A Journey To Peace - after battling with mental illness - Extended | S. Kingpen

welcome to the hidden ingredients of success the first interactive podcast of its kind and the only podcast that gives away cash on every episode find the hashtag get synchronized and tune in to find out more details on how to win get synchronized [Music] head on over to getsynchronize.com where you can find the winning answer to the cash giveaway on this episode that's g-e-t s-y-n-c-r-o-n-y-z-e-d on the content page where it says page five from my upcoming book this today on the hidden ingredients of success we have a very special guest although i'm wearing this mask this is a very serious episode as the topic is about mental health and in order to reach success your health has to come first this is the very first interview the very first show of the hidden ingredients of success interactive podcast and today we have our first guest mr colleague moore someone who i personally viewed his journey and watched him overcome some struggles that a lot of people in the world face and unfortunately a lot of people in the world that face these struggles don't even know it and not only did mr moore overcome these struggles but he also wrote a book about it in order to contribute to society and help others get through those same struggles if you find any of this content valuable i'd like for you to please like this video and subscribe to the youtube channel so we can help raise awareness so this is a personal friend of mine i'm very proud of him his book is entitled to journey to peace you'll find it on amazon so let's give a warm welcome to mr colleague more what's up how you doing good to see you again hey man listen i know this is a little awkward that i have this mask on um well brother i know your personality and i know that that's what you do well nah i just figured that uh being as though this episode is about mental health issues i would leave it up to my audience to assume that my own mental health might be slightly compromised now let me stop um so let me take this off are you ready to be under here we are so let's do this the right way good brothers good season it's been a while by your government oh man listen for those who don't know me my name is stephen that is my first name mostly know me by sync but my good brother over here met me in a place where no one knew me as think i guess we could share a little bit about that with the viewers today but uh i'm gonna start it off with the question about your book why did you decide to write journey to peace well i decided to write it i'm sitting in jail with you as you know and i'm going through it i'm going through different emotions anger depression all of my um symptoms was flaring up so i just started the journey a journal started writing this journal and then i remember you suggested hey you should turn that into a book people that don't know um me and mr moore colleague we met in jail unfortunately i wish we could have met in a better place but it was a blessing that we met because in this meeting we'll be able to share our experiences and your experiences with the world and i really feel that it could benefit especially the black community because there's an under awareness of the mental health issues and the black community i don't believe that there are enough resources to help deal with it and i believe that there are so many factors that play a part outside factors that's another story um so anyway uh we met in jail and um well you wanna you wanna you wanna tell them about you know your situation as far as being in pick and how you ended up there and um how we met stuff like that it was 2018 i was offered my medication i had to stay on medication for my mental illness and i was off my medication and i committed a crime which uh was aggravated assault and it and it landed me at a pick one of the worst jails in my opinion on state road i just wanted to tell a little story about how we really met is i was having a um kind of a moment then i was acting like i had a gun on the cell block and i was shooting bang bang bang bang just going around here and everybody told us if i need some people you know what's wrong with this guy and it was different emotions but you reached out to me and you said because at the same time i was uh you could say uh expressing myself on how i was feeling and somehow you connected with dad and you wrote me a letter and you said you know i feel you and i understand where you coming from i don't think you crazy you know it's crazy you literally just brought that to my memory because i totally forgot that i wrote you that letter what it was is when you came to the block you were considered coming from a block and that was what we call the crazy block so everybody on a block was people who suffered from mental illnesses or physical handicaps and they all had to take special medication so when you came to the block everybody on the block automatically knew from seeing you in the hallways that you came from quote unquote the crazy block so when you were cutting up and acting up everybody just automatically assumed that oh that's just you being crazy that's who you are and they were teasing you making fun of you and it's crazy because you know i just i'm the type of person i don't like to judge people just i come from a place inside where i just don't judge people and being as though we met that one time where i think it was we met before prior to that on the uh going to court and i spoke to you yes and we we talked about numerology and life path numbers and when you spoke to me on that time on that on that time i was like okay brother maybe from a block but he woke though like he knows something you not all the way crazy so that intrigued me and that made me you know just want to learn more and figure out who you were and so when you came to block that time and i saw you and everybody's teasing you and just i'm like yo they don't know what i know let me reach out to brother because i'm glad he's here and there's a reason he's here and you were kind of amusing i mean some people found it annoying but to me i found that i'm using it and in jail you know it's such a depressing environment that anything i'm using or anything that you know you can find the music is just a breath of fresh air because there's not much fresh air circulating in jail so you know it's just all these factors keep you like is that and just being you connected in that way it relieved a lot of my um anxiety because i felt as though it would a lot of people don't know it's a stigma stigma with us having mental illness but if you give us some type of little attention or you give us some type of um calm approach towards us we will invite that and that will calm us down because you didn't bow me down because the way you approached me you know and a lot of people don't know about that i think it's a training that they do in fact on how to deal with someone that's going on and um it well you know what i appreciate you for mentioning that because like i said that literally slipped my memory and a reason because that's just the type of person i am my younger sister i'm not gonna call a little because she's 27 but uh she suffers from ms uh cerebral palsy uh epilepsy you know so she's mentally on the lower level she's not you know um functioning as someone her age would so you know i kind of took care of her you know coming up we're 10 years apart so seeing her battle what she was battling through i've always had a soft spot for anyone dealing with handicaps you know and um you're not not saying that that's what you know calling you handicap or anything but you know from everyone's perspective and from their perception of how you were you know you were being teased and it's funny because the same people would ever tease you one of them was tease you and one of those same dudes that was teased me when he saw you got a fresh pair of sneakers he wanted to buy him off you want to be your best friend over there and it's crazy because i watched it i watched him screaming out the cell calling you all types of names seeing all types of foul stuff about you and you probably didn't see it because you know how the cells are you was down on the floor by yourself and you can see just a bunch of cells you don't know who's going what but he was yelling all types of stuff out to you and then as soon as you came in there and had some new sneakers and you said you were selling them he was your best friend man joe is just boy yes this is crazy in jail i mean it's uh people will take advantage of you you know i'm not talking about physically i mean they will physically emotionally sexually or whatever but they'll manipulate and take advantage of any weakness you show right and that's the guy's honest truth i've seen it and i have had it happen to me i knew sometimes i knew what i was doing but i was just letting that person take advantage of me anyway right right i know it sounds crazy no it's not it's not crazy at all because from a psychological standpoint when we feel alone or not even when we feel alone it's just human nature to want connection and sometimes that connection isn't necessarily a healthy connection sometimes it's an abusive connection but just the feeling of of having that connection as a human we yearn for that and sometimes you know we take a couple of punches and trying to find that and so we actually learn we have to first have that fulfillment and wholeness within ourselves first before we subject ourselves to others because then we'll be willing to subject ourselves to unhealthy situations but let me uh get back to the questions for you um so what type of mental illnesses do you know of and which did you suffer from i personally suffer from bipolar disorder okay but i also have been diagnosed with major depression disorder and schizoaffective disorder okay you have then you have uh schizophrenia you have uh they the more serious ones but not saying that they are not they are all serious but schizoaffective is almost as happy schizophrenia is when you uh hear and see things and add beliefs that are not realistic a selly it's crazy because before they let him into my room a ceo who was uh you know she took to me in there as far as my personality and my demeanor so she pulled me to the side and said hey you got a new sully i really don't want to put him in there with you but i kind of do want to put him in there with you because i feel like if i put him in there with someone else it might be a big problem and i know how you are so i'm going to put him in here with you so um he is off she said she said i will show you you know all his his cases but he's off so you know just be careful and if you need anything let me know so she put him in there and i found out that he suffered from schizophrenia and one of the things he took before he came to jail he had an incident where he was literally having a conversation with a outlet on the wall you know like you know how the outlet you know has the palms the two pawns and the middles looks like eyes and mouth if you look at it in a certain way he said he was having a full-fledged conversation with the outlet on the wall and that was one of the things that you know i guess he was discovered and they found out he was a little off so let me ask you how did you feel when you first discovered that you suffered from mental illness and you know what was that experience like like how was it explained to you how did you receive it did you believe it were you willing to accept it like what was that process like i didn't understand it i didn't believe it i didn't want to believe it i thought maybe it was just some drugs i took and they had me tripping but for years i did not accept the fact that i had a mental illness because i didn't want to be labeled that you know and i just didn't want i felt embarrassed about it i was very embarrassed about it yeah i mean i want to let you talk about that more but i kind of feel you in that because you know us in the community as a minority we already suffer from so many other you know statistics and stigmas and stereotypes that just owning something like having a mental illness and owning that is something that it's very rare that someone from our culture will own up to because of we are already facing a lot of diversity and that's just another you know another um what's the word i'm looking for disadvantage i guess to some people would say right and if i could just say when i'm growing up i'm 50 now but when i was growing up eight nine years old and we seen some person with some mental illness it wasn't it was just like we would say a day crazy they crazy you never really heard mental illness at that time back in the 70s 80s but mental illness is not shameful now because they're scrutin for it right and um i just want to advocate for that because there's so many of us that don't want to accept the fact that we need medicine and how we need therapy right that was one big thing too about it i didn't want to be on medicine right right that medicine saved my life has there been any situations in your life where your mental illness has affected someone that you personally have a relationship with or that you love i would say with my father my parents because they i didn't understand that they were they were trying to help me they was uh getting me 302 which is involuntary um involuntary commitment to mental health hospital and i would outlast i would laugh at them call them names [ __ ] my own parents amaze me call them names act violent towards them and i live stole their money i mean i guess at that time you didn't understand what they were doing and you all you just looked at it as they were betraying you and you just upgraded you didn't care at that point you just whatever whatever exactly that's exactly what it was i mean he was actually physically chasing me down to get me to calm down and take me to the hospital when i'm thinking he's trying to kill me right right all right i mean i want to get so what was your relationship like with your parents before all of this listen i come from a two-parent home and very loving family and very close and it's just that um hey man a dog bit me and that dog was a mental illness you know and um you know i can't justify it i mean i don't i don't know how to justify it i don't know how to actually i i stopped a long time ago saying why me why me god why did i have to you know get it but it's a reality well see what a lot of people don't know is there could be two factors that play a part you can have genetic or physical factors that play a part in mental illnesses and then you can have just developmental which are more so emotional and behavioral uh mental illnesses that have been put on you by you know external factors like the parents or you know uh suffering from traumas or you know things like that experiences that you may have had that have been traumatic to you that could have set off you know a a behavioral disorder you know anxiety depression you know things like that and then the genetics of where this you know the schizophrenia and the bipolar and stuff like that usually that's chemical imbalance related and you know maybe things going on with your brain you know malfunctioning and stuff like that that's absolutely right when you were in jail what inspired you to write this book in jail but i know i told you know you said that you mentioned that i told you that you should turn your journal to the book because i actually myself was in the process of writing this to his experience of success in jail so you know we met well we didn't meet there but we came to the law library where i was working at and i was typing up my book and then you would you know tell me about you know what you were writing and you was like oh that's cool you're writing a book and i'm like i remember you said that and i said yeah i am and i passed it off to y'all reading it and he was like oh that's interesting and then you were talking about you know how you were writing and i was like well you should turn that into a book you know you should do this and then we started working together when you would come to the law library we would type up together and stuff like that and um you know develop the book but what was it like for you in jail like dealing with your mental illness were you able to find a way to deal with it in jail is that where you learn how to how to actually combat your mental illness like what actually pushed you to the point where you said this is what i have enough is enough let me figure out a way to to now deal with this and move forward so that i can have a better life basically i i have learned some skill coping skills with mental illness it's uh you know from my years of dealing with it so those skills started coming back to me once i started interacting with you and you was doing something positive and i said you know what i can do something positive and i said let me start i started my behavior started and my most important thing was is i wanted to write the book and get the message out to others that's going through it and just interacting with you and getting that motivation to do the book changed me and it changed me for the better and see you writing this book is going to motivate and inspire others it's going to change others and it's just like a domino effect you know one person literally can change the world by inspiring just one other person and i'm very proud of you how's your book going on amazon i see i've been seeing comments on your page everybody's been really receptive to it and i have five stars um i have great reviews and people are just blown away by the genuinely openness that i give people with the book in the things that i have been through that's what's really getting the people to connect with it because they have family members where they also dealt with some issues they have sons daughters cousins they've been through the same thing and they can relate so how can people connect with you um outside of the book um once again your book is called the journey to peace uh they can find it on amazon.com that's the coverage so when y'all see that cover on amazon you know that's the book written by colleague the easiest way is to type in my name colleek more and it'll bring you to my book journey to peace okay i heard that thank you good brother man um anything else you want to say for the viewers before we sign up yes i just want to say one thing is thank you for your time share this podcast if you can and i want to thank you for having me on and i'm looking forward to a lot of things coming from you all right i appreciate that i appreciate you for taking the time to be on this podcast man i really feel like it's very important and a lot of people need to be aware of this and hopefully man we can start something you know bring some awareness of people who aren't aware and and yes open people up who are dealing with these issues who are afraid to open up a bottle and who don't understand that people who can see it that love them are genuinely trying to help them instead of them fighting these people but accepting this help and you know that taking accountability and understanding the problem is the first step to being able to solve it and getting the proper support you need in order to move forward in life one more thing before we go i just want to give people my facebook oh yeah um that's my facebook i i just showing you i i don't really have nothing on it but just showing you how i'm living um i'm living a normal regular life now and mine i'm gonna put up your facebook instagram on on the screen so everything in the description so everybody watching you can find his facebook and his instagram in the description so you can follow him along with uh a link to his direct link to his book on amazon thank you thank you good brother for having me i'm gonna reach out to you soon man we gonna be talking okay all right peace and love all right god bless it hurt me to wake up and see my beautiful black people suffer victimized by the oppressive harsh realities of the hood i guess even though we were free we were still slaves in the mind [Music] huh [Music] uh [Music] all righty we're in there yes uh yeah oh i don't know uh so so so so so good morning steve good morning mr gus good morning hello snapchat how are you today i'm doing brilliant brilliant brilliant [Music] time [Music] bye [Music] foreign bye [Music] you [Music] [Music] me [Music] [Music] hey [Music] down [Music] [Music] genius the smart ones for me hey look at that dog walking across the street myself yeah spca gonna get that that's a nice though [Laughter] anybody that's listening that had anything to do with empire you can get the song for 15 million dollars only cash and endorsement of a vitamin because the brother like right oh okay 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Length: 45min 43sec (2743 seconds)

Published: Sat Apr 03 2021