't get my spirituality you're actually you're forgetting something
you're supposed to have had it inside all along so you there's nothing there's
never anything outside therefore you can't really lose anything instead you
just go I'm gonna have all my best meditations I've ever had I'm gonna have
it right here on my couch with my leg up because there isn't anything that has
any power outside of ourselves so religions far out
it's time it's it's spent its energy it's spent most of its message it's
still great I still love seeing people that go to church is feeling dedicated
and devoted I but it's the love and the people that I love
not the structures and the rules and the craziness and not the you're gonna go to
hell kinds of you know concepts and it's not just like Christian I'm saying
religion has a structure somebody was saying something to me recently Michael
I I even tried Buddhism and then I was
noticing there's people at our temple that are chanting for new cars they do a
chant as though I'm chanting for a new car of chanting for a bicycle I'm
chanting so so they're also getting becoming misguided there's nowhere in
the teachings of Buddha that that would lead you that direction he's talking
about chanting a state of enlightenment and then with the enlightenment you can
create whatever you need but he didn't say put the chant about you know a
mantra you know paper towels paper towels paper collar that was like you
know just what like just sent her in to go and go buy some paper towels like
that's a new coat that's also an OK way to get them anyway humans in any case so this idea
Moses goes to the chopper to the mountaintop he sees God gets these
tablets but at the same time you and I are supposed to be like that ascended
master we're supposed to rise within ourselves to the mountaintop we're
supposed to commune with God the fiery bush becomes the neurons firing the
synapse firing the messages of God being and all your your brain your skull your
your tentorium you know is the web up and the stellas
it is is being activated and enlightened you're communing with God up on the
mountain and when you hear and God gives you tablets what it means is God will
give you guidance for the day just like it did for the Israelites God will also
guide you every day so god I go to a coach or a certain church and I'm
confused because they they tell me you know we're gonna go to hell or they tell
me this and that whatever it happens to be that disturbs you go up in the
mountaintop yourself Buddha said no more to Hinduism not because Hinduism is bad
quote-unquote but he said there's things about that religion and every religion
there's things about this religion that don't make sense it says in the
tradition of Hinduism all this wonderful stuff is in there but there's one thing
he says this idea that you just have to reincarnate for billions of lifetimes
before you'll ever get he said I don't I don't buy that I think a person can get
it by choice in the noun secondly he said that system although brilliant
pieces I don't agree where they tell you if you're born in a
certain caste you have to stay in that caste if you're born poor you will stay
poor if you're born in this caste or that caste royalty everybody's born in
their positions and there you have to stay he's like well I don't get it
where's free will anybody can prosper they used to say all
know if you're born in a certain position know your position know your
place and he's saying no women don't have to stay in the place they've been
told to be men don't have to stay over here children don't have to stay over
there he's saying free will so he's saying break
of those places that keep you limited now or you know that sounds cool we all
go yeah that's pretty cool but wait what about you can you do you have the
courage to break out do you have the courage to be like you know mother
Teresa that says I'll go amongst Aziz and do my work can you be like Moses and
say Pharaoh free my people which means to yourself you know you have aches free
my people will mean let's get to yoga and start opening the body up instead of
just complaining about it being a you know a slave to pain
Pharaoh ex-partner current husband wife partner enough enough is enough
you're mean to me at times and this won't work for me and the problem is
Moses got the people and left the difference between Moses and ourselves
at times is we still allow the voice of fear to make us decide it's better to
stay enslaved than to free why because we don't know what it will what will
happen and what it'll look like when we come out you know what's gonna happen
and after he frees the Israelites they're a few you know their problem
after problem they start to say you know Moses we should've just stayed in Egypt
as slaves at least we knew where we would live each day we're just wandering
the desert well that's what happens to you and I we would rather stay in that
strange place of familiar but unhealthy then to venture out and I had also
brought up earlier that what happens is the cup has to be emptied if the cup has
pain it let's imagine it's metaphors poison if you have poison in a cup and
you go well it's definitely poison if I drink I'm gonna get sick or die you know
what I need is to put some water in there the poison isn't gone you just
added water to it well how about if I add more water great you can even put
enough water to let it overflow some of the poisons going to drain out but not
all of it you need to clean out your cup empty the poison which means
the past the programs wherever they come from even at the risk of the those
people not being satisfied even at the risk of people being you know
disapproving free my people can I do that you while you're not going to be um
you're not going to ascend into heaven without first becoming a master Moses an
is an ascended master I don't know that I've heard anybody teach that out there
in the world but Moses an is an ascended master and if you want to get to haven't
you have to do at least what this kind of a person can do Martin Luther King
knowing he was at the threat of being killed but he still pushes through to do
what needs to be done but that doesn't mean you have to go and do exactly what
these people did which where's your own version of that free my people could
simply mean I don't like the job of mad I don't have to you know kick the doors
down tomorrow morning and say CEO free my people you know give us all checks
without having to work that's too much and you're gonna get fired what I'm
saying is start planning and looking for your soul's purpose so one day you have
decided free my people means I now found my soul's purpose and I change jobs in a
gentle way rather than pushing the envelope and getting fired free my
people I'm not gonna live in pain anymore I'm gonna start doing yoga and
get massages free my people time to have communications workshops or partnership
counseling or whatever it is not settling for anything less
now we empty the cup the emptying the cup means yes of course practicing
forgiveness forgiveness does not mean enabling forgiveness does not mean you
flip idli say I forgive you and then all of a sudden you expect it to be done
forgiveness is actually a process of authenticity so we have to be able to
show up and really see what's going on so what what are we gonna do forgiveness
empty the cup that means recognizing certain things are not working don't
hate anyone about what they've done because that keeps you hooked to them
somebody's abused you and you hate them it actually keeps you karmically hooked
to them so then what we do is go well then
I refuse to be karmically hooked done you know done just the just because
you're more adamant about it doesn't mean you're done you have to say I
refuse to hate the person number one you've heard me say this before but
number two what have I can I learn for this experience
I didn't say experience good I didn't say call the experience good if somebody
hurts you you don't have to say okay yeah I was bothered but instead I'm
going to say well that was fun that was great I'd like more of that in
fact if I live ten more lifetimes I would like every lifetime to have more
of that because I'm so he'll know I refuse to hate the person I refuse to
eat the person secondly I'm willing to look at my
lessons and third I affirmed that no matter who they are on what they've done
in them there is a light made in God's image that's my job
I know that if I'm willing to not hate them and learn my lesson because that's
responsibility and affirmed that there's a light in them that means I actually
must have something going on for real about forgiveness because if I I'm not
really forgiving I will not say I refuse to hate them if certain kinds of people
get hurt right they refuse to say that but even if you could sneak the vine I'm
not gonna hate him but there's no lesson for me this was what they so you're
still not getting it but let's say you can get both of those and you say but
I'm not affirming there's a light in them they're bad people you're still not
forgiving forgiveness would mean you're able to know all three of those feel all
three of those practice all three of those then you know you're probably on
the right course and that wraps up the past puts a bow on it and allows it to
move on now there's one more piece to the old going before we can affirm and
bring in the new the seeds of the new are actually going to be there even
though sometimes we talk about planting new seeds technically a good number of
those seeds are already going to be there planted for us by spirit when
we've done our healing work but we still need to water and feed them that's where
your affirmations come in you're good decrees and affirm a
affirmative prayers visualization that helps water and feed the seeds of a new
life but there's something else that has to happen here to wrap up the past yes
look at the hurts yes practice authentic forgiveness and
one more piece the final piece is the one most people forget about and this is
where you learn to say the the most commonly used axiom or proverb or
affirmation or whatever of the ego is if only so before I can move from the past
to the new I have to be willing to say goodbye to every wish and hope that I
have inside that something would not have happened I wish it would have
happened this way I wish my mother would have loved me more I wish my father
would have hugged me more I wish my siblings didn't compete so much any
wishing and hoping actually keeps you tied to those people so instead you have
to take out the garden shears and say even at the risk of losing this person
I'm letting go of my hope it would have been different I'm letting go I'm
letting go letting go of all hope that people would have been different I wish
my mother would have done an ice-water birth she didn't clip fYI she didn't
clip but I wish she had now you're now you're actually karmically hooked to
where is my water birth and guess what you can't descend into heaven with
tentacles you have to look more like an angel than a squid so don't quote me on
that but you can't it doesn't work you got these tentacles all suction into
things and so so over here I wish something
would have been different and we think it's totally innocuous we think it's
kind of okay and it's not a big deal I'm telling you that even when we're doing
rituals and goodbye ceremonies and court cutting and Archangel Michael bring the
sword you know and all these beautiful things if in you there's a subtle wish
that something would have been different you're still hugged and there's reasons
why we do that first of all believe it or not it's subtle control it's also a
demonstration of conditional thinking rather than unconditional how do I know
that because I have conditions I wish they would have and I'm not going to be
at peace until they do so we talk about peace we talk about how do we get peace
how do we get joy how do we deal with the the future like politics and how the
next few years are gonna look let go of there's an old saying abandon ye all
hope which sounds like a really negative statement but it means your opinion of
what you think needs to happen abandon all hoping and wishing that something
will be the way you want it to be that's how we get it we're bidding farewell and
we're learning to accept acceptance does not mean well I guess I'll accept you
know things as they are that's that's a pitiful thing that's not an extra
acceptance true acceptance means it didn't happen so I guess snip but the
ego self doesn't like that and then the ego is gonna use something to make sure
you do not practice this and it's gonna say um in case you get some crazy idea
because I noticed you have shears in your hand little psychic shears I'm
noticing so if you're thinking about cutting ties I just want you to know
first of all you could hurt their feelings oh I don't want to do that
what kind of God do you worship anyway is that an unloving God that would want
you to snip ties those those people didn't mean to hurt you or you know they
have your shoes okay but the shears down it's gonna try that it's also gonna try
this if you snip them all what's gonna happen to you then who will be your
mother your father your siblings who will be your partners at least you have
an ex-partner yeah they were terrible but at least you can go over there was
my ex-partner you have something do you want to just go I have nothing that's
called the void that is called the abyss in some mythologies and traditions where
souls have been asked to just fall free fall into darkness that is way beyond
any darkness humans can comprehend in their intellectual mind
it's a darkness that is so dark it's being in silent times a billion it's
it's darkness times a billion nothingness emptiness we're like I don't
want emptiness I would rather have images of people that I don't even like
then to have no image at all in my mind at least if I have a past
I have something it wasn't very good but it's mine and terrible but it's been my
terrible past and this is how we live so what are you gonna do with it I'm gonna
just trust free my people even if Pharaoh's gonna yell at me and
threatened to kill me free my people I'm going anyway and you free fall into the
abyss but that free fall doesn't go into an abyss it goes into an abyss for a
moment but on the other side of what's also known as the silence and meditation
is not more silence on the other side of silence and meditation is supposed to be
the light of God when we freefall we're really just free falling into the the
valley of the shadow of death where we need not fear any evil or darkness
because God is with us not God will eventually be with us God
is with us but what do we do so I shared this quick story many many years ago in
a mastery workshop I was doing one of my five-day mastery intensives I think it
was the first time I had done this exercise with the group but we had a
group you know a couple dozen people out at this retreat and we did one of the
exercises where we use a tall ladder you get up the tall ladder you know
something used like a three step oh no not us so we get this tall ladder people
get to the top they're supposed to just fall back and everybody
yeah I'm that kind of teacher so just try it you know and of course people are
like oh my god you know in tears and panic and going through stuff to get
their thing you know and a couple if I remember correctly maybe physical the
delimits only went up a few steps and fell at Levis catch but it's no perfect
successful why because - there's whatever number of steps they felt like
they could do they still trust it enough to fall and and without fail I don't
reap it and remember anybody not doing it except me so so at some point we and
I wasn't even thinking about that but at some point we're packing up and somebody
goes oh well Michael let's get you to the ladder now I didn't I didn't say
anything I didn't show anything but inside I'm like I could feel my heart
beating I could feel like a chill and my nerves
and my skin I could fill the stomach the whole beds happening so but I'm you know
outside I'm like okay up the ladder like I can't believe this
top of the ladder and the thing is again I have to wait they say we're ready and
then you go and now when I was done they were like oh that was incredible Michael
you're you're amazing the wonder you're the teacher you went to the top not only
did you fall you you left you like lift it off into the arms you know and I lay
there for a second you know and then we all set okay and then I get up and go
let's go guys they're like God yeah that dude is something courageous what they
don't know is that when I'm up there I'm like think of nothing else because I
felt terrified fear of heights you know you're blindfolded you're falling from
way up and and yes they're gonna catch you presumably but but that's not the
point the lower mind isn't gonna go there it's gonna go into terror not the
good it's gonna go into what might happen or not happen so I just left they
caught me like centered I just you know kept up with myself and felt the
heartbeat and when they were done they lifted me up
and then we left but I did tell them the truth I said I know it looked all cool
and and wonderful and it did because I chose
to do that I chose to do it right but inside I still had to battle the voice
of terror you see we have to be willing to fight that voice of tear battle that
that voice of terror be willing to confront it and walk through it Moses
bringing over a pharaoh free my people and leap but I felt as much afraid if
not more maybe than other people doing the exercise but what are you gonna do
with the fears let them keep you hostage so by them calling me on it having me go
up the ladder I got to demonstrate for myself and whomever else this is this is
how it's done feel the fear and move anyway
it's you know you're not needing to say if you feel the fear you must be a
failure you just accept it there it is but I chose when I'm at the top of the
ladder keep my focus see the fear see them yes that's fill the heart I can
fill the stomach I can fill the nerves Center and just get ready focus on what
where you're going not what the ego tells you of the past what might happen
but where we're going when they said ready I just left is that making sense
yeah so we have to abandon all hope we have
to learn to say Here I am and leap the Divine Feminine prayer Here
I am and by saying Here I am I don't know we are made into goddesses and then
the goddess can birth the Christ child and then we have a perfect wedding
alchemical wedding between the divine masculine and feminine we're right here
oh I was still hoping for a partner that was going to be that for me no here
now if you burn that within yourself even a 10% a version of that you're more
likely going to create other people that are going to match you at that level of
a chemical blood bliss beam the masculine and feminine if you keep
negated that that's in you both are in you
you're going to still look for it outside and it will not work and you'll
just stay in that proverbial hamster wheel looking for the
relationship that finally becomes fulfilling and they can only thing that
they can only look like it for a little while if I partner you with you and we
really connect that's great but if we fail to see the need to keep
nurturing our own balance and our own evolution eventually something's going
to catch up to us and show us that so we keep the work we keep the movement into
higher consciousness even if you're already in a partnership keep doing the
work to raise consciousness maybe you know sharing that walk together
obviously is an ideal thing if that's not happening in your partnership still
maintain and choose to do it yourself within yourself for yourself so the ego
keeps saying if only so that means when you say I'm not saying to numb or
suppress hurts that's not what I'm saying at all cry about them scream
about and process them journal them vomit them do whatever you want to do to
get the old Hertz out I'm not saying suppress but I'm saying
that at some point you do your work to get that energy moving and out then
there will come a moment when you and/or I hope all your healers and counselors
out in the world know this but they should get you to also say now any hopes
and wishes that it would have been different they have to die today so I'm
gonna bid farewell to everyone as I wanted them to be and accept them as
they are I'm not even to call it good or bad
because I don't care because I'm going here I don't have to put a label a stamp
on you good bad a 1 2 4 star 5 star I don't need to because what I care about
is what's gonna be happening inside here I bid farewell unconditionally and I
leap into the abyss I leap knowing I have no partner I have no male
I have no female I have no mom dad I wish I know wishing willing you'll
abandon you all hope that they would have been different and now what oh my
god that's terrible there's nothing left there's just darkness
it won't stay dark just hang with that leap but wherever they all gone where
have they all gone imagine doing a healing
process one healing process I used to do more often in the healing workshop and
it was one of the most intense things that I ever did in healing workshops
there's a lot of things I can ask you to do and say and healing you know and
sometimes verbal sometimes energetic bodywork and all that but one of the
most significant I ever remember doing is having folks bend backwards over like
an exercise ball bending backwards because there's a lot of reasons for
this but it's sort of the steering the conscious mind out of the way but when
you bend over backwards and you hold the pillow and you can kind of shake it but
you're bent over backwards and you start because you know your voice is like this
and and you can't easily breathe that's good because we're gonna override all
your typical defenses and systems now you might say something like oh this
isn't comfortable okay good and get you to say some other things some
spontaneous things not conscious head stuff but the one line that was always
very very weird you know in a profound way but you know why didn't you love me
for example to mom to dad or whomever you can think of
I was never enough and it starts bringing up this powerful stuff which
I'm sort of channeling now so just try to feel that I was never enough you know
and you start to fill these feelings and you're shaking this pillow and sometimes
people gasp and sometimes they're tearing up but the weird one I'm leading
to is where did everybody go and there's this weird feeling because I know when
they say that they're tapping into the archetype in all minds
that's terrified of the moment when everything is gone and there's just you
and then oneness with all but we're not there yet where did everybody go and
that means mom dad everybody everything it means when you're alone in a hospital
bed as a child there was nobody there where did everybody go every it's okay
every time there's ever been a you know a deep feeling like that you know and
and and as I bring it up you guys are hopping into it a bit like kind of a
deep space and then it reverberates back and then I'm starting to choke up a
little bit where did everybody go what does that bring up for you why did this
happen where did everybody go there was nothing wrong with me and think about
the other words that come up when you start just spontaneously channeling the
feelings and let the feelings take on words there I was just a kid you know
one after another it's deep stuff there's a story I could share but I
don't think I could make it through it so I won't go there right now deep what
is going on how did we end up here I mean we're one with God then we're how
the hell did we end up here oneness with God love peace joy and we're sitting
around waiting for a politician to make things right for us mom dad you know
we're still waiting for them to apologize for their whatever it was
abuses or shortcomings or whatever I'm going to extend it didn't happen I don't
want to be it's called to your deathbed waiting for that last shock hi dad how
you feeling come on apologize you can do it you know in the back of an agenda get
it now don't wait for your deathbed confessions clear everything now retire
everyone from the rolls goodbye sometimes I can still sort of wish but
I'm not going to instead I'm just gonna mourn the loss of it because when you do
this you're actually mourning the loss of all hope they would have been
different you're not hoping they would have been different wishing you're
mourning the loss of your hope that they would have been your mourning the loss
of your idea of nurturance love compatibility whatever it happened to be
I don't want to go out to the world tomorrow needing somebody to see me in
the way my didn't see me mom didn't see me that's
you know is that how we want to approach the world hi listen you don't know me
but I need you to make up for what my father didn't do that's what we're doing
unconsciously and even those of us who didn't have let's say abuses it doesn't
matter we're still projecting onto everyone our shortcomings and issues and
agendas and they can't live up to it they can't do it but I would rather have
at least a hope that they can then nothing and I'm saying go with it
nothing abandon all hope drop into the abyss you find you don't fall you float
you find that you're lighter than water you're not the rock that sinks to the
bottom you instead ascend into a new consciousness we are not meant to just
drop into an abyss and have an experience of oblivion
that's not what God says let it all go and trust me fall just leap and fall
give it a shot trust that's what we're asked to do and our lives will never be
the same so this is how we find freedom you're on the ladder you're with a
counselor free at last free at last thank God Almighty I am free at last
you know Pharaoh free my people and leap say goodbye to all the agenda say
goodbye to all the attachments in the hopes if only the ego if only most
couples that lose a child they'd live nothing but B if only if only one of us
would have recognized it was sick if only you hadn't left and we hadn't
gotten a sitter if only that's not gonna help and most couples that have that
kind of tragedy do not remain together for very long because they're living in
the pain and they will not free each other from that agenda I have to let go
of all hope wishing inside myself why do you want to wish which means it isn't
but I wish it were why not just go with what is and stay in power I understand
the wishing and sometimes feel the wish if you
- but see it for what it is don't make it your your reality in your affirmation
oh this I'm feeling this I wish so-and-so hadn't died before I said
goodbye don't just leave it like that because then the tentacle attaches and
believe it or not that tentacle attaches and it doesn't experience time through
other lifetimes that tentacle still there it's an energetic psychic tentacle
so that arm that tentacle is sucked into that it's latched into that person I
wish such-and-such now they can pass away in through other dimensions it's
still latched into us they can actually say what the heck is that Oh a tentacle
from Michael or whomever wishing I had been different and they process and heal
they snip it and you still have it so that tentacles just kind of floating in
space through time looking for someone else to plug it in so it's gonna float
I'm wishing somebody valued me more but it's never true value because it's the
illusion of the universe so it's not true value because that comes from
within I wish somebody valued me which means I
wish somebody would pretend they valued me and there's always gonna be some
psycho out there it goes I'll do it I'll pretend to value you and then you give
me something I want Oh excellent it is to a tentacle there we go all the
dysfunction locked in again here we go but your tentacle will not go away
without your healing but others can snip it if they do theirs and you can snip it
if you do yours and those people will then be out there looking for that other
thing to be fulfilled that's why we keep marrying our Father mother or whatever
it happens to be our first - the husband-and-wife partner we tend to
recycle these things we tend to you know just regurgitate them and to keep doing
them reincarnation is not something that just happens from a soul from one body
to another reincarnation is also concepts that reincarnate my unhealed
stuff with so-and-so reincarnates in another person right it's the issues the
patterns keep reincarnating well we're not free just because we pass
out of one life that which is unhealed is all packaged up strapped to us and we
take them with us you know the old saying you can't take it with you you
can it's just none of the stuff you would have hope so our freedom comes
from the surrender to this and and one last thing I'll share this story and
I've shared it many times but it the first group this morning really really
got it because it really locked in a lot of what I was sharing but the idea of
once upon a time let's say there's this village and this village has a mountain
next to it and at the top of the mountain there's known to be a dragon
the dragon of course is ferocious and so the villagers are like hey we've been
told generation after generation don't do anything too loud don't don't arouse
the dragon let it sleep don't upset it don't disturb it in any way so the
villagers kind of do their best to lay low and be quiet and so on but
eventually it happened that a child is born the child grows up in it's a young
one and it decides it's inquisitive and it's curious it's gonna climb up the
mountain climbs up the mountain to see what the dragon looks like maybe it can
get a peak so it climbs up to the mountain it gets over the top and
finally the last part of the peak rock looks over and sees the dragon wow there
it is rock slips wakes up the dragon who's there the child is scared I'm
sorry I'm sorry please cuz it knows this whole village could get wiped out now
because of what it did I'm sorry please don't be mad who are you my name is the
child says my name is such-and-such what do you want what are you doing well I
just have heard a lot about you and I just wanted to see you I wanted to see
what you look like so long story short they have a little conversation the
dragon doesn't destroy the child but the child says well thank you so much for
being patient I'm gonna leave now then but thank you for talking to me turns to
walk away and then it turns back to the dragon and says by the way you know you
know my name but I don't know your name and the dragon says we'll have many
names but most people just refer to me as what
might happen so the moral of the story is the village stays in a state of fear
they're never thriving and every one of us in this room and Beyond lives like
this at one time or another just lay love just lay low you know for
me had a you know not so nice dad get home and just go to the room
stay away don't arouse the dragon but then you're never living you're you're
creeping about that's not living you know you're staying your room don't you
know don't do too much because if he knows you're there his mind goes right
into finding problems you know so lay low lay low and that's the village
laying low don't don't party don't celebrate don't praise don't do
anything too loud don't be in pain don't cry too loud of what might happen so
it's a great metaphor that teaches as you know what leap leap live what might
happen usually doesn't it's something programmed into our minds not by God by
the ego and by eco based experiences we've had
it's a lay low there are people who say I don't want my partner to know that I
have it that good because I had a partner when I when they knew how much I
was enjoying the relationship they knew they could control me through it that
they could pull it away at any minute so I become kind of then hardened and not
celebrate too much the relationship or whatever else it is I want to explore my
sensuality or whatever in my life whether you're an adolescent or an adult
and then you do and something change you you know it's hard to bounce back from
that I remember a young lady probably in her 30s when I better talked about
knowing when she was young she just knew she had this attraction for other girls
and she and another girl were exploring and playing a little bit and parents
walked in and becomes a big ordeal this is like an evil you know and so from
then on she's straight but you know she's straight because of what with what
happened and so she's living now with what might happen
yeah so in working with her and talking to her she was able to recognize you
know what it's whatever I want to be freedom God peace you know whatever
whatever I want to be but what if mom what if so a technique in Buddhism is to
say what if so what if what if they found out oh it'd be bad really why oh
they would probably disown me okay cool yeah then what well I wouldn't be
invited to Thanksgiving oh sorry and then what I don't know oh so you're not
gonna spontaneously combust or anything no so it can't be that bad well but they
would disown me well if if they actually would shave you on such things how close
do you want to be to them anyway well really you know so what might happen
ask yourself then approach your fears head-on and say so what what if it did
happen what if they found out what if I did then one and walk it through with
all the options of what might happen so that there's none they're holding you
ransom walk through them what might happen we'll do that now in a meditation
let's please Center in century century to century tuning out
the stuff of the world remember when you do these prayers and meditations in
groups like this you're not doing this alone you have the love and the support
of several souls and visible souls and then an infinite number of invisible
soul supporting processes like this online right now we've got people from
Switzerland Gibraltar Argentina Canada South Africa people all over the world
are joining us in a meditation like this a healing like this and those of you in
the audience that we're tearing up moments ago do you understand there was
a feeling that went through these airwaves proverbial airwaves to all
around the planet so as you were feeling paying they were feeling the pain with
you as you're feeling bliss they're feeling the bliss the prayer the
meditation we're sharing this experience with people all around the world so do
we need to think about one person one religion one politician getting it when
we have people all around the world joining us and already getting it where
will I get my support right here where will I get my value confirmations of
then I'm on the right path right here those who do the will of God are my
sisters my brother's my mother's and so on centering in century let come to mind any situation in your
life that you might want to contemplate a shift of some kind but you're not
really stepping into it it's not like you're going to be told you have to go
and do something but just try it inside anything that seems inhibited relation
job whatever it happens to be name what it is I would like to I wish I
could it's okay to use the wish because it's an exercise I wish I could I wish
someone else would be different then ask yourself what if they can't what if they
won't what if they don't what's the worst thing that could happen and just
just relax into that and keep asking that and let it keep revealing various
seemingly negative options and positives pop up that's fine too
but allow yourselves to explore the potentially negative outcomes what if
you look into a different job what if you are gay or straight what if you talk
to your family about abuses that they didn't want to talk about what's the
worst thing that could happen what might happen and then what and then
what so even if somebody does go or you they
do turn their back on you and then what we'll all be sad and then what well I
might cry then cry and now what what next well I don't know okay is that as
bad as it gets it's not so bad the chances are it will
not result in spontaneous combustion so what I don't know but if God is with me
what could be against me if something's not expansive why not just try something
that is why would I lean toward familiar and negative it doesn't make any sense complete that as best you can thoroughly
as you can it actually has no power over me I thought it did but it doesn't I
thought they might roar but it doesn't matter
they might disapprove but it doesn't matter free at last free at last Allah
God Almighty I'm free at last I feel a sense of freedom and keep going now flip it towards the
depositor to let you cut be refilled if I am one and guided therefore by God
peace and love and peace starts taking me on its wings forward into a new life
like in the book of Revelation it says a woman who thought tragedy was coming
coming is given two wings to be lifted up out of danger the woman is us the
divine woman in US birthing a new life she's thinking it's not gonna work but
two wings she's given to lift her into a new life so let that come to us so what
would happen now if Spirit comes and lifts you and guides you and start
imagining and then what and then one what if I do find my soul's purpose and
what if it does pay me very well and then what oh my god then I would have
more time to do this great and then one see more time for partnership and then
one greater ease less stress more massages and so on this or something
better this is my destiny I affirm and I decree God's will for me is beyond my
greatest imagination even on earth I can have love peace joy and abundance I can
thrive financially I can be very sexy I can be healthy all
these wonderful things no matter my gender my age I can be all these
wonderful things I can feel free the joints in my body can become free my
mind can become free and when the ego even attempts to speak fear to me it has
no grip it moves through me like Teflon rather than velcro it just doesn't have
a place to stick it tries to push buttons but I have none
because I'm living a new consciousness and a new life and so it is very slowly
take your time to come out of that and stretch a little bit
